Topic-less

Oklor...no more depressing posts then....haha...but somehow i may need some counselling...kekeke...even though i'm a PRS myself...but still amateur....guess da onli place i can pour out wat i think is in this blog la...& also to u la my dearie Ern ;p

Hm....starting to get busy with studies...exam's coming on da 5th of March....Sports Day's on da 3rd...too bad my knees jz not ok yet for me to participate in the 4x100m relay that'll be held at the stadium....sigh....I WANNA RUN!!!!! =/ Jz have the intention to go take part without letting my parents noe...but....sigh....forget it~~!!! Even though it'll be da last chance for me to run in a proper running track in da stadium...haiz....Busy anyway on making notes....changing my studying style already as taught by my sis....had been looking for a better way but no one can tell me....lucky i still have my sis =D

Anyway....wont be able to on9 for awhile la...so this blog will be left unused for some time...Currently looking forward to Ern coming back to Ipoh...i still owe her her bday prezzie...hope she'll like wat we're giving her anyway...missed her too =P Hmm...Valentine's on next Wed (14/2)....but another lonely Valentine's luu...dah biasa already anyway....hehe...every yr's Valentine's is jz a normal day for me ==> 单身贵族 ^^


Ciaoz.....

Depressed...

唉...今天心情实在是糟得透底了~~~已经到了难以形容的地步了...我只知道从我一到家后打电话给我的钢琴老师后就猛哭不停了....鼻涕眼泪都掺在一起了(这是无可否认的现实情况=P) 现在更"进展"到双眼红肿了.....该是哭过头了吧....可是怎么也不甘心.....竟然还欠仅仅那两分都不让我及格...臭家伙!!! 我知道我也有错....就是错在临时抱佛脚.....不到最后一个时刻都不紧张.....可是说实在的我真的尽了力耶....haih....无话可说了.....没办法咯....只好在六月再考过咯....不然我都不死心....哼!! 总之这次肯定要发奋图强考好给那个臭家伙看了....!!! 何慧妍万岁~~!!! 过了今天就不会为它再哭了....再哭的话看来我又会死很多细胞了....呵呵 ^^

Saddening news

Haiz...was having lunch...then my eldest uncle from my dad's side called us....then told us the news that my 姑姑 (my dad's eldest sis) had passed away at the University Hospital. We were all shocked coz she's on the way of recovering already....& yet we cant fight God's will to bring her away. But its a good thing la actually...for her to leave is also the best way to get her away from her sufferings...heavy diabetic problem...stroke...sigh....So dad went off to KL alone already to deal with her funeral...they'll be cremating (火葬) her...jz wanna say hope she'll have a better life in heaven & Rest In Peace 姑姑...God bless you~~

Sigh....i smell busy week already....next Sat's Career Day already...so gotta start work on doing the boards this week already.....sigh...hope we'll have it successfully done la even though i'm never supportive towards this function (I'm da medicine course supervisor + one of the comm...but i dun really care much...only care about my own opinion ;p) Then on Thurs we'll be having our dissection day already....bless the white rats....bought yesterday....then today one of the females got pregnant already -.-" 7 CUTE lil rats tim....we've tried to save them out jz now during skul dismissal from being eaten....but cant do much....sigh...jz hope the rats are not as cruel as what we thought....else i dunno wat we'll be seeing tomoro =S

Okla...need to nap already...afterwards going japanese class as usual.....missing Ern...hope she's fine with her work...looking forward to celebrating her bday with her whole bunch of frens =)

I got a "bf"...hahahaha ;P

Hahaha...now i got a new "bf"....dun be mistaken....not REAL bf le...jz a FAKE one...hehehehe...thx to chee pek la....if not for him i wont be able to get rid of Elton "Aun" oso...kekeke...lucky i asked cp whether he noes him anot...lucky they're in da same class...then they chatted bout me....& cp so kind to help me that he lied for me....wakekeke....fiuh~~ feels good to get rid of that leech....alwiz kacau onli...busy mode oso asked whether i'm busy -.-" Anyway.....me & cp onli 9-yrs tuition mates la....nvr will be anything far beyond that....we're jz good buddies....trust me....he's not my type anyway....muahahahaha ;p

Uh ohh....jz got to know from my bro....I'M ACTUALLY ON THE SMJK SCHOOL PORTAL'S WEBSITE!!! H-A-H-A @_@ Got the news of me & Yvonne receiving our piano ALCM's certificate wor during our graduation in 2005...long time ago story la...but shocked oso lor~~!!! Go check out anyway...hehehe =P ===> http://smjk.edu.my/main/news_sdetail.php?schid=23&newsid=3385&arch=

Creepy...

Jz got home from house practice....jz bathed...gonna have a nap soon....but jz now's experience really creepy le...its my 1st time having this kinda experience also =S Nearly passed out on da field after running the 100m...really creepy lor...was standing...then suddenly felt a wave of nausea...so i walked towards the bench to sit....after a few steps..my vision starts to get blur....its like there's a heavy fog in front of my eyes...then i start to see the grass in a yellow colour...my ears start to block out...cant hear anything temporarily...then "Poof...!"...its like someone giving me a heavy blow on my nasal cartilage jz dead between my eyes...man....i started to feel dizzy already...including the pain in my right thigh where i've pulled my muscle...it was hard to imagine how painful it is.... then when i tot i'm ok to go for the next event ==> lontar peluru....i really nearly passed out already...lucky my frens were holding on to me....but suddenly felt sleepy....guess my brain lacks of oxygen till i felt drowsy already.....wanted to jz lie down at tat instant...but my frens keep calling me to hold on & dun fall asleep....then they start massaging & stuffs....lucky after a few mins i'm back to normal already...but already weak at the knees....fiuh~~ I'm scared of this kinda feeling already....but too bad...i still love running...hahaha =P No high jumps today though...bad...but its ok too la coz the pole is actually till my chest le....how to jump ehh..?? -.-"

Now praying wont get chosen yet i've a feeling my prayer wont be answered....hehehe....kinda 矛盾 already le...wanna get chosen coz wanna have the experience & the feeling....dowanna get chosen coz i've hurt my knees more already plus monthly exam'll be on 2days after Sports Day le....stupid school to have such schedule lor.....anyway....dun care la...see how le only decide...

Now....i'm not gonna say anything more already...wanna jz lie flat on my bed & get into dreamland.....zzzzzzzzzzz........

Busy + tired day...

Fiuh~~today finally sent in the letter to GH...asked my counselling club junior to fetch me there....he's SOooo sweet =P Actually he's supposed to go tuition at 2.30....but he still fetches me there with his motorbike at 2...hehe...good Ah Loke =D Even though i only rode a motor twice only...but i still can handle it la...haha...thx to his good driving skill also la...lolz...

Choir as usual today la...we had practice till 5.30pm lor...no one fetched me home at 1st...lucky i tot of YewMing yesterday...so asked him to fetch me home lor since he also finishes work at 5.30...but kinda feel guilty also la since i've rejected him AGAIN so he looks kinda down la -.-" But cant blame le...guess the time has said everything...so....its over already la~~~But its very very extremely sweet of him to say will fetch me home...coz between his house & my house also need 10minutes drive la...S-W-E-E-T~~!!

Hmm...tomoro's last house practice already luu...jz got to know today that we'll be having high jumps too....excited about it...but scared too la coz heard that the height will be 1.1metres high...@_@ crazy school!! What do they think us gals are...?? Only know how to bully us la....stupidity....ish!! But dun care...gonna try for it tomoro..who noes...i'll be able to cross it without making the galah fall..?? Hehehe ;p

Current mood: Neutral + tired + missing someone out there...

Current situation: Sleeping (goin to....hehe)

Crumbling under my weak knees...haiz...

Sigh...my knees are getting worse day by day...now cant even stand straight for long...it'll start crumbling below me after some time...& walking up da stairs is worse...the pain is getting more & more obvious...last night also got scolded by Ern already for not consulting the doctor for the operation...but i'm really scared of any operations...give me the creepy feeling of something bad will happen after that =S

Hm....gonna have my 2nd house practice on Wed...kinda looking forward to it...hehe...coz mebe i've full confidence i can get thru the 100m running...to me its nothing already since i've passed the 200m one last week...kekeke...jz gotta pray my knees wont trouble till after i've finished my running & the high jump...love them!! =D I've a feeling though tat me & Ah Ong will get to be chosen to represent our house in running during Sports Day...hmm...guess gotta think about it already IF really got chosen...1st is to see who'll be our competitors 1st...2nd is to consider about my knees....if i hurt it anymore scared it'll worsen...sigh...dunno...i love running...love the feeling of "flying" on the field...love the spirit of competing with others...ohmigosh!!! I'm obsessed already....aiks!! But no matter wat...i still love it~~!! ;p

Never ever got the chance to run in a real competition before also...as in inter-house one...thx to "mama" la our chance got ruined during my F5 yr...we've confidence we can get into the finals & at least have the chance of running in da stadium...then thx to her COURAGE to stand out in da 1st place saying she wanna be one of da representatives of my class...she slowed us down in the start...then no matter the remaining 3 of us wanna catch up also no use already...jz 1 place behind...ish!!!! Remembering about it also still pisses me off~~~ @_@ So....tat's y wanna have a go at competing in a REAL inter-house competition...jz hope my knees wont fail me...


Haiz...piano exam results are not out yet...worry worry...sigh...hope i'll be hearing good news when i'm home these few days...i dowanna go thru it anymore more a less wasting thousands of money for the exam fee again -.-"

黑色星期六

Today really unlucky lor...haiz...walked to General Hospital to send in the letter concerning looking for a doctor as a speaker for our medicine course during Career Day after my choir practice finishes at 12pm....then when i reached there after 30minutes of walking only i realised all my time & energy are wasted...coz the office is closed on Saturdays & Sundays....ARGH~~!!!! Stupid government law to have the 5-workdays law....lazy is what that can be used to describe them....ish!!! Now i've to go AGAIN next week during weekdays to send in the letter....sigh...shouldn't have been such a kind course supervisor to send the letter myself....dun care already....going to send my assistant or any other members in my course to send the letter....i'm enough of this already!!! Coz of walking too much...my knee injury oso came back already...worsen tim....haiz....i dowanna go for any operation le....horrible feeling i have....sure more probs with my legs after operation....sigh....Anyway, after leaving GH with disappointment & GREAT frustration....i'm also got drenched by the rain...lucky its not that heavy but still enough to make me wet...so forced to take a cab to go Parade to spend my time there while waiting for tuition at 2...& unexpectedly the taxi driver flirted with me....ohmigosh...!!! Wat kinda society is this nowadays...?? Why cant i jz have a peaceful ride in a public transport without strangers harassing me?? -.-" Ok...this will be the only & the last time for me to get into a cab ALONE....no more such thing happening...once is enough to end me a grief experience....ish~!!! Really hate getting flirted la...say i'm cute & stuffs yet still charged me so expensive....hahahaha =P Okok...kidding kidding...rather to pay more than getting harassed by some old guy....haiz....now i'm really speechless already.... @_@

Long lost me~~~

Wow...its been MONTHS since i've last posted any blogs...cant blame me...bad internet in my area here....frustrating over it but cant do anything le....haiz....anyway....latest news....Ern's back in Ipoh already....have been out with her for dunno how many times di....met up with him oso dunno how many times di till i mau vomit di....hahaha....& i've started Upper 6 for 2 weeks di...1 more day to go to end this 2nd week....yesterday jz had my house practice by the way....i'm in the yellow house AGAIN....same as wat i'm in during my primary school days...& we had 200m run yesterday.....crazy Sam Tet....memang bullying us gals la...but lucky my running hasn't gone worse di since one whole year never had any sports (except for mountain climbing sometimes which doesn't really count coz i din go regularly....lazy me =P)....so got to get 1 mark for my house...happy happy =D Coz they limited the time to 40seconds...which at 1st i'm kinda worried yet confident i can finish the run in the limited time...& i really did it!!! =D

Okla....cant crap much la....gotta study again...jz got to on9 after such LONG time so was busy awhile searching for my own stuffs....but now....gotta go studying again....Upper6 is no more happy happy time....so u'll oso be seeing less of me anyway...ciaoz~~


Piano exam's result will be out anytime....scared scared =S God bless me~~~

Past exam

Finally we've finished the finals....hmm....results out already also...not as good as what i've expected...but still bearable i guess....jz hoping now that i wont get kicked out of B2...too many months we've been together & sure it'll be tough to be separated....especially with my gang....haiz~~~

Anyway...had a fun time today....skipped maths tuition this time -.-" We watched The Covenant...there's me, fishy, huey leng, jia yee & Samuel....hahaha...he's the only guy....but he shud consider himself lucky le to have 4 gals hanging around with him wor...kekekeke =P At 1st also dowan to do like that...at 1st tot of watching movie then only go tuition...maybe late but at least we attended tuition...but unluckily after we watched movie already it was raining too heavily even for us to get to the car...so we jz abandon the "go to tuition" plan & jz hang around at Parade....so...poor Samuel went along with us to get crazy in Popular...haha....we keep laughing like mad over everything while he cham lor....ohohohoho...then after that even had...err...lunch + dinner (lunner...???) at Easy House....kekekeke =P

In conclusion.....really had a fun time even though the movie's story line quite blur...1st time broke record that i nearly fell asleep while watching movies -.-"

Haiz...

Sigh....wont be able to on9 much for the next few days di...will be having my last 4 papers next Mon & Tues...then after finals gotta concentrate on my piano already...jz knew today that i'll be having my piano exam on either 25, 27, 28 or 29 of Nov....& in my opinion i'm not ready YET =S
So....gonna work hard on it...when i've succesfully passed this LLCM...i'm FREE luu~~!!! =D

6th Form Night

Hmm...today was a big success la in our drama....despite the quarrels we had the past few days...our drama went well....my erhu playing was fabulous...hehe....allot of people praised with lotsa applause when i walked up to the stage when playing erhu =D Our main actor ==> Vee Shin (my class monitor) oso got Best Actor Award...man...it was unbelievable....hahaha....but we were happy anyway even though we din get Best Drama Award as we oso felt that F1 really did allot more better than us....Was very tired with sore feet coz have been running almost whole night busying with the props...but i felt that it was worth it la...considering i got to take pics with lotsa ppl...including Chee Pun...which he said he'll take the pic that i took with him & sombong with Darren -.-" PLUS now i'm hebat with wearing high heels already....hahaha...wearing high heels which is 4 inches high is such tough job...but i can even run in it now....ohohohohoho~~~
Happy happy luu~~~

Bad day...

Man....today's one bad day....well...as usual me & Fishy became the "bad guys" of L6B2....thanks to Vee tat he oso thinks so even though he has totally no idea of wat happened...BAH~~~

Ok....it started that those Indian dancers...those 6 of them...5 of them boycotted Xuan JUST coz that she wanna set her hair...when 5 others decided not to set their hair as their costume is too tight & feared by wearing it will make their hair look untidy...& THAT's the reason they got into an argument for the past few days -.-" such TINYyyyy matter....ish!!

Okie...so then...our drama's main actress TSW stood up today & said the matter gotta be solved today....so she asked the whole class to sit together & started to find a solution to this prob...Oh ya...forgotten to mention that yesterday we oso did have a meeting but no outcome...BUT this morning Xuan personally called See up & told her she've decided not to set her hair...so....i was thinking that...good....no more troubles lor....but who noes....tat TPM suddenly said she dowanna dance alreadi coz she cant afford to partner with Xuan...MY GOSH!!! Wat kinda ppl are these?? I really cant understand how immature they are....absolutely out of my imagination...ish!!!

So...we started our discussion lor....me & Fish at 1st jz kept quiet coz its really not our business to interfere...plus our temper's bad enough & we dowanna make matters worse...but then those 6 gals started to "dig" the old incidents out...& they argued more & more instead of settling the latest situation...so i jz suddenly tell them off by saying that they shud focus on the latest situation & stop being so immature in their thinking....then out of a sudden...TSW stood up from her chair...flung her bottle (mark this...its those non-plastic bottle) at ME & FISH....then pointed at both of us & asked us to SHUT UP coz its NONE OF OUR BUSINESS!!!! ARGH!!!! She'd really got on my nerves la..in d 1st place she asked ALL of us to gather & find a solution & now she asked us to SHUT UP!!!! Man....lucky i controlled my temper....i calmed Fish down....else we would have burst up & it'll be World War 3 alreadi....aiks~~!!! However....finally...we cant stand it anymore & we jz bolted out of the classroom & cried silently...jz cant stand it as the others felt that its US BOTH that made them got into the argument....we're jz neutral...& yet....we're the bad guys again =/

They did solve the prob AT LAST....but guess the relationships between us both & our classmates not too good di...especially with the gals....but i really dunno where we both have gone wrong....sigh....

Tiring days...

Ooofff....these few days really hectic lor...didn't have classes coz busy preparing for the drama that we'll be performing on this Sunday night for the 6th Form Night...man.....tiring le...everyday stayed at skul till very late...then after tat went for mountain climbing coz its impossible to ask my mum to fetch me all the way back home..so forced to go lor...sigh...tired le~~~ Yet happy le coz our drama is startnig to get to be complete success luu....including the props...hehe...i'm in charge of it le besides fishy & Qian =P

Okla...need to go di...gotta study for my last 4 papers tat'll be on the 30th & 31st....aiks~~!!

Joanne = Jo = Johnny??

Shoots~~!!! Now i'm stuck with the "Johnny" Ho....real THANKS to my "fabulous" maths teacher...jerk..!!! Useless teacher who cant even teach or even do simple maths...not to mention dun even noe how to pronounce Joanne...ish!! He called Joanne Liao "Johnny" & sure i kena oso...GRRRR!!! yet alwiz act clever...one day...i'm sure...one day u wont be able to stand that long in front of the blackboard trying to figure to do the questions....oh well....u'll probably jz get one of our papers & copy the answers & workings on the blackboard....BAH~~!!! One day...we'll get u out of our class & go STRRAIGHT back to ur afternoon class where u can still trick those lil kiddies...hmph!!!

Well...okla...i dun blame Soon Soon though for calling me Jo la....its hard to differentiate between double Joanne in class anyway...plus alot of my close frens been calling me Jo for short...so....dun mind la...but that idiot jerk maths teacher really had got on my nerves!!! He deserves the treatment he got from us...especially from me....wakekeke...good that i'm the 1st person to boycott....hey no...."girlcott" him =P I'm ever SOoooo bad....ohohohohoho~~~

Happy happy...

Hehe....good....my classmates decided to use me to play erhu in our drama already...finally...they're found a suitable part to stuff me in =D

Ooo yea...we'll be goin bowling alley again this Wed before the rehearsal...hehe...guess we're addicted to it...real thanks to yu leong's suggestions tat day la...but this time we'll be dragging the guys along....hehehe...muz show some real bowler skills to us beginners le...ohohohohoho~~~ PLUS guys are our financial outlets le...muahahaha =P I'm SOoooo bad...but cant help it le....keke...that's wat guys are for ma if they're with gals...gotta be gentlemen...ekekeke ;p I noe i'm bad la....hehe.....i'm a BULLY for guys....hahahahahaha~~~

爱情...

香烟爱上火柴就注定被伤害
不要轻易说爱
许下的诺言就是欠下的债

老鼠对猫说我爱你
猫说你走开
老鼠流泪走开
谁也没看见老鼠走后猫也流了一滴泪

其实有一种爱情叫做放弃
风筝一辈子只会为一根线冒险

女人善变的是脸
男人善变的是心

在爱情的世界里
没有谁对不起谁
只有谁不懂珍惜谁

遇到了真爱就不要轻易说离开
要记得抓紧爱情
而不是抓伤彼此的感情

~不要忘了真爱难寻~

Bowling 2nd time

Fuiyoh..2day finished 2nd day of the torturing finals...sigh...its...haih...undescribable...but only one word...BAD!!! Today's chem...sigh....dun mention...really THANKS to fatso Chua...such difficult questions...bio...hmm....okler...maths not bad not bad...English & PA also can gua...Sigh....really dunno y...i felt that i've prepared well & enough & yet...suen already...guess i've to work double harder during the holidays so that i wouldn't suffer more next yr during my preparations for STPM...

Anyway..supposedly we (me, fishy, jiayee, huey leng & teh yu leong [our driver] ) to attend chem tuition 2day after skul at 2...but then coz we're too stress already for the past few days including these hectic exam papers these few days...we cant resist the temptation for going for a movie...hehe...but with the condition we've to be at the tuition centre by 4 la since we've never told our parents PLUS my mum sure wont allow me to skip tuition...So....off we went to parade~~ ;p

However...we din get to watch any movies since there's no suitable time that'll get us to be exact on time at the tuition centre waiting for our cars...so...at 1st thinking of not skipping tuition anymroe & jz go lunch...but the Easy House memang terrible le...2 o'clock di & yet not one of dishes are out yet =.=" So....finally we jz made our mind to take our own sweet time & REALLY skip tuition...wakekeke >.<> BOWLING VALLEY!!!!

Man...!! I dun care...!!! My bowling techniques really improved tremendously...ohohohohoho....dun ask me why though since the last time i played was with Ern & THAT was terrible =.=" Anyway...we played 2 games & it ended that i got 59 marks!!! Same as Yu Leong!! Wakeke....highest marks tim....including that i even cleared once....muahahahaha~~!!!! Ernie dear...ur in big trouble di~~~ Muz compete with u once ur back di ;p That's a deal luu~~~ & now i'm IN LOVE with BOWLING already!!!

BOWLING RULEZ~~~ =D

Late at night...

Endless nights of staying up to study...i'm bashed!! Stressed!!! Not to mention lonely....last time still got ms Ernie accompanyin me coz she's the onli fren i have who also spend the night studying away...but now..?? Sigh....how come guys dun stay up as late as me huh..?? Else i wont be tat lonely le...but its good oso la...coz i get to concentrate on wat i'm studying instead of busy pressing away on my hp...hehe....Ohhh...how i wish this exam would end fast so tat it wont torture me anymore...& i'm looking forward to the camps i'll be having in the holidays & oso Ernie coming back PLUS the double party we're going to hold =D Dreaming away.....ohohohoho....

Sigh...

Sigh....now i noe wat's the feeling of rejection...& i felt stupid to mention watever i've done....i shouldn't have been so rush in this 1st place...but i seriously need some answers after such a long time....its already 1yr & 23days already....& i feel its the right time to get things right...but wat i did i get in the end?? Rejection!!! Sigh....he said its his time & my time to concentrate on our studies & we shouldn't waste it..which i think whatever he said is true...i've also been thinking along tat line long time ago ever since i rejected him...but the loneliness tat has been surrounding me lately made me feel more attached to him & i'm kinda desperate for more attraction...but guess its not the right time yet....

He's right...guess we'll jz have to let time do the job while we get on our life...FULLSTOP!!! I'm really sick of relationships di....SAVE ME~~~