Today is my really lucky + happy day =D Really gotta thank God for giving me a chance...Went out to kbox to celebrate fish's b'day....then after my mum fetched me...on the way...she told me that she got a letter from JPA....i was shocked at the news....i didn't really expected it....then she continued saying that JPA asked me to attend a Program Pendedahan Kerjaya since i chose medicine course at a hospital of my own choice...chose General Hospital of course...it was actually some kind of programme to test whether the person who chose medicine course is really qualified for it...& i really had no such problems at looking at blood or even dead bodies ( i guess =P)....but kinda scared le...3days wor...it'll be on this coming Wed till Fri -- 29th till 30th....gotta keep my fingers crossed le...coz i've to pass this to get interviewed...& my chance of getting JPA scholarship will thus get bigger & bigger....then i'll be my chance to flee from M'sia (tat is if my parents will allow =.=" ) Still...hope i'll jz stand a chance...sigh...
Monday, March 27, 2006
Friday, March 24, 2006
Frustrated!!! ARGH!!!
WHY??? Just tell me why do I, Joanne Ho have to go & visit Wong XX who..obviously...DOESN'T have any relationship with me except as normal friends at his NS camp which is in Gunung Semanggol, Taiping...duh~~
Ok...to start with...his mum jz came to my house to look at the pictures we took during our Mount Kinabalu trip...then she mentioned bout her dear son who's homesick...& she asked me to go visit him at his camp more often....i was like...."HUH?? Me?? Y me??? I've no relationship with him at all la!!! "(though i didn't say it out) So i jz replied her with a smile & an unwillingly nod... Then...while she was flipping thru the pics...she was exclaiming how nice is the scenery....then out of a sudden she popped out a question: "Joanne arr...why didn't u invite Sen Loong to go along geh??" This time i was even worse...what the...!! If he's going...meaning he's going to be in da same room with me?? NO WAY!!!!!! Btw...the main question is...why in the world would we wanna invite him go leh?? He's just a normal fren of mine la....aiks!!!
His mum...i really dun understand....keep assuming me as her.....duh...future daughter-in-law??? Aww...come on...in the 1st place why would i choose a person like her son?? Ok..he's not quite bad-looking...but he's OBVIOUSLY not my taste...& she wants me to marry him?? Tat is terribly out of the question....no way our parents are going to decide our marriage....N-E-V-E-R!!!
I'm angry + frustrated + boiled.....
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Ok...to start with...his mum jz came to my house to look at the pictures we took during our Mount Kinabalu trip...then she mentioned bout her dear son who's homesick...& she asked me to go visit him at his camp more often....i was like...."HUH?? Me?? Y me??? I've no relationship with him at all la!!! "(though i didn't say it out) So i jz replied her with a smile & an unwillingly nod... Then...while she was flipping thru the pics...she was exclaiming how nice is the scenery....then out of a sudden she popped out a question: "Joanne arr...why didn't u invite Sen Loong to go along geh??" This time i was even worse...what the...!! If he's going...meaning he's going to be in da same room with me?? NO WAY!!!!!! Btw...the main question is...why in the world would we wanna invite him go leh?? He's just a normal fren of mine la....aiks!!!
His mum...i really dun understand....keep assuming me as her.....duh...future daughter-in-law??? Aww...come on...in the 1st place why would i choose a person like her son?? Ok..he's not quite bad-looking...but he's OBVIOUSLY not my taste...& she wants me to marry him?? Tat is terribly out of the question....no way our parents are going to decide our marriage....N-E-V-E-R!!!
I'm angry + frustrated + boiled.....
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My future + dream car =)
Saturn Sky (2007 car)
WOW man!! This car's REAL great....cool too!!! How i wish i have the huge amount of money to get this car for my own self in the future...hehe=P Yup...i'm sure daydreaming now ;) But really hope that it'll be a dream come true...
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Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Everything about me...
| Your Personality Is |
You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented. Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules. You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader. You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you. A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do. You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up. In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly. At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions. With others, you tend to be polite and formal. As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself. On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them! |
| How You Life Your Life |
 You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You are always tactful and diplomatic. You let people down gently. You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly. You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable. |
| You Are 17 Years Old |
 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. |
| You Are 60% Open Minded |
 You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded. Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints. But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line. You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself. |
| Your IQ Is 110 |
 Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Above Average Your Mathematical Intelligence is Genius Your General Knowledge is Exceptional |
| Your Career Type: Investigative |
 You are precise, scientific, and intellectual. Your talents lie in understanding and solving math and science problems. You would make an excellent: Architect - Biologist - Chemist Dentist - Electrical Technician - Mathematician Medical Technician - Meteorologist - Pharmacist Physician - Surveyor - Veterinarian The worst career options for your are enterprising careers, like lawyer or real estate agent. |
| Your Dating Purity Score: 91% |
 You are an innocent dater. You're either lacking in dating experience or have had a long serious relationship. Either way, there's still plenty of fish in the sea out there for you to sample! |
| Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating |
 You're not ready to go walking down the aisle. But you may be ready in a couple of years. You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment. And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility. |
| You Should Learn French |
 C'est super! You appreciate the finer things in life... wine, art, cheese, love affairs. You are definitely a Parisian at heart. You just need your tongue to catch up... |
| You Should Drive a Saturn Sky |
 You're sleek and smooth, and you need a car to match your hot persona. Besides, sometimes you want your top up - and sometimes you want it down. |
Sunday, March 19, 2006
God's Boxes
I have in my hands two boxes,
Which God gave me to hold.
He said, "Put all your sorrows in the black box,
And all your joys in the gold."
I heeded His words, and in the two boxes,
Both my joys and sorrows I stored,
But though the gold became heavier each day,
The black was as light as before.
With curiosity, I opened the black,
I wanted to find out why,
And I saw, in the base of the box, a hole,
Which my sorrows had fallen out by.
I showed the hole to God, and mused,
"I wonder where my sorrows could be!"
He smiled a gentle smile and said,
"My child, they're all here with me.."
I asked God, why He gave me the boxes,
Why the gold and the black with the hole?
"My child, the gold is for you to count your blessings,
The black is for you to let go."
We should consider all of our friends a blessing.
A ball is a circle, no beginning, no end.
It keeps us together like our Circle of Friends.
But the treasure inside for you to see,
Is the treasure of friendship you've granted to me.
Which God gave me to hold.
He said, "Put all your sorrows in the black box,
And all your joys in the gold."
I heeded His words, and in the two boxes,
Both my joys and sorrows I stored,
But though the gold became heavier each day,
The black was as light as before.
With curiosity, I opened the black,
I wanted to find out why,
And I saw, in the base of the box, a hole,
Which my sorrows had fallen out by.
I showed the hole to God, and mused,
"I wonder where my sorrows could be!"
He smiled a gentle smile and said,
"My child, they're all here with me.."
I asked God, why He gave me the boxes,
Why the gold and the black with the hole?
"My child, the gold is for you to count your blessings,
The black is for you to let go."
We should consider all of our friends a blessing.
A ball is a circle, no beginning, no end.
It keeps us together like our Circle of Friends.
But the treasure inside for you to see,
Is the treasure of friendship you've granted to me.
Saturday, March 18, 2006
Poem
Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.
And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race.
He knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.
And he rang mine but we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim
Just to show that I'm thinking of him."
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.
Around the corner, yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram miss," "Jim died today."
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.
Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late.
Seize the day.
Never have regrets.
And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family,
for they have helped make you the person that you are today.
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.
And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race.
He knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.
And he rang mine but we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim
Just to show that I'm thinking of him."
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.
Around the corner, yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram miss," "Jim died today."
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.
Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late.
Seize the day.
Never have regrets.
And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family,
for they have helped make you the person that you are today.
Friends leaving...one by one...
Sigh...2nd batch is starting on 19/3...which is to be this Sunday...most of my frens...especially some close buddies such as HuiShan, Darren, CheeHong aka CP are chosen to be in 2nd batch....so i'm kinda left alone back here in Ipoh already....haih...lonely lonely =/ With Ern leaving me for Aussie i'm oso kinda feel empty in heart already...& now...more frens leaving??? How sad...Some of my frens including another kai gor of mine however leaving Ipoh too but to go for further studies....KL seemed to be a faraway place....how can it not be since we need almost 2 1/2 to get there? ;P Aiyo...y is everyone leaving Ipoh wor...i also dreamt of leaving this place which is mostly full of sad memories...i oso wanna leave here coz of HIM...but too bad....i'm still not matured enough plus not independant enough to take care of myself...so...i'm still stuck here for 2 more yrs until i finish my f6..
AIKS!!! BAH!!! GRRRRR!!!!! ARGH!!!!!! =/ But guess i jz have to face the fact la...so...guess i oso have to face the fact that i'll be staying in Ipoh here LONELY for 3 months =/ LONELY JOANNE........
AIKS!!! BAH!!! GRRRRR!!!!! ARGH!!!!!! =/ But guess i jz have to face the fact la...so...guess i oso have to face the fact that i'll be staying in Ipoh here LONELY for 3 months =/ LONELY JOANNE........
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Conclusion on my studies...
Today is the day that finally the truth of how much effort i've put into my studies come out. I actually aimed for straight 11A's...yet the truth came that i only got 10A's & 1B...sigh...guess my laziness & lack of concentration when studying got over me & this is what i get for my SPM results. When i first got my result slip...i was real disappointed with what i got no matter how hard i've worked...i was even more sad when i know i've let my parents down as they've put high hopes on me...even cried in the car & shocked both of them...Yet after what my sister told & advised me about...i accepted that wat was done has been done..there's no more turning back & certainly no more 2nd chance...so what i've to do starting now is that i work twice as harder...put my every concentration on my studies...so that i'll be able to score good results in STPM to enable me to have more choices no matter getting in local or overseas Universities (preferrably Malayan University..it has the best medicine course anyway)...tat surely hav to wait until 2yrs after when i've finished F6...
Actually i've been cracking my head a long time thinking that whether i should study in F6 or Taylor's College...& yesterday after discussing with my parents...they concluded that its better that i choose F6 since i still need time to get more matured in my thinking & certainly strengthen my foundation considering my academics are always not steady...Well...to think of it...even though F6 really eats up time...but the advantages stand out more than if i were to study in colleges...with my characteristics i'll probably freak out if i were to handle any problem on studies alone beyond my hometown...
No matter how tough its gonna be in F6...i'm gonna go thru it & break thru STPM with fabulous results...NO MATTER WHAT!!! & i'll surely keep on to my promise that there'll be no more relationship stuff for me for the next few yrs until after i've finished my studies..so that'll mean many yrs after....hehe...but that'll only can help me in achieving mine & my parents dream...CHEERS TO F6!!!
~GOD BLESS ME~
Actually i've been cracking my head a long time thinking that whether i should study in F6 or Taylor's College...& yesterday after discussing with my parents...they concluded that its better that i choose F6 since i still need time to get more matured in my thinking & certainly strengthen my foundation considering my academics are always not steady...Well...to think of it...even though F6 really eats up time...but the advantages stand out more than if i were to study in colleges...with my characteristics i'll probably freak out if i were to handle any problem on studies alone beyond my hometown...
No matter how tough its gonna be in F6...i'm gonna go thru it & break thru STPM with fabulous results...NO MATTER WHAT!!! & i'll surely keep on to my promise that there'll be no more relationship stuff for me for the next few yrs until after i've finished my studies..so that'll mean many yrs after....hehe...but that'll only can help me in achieving mine & my parents dream...CHEERS TO F6!!!
~GOD BLESS ME~
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Trip to Mount Kinabalu
Jz got back from a 4days-3nights trip from Kota Kinabalu. It was actually a rush plan of my mum...hehe...jz booked everything 1 week ago & then we're off =P Our main motive to Kinabalu is actually to climb & conquer the highest mountain in South East Asia===> Mount Kinabalu. And to tell the truth...we actually succeeded...3 of us (me & my parents) YAY!!!
Well...this climbing trip is quite tiring actually...yet our efforts really paid off with the beautiful scenery of the whole mountain...man! I really am reluctant to leave that beautiful place in such short time. If there's a chance once more...i'll surely hope that i can get back there & visit my mountain guide friends. Even though we've known each other for a REALLY short time...yet they really marked something deep in my heart already.
Ok..to start with out trip...After a 2hrs & 15mins flight from KLIA to Kinabalu International Airport (KBA)...we were picked up by the tourism agency there (Popular Express). We were taken to have nyonya food at a restaurant near the town centre. After lunch, we were then driven to the Kinabalu Park Headquarters where we had one night stay there before getting off to climb the mountain next day. Had nice dinner at the Luwagi Restaurant..YUMMY!! =D
Next morning, we woke up at 5.30am...washed up, had breakfast, get ready with our climbing permit & mountain guide...then we're off to the foothill. We started climbing from there at 8.30am. That particular day, there's lots of people who's climbing also...so its kinda packed..but those doesn't matter with our climbing. On our way climbing up, we can see there's lots of beautiful orchids & pitcher plants that seldom can be seen in lowlands such as Perak here. My dad who's crazy over flowers managed to keep flashing his camera around to capture those amazing flowers. We got caught once in a 10mins drizzle on the way up yet we managed to reach the halfway resthouse (Laban Rata resthouse) in 6hrs in climbing this 6km route. We were DAMN tired by then so after having dinner around 6 we plopped down on our beds to have a good sleep before waking up next morning 1.30am for the climb to the summit.
We actually didn't have much sleep since my mum had a fast heartbeat while my dad with high fever due to high altitude sickness. Fortunately both of them healed & thus we continued on with our journey. We woke up at 1.30am, washed up, had breakfast & started our climb at 2.30am. This time's climbing really tried us out as it's the toughest climb ever. We're actually like rock climbing coz we had to walk on a small path up the whole cliff of rocks. There's no more trees around at such high place. One lost of footstep will cause the person to end up over the cliff & down in the valley with broken bones. We had to walk in the dark so that we can catch the 1st glimpse of sunrise from the top of Mount Kinabalu. After 4hrs of "fantastic" rock walking (hehe=P), we finally reached the summit despite our short legs compared to those Euro's long legs. The whole summit was packed with people from diff races & countries. According to our mountain guide, seems that that morning there's bout 160 sth ppl. MAN!! Imagine that!! So it's not surprising that we've to wait for our turn to take photos there. But the sunrise is really gorgeous!!! I cant forget it ever...it was too amazing for words...
We took time photographing before heading back to Laban Rata. There's lots of other peaks besides the one we've jz climbed which is the Low's Peak. There's Tunku Abdul Rahman Peak, St.John's Peak, Donkey's Ears Peak, South Peak & Ugly Sisters Peak. Since its a difficult way getting down, our mountain guide asked one of his fren to take care of me while he helped my mum getting down. Well..speaking of his fren..ok..he's not TAT handsome..but he's kinda cute la...hehe=P (Gosh!! I'm crazy over tanned skin orang asli..oh no!!) We chatted along the way & keep assuring me not to be too scared. He even suggested that i go Sabah for studies next time so he can visit me sometimes (embarrassing ;P ) On the way down..we met another mountain guide who's his fren oso. MAN!!! He's even more cute!! =P Unbelieving...tat guy's waiting STPM results at the moment la...he's so YOUNG!!! Cant believe he can be tat good at climbing mountains....really put me to shame =S
Ok...forgot bout nonsense..hehe=P After reaching the Laban Rata resthouse after 2hrs...i waited for my parents at the restaurant. After that, we rested awhile..packed up..& continued our climb back down to the foothill. We used 4hrs to get back to where we started & it was a real relief. On the way down, i even challenged some KL boys..hehe=P They were really "kiasu" guys la!! Imagine me who's a lazy bum who seldom goes for hiking can manage to beat them flat even though i was walking while admiring the sceneries -.-" LOSERS!!!
Sigh...it was really a tiring trip..yet i really appreciate the chance i have to conquer this mountain at such young age & oso the sceneries really fascinated me...however i really missed the frenly guys there...Really hope that one day i'll be able to go back there to visit them...or even better get a scuba diving license so i can get to Sipadan Island to explore the underwater world =D
Well...this climbing trip is quite tiring actually...yet our efforts really paid off with the beautiful scenery of the whole mountain...man! I really am reluctant to leave that beautiful place in such short time. If there's a chance once more...i'll surely hope that i can get back there & visit my mountain guide friends. Even though we've known each other for a REALLY short time...yet they really marked something deep in my heart already.
Ok..to start with out trip...After a 2hrs & 15mins flight from KLIA to Kinabalu International Airport (KBA)...we were picked up by the tourism agency there (Popular Express). We were taken to have nyonya food at a restaurant near the town centre. After lunch, we were then driven to the Kinabalu Park Headquarters where we had one night stay there before getting off to climb the mountain next day. Had nice dinner at the Luwagi Restaurant..YUMMY!! =D
Next morning, we woke up at 5.30am...washed up, had breakfast, get ready with our climbing permit & mountain guide...then we're off to the foothill. We started climbing from there at 8.30am. That particular day, there's lots of people who's climbing also...so its kinda packed..but those doesn't matter with our climbing. On our way climbing up, we can see there's lots of beautiful orchids & pitcher plants that seldom can be seen in lowlands such as Perak here. My dad who's crazy over flowers managed to keep flashing his camera around to capture those amazing flowers. We got caught once in a 10mins drizzle on the way up yet we managed to reach the halfway resthouse (Laban Rata resthouse) in 6hrs in climbing this 6km route. We were DAMN tired by then so after having dinner around 6 we plopped down on our beds to have a good sleep before waking up next morning 1.30am for the climb to the summit.
We actually didn't have much sleep since my mum had a fast heartbeat while my dad with high fever due to high altitude sickness. Fortunately both of them healed & thus we continued on with our journey. We woke up at 1.30am, washed up, had breakfast & started our climb at 2.30am. This time's climbing really tried us out as it's the toughest climb ever. We're actually like rock climbing coz we had to walk on a small path up the whole cliff of rocks. There's no more trees around at such high place. One lost of footstep will cause the person to end up over the cliff & down in the valley with broken bones. We had to walk in the dark so that we can catch the 1st glimpse of sunrise from the top of Mount Kinabalu. After 4hrs of "fantastic" rock walking (hehe=P), we finally reached the summit despite our short legs compared to those Euro's long legs. The whole summit was packed with people from diff races & countries. According to our mountain guide, seems that that morning there's bout 160 sth ppl. MAN!! Imagine that!! So it's not surprising that we've to wait for our turn to take photos there. But the sunrise is really gorgeous!!! I cant forget it ever...it was too amazing for words...
We took time photographing before heading back to Laban Rata. There's lots of other peaks besides the one we've jz climbed which is the Low's Peak. There's Tunku Abdul Rahman Peak, St.John's Peak, Donkey's Ears Peak, South Peak & Ugly Sisters Peak. Since its a difficult way getting down, our mountain guide asked one of his fren to take care of me while he helped my mum getting down. Well..speaking of his fren..ok..he's not TAT handsome..but he's kinda cute la...hehe=P (Gosh!! I'm crazy over tanned skin orang asli..oh no!!) We chatted along the way & keep assuring me not to be too scared. He even suggested that i go Sabah for studies next time so he can visit me sometimes (embarrassing ;P ) On the way down..we met another mountain guide who's his fren oso. MAN!!! He's even more cute!! =P Unbelieving...tat guy's waiting STPM results at the moment la...he's so YOUNG!!! Cant believe he can be tat good at climbing mountains....really put me to shame =S
Ok...forgot bout nonsense..hehe=P After reaching the Laban Rata resthouse after 2hrs...i waited for my parents at the restaurant. After that, we rested awhile..packed up..& continued our climb back down to the foothill. We used 4hrs to get back to where we started & it was a real relief. On the way down, i even challenged some KL boys..hehe=P They were really "kiasu" guys la!! Imagine me who's a lazy bum who seldom goes for hiking can manage to beat them flat even though i was walking while admiring the sceneries -.-" LOSERS!!!
Sigh...it was really a tiring trip..yet i really appreciate the chance i have to conquer this mountain at such young age & oso the sceneries really fascinated me...however i really missed the frenly guys there...Really hope that one day i'll be able to go back there to visit them...or even better get a scuba diving license so i can get to Sipadan Island to explore the underwater world =D
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Relief before tension
13/3...this is the day that i dread TERRIBLY since the day i finishes my SPM exam...it always have to come no matter what & i juz have to accept it...sigh...
Well...tonight around 3am i'm goin off to KLIA to get the plane to Kota Kinabalu...going there to climb Mount Kinabalu with my parents...its actually quite a rush in planning this trip coz my mum onli decided it last Thurs...haha...great huh...but it's all settled & off we're goin tonight...
So...for the next 4days i wont be able to on9 & of coz cant blog...but i'm gonna enjoy myself there...hehe....with all the cool air & tiring bout 10hrs's climbing...guess i'm able to get slimmer & fairer already =P
~WALK WITH LORD~
Well...tonight around 3am i'm goin off to KLIA to get the plane to Kota Kinabalu...going there to climb Mount Kinabalu with my parents...its actually quite a rush in planning this trip coz my mum onli decided it last Thurs...haha...great huh...but it's all settled & off we're goin tonight...
So...for the next 4days i wont be able to on9 & of coz cant blog...but i'm gonna enjoy myself there...hehe....with all the cool air & tiring bout 10hrs's climbing...guess i'm able to get slimmer & fairer already =P
~WALK WITH LORD~
Sunday, February 19, 2006
Driving here i come...
Phew...its been a long time since i've last wrote my blog...kinda busy la actually lately...busy driving la =P Anyway....i've passed my driving test last Friday lu....hehe....yesterday jz got my driving P license while today got the P stickers....gonna stick it soon on the Tiara tat i've claimed...wakeke...too bad i cant hav the Kancil (it's auto=P)...but i rather to have the Tiara rather than no car to drive=P
Sigh...frens hav been asking me whether i've any idea bout when's SPM results are releasing...oh man...i'm starting to freak out whenever i think bout my results =/ really dunno wat's i'm gonna expect...hopefully i can get full A's so tat i can apply for JPA scholarships then i can fly to overseas to studies....i dunno...i jz hope i can leave Ipoh as far as i can...tis place really leave me sad memories...& i really wanna dump them here forever without me alwiz remembering bout them...but even i'm really leaving...i'll make sure tat the guys who cared for me will be the last ones to noe...i really hate to hurt anyone...but i've to be cruel to keep my promise...its the only way i guess....
Sigh...frens hav been asking me whether i've any idea bout when's SPM results are releasing...oh man...i'm starting to freak out whenever i think bout my results =/ really dunno wat's i'm gonna expect...hopefully i can get full A's so tat i can apply for JPA scholarships then i can fly to overseas to studies....i dunno...i jz hope i can leave Ipoh as far as i can...tis place really leave me sad memories...& i really wanna dump them here forever without me alwiz remembering bout them...but even i'm really leaving...i'll make sure tat the guys who cared for me will be the last ones to noe...i really hate to hurt anyone...but i've to be cruel to keep my promise...its the only way i guess....
I'm going NUTS!!!
Oh my gosh!!! I'm really not thinking straight lately...sigh...i shouldn't have been thinking bout him!!!! He's my junior's brother...plus he's my kindergarten classmate...I JZ SHOULDN'T HAVE!!!! ARGH!!! Wat's happening to me??? I know i go for tanned skin guys & he's really those tanned skin types...but i jz shouldn't have....I dun quite know him..& dun mention bout getting close relationships...Wat's going on in my mind? I cant believe this....
I DON'T CARE!!! I'm really keen on keeping my promise & tat's wat i'm going to do....he's not going to be on my mind for long...& now i'm dead hoping he won't misunderstand my actions...whatever i do i'm jz treating him as a normal fren...DEAD NORMAL!!! Whether or not i'm thinking bout him...it doesn't hav any concern on the actions i made towards him...
I DON'T CARE!!! I'm really keen on keeping my promise & tat's wat i'm going to do....he's not going to be on my mind for long...& now i'm dead hoping he won't misunderstand my actions...whatever i do i'm jz treating him as a normal fren...DEAD NORMAL!!! Whether or not i'm thinking bout him...it doesn't hav any concern on the actions i made towards him...
Friday, February 17, 2006
Missing you Ern...
Sigh...its alreadi more than one week Ern's left for Aussie...really missed her allot!!! Really cant help it with the almost 12yrs of frenship...haiz...she's the one who alwiz cares bout me & hears me out no matter i'm in high or low states...there's no other best fren tat can take over her place...not any guys too...hehe...guess she's TOO good for me to compare to any guys=P But its all da truth....
No matter how much i missed her....i still wish her luck in her studies....& alwiz give her the utmost support she need in tat foreign place so far away from her hometown...
Ern...MIZ YA!!!
No matter how much i missed her....i still wish her luck in her studies....& alwiz give her the utmost support she need in tat foreign place so far away from her hometown...
Ern...MIZ YA!!!
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Crazy Over Driving ; ]
Oh man...i've been having my driving lessons for the past few days....but gonna have my driving test onli after CNY...tat's too bad =( But driving's real SYOK le....haha=P Unfortunately...driving in this kind of weather really can result in me getting sunburns!!! Oh GOSH!!!! After yrs of returning my skin to its original fairness...now i'm getting darker AGAIN!!! *sobz* Happy though to noe tat my driving's getting better & better...hehe=P Wat a relief...Its a change compared to getting darker....wakeke ;]
Ok...gotta continue my Dae Jang Geum drama alreadi...been over it for the past few days....gonna finish my essay too...probably goin back to skul to look for my PK Hem who's retiring on tis Fri & oso my F4's English teacher for her to check my essay....Tata!!
Ok...gotta continue my Dae Jang Geum drama alreadi...been over it for the past few days....gonna finish my essay too...probably goin back to skul to look for my PK Hem who's retiring on tis Fri & oso my F4's English teacher for her to check my essay....Tata!!
Friday, January 20, 2006
2nd driving lesson
Finally...after weeks of waiting...last night my driving instructor called me up & told me tat he's teaching me tis morning..when i heard it..i was like on the top of the world..hehe=P Anyway...tis morning really came...at 1st when the instructor reached my house..i was shocked to see him getting down from the driver seat & got into the passenger seat coz i never expected that...but driving on the road is....oh man..wat can i say...SYOK le!!! Hehe =D But it was torture after the lesson...coz both legs are like goin to break...yet i was really happy today=D
Today after my driving lesson...my instructor told me that next lesson will probably be on Sat...now very much looking forward to it...^-^
Today after my driving lesson...my instructor told me that next lesson will probably be on Sat...now very much looking forward to it...^-^
Thursday, January 19, 2006
Confused + Lost
Sigh...its alreadi months after my SPM...yet i still cant decide myself where i wanna continue my studies in the future...1 is either i study in F6 here back in M'sia or 2 i go to overseas (preferably Aussie) to study in colleges...wat am i to do??? =/ If i'm to study in F6...its a good way to stabilize my foundation...but i really would like to join my best fren at Aussie...Sigh...can anyone pls tell me whether i should choose to have a better foundation or follow my desire to jz to join my fren coz i cant bear to part with her?
Last night...my best fren told me tat she'll be leaving for Aussie few days after her bday party...but i think i wont be able to send her off after i've promised her tat i will do tat...1 is tat i dun think i can coz probably i'll be still at Cherating..& secondly i hate to say goodbye to her...especially best frens like us will sure to part with tears...*sobz*...i'll really will miss u lots Ern...hope u'll never forget our frenship...
~GOD BLESS~
Last night...my best fren told me tat she'll be leaving for Aussie few days after her bday party...but i think i wont be able to send her off after i've promised her tat i will do tat...1 is tat i dun think i can coz probably i'll be still at Cherating..& secondly i hate to say goodbye to her...especially best frens like us will sure to part with tears...*sobz*...i'll really will miss u lots Ern...hope u'll never forget our frenship...
~GOD BLESS~
Monday, January 16, 2006
Rest in peace grandpa
Today was a sad day for my family & my relatives on my mother's side. Today my grandpa's funeral was held. On Thursday morning 6.30am, he passed away due to old age & also due to dehydration as he hadn't been drinking for that whole day before. My grandpa is 96yrs old already. He actually would have feel honoured to have such a long life. I actually had a quite mere memory about my grandpa coz he had lose his eyesight due to disease few years ago when i was at young age. He is also quite a bad temper person. I seldom go to my uncle's house so i actually seldom visit my grandpa expect for special occasions. To remember the past, i actually regretted for not being with my grandpa more often. But i hope he'll understand & forgive me for it. I prayed together with my buddhist relatives for 3 nights. Even though it was a sin as a Christian to pray other religions...but i was doin it as a sign of 孝順 to my grandpa.
It was really a relief to see my grandpa dying so peacefully when we saw him for the last time before the coffin was being carried into the car. & it was also happy enough to see that every relative who're in overseas like Canada, Hong Kong & Singapore purposely flew back jz to send my grandpa on his funeral. Except for my cuz sis who's in California who can't buy any plane tickets as it has finished selling out. She was sad but nothing can be done. But i noe..my grandpa will understand her situation & forgive her.
I really missed my grandpa & my grandma who had passed away 2yrs ago. I hope they'll both meet each other in heaven & live happily ever after.
May they rest in peace.
It was really a relief to see my grandpa dying so peacefully when we saw him for the last time before the coffin was being carried into the car. & it was also happy enough to see that every relative who're in overseas like Canada, Hong Kong & Singapore purposely flew back jz to send my grandpa on his funeral. Except for my cuz sis who's in California who can't buy any plane tickets as it has finished selling out. She was sad but nothing can be done. But i noe..my grandpa will understand her situation & forgive her.
I really missed my grandpa & my grandma who had passed away 2yrs ago. I hope they'll both meet each other in heaven & live happily ever after.
May they rest in peace.
Monday, January 09, 2006
Confused
Sigh...wat am i gonna do? Confusion aroused me lately...My feelings for him grew stronger day by day since we alwiz contacted each other...yet i cant break my promise & oso i dun wanna to hav any relationships tat can cause me to affect my studies...yet...haiz =/
He's not forcing me to make any decisions bout our relationship...but i really cant bear to leave him to wait for me to change my mind...he's TOO good to me...plus with my feelings for him...
I'm REALLY confused with my own feelings...
He's not forcing me to make any decisions bout our relationship...but i really cant bear to leave him to wait for me to change my mind...he's TOO good to me...plus with my feelings for him...
I'm REALLY confused with my own feelings...
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