Past exam

Finally we've finished the finals....hmm....results out already also...not as good as what i've expected...but still bearable i guess....jz hoping now that i wont get kicked out of B2...too many months we've been together & sure it'll be tough to be separated....especially with my gang....haiz~~~

Anyway...had a fun time today....skipped maths tuition this time -.-" We watched The Covenant...there's me, fishy, huey leng, jia yee & Samuel....hahaha...he's the only guy....but he shud consider himself lucky le to have 4 gals hanging around with him wor...kekekeke =P At 1st also dowan to do like that...at 1st tot of watching movie then only go tuition...maybe late but at least we attended tuition...but unluckily after we watched movie already it was raining too heavily even for us to get to the car...so we jz abandon the "go to tuition" plan & jz hang around at Parade....so...poor Samuel went along with us to get crazy in Popular...haha....we keep laughing like mad over everything while he cham lor....ohohohoho...then after that even had...err...lunch + dinner (lunner...???) at Easy House....kekekeke =P

In conclusion.....really had a fun time even though the movie's story line quite blur...1st time broke record that i nearly fell asleep while watching movies -.-"

Haiz...

Sigh....wont be able to on9 much for the next few days di...will be having my last 4 papers next Mon & Tues...then after finals gotta concentrate on my piano already...jz knew today that i'll be having my piano exam on either 25, 27, 28 or 29 of Nov....& in my opinion i'm not ready YET =S
So....gonna work hard on it...when i've succesfully passed this LLCM...i'm FREE luu~~!!! =D

6th Form Night

Hmm...today was a big success la in our drama....despite the quarrels we had the past few days...our drama went well....my erhu playing was fabulous...hehe....allot of people praised with lotsa applause when i walked up to the stage when playing erhu =D Our main actor ==> Vee Shin (my class monitor) oso got Best Actor Award...man...it was unbelievable....hahaha....but we were happy anyway even though we din get Best Drama Award as we oso felt that F1 really did allot more better than us....Was very tired with sore feet coz have been running almost whole night busying with the props...but i felt that it was worth it la...considering i got to take pics with lotsa ppl...including Chee Pun...which he said he'll take the pic that i took with him & sombong with Darren -.-" PLUS now i'm hebat with wearing high heels already....hahaha...wearing high heels which is 4 inches high is such tough job...but i can even run in it now....ohohohohoho~~~
Happy happy luu~~~

Bad day...

Man....today's one bad day....well...as usual me & Fishy became the "bad guys" of L6B2....thanks to Vee tat he oso thinks so even though he has totally no idea of wat happened...BAH~~~

Ok....it started that those Indian dancers...those 6 of them...5 of them boycotted Xuan JUST coz that she wanna set her hair...when 5 others decided not to set their hair as their costume is too tight & feared by wearing it will make their hair look untidy...& THAT's the reason they got into an argument for the past few days -.-" such TINYyyyy matter....ish!!

Okie...so then...our drama's main actress TSW stood up today & said the matter gotta be solved today....so she asked the whole class to sit together & started to find a solution to this prob...Oh ya...forgotten to mention that yesterday we oso did have a meeting but no outcome...BUT this morning Xuan personally called See up & told her she've decided not to set her hair...so....i was thinking that...good....no more troubles lor....but who noes....tat TPM suddenly said she dowanna dance alreadi coz she cant afford to partner with Xuan...MY GOSH!!! Wat kinda ppl are these?? I really cant understand how immature they are....absolutely out of my imagination...ish!!!

So...we started our discussion lor....me & Fish at 1st jz kept quiet coz its really not our business to interfere...plus our temper's bad enough & we dowanna make matters worse...but then those 6 gals started to "dig" the old incidents out...& they argued more & more instead of settling the latest situation...so i jz suddenly tell them off by saying that they shud focus on the latest situation & stop being so immature in their thinking....then out of a sudden...TSW stood up from her chair...flung her bottle (mark this...its those non-plastic bottle) at ME & FISH....then pointed at both of us & asked us to SHUT UP coz its NONE OF OUR BUSINESS!!!! ARGH!!!! She'd really got on my nerves la..in d 1st place she asked ALL of us to gather & find a solution & now she asked us to SHUT UP!!!! Man....lucky i controlled my temper....i calmed Fish down....else we would have burst up & it'll be World War 3 alreadi....aiks~~!!! However....finally...we cant stand it anymore & we jz bolted out of the classroom & cried silently...jz cant stand it as the others felt that its US BOTH that made them got into the argument....we're jz neutral...& yet....we're the bad guys again =/

They did solve the prob AT LAST....but guess the relationships between us both & our classmates not too good di...especially with the gals....but i really dunno where we both have gone wrong....sigh....

Tiring days...

Ooofff....these few days really hectic lor...didn't have classes coz busy preparing for the drama that we'll be performing on this Sunday night for the 6th Form Night...man.....tiring le...everyday stayed at skul till very late...then after tat went for mountain climbing coz its impossible to ask my mum to fetch me all the way back home..so forced to go lor...sigh...tired le~~~ Yet happy le coz our drama is startnig to get to be complete success luu....including the props...hehe...i'm in charge of it le besides fishy & Qian =P

Okla...need to go di...gotta study for my last 4 papers tat'll be on the 30th & 31st....aiks~~!!

Joanne = Jo = Johnny??

Shoots~~!!! Now i'm stuck with the "Johnny" Ho....real THANKS to my "fabulous" maths teacher...jerk..!!! Useless teacher who cant even teach or even do simple maths...not to mention dun even noe how to pronounce Joanne...ish!! He called Joanne Liao "Johnny" & sure i kena oso...GRRRR!!! yet alwiz act clever...one day...i'm sure...one day u wont be able to stand that long in front of the blackboard trying to figure to do the questions....oh well....u'll probably jz get one of our papers & copy the answers & workings on the blackboard....BAH~~!!! One day...we'll get u out of our class & go STRRAIGHT back to ur afternoon class where u can still trick those lil kiddies...hmph!!!

Well...okla...i dun blame Soon Soon though for calling me Jo la....its hard to differentiate between double Joanne in class anyway...plus alot of my close frens been calling me Jo for short...so....dun mind la...but that idiot jerk maths teacher really had got on my nerves!!! He deserves the treatment he got from us...especially from me....wakekeke...good that i'm the 1st person to boycott....hey no...."girlcott" him =P I'm ever SOoooo bad....ohohohohoho~~~

Happy happy...

Hehe....good....my classmates decided to use me to play erhu in our drama already...finally...they're found a suitable part to stuff me in =D

Ooo yea...we'll be goin bowling alley again this Wed before the rehearsal...hehe...guess we're addicted to it...real thanks to yu leong's suggestions tat day la...but this time we'll be dragging the guys along....hehehe...muz show some real bowler skills to us beginners le...ohohohohoho~~~ PLUS guys are our financial outlets le...muahahaha =P I'm SOoooo bad...but cant help it le....keke...that's wat guys are for ma if they're with gals...gotta be gentlemen...ekekeke ;p I noe i'm bad la....hehe.....i'm a BULLY for guys....hahahahahaha~~~

爱情...

香烟爱上火柴就注定被伤害
不要轻易说爱
许下的诺言就是欠下的债

老鼠对猫说我爱你
猫说你走开
老鼠流泪走开
谁也没看见老鼠走后猫也流了一滴泪

其实有一种爱情叫做放弃
风筝一辈子只会为一根线冒险

女人善变的是脸
男人善变的是心

在爱情的世界里
没有谁对不起谁
只有谁不懂珍惜谁

遇到了真爱就不要轻易说离开
要记得抓紧爱情
而不是抓伤彼此的感情

~不要忘了真爱难寻~

Bowling 2nd time

Fuiyoh..2day finished 2nd day of the torturing finals...sigh...its...haih...undescribable...but only one word...BAD!!! Today's chem...sigh....dun mention...really THANKS to fatso Chua...such difficult questions...bio...hmm....okler...maths not bad not bad...English & PA also can gua...Sigh....really dunno y...i felt that i've prepared well & enough & yet...suen already...guess i've to work double harder during the holidays so that i wouldn't suffer more next yr during my preparations for STPM...

Anyway..supposedly we (me, fishy, jiayee, huey leng & teh yu leong [our driver] ) to attend chem tuition 2day after skul at 2...but then coz we're too stress already for the past few days including these hectic exam papers these few days...we cant resist the temptation for going for a movie...hehe...but with the condition we've to be at the tuition centre by 4 la since we've never told our parents PLUS my mum sure wont allow me to skip tuition...So....off we went to parade~~ ;p

However...we din get to watch any movies since there's no suitable time that'll get us to be exact on time at the tuition centre waiting for our cars...so...at 1st thinking of not skipping tuition anymroe & jz go lunch...but the Easy House memang terrible le...2 o'clock di & yet not one of dishes are out yet =.=" So....finally we jz made our mind to take our own sweet time & REALLY skip tuition...wakekeke >.<> BOWLING VALLEY!!!!

Man...!! I dun care...!!! My bowling techniques really improved tremendously...ohohohohoho....dun ask me why though since the last time i played was with Ern & THAT was terrible =.=" Anyway...we played 2 games & it ended that i got 59 marks!!! Same as Yu Leong!! Wakeke....highest marks tim....including that i even cleared once....muahahahaha~~!!!! Ernie dear...ur in big trouble di~~~ Muz compete with u once ur back di ;p That's a deal luu~~~ & now i'm IN LOVE with BOWLING already!!!

BOWLING RULEZ~~~ =D

Late at night...

Endless nights of staying up to study...i'm bashed!! Stressed!!! Not to mention lonely....last time still got ms Ernie accompanyin me coz she's the onli fren i have who also spend the night studying away...but now..?? Sigh....how come guys dun stay up as late as me huh..?? Else i wont be tat lonely le...but its good oso la...coz i get to concentrate on wat i'm studying instead of busy pressing away on my hp...hehe....Ohhh...how i wish this exam would end fast so tat it wont torture me anymore...& i'm looking forward to the camps i'll be having in the holidays & oso Ernie coming back PLUS the double party we're going to hold =D Dreaming away.....ohohohoho....

Sigh...

Sigh....now i noe wat's the feeling of rejection...& i felt stupid to mention watever i've done....i shouldn't have been so rush in this 1st place...but i seriously need some answers after such a long time....its already 1yr & 23days already....& i feel its the right time to get things right...but wat i did i get in the end?? Rejection!!! Sigh....he said its his time & my time to concentrate on our studies & we shouldn't waste it..which i think whatever he said is true...i've also been thinking along tat line long time ago ever since i rejected him...but the loneliness tat has been surrounding me lately made me feel more attached to him & i'm kinda desperate for more attraction...but guess its not the right time yet....

He's right...guess we'll jz have to let time do the job while we get on our life...FULLSTOP!!! I'm really sick of relationships di....SAVE ME~~~

GOSH~~!!!

Shoootsss....i've been in quite a bad temper these few days.....yesterday ended up scolding vee....AIKS!! Someone's gonna kill me already =.=" Sorry Ern....but when u noe wat has happened...u wont be mad at me (i guess...) But honestly....i din really scolded him la..its jz like some sort of...err....lecturing?? Jz asked him to speak out about something la....not to be so irresponsible considering he's oso a class monitor for goodness sake....& yet some gals who saw me "scolding" him scolded me for scolding him =S I'm confused.....But its lucky he listened to me (hehe...probably out of fear ;p) & everything ended good yesterday =D PLUS i did apologise to him face-to-face for being too harsh on scolding him ;p

Shoootssssss...!!! (once more....but longer =.=") 2day also dunno wat happened...but the only thing i noe is that i was being flirted by a bunch of Form 4 guys!!!! My GOSH~~!!! I was walking back to school to attend Counselling meeting after having lunch in parade when a bunch of F4 guys who i suppose are quite naughty bunch of guys called my name.....i wasnt thinking clearly & was still thinking who's calling me...then i look up as they're sitting on the wall...when i saw them...i was way CONFUSED coz i dunno who the heck are they!!! =/ Then they wave their hands at me....i was too shocked for words & my hands jz lift but din move at all....then one of they guys shouted: "I'll have the chance to succeed in pikat-ing u!!" I was like...huh...??? Then i jz gave a weak smile & walk off QUICKLY~~~ MAN!!! When was i tat famous huh...?? Terrifying experience i've ever had this time....euw~~made me scared of stepping into Sam Tet anymore in case i meet those guys AGAIN...AIKS~~!!!

Sigh...how am i gonna face BOTH of them???

Sigh...once again....but worse this time...now few of classmates including shan are some sort of talking bout me & vee....man!!! Cant they for once stop all these & let me have some peace?? I'm tired of all these nonsense when me, ern & vee noe PERFECTLY well its impossible to have anything happening between me & vee...I dont need to have anything worse than losing a best friend & making my way thru the year facing vee in my same class IF anything like that happens..which i strongly emphasize once more IT WONT HAPPEN!!! Jz because he helps me to carry the desk & he's interested in me?? GOSH!!! Sigh....i'm bashed~~~dun talk to me about ANYTHING on relationships anymore....tired~~~

People's description about ME =D

Well..few days ago...i got to receive a sms from my ex-classmate who's now studying in Petaling Jaya...The message went like this: "Describe me in ONE WORD....just 1!! & send this msg around to 10 or more frens & u'll be surprised/amazed by their answers..." So...i did wat the msg asked me to do & i send to those close frens of mine...

These are their answers:
Hui Shan: Cute
Wei Yao: Cute
Wei Yang: Hardworking (hm...am i?? ;p)
Chee Pek: Short, ganas & gila (which i dun deny any of these =D)
Vee Shin: Caring ( =O when was i ever caring huh...???)
Yu Leong: Amiable =>
Darren: Serious & hardworking
Yik Hoe: Exact (coz i alwiz correct the choir's pitch ;p) & courteous (courteous..?? Tat's way too high for a compliment bout Joanne Ho here >.< )
Kar Meng: Cute
Pheak Zern: Funny
Fishy: Loud (Hehehe....i TOTALLY agree about it ;p)
Wei Kit: Smart (??? He's kidding ke?? Sigh...)

Depressing moments...

Sigh...i jz cant get it why no one trusts me that i can sing?? They jz NEVER give me a chance to do so...& for sure i cant prove to them...& yet they've considered me as someone who cant sing =/ This is so saddening...they even said i'm able to get into choir jz becoz i can play the piano well & not coz of my voice...that's why they're sure i can get to be the pianist without sweat....they dun even care the hell how i feel...they even said i'm the MOST unneeded, 不关事 person in choir when Ah Pon suggested my name to join the singing competition...SIGH~~~ [ These bunch of people are a few gals from my OWN class....including fishy :'( ...imagine tat....]

Then...here's another case...well....there's a choir performance on next Sat for the leo function...at 1st i tot they dun need a pianist & i'm supposed to sing...i started to dread coz i wont be able to attend the practices due to tomoro's VAD 7 trip plus extra piano lessons on Thursdays....but 2day onli i get to know that they're still using a pianist instead of singing accapella...& they din even ask whether i'm REALLY available anot & they straightaway chose the 2nd pianist who's a F4 guy...ARGH!!!! Another bunch of idiots who NEVER cared for how others feelings are...especially those L6 gals....i jz dunno why....but i've a strong feeling they never like me...probably coz firstly i was never a choir gal until this yr...& secondly probably coz i'm too close to those ex-seniors *shrug* who noes wat they're thinking...but its not my fault that i'm having good relationships with those ex-seniors right?? SIGH~~~really dun understand...

9/9 - The day i'll always remember

Today is 9/9. Once more. 2 yrs ago of this date...i had the most joyful day ^-^

Hmm....I still miss some memories la ;)
1. The 1st time i played snooker.
2. The times i rode the public bus with D.
3. The ONLY time i went to his house + his study room
4. The times we watched movies.
5. His voice. But DEFINITELY not his looks =P
6. The hours we spent chatting away on our handphones till our ears are hot...hehe...

Uhh...too much...hehe...but wat's past is past....& i sure dun regret.....glad + relieved with my decision too...kekeke....so jz posting this post for fun ;p

The Interview With God

Cool website =) Inspiring too....& this accounts for my weird MUET teacher who one day suddenly comes in during his class with his laptop & opening short movie clips that made us laugh till our stomach aches....& some inspiring ones too including this one....which leaves the most impact in my heart =D I'M IN LOVE WITH GOD~~~

Bio Trip at Cameron Highlands

Fui yoh..!! These 2 days real hebat lor...jz got back from Cameron where we had our bio trip this afternoon...had quite some good results la =D Got quite a lot of bugs & insects for our BIG project....hehehehe ;P

Okie...to start with....yesterday morning me & a gang of frens (including Fish, Ah Ong, Chim, YiQian & Vee) got crazy that we've planned earlier to have breakfast together at Old Town White Coffee Restaurant before meeting others at the bus station to get the bus up to Cameron...It IS crazy considering we've to meet at 6.45am while the bus leaves at 8am =.=" Anyway...we get to eat breakfast then walk to the bus station which's quite near la...then we're off to Cameron after waiting 15minutes late for the remainin people to arrive...

In Cameron...we've went to 7 places for the MISSION IMPOSSIBLE to be achieved....kekeke...the Butterfly Farm, Rose Valley, Cactus Valley, BOH tea garden, Jabatan Perhutanan & etc...(practically forgotten 2 more places already =P) We're terribly exhausted after these hectic trips & so we went back to our sweetie apartment to rest after getting loads of insects of different kinds =)

When we're back to our apartment...we went back out again for our dinner of steamboat...man...those 3 tallest guys of our class actually sit back & wait for us to serve them...coz they dont even noe how to make steamboat....HOW GREAT!!! Then from then on all the guys are not considered by us as guys di...but dah "naik pangkat" become 女人...while we remain as sweet 女生...muahahahahahaha!!! After dinner...we all went to the pasar malam...got loads of food...then head back to our apartment for a BIG party =D

Way back in our apartment...after bathing, dealing with our capture of insects...then my gang of frens & some guys (those 3 guys again =/）started playing "cho dai di"....wakekeke =P Okie...even though few yrs ago almost everytime whenever i went Fish's or Ern's house both of them'll teach me how 2 play..but i alwiz forget how after each time...sorry la but i've short memory prob ;p But now technique dah improved pun...kekekeke...Then me & Fish had a cup of coffee each coz we've planned not to sleep at all whole night....ended up its not onli us who's that crazy....kekeke....so we whole gang played cards plus the boys took turns play cards + chinese chess...we gals dunno how 2 play so we jz stuck to cards =D So....in the end...we all slept around 4am somethin...me & Fishy even became guards of the living room...wakekeke =P

We woke up at 5.30am for another round of insects-hunting...memang "gan zheong" lor...& yet we (me & Fishy) are as bersemangat as anything....OMG~~!!! Next time i noe wat i'll do to get myself not to sleep at all....coffee WORKS!!! Anyway....its way too early so we din get anything at all except for a real good exercise...help to lose pounds we've gained the day before ;p After tat everyone jz went back to the apartment...some went back for their beauty sleep...but doinks like us went for cho dai di once more...hahahahaha =P We're practically obsessed already ;] Then we checked out at 11.30am...went for lunch...walked around town after that & finally get on our bus back to Ipoh luu....

Sad to have such short trip....yet its satisfying since we got together closer to each other...especially for the opposite sex....However...we 女生 got influenced by those 女人alreadi..saddening lor....now we're full of quotes like "gan zheong" (紧张 in canto), LMDY = lam mm dou yeh, 有机会的... (canto), jaa dou (乍到), nei mou bik ngor arr... (你不要逼我啊...), etc...OH NO!!! I dowan get into the Sam Tet trend di la...hahahahaha...but got in good relationships with all the guys already =D Now we're merged with the guys group di oso...good good...haha...sama-sama help & provide ;p Now me & Fish each got a nickname di...haha..thx to those guys la...scared of insects pulak...while we both dah pro la...catch & deal without gloves & no dilly dally like them...so Fish's now 猛姐no.1 while me 猛姐no.2 + 凶姐=D

Sis convocation

Yesterday's my sis's convocation...& i've missed my last bio test to attend her convo =S But its not something i'm dreading actually....coz i get to have extra time to study my bio which is still my fearmost subject....kekeke....PLUS i get to have a replacement test next Monday even if it means i've to purposely go back to school for that paper since the holiday has started....but dun care la...i can get to relax myself, eat until i get fat then onli start studying & get my test done in that 1hr & 30mins as fast as possible =D

Now i know being the convocation's centre attraction is something both awful feeling & yet a feel of relief of getting away from universities & MOST from the tiring examinations plus the joy. Its awful when u got to walk around wearing that gown & that mortar board where u've to spent LOTS of time getting them pinned to ur hair (or should i say to the head??) so that it wont fall off (me & my mum BOTH did for my sis) & not to mention trying to balance it while walking...then after the ceremony's over u've got to walk around the whole place looking for friends to take pics with as remembrance....walau...!!! Tat's the most awful part....people are all over the place...& thinking of looking for even a person?? My gosh..!!! I've experienced that with my sis as i'm "honoured" to be appointed as her camera girl...& try imagining me wearing a almost 4 inches high heels walking around with her?? =/

Yet....now i onli realised it that i LOVE getting flowers =D Besides being camera girl....i was also asked to hold the bunches of flowers my sis got from me & my parents & also her frens....man...i jz feel REAL happy enough even though i noe its not me who's getting it...hehehehe ;) So....no matter what....next time during my convo....i SURE mau bunches & bunches of flowers =D I dont care whatever flowers i get...as long as they're not chrysanthenums for sure....preferably lilys & roses =)


I LOVE FLOWERS~~~

GOSH~~!!!

Man...when fishy started saying about it....i nearly fainted...She...in my opinion at that time...is definitely OUT OF HER MINDS!!! She muz be crazy even to think of such thing...GOSH!!! For goodness sake..!!! He's my best fren's ex bf...not to mention is u fishy's good buddy's ex bf la....ur saying that according to ur survey that he's interested in me??? That's definitely out of the question..!!! N-O W-A-Y!!!! Your survey is definitely down the drains...Even if he does (he better not...i'll probably punch him in the face...& if he ever does...he's sure got his head knocked to insaneness)...i sure wont do such thing as to ever betray my own best friend...no matter how many dozen times nutcracker Ern said about me & him getting together...I rather get together with an ugly fatso than to be a betrayer...

So...Conclusion: NO NO NO~~~!!!! I'M NO BETRAYER~~~

Treasure your life

After what has happened in the past few days with all those fatal tragedies....tat ended up with allot of people in terribly sad moods....i start to realise how treasurable is our life...never really take the effort to appreciate whatever i have....jz take everything for granted when one day u'll be living & yet the other day u'll appear in heaven...one can never fix your own destiny no matter how great or powerful you are...you jz cant fight God's fate....My mum's right actually...i shouldn't be mad at anything even with small tiny matters...realised that my temper has grown worse starting this year...probably from stress or unhapiness...?? I'm also not sure of it myself...i jz hope to be my ownself once more...the happy-go-lucky, always laughing my head off gal who able to bring happiness to others...but recently i jz grown gloomy....rather to be alone & not join with big groups especially dont really enjoy being in a party when i remember clearly last time i was described as a sociable person compared to my bro....sigh...i hope this surely wont worsen to be psychological sickness....I just wanna live life to the fullest & be happy as my ownself...the original ME...!! And also get some new year resolutions so i can be fully well prepared for next yr's BIG day -- STPM....okok...i noe myself that the lazy worm in me still havent the intention of leaving yet...but trust me...when the time comes i wont be a lazy bum anymore...jz cant stop my dream from coming true as a doctor....

~LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST~

A plain normal NOBODY

Sigh...yea...I didn't say much about it to anyone....not even my own best fren...but i'm jz plain unhappy...tat's all..really dunno wat's the reason...jz have the kinda feeling that my circle of frens is getting smaller & smaller ever...is it my own hallucination?? Or maybe it has became the truth?? Is it caused by my own attitude?? Or had i overdone everything?? Really have lost my mind on that la...yet i'm perfectly sure my attitude of dealing with frens have never changed...i'm still the same Joanne as ever...yet i jz cant get to mix around with more frens jz like wat i've always succeed in doin it for the past few years...& I always feel neglected...& i'm always left out in whatever activities or discussions...those ppl I mixed with hav their own frens anyway...& I am a real nobody...& I'm sure I'm not that kind of person like those gals...I need time...yet no one give me time to mix around...great feeling tat is huh...?? No one cared for me & wat I get in return is NOTHING..!!! Sigh...I'm under stress with LOTS of unhappiness...I really dunno wat to do anymore...

~I'M A NOBODY~

UNHAPPY Choir Farewell

Sigh....wat i say only is that this farewell seemed to be the most unhappy one i ever had in my life...i jz feel that i'm a left-outer & a nobody in choir...during the whole night i never ate the buffet (its my dinner actually), played any games or get crazy together with them....i jz busied myself by holding cameras & not to mention taking a few pics with some of them la....but that's all i did....yet nobody cared whether i did anything with them....pn tong is exceptional la....others?? As if they'll care....Even the organizing committee....they NEVER tell me whatever is going to happen....the whole programme & bla bla bla....& i'm as blur as ever even though i'm one of the O.C....it was embarassing when others non-O.C asked me questions about the whole programme....& obviously i am sad too....i feel neglected, left out, not being cared....great feeling is tat....plus those girls obviously are not my type....they wore....my gosh...!! EXTREME formal for a farewell party ONLY...& they criticised me for being too casual wear....GREAT!!! I'm wearing a blouse & a skirt....wat MORE do they expect?? Excuse me la dears...its only a FAREWELL PARTY....not that its a wedding or huge functions....Expect me to wear something that i show everything from top to toe?? IDIOTS...!!! Even asked me to change....the heck i care..!!! They're jz plain idiots....Ok...i did feel guilty as i'm Hoe's dance partner to see him wearing SOooo formal (well....at least MORE formal than mine)...& i sure sense the unhapiness in him as he compared normal + plain me with other beautiful + elegant gals...but tat's wat i can do since i never get to go home with my PRS test till 4pm somethin...so dun get angry with me after i've apologised allot of times...u wanna get mad i oso dun care already..!! I jz dont feel happy in any of the clubs i joined....counselling pun macam tu...archery too...but at least a BIT better....VAD 7 going to be one of those too....Man..!!! I really dunno how i can stand such F6 life for the next 1 yr & 3 months...sigh.......

Shocked...yet happy =)

Was a bit shocked when yesterday Ben came to look for me when i was walking back to class with my frens after recess...thought i'll be having good news....but instead he asked me to be the pianist accompanying the choir on Prize Giving Day on 8th of July...was real shocked with that bit of news...yea...haha...but it'a a great chance for me to show to others who doesn't know me well of my music talent...so i agreed being a pianist....anyway...it wont be that difficult i guess...

Today i've to play the whole piece on the piano...1st time huh.....so very very nervous coz i'm actually in a role of leading the whole choir leh...until my both hands shake...so not even the practice i had last night helped at all....but since Ben praised me for giving a good job...guess i really did fine...but hopefully i'll be better on Sat & not fumble at all....

Have to go already...PA Statistic to do...plus need to compose the whole piece of song again with the alteration of key....sigh...mum's gonna nag nag nag again...~~~

Happy day =D

To start off...i'm getting more & more fond of choir now i've realised...jz like those kind of teamwork that i've been experiencing over the last 5yrs when i'm in Chinese Orchestra....& not to mention my passion over music ;p So...guess i'll jz stay on till the last minute without quiting jz because i'm not chosen into the national level...silly enough even to think of it....so...that's that for choir lor....oh ya...!! Forgot to mention something...i'll be performing on 8/7, SamTet's Hari Anugerah...my 1st performance ever since i joined choir leh =D Happy yet nervous...dunno whether i'll do a good job or not =S

Phew...!! The conflict between us finally broke off when he finally smiled at me today when we met after such a long time ever since i scolded him off coz of another person....felt a lil guilty for scolding an innocent person =.=" But now everything's back to normal again =) No more arguments or misunderstandings...the grey clouds have finally left to leave a bright blue sky =D

Shocking predicts to hear from fish & jy...hope its not true though about their survey...we're only normal frens...truthfully from my heart...dunno about him la though...jz hoping its not true...i dread about the truth when the day comes...sigh...

hELp m3...!!!!

媽啊！！Today is such unlucky day for me =S How can anyone be SOoooo noisy....like a GIGANTIC "generator"....bla bla bla for the whole day....2 people tim err....MAN!!! Even me also not their competition la...i'm only the volume of my voice..other than that...i can be as quiet as can be...& now it results that both my ears are still ringing by the continuous booming of their voices =.=" Aiks...poor me...guess i'll be having nightmares tonight ='( Plus reminder to myself that next time guess i gotta remember to bring lotsa cotton buds to stuff my ears almost whole day already =.="

~DOUBLE NIGHTMARES~

~FOOTBALL FEVER~

Recently in football fever...haha...it may seemed unusual for a girl to be crazy over football...but i'm one of those crazy gang...mUAhAHaHaA!!! Too bad still gotta have consistency in studyin...so can only be PARTIAL crazy ;P Anyway....ENGLAND ROXXX!!!! F6 SUX!!! =P

I LOVE FIFA~~ FOOTBALL FEVER

Driving...

Walau ehh...cant believe that i actually drove all the way from Jelapang to Chemor today....wakekeke =P But acually drove illegally la...hehehe....i DID have my license..& i have the P stickers...but the thing is that the P stickers are not stuck to the Kancil i'm driving...they're on another manual car...so....a P license driver driving such long way without P stickers ;P Its kinda horrible driving on a busy road...scary too....but its syok le...!!!! =D Sigh...how i wish i can drive to school tomoro by myself already...then no need to depend on anyone to fetch me to tuitions...& oso can drive myself home...plus ANYWHERE....hehehe...

Currently in a dilemma which club or societies or sports should i join...wanted archery club....but scared will hurt my hands which i need them for playing piano...cant risk that much....sigh..!!!!!

Choir...disappointment...

Sigh...as what i've half expected...i'm really not chosen into the national level for choir competition...was frustrated + disappointed at 1st to see those who're being chosen...but to think from a different aspect i feel relieved since i'll be having more time spend on my studies...wont be busy going for choir practices all the time if i was to be chosen...so no worries there..!! =D Even i'm not chosen this time....but guess i'll still continue joining choir...not going to quit like others who gave up jz coz they're not chosen....

Another sweet guy ;P

Wakekeke...today i've found another "target" to fetch me & frens to tuitions luuu =P Okie...i felt kinda guilty la actually....coz kinda like using him as our driver...but then i've felt bored walking to tuitions almost EVERYDAY already....i'm bored getting darker & darker day by day already la...no chance for me to get back to my fair self anymore =( But he's sweet to fetch us le....although he'll grumble the whole journey la...hahaha...(its true =P) but really owe him allot la =) Sweet guys....real hard to find...

樹 或 風

我心内的掙扎
無人理解
無人明白

心裏一半想接受你
但另一半
卻為另一段我認爲發生的可能性很低的感情而猶豫
讓我無情之下拒絕了你
讓你漸漸從我身邊離去

身邊少了溫暖
與大樹般的依靠
生活好似顛倒了

我
好似一片葉子
受風與樹的動搖
躊躇與你與他之間的抉擇

告訴我
我該隨那冷漠無比的風而去
還是
挽留在永不放棄我的你這棵樹上？

幸福。。。

在這世界上
每個人都注定有自己的幸福
要懂得察覺它的存在
更需親自尋找

我早已找到了
屬於自己的那片天空
也品嘗過
那酸甜苦辣的感覺

但我
卻似乎與幸福無緣
只能與它擦身而過

兩次的挫敗
已使我再也不相信童話
因爲對我而言
童話
只會發生在相信它的人的身上

而我
卻已敗得不能自己

我的心受夠了創傷
已開始凝固了。。。
默默等待能溶化我心的人。。。


只求幸福不要再爽約了

~sPeEChLESs~

HELP~~~!!! Can anyone please jz give me a hand & pull me out of confusion??? I've made myself a mess now....sigh....Why cant i just stop thinking about him when i've made myself a promise for not getting into a relationship these few years?? BAH!!! I REALLY SUCKS!!! Even i've told everyone that knows him that i dread seeing him...yet....i dont know le....jz keep wanting to get his attention....ISH...!!!! Can anyone jz tell me what do i ought to do?? ='(

...I'M CONFUSED...

DiSsAPpoINtED...again

Sigh....yesterday & today are AMC chinese orchestra's annual concert...so my juniors will be performing...& me being their senior went back to help them plus giving fullest support to their concert...however...the erhu juniors have failed me once more....meaning that whatever i've scolded or advised had resulted into NOTHING!!! So..meaning my cells have died continuously without any reason....& the energy & time i've wasted on them had become ZEROoooo~~~
Haiz...even the suona group have improved tremendously until every ex-seniors also praised them...while erhu group?? Bah...!! "Hopeless" is the only word i can use to describe them...but "them" is only meant for those juniors from F3 until F3 below...ADUH!!! I really have lose hope on them already...tonight's the last night...& is up to them whether they wanna protect their reputation from being ruined or not...i'm not going tonight so i dont really know...but i really hope they'll do better than last night....else not....

~DISSAPOINTED + LOST HOPE~

New member of Ho family ^ - ^

Last Fri....a new member is added into my family =) A cute cocker spaniel!!! Hehe...after lots of persuasion from my dad, me & my sis to my mum who strongly disagree on adding another dog....we finally got our way ;) Anyway...back to the main topic...its a male cocker spaniel....golden colour...& TERRIBLY cute le...!!!! Too bad we haven't think of a suitable name for it...still waiting for its birthcert then we may get an idea on wat name to give it...So...now we have 3 dogs in my house lu =D

Today is such an unlucky day...sigh....Morning had a tug war with my new dog...tat dog's still shy coz still cant adapt so ended up bathing it in the cage =S Then early in the morning i had severe stomach pain right until now...then jz now my dad checked me & diagnosed that i'm having early warnings of appendix =S Sigh....so probably later i need to go have operation...haiz...what to do?? I'm such a big-eater...& this happened....BAH~~!!! What a "GREAT" way to start this 2-weeks school holidays~~~SPEECHLESS...


~GOD BLESS ME~

...hAtE sCoLDinG...

Sigh....went back to AMC after requested by my juniors last night....said they need my assistance & also wanna complain something to me...so despite the scoldings i got from my mum...i went back....I did teach my juniors who'll be playing solo in the concert next Thurs & Fri....but i ALSO scolded my younger juniors....sigh...i wouldn't have wanted to do that la....hate getting into bad temper...plus i hate hurting people's feelings with my sharp words & TOO straightforward attitude...yet...i've caused 3 juniors to cry....& i sure feel uneasy with that....sigh....everytime i go back sure i'll scold someone....& my cells are getting lesser & lesser everytime i go back....dying continuously with no mercy =S & for sure...i'm getting older & older day by day....BAH..!!! But really....hard not to scold with their lousy playings when their concert is just next Thurs & Fri...hard not to get concern for them & also the reputation of AMCCO....sigh....what am i supposed to do?? I'm sure getting hatreds from allot of people that i've scolded...but they never realise the point behind for what i've did....I never asked for them to noe the reasons behind it....but i only hope they'll appreciate the efforts i've wasted on them...haiz....speechless....!!!

Teacher's Day...

Its been almost one week i haven't touch the com....so no need to mention of even getting a chance to blog anything...its been a busy week with tuition classes & the stack of homework given by the school & tuition teachers...lucky its school holidays for the next 2 weeks so i can actually take a rest from this tiring start of form 6...(actually not QUITE a holiday with the continuous tuition classes & oso choir practices =S)

Yesterday's Teacher's Day. Ok...its boring from the start when all of us gotta sit in the hall for hours listening to VIP's presenting their speeches & bla bla bla....& finally resulted in getting leg cramps...duh~~ But after those few hours....its fun...hehe...had our class party with 2 big cakes that we have ordered (Chocolate Banana & Chocolate Opera...YUMMY!!! ;P) & not to mention torturing the lone 6 guys of my class...hehe=P But we bullied most of Vee la...but its his own fault from the 1st place...cant believe him & Ah Chaw laughing at me for joining choir...GRR!!! So....its his own fault that he got bullied by us gals....kekeke...But actually having fun also meant that we got closer with each other...especially between guys & girls....so that's that...& school reopening 2 weeks may probably mean an even noisier class =P ( hard not to le with my presence...hehe ;P)

Phew...finished my school homeworks last night....cracked my head over the maths question from tuition class but failed =S...& finally i've more time to spend on my studying...next 2 weeks wont be holidays for me...in fact its precious time for me to spend on my studies...HOW "great"...!!

HAPPY~~!!

Wow...my family approved me joining choir without any hesitation...probably because of my..ahem...brilliant reason of getting in there jz for fun ;P....so i went for the audition on Thurs....& guess what?? I SUCCEEDED!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!! Haha....finally....i can prove to others that i can actually sing...& people or even friends who doesn't know me well shouldn't have laughed at me at my attempt of trying out the audition....but anyway....the conclusion is ===> I'm now a choir member of Sam Tet Choir =D So...gonna start practising my singing soon so as not to destroy the reputation of me being my sis's sister & oso my reputation of having perfect pitch....keke....or else i'll be a laughing stock =P But even i've not joined any choir practices yet...i'm already famous enough in choir....thanks to my sis la =S So...have to gambate lu...!!!

F6 REALLY starting now...

Finally....today we're allocated into our classes that'll end maybe for this whole year....well...glad to be in L6B2 with Fishy with me too....i'm already awfully glad that i wont be with those ppl tat i dread....hahahaha =D But i'm same class with Vee though....hope u wont mind much la (this is specially dedicated to Ern) & we've selected him as our class monitor too....hehehe....funny & naive guy (shh...dun tell him this ;P)....plus whenever he walks in the class hor...its like having a gigantic earthquake =P (this is true)

I dunno la...but i predicted that it'll be a fun class to be in...although later allot of girls will be leaving for either JPA or transferring to other schools for art stream...our class will still be stuck with only 6 guys...haha.....nice time for us gals to bully them =P

Hmm...decided to try for the prefectorial board interview next Friday....sigh....even though i really dun wanna be a prefect once more...but at least i can get more credit which will be an advantage for my future when i go for universities....so...guess i'll just have to stick to it la...see if the interview goes well or not lor....Then joining ISCF too....its really time for me to seek for God already after such long time i've never been to church....pai seh le...me as a christian never been to church for almost 10yrs already -.-" Dunno....now oso wanting to go for the choir audition tomoro afternoon...if i can straightaway join the Perak team & go for national level then it'll be even a greater advantage...hehe=P But my singing...haih..dunno la...somtimes good sometimes real lousy....see if my family approve or not lor....

Okla...need to go now la...need to study.....guess i'll be very busy in few more days' time...so i'll try blogging as much as i can this few days....ciaoz!!!


~AS HAPPY AS CAN BE~

2nd day....tiring -.-"

2nd day at Sam Tet....enjoyable...!!! =D We played station games...had a fantastic time getting to know each group member even better....but getting bruises all over my arms & legs plus a big swollen lump on my back is not nice at all ='( However...its our fate to get into the same group & get to know each other in just 3days time....so i really appreciate it ;P Jz knew yesterday afternoon during maths tuition that 2 members from my group are actually my maths tuition maths....pai seh le...yesterday only know =S But the guys in my group not bad la...hehe...not their looking la of coz=P...but their attitude lor....funny & can joke around lor....had a really fun yet tiring time...!!

2day Chee Pun finally talks to me...haha...but whenever we talk...we're almost like arguing...hehe...maybe sometimes i sounded angry=P Anyway...not i noe why i cant contact him all this while...finally...his hp got lost alreadi wor...duh~~ Then so i gave him my hp num as he requested after shouting at each other for quite some time at the canteen....hehe=P

I really dont understand him lor....everytime & whenever i see him...sure he'll wave vigorously at me & loudly calling my name..as if wanting to let his frens noe that he knows me -.-" Really cant understand guys....dread seeing him everyday now....sigh....its his OWN fault...!!!


~FATE IS UNPREDICTABLE~

1st day as a Form 6-er

Today...my 1st day in a co-ed school..Sam Tet....actually it wasn't that bad as what i've imagined a few days ago....thought it'll be a horrible day to start with with so many guys plus people that i dread to see...but it's actually not that nad la as long as i just don't care about those people i dread to see....hehe=P & the astonishing thing that happened today....is that...i was chosen as my group...which is Group 17's assistant leader!!!! Great day to start now to think of it.....hehehehe ;P

Well...hopefully i'm getting high posts in any clubs or societies i'm gonna join...or if possible be the assistant monitor...coz i really really dowanna be a prefect ANYMORE la!!! Torturing job...will sure to be even more torturing now i'm in an almost all boys school....sure get even more bullying than what i got last time in AMC...so i really wanna ANTI-PREFECT~~!!!!

Sigh...dunno why....no appetite today =(


~A LAUGH A DAY =D~

Dreading.....F6 life...

Sigh...3 more days of countdown to the life i've been dreading....FORM 6!!! It's not the 1st time i'm in a co-ed school....but the problem is the 1st time i'm in co-ed school is when i'm in Wesley Kindergarten....innocent & carefree as can be....but now....13yrs later....i'm gonna be in a co-ed school once more...& if i'm...ermm..."lucky" enough i'll be in the same class with those ex-kindergarten-classmates...& that includes gals & oso guys =S

But no doubt....i'm gonna...hmm....act fierce....haha...then sure no one will dare to even come near me...hehehehe...else mebe i'm gonna bite their head off.....then it'll sure be a peaceful life for me WITHOUT guys......YAY!!!! SIMPLE PLEASANT PEACEFUL LIFE.....how nice will that be....*dreaming as usual* =P Plus me & fish will sure to choose the most back place in the class...lolz....then we can start gossiping about ppl's bad stuffs....kekeke...& no one will notice us ;P

Just now after lunch went to buy my school uniform alreadi...what a great change after changing the blue skirt into something new after wearing the old F1-F5 style for 5yrs...lucky though that i didn't gain anymore fat in my waist....haha....still the same....27"".....keke....but since i bought the skirt which is JUST fit...so i cant possibly gain any inches of fat...else i cant fit into that skirt already =P

Okie la....enough of "crapping" today la.....hehe....will blog next time when i'm free enough....
AU REVOIR~~~

A tiny piece of a huge stone lifted up from the top of my heart...

Phew...jz finished my maths tuition homework given today...sigh...not sure how to do the last question though...GAH!!! A bit frustrated...

Hmm....really owe Yih Chew allot now....haha...he "saved" my life once more....one moment i was SOooo terribly sad down in the bottom of my heart....then next moment after reading the messages that he send me via handphone (ok...even though sms-ing between Russia & M'sia REALLY costs me allot...but tat was the only way when i was desperate to get advices from him *shrug*)...i was like....wow....i actually got more cheerful....!!!

So...according to what he've told me....i'm not gonna give up...sent my appeal letter already though....yet no way....not until the last moment....coz i'll never believe that the government would be THAT bias...& i also know from my previous experiences that the government always do stuffs as if they're taking their own sweet time when everyone who applied for the scholarship was waiting for the results with worried feelings....how "GREAT"!!!! Plus i rather choose to go for the scholarship rather than stuck with SOME guys + gals who'll be making me flare my temper in no time if i am to be in the same school....& i would not want to imagine if they're in the same class with me....well...sure it'll be DISASTER...DISASTER...DISASTER!!!

Okie dokie then...wanna have my beauty sleep now....Au revoir~~~

Disappointment...

Sigh...no matter how hard i prayed every single day....my wish didn't come true ='( I'VE FAILED MY JPA INTERVIEW!!! Sigh...the golden opportunity & my dream of studying overseas have shattered into pieces in just one day....i really don't know what else to say & do except just to prepare to get into Sam Tet for f6....which to be seemed to be a torturing fact to face =S Hopefully there'll be no more guys stepping into my life anymore...guys really are rocks that had been always blocking my path to success...i have already fell down twice in my life & i really don't wish to have a third time...the disappointment & pain that i always endured during my fall has really made my spirit weaker & weaker....

It's so very unfair!!! Why does the Malays always get scholarships even with lousy results while we Chinese always have to suffer??? Why is our government so unfair to every race?? Didn't the government always insist on giving even treatings to every race??? ARGH!!!!!!!! & they even give the scholarship to those straight A holders!!! Hey!!! Does it mean that straight A holders will bloom more if they are given the chance to go overseas for studies??? To mean the answer is NO!!! The government shouldn't have biased towards those straight A holders while abandoning those who should have been qualified!!! FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!!!!!!!!!

Man...i really really wanted to get that scholarship...my parents also have been hoping me to get it...yet i've failed them once more...sigh...how disappointing...i've even dumped "him" just to get myself concentrate on my studies...& yet....i've failed once more....sigh....but dumping "him" makes me breaking record by dumping the 2nd guy....hehe=P I know i'm kind of teruk....but what else can i do besides being cruel??? *big big sigh* However...at least it's good for both of us....he don't have to suffer months & months of waiting for me to accept anymore...while i'm having FREEDOM again!!!! YAY!!!! CHeeRs!!! *wink* Back to single mode again....hmm...kind of miss the feeling of being single now i think of it =P

Hmm...is it a coincidence or what?? The time i started my relationship with Darren is on 9/9/2005 & we ended on 31/5/2006....then on 16/9/2006 Yew Ming confessed his feelings (yet i've never accepted him =P) & i dumped him....errr...i mean completely rejected him on 10/5/2006....sigh....everytime also ended with 8months onli...& every time started & ended in the same month =S Guess 9 is my lucky number while 5 is my unlucky number then....hehe ;P


~WALK WITH THE LORD~

To: Shan & Fish

Now u don't have any evidence to prove that i wrote anything at all....hahaha...Tell all u want to & say all u want....but..please....one thing....DUN MESS WITH MY SOCIAL LIFE!!!! & I SURELY APPRECIATE THAT VERY VERY MUCH!!!!

Please let me have my own privacy & freedom to write all i want....& i'm PERFECTLY sure that none of the posts i've written concerns ANYONE at all....ok??? I jz need FREEDOM & PRIVACY!!!

Tiring day...

Today early morning around 6.45am i've gotta wake up di...sigh...plus last night had toss & turn almost for half an hour before i really get into a good sleep...guess my sleeping time gone all topsy-turvy again =.=" But getting this opportunity in joining this resuscitation programme organised by General Hospital that was supposedly to be opened to hospital staffs only is a real gold chance....gotta thanks to Johan le =D Jz met him during our 3days exposure programme & he's SOooo kind to help us to join this programme....sWEet!!! =P But i kind of suspect his dad's my dad's classmate when they're studying in MU le...hmm....have to confirm this ;)

Even though me & my fren are really outsiders there...err...we're the youngest too actually...hehe...all of them are hospital staffs including nurses & doctors....so...we both kinda attract attention=P However...din care much about them la unless they asked who're we...yet we really learnt lots through this programme...even did through practical with fake dummies la of course...we did One Man CPR, Two Man CPR & Foreign Body Airway Obstruction (Choking)...learnt the correct way to save no matter anyone whenever they have such difficulties....so whatever we've learnt really helps allot especially when emergencies & even in daily happenings...but tiring le....8.30am until 3pm =S But too bad i still gotta finish my maths tuition homework...so many!!!! =.="

Okie then...gotta do my maths homework now....ciaoz~~

wHAt tO Do???

It's been days since the last time i posted anything...my sis came back after her final test for a whole week's of holiday...so she kind of boss-ed over the com & thus i cant use the com & endless to say i cant post anything...she left for Penang again for her viva test on Wed so....YIPEE!!! Com's "mine" again....hehe =P

Sigh...i noe i've been repeating about this thousands of times...but i really don't know what to do with him....it's kind of awkward whenever we'll be seeing each other every Thursday at my maths tuition...it's kind of a coincidence that he's having accounts tuition just beside where i'm having maths tuition...so...i get to see him every Thursday....yet i don't want to see him!!! I always try ways of preventing myself from meeting him yet to no avail =S I wanna tell him straight not to bother me again since i don't want to get hurt for the 2nd time...but....i really cant get myself to tell him....i'm way too straightforward till i'll most probably hurt someone's feelings...

What am i to do??? I really pray and pray that i'll get JPA scholarship & my parents let me go for it so that i can get far far away from him....hopefully....i really cant bear using another sen of his money that he reload for my hp every 3months....& neither i can bear to have him waiting for me to accept him for longer & longer period since i know it'll be either a VERY VERY long time away...or it'll be forever "No!!".....It's not that i don't have feelings for him....but i'm not ready for any relationships yet...& i don't think it's time for that yet....

Sigh sigh sigh....what am i supposed to do?? Just let it be?? Or tell him straight???

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Disappointed~~

Guys....i really am disappointed with u guys....sigh....one has broken my heart last year June...the excruciating pain still remains in my heart till now...one has made me happy & yet confused since last year's Sept even till now....one has made my mind gone crazy last year's Dec....but given up after my rejection (Phew..that's a GREAT relief...)
So...the conclusion is...

I'VE LOST TRUST OVER GUYS ALREADY!!!!!

Guys are really hopelessly mundane human beings....sigh...what am i going to do in my social life...huh?? *scratching my head* ( but my brain's still blank =S)

p/s: Hmm....seems that i've met allot of guys huh?? Socializing with them seemed to be the difficult part....haiz...

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Men Are Hard To Be Pleased

The problems with GUYS:

If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him; If u Don't, he says u are PROUD.
If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him; If u Don't, he says u are from KAMPUNG.
If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN; If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS.
If u are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE; If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT.
If u don't LOVE him, he tries to POSSESS u; If u LOVE him, he will try to LEAVE u.(very true huh?)
If u don't make love with him, he says u don't LOVE him; If u do he says u are CHEAP.
If u tell him your problems, he says u are TROBLESOME; If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him.
If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him; If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u.(Bullshit!)
If u BREAK your PROMISE, u cannot be TRUSTED; If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.
If u SMOKE, u are a BAD girl; If he SMOKES, he is a GENTLEMEN.
If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK; If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.
If u HURT him, u are CRUEL; If he HURTS u, u are too SENSITIVE!!& sooo hard to please!!!!!
If u DISTURB him when he doesn't need you, he says ur BOTHERING him; If u don't want to BOTHER him, he says ur UNPREDICTABLE. (Ain't that supposed to be saying that GUYS are unpredictable??)
If ur LONELY, its ur own problem; If he is LONELY, u have to ACCOMPANY him. (Is that fair at all for us girls?)


Sigh...guys are really hard to understand...humans are complicated enough...but guys really add more to the complication =/ Guys out there...i'm sorry to say this...but MOST guys really acted like what i've stated above...mind you...only MOST...not ALL ;P

Busy busy once more...

Hm...long time didn't post anything since the day i got JPA interview...Ern came back from Aussie & left already after almost 1 week's time...& starting April i've gone for tuitions already even though i haven't really decided what to choose...Bio, Chem & Addmaths tuition arousing me =/ For the whole week i'll only be home in the afternoon on Tues & Wed...& for Mon & Wed nights i'm still having my japanese class which i've started with mum since before Chinese New Year...

Yesterday matriculation's results are out alreadi...as predicted i'm not getting it considering my dad's job...so relying on JPA scholarship...praying real hard so that i can get it...sigh =S I really wanted to get that scholarship...Why?? Firstly...so that i can fly far far away from Ipoh & most important from HIM...cant bear to break one more guy's heart...Secondly...my dad's gonna retire in few yr's time & i dun wanna waste too much time & money in achieving mine & dad's dreams...Allot of my frens actually asked me y i wanted to fight with those who REALLY need the scholarship seeing that my dad can actually afford me to anywhere i want no matter local or even overseas....sigh....really cant understand them...they're maybe jealous at me...but it really doesn't mean that rich families cannot apply scholarships right?? I think its really unfair for them to have such thoughts...BAH!!!

Cant believe that some guy frens of mine described me as UNPREDICTABLE??? Wat da.....!!!! Hey guys out there...don't u noe females are meant to be BORNT unpredictable?? If not...we gurls are surely to be bullied by u bullies....& our lives will probably be at risk EVERY SECONDS!!! Duh~~~ Whatever i think or do...some guy frens of mine will give their 1st impression about me is that i'm unpredictable...great....go on with THAT then guys....u noe wat....some guys out there really SUX!!! There's only one thing to describe guys ===> HARD TO BE PLEASED + UNDERSTAND Hmph!!!!!

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Phew....RELIEVED!!! =D

Phew!!! Really thanks to Yih Chew le...he's a guy fren of mine who's studying medic course in Russia now...knew him thru HuiShan (if i'm not mistaken)....knowing him is a fortune too...hehe....coz he's a JPA scholarship holder...& since i'm applying it too....i got lots of tips from him =D

Well...few days ago on Tues...i jz went for my JPA interview at the Pejabat Tabung Haji Perak...Before i went in to the room...i was full of confidence that i do very well...but then by the time i've finished the interview which's a group discussion...i've lost my confidence...almost COMPLETELY!!!! Oh man...that really SUX!!! I was thinking..."man...i dun have any chance at all competing with those others..." But...really thanks to Yih Chew le...he jz told me that the interview doesn't count much in the marks....phew!!! He oso told me bout his own story that he oso thinks like me last time coz he got quite low marks...& yet now....he's in Russia alreadi....studying medic as what he wanted...

Is that luck?? Or is it really his hard work?? No matter what...i'm gonna get my fingers crossed....i really wanted that JPA scholarship...& if possible...get tot go to Russia...as long as i can flee from Ipoh...that's enough alreadi actually....

MAN!!! I'm still not sure about my future....aiks!!


~PEACE OUT===jOaNnE~

1st day at hospital

Ok...today's the day....& is also the day i've decided NEVER EVER will i take forensic science!!! Ok....now i noe...i'm not scared at all looking at dead bodies...neither i'm scared looking at them doing autopsy on a dead body...but the thing is....ITS TOO DAMN HORRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Although i really appreciate God for giving me such a chance....& i really do appreciate the experience i had for today....yet it really never cross my mind that it can be THAT gross!!! Imagine this...those guys cut the skin of the chest...pull them apart...or ought i say...TEAR them apart...=.=" then...use a BIG + long...& i really mean big...looks kind of like parang...then start sawing the tulang rusuk (ok..this is 1 of the worst parts) After they've finished removing the section of tulang rusuk....then they'll start cutting the organs & take them out for inspection to see what's the cause of the victim's death....after inspection...they'll DUMP the organs back into the body!!!!! EUW!!!! That's the WORST part...!!!! ARGH!!! Really cant imagine how can i still stand there & watch the whole process...aiks!!! =S

So...i've decided...no matter how bad....NO WAY i'm gonna take forensic science even if i was forced to!!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Everything about me -- Part 2

Your Japanese Name Is...

Akina Sato

What's your Japanese Name?

You Are Balanced - Realist - Empowered

You feel your life is controlled both externally and internally. You have a good sense of what you can control and what you should let go. Depending on the situation, you sometimes try to exert more control. Other times, you accept things for what they are and go with the flow. You are a realist when it comes to luck. You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random. You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you... But you do your best to try to make your own luck. You have a good deal of power, but you also know the pecking order. You realize that working the system does get you further. You know who to defer to and who to control. When it comes to the game of life, you play things flawlessly.

The Three Dimension Luck and Power Test

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced. Overall, your true self is moody and dynamic. With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react. In love, you seem mysterious and interesting. In stressful situations, you seem selfish and moody.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

Your Eyes Should Be Brown

Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

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What does your birth month reveal about you?

December
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

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what does your name say about you?

you are free spirt person, nuttin cant stop u


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Currently in FOUL mood!!! =S

ARGH!!! Dunno why out of a sudden i'm in a TERRIBLY foul mood...probably starting to get nervous about what i'm going to face on Wed...my 1st day in a hospital....not as a patient...but as a future doctor...oh no!! Wat is it that i've to face??? Hope its nothing too horrible so that i can pass this programme & proceed to the interview...*fingers crossed*

Jz get to noe that Mr. V's going to GH too....tat's a piece of luck that i get to noe a fren who's goin too...even though he does not really considered as my fren..hehe...ought to be Ern's fren...which can be said is my fren's fren...haha=P Though really relieved...still frens wert right?? So at least i got company....phew!!


~GOD BLESS ME~

Happy Day =D

Today is my really lucky + happy day =D Really gotta thank God for giving me a chance...Went out to kbox to celebrate fish's b'day....then after my mum fetched me...on the way...she told me that she got a letter from JPA....i was shocked at the news....i didn't really expected it....then she continued saying that JPA asked me to attend a Program Pendedahan Kerjaya since i chose medicine course at a hospital of my own choice...chose General Hospital of course...it was actually some kind of programme to test whether the person who chose medicine course is really qualified for it...& i really had no such problems at looking at blood or even dead bodies ( i guess =P)....but kinda scared le...3days wor...it'll be on this coming Wed till Fri -- 29th till 30th....gotta keep my fingers crossed le...coz i've to pass this to get interviewed...& my chance of getting JPA scholarship will thus get bigger & bigger....then i'll be my chance to flee from M'sia (tat is if my parents will allow =.=" ) Still...hope i'll jz stand a chance...sigh...

Frustrated!!! ARGH!!!

WHY??? Just tell me why do I, Joanne Ho have to go & visit Wong XX who..obviously...DOESN'T have any relationship with me except as normal friends at his NS camp which is in Gunung Semanggol, Taiping...duh~~

Ok...to start with...his mum jz came to my house to look at the pictures we took during our Mount Kinabalu trip...then she mentioned bout her dear son who's homesick...& she asked me to go visit him at his camp more often....i was like...."HUH?? Me?? Y me??? I've no relationship with him at all la!!! "(though i didn't say it out) So i jz replied her with a smile & an unwillingly nod... Then...while she was flipping thru the pics...she was exclaiming how nice is the scenery....then out of a sudden she popped out a question: "Joanne arr...why didn't u invite Sen Loong to go along geh??" This time i was even worse...what the...!! If he's going...meaning he's going to be in da same room with me?? NO WAY!!!!!! Btw...the main question is...why in the world would we wanna invite him go leh?? He's just a normal fren of mine la....aiks!!!

His mum...i really dun understand....keep assuming me as her.....duh...future daughter-in-law??? Aww...come on...in the 1st place why would i choose a person like her son?? Ok..he's not quite bad-looking...but he's OBVIOUSLY not my taste...& she wants me to marry him?? Tat is terribly out of the question....no way our parents are going to decide our marriage....N-E-V-E-R!!!

I'm angry + frustrated + boiled.....

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My future + dream car =)

Saturn Sky (2007 car)

WOW man!! This car's REAL great....cool too!!! How i wish i have the huge amount of money to get this car for my own self in the future...hehe=P Yup...i'm sure daydreaming now ;) But really hope that it'll be a dream come true...

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Everything about me...

Your Personality Is

Guardian (SJ) You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented. Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules. You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader. You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you. A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do. You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up. In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly. At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions. With others, you tend to be polite and formal. As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself. On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them!

The Three Question Personality Test

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You are always tactful and diplomatic. You let people down gently. You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly. You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

You Are 17 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

You Are 60% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded. Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints. But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line. You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

Your IQ Is 110

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Above Average Your Mathematical Intelligence is Genius Your General Knowledge is Exceptional

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

Your Career Type: Investigative

You are precise, scientific, and intellectual. Your talents lie in understanding and solving math and science problems. You would make an excellent: Architect - Biologist - Chemist Dentist - Electrical Technician - Mathematician Medical Technician - Meteorologist - Pharmacist Physician - Surveyor - Veterinarian The worst career options for your are enterprising careers, like lawyer or real estate agent.

What's Your Ideal Career?

Your Dating Purity Score: 91%

You are an innocent dater. You're either lacking in dating experience or have had a long serious relationship. Either way, there's still plenty of fish in the sea out there for you to sample!

Dating Purity Test

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle. But you may be ready in a couple of years. You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment. And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

You Should Learn French

C'est super! You appreciate the finer things in life... wine, art, cheese, love affairs. You are definitely a Parisian at heart. You just need your tongue to catch up...

What Language Should You Learn?

You Should Drive a Saturn Sky

You're sleek and smooth, and you need a car to match your hot persona. Besides, sometimes you want your top up - and sometimes you want it down.

What 2007 Car Should You Drive?

The Eight Irresistible Principles of Fun

This website is interesting + meaningful =)

God's Boxes

I have in my hands two boxes,
Which God gave me to hold.
He said, "Put all your sorrows in the black box,
And all your joys in the gold."

I heeded His words, and in the two boxes,
Both my joys and sorrows I stored,
But though the gold became heavier each day,
The black was as light as before.

With curiosity, I opened the black,
I wanted to find out why,
And I saw, in the base of the box, a hole,
Which my sorrows had fallen out by.

I showed the hole to God, and mused,
"I wonder where my sorrows could be!"
He smiled a gentle smile and said,
"My child, they're all here with me.."

I asked God, why He gave me the boxes,
Why the gold and the black with the hole?
"My child, the gold is for you to count your blessings,
The black is for you to let go."

We should consider all of our friends a blessing.
A ball is a circle, no beginning, no end.
It keeps us together like our Circle of Friends.
But the treasure inside for you to see,
Is the treasure of friendship you've granted to me.

Poem

Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.
And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race.

He knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.
And he rang mine but we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim
Just to show that I'm thinking of him."

But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.
Around the corner, yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram miss," "Jim died today."

And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.
Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late.
Seize the day.
Never have regrets.
And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family,
for they have helped make you the person that you are today.

Friends leaving...one by one...

Sigh...2nd batch is starting on 19/3...which is to be this Sunday...most of my frens...especially some close buddies such as HuiShan, Darren, CheeHong aka CP are chosen to be in 2nd batch....so i'm kinda left alone back here in Ipoh already....haih...lonely lonely =/ With Ern leaving me for Aussie i'm oso kinda feel empty in heart already...& now...more frens leaving??? How sad...Some of my frens including another kai gor of mine however leaving Ipoh too but to go for further studies....KL seemed to be a faraway place....how can it not be since we need almost 2 1/2 to get there? ;P Aiyo...y is everyone leaving Ipoh wor...i also dreamt of leaving this place which is mostly full of sad memories...i oso wanna leave here coz of HIM...but too bad....i'm still not matured enough plus not independant enough to take care of myself...so...i'm still stuck here for 2 more yrs until i finish my f6..

AIKS!!! BAH!!! GRRRRR!!!!! ARGH!!!!!! =/ But guess i jz have to face the fact la...so...guess i oso have to face the fact that i'll be staying in Ipoh here LONELY for 3 months =/ LONELY JOANNE........

Conclusion on my studies...

Today is the day that finally the truth of how much effort i've put into my studies come out. I actually aimed for straight 11A's...yet the truth came that i only got 10A's & 1B...sigh...guess my laziness & lack of concentration when studying got over me & this is what i get for my SPM results. When i first got my result slip...i was real disappointed with what i got no matter how hard i've worked...i was even more sad when i know i've let my parents down as they've put high hopes on me...even cried in the car & shocked both of them...Yet after what my sister told & advised me about...i accepted that wat was done has been done..there's no more turning back & certainly no more 2nd chance...so what i've to do starting now is that i work twice as harder...put my every concentration on my studies...so that i'll be able to score good results in STPM to enable me to have more choices no matter getting in local or overseas Universities (preferrably Malayan University..it has the best medicine course anyway)...tat surely hav to wait until 2yrs after when i've finished F6...

Actually i've been cracking my head a long time thinking that whether i should study in F6 or Taylor's College...& yesterday after discussing with my parents...they concluded that its better that i choose F6 since i still need time to get more matured in my thinking & certainly strengthen my foundation considering my academics are always not steady...Well...to think of it...even though F6 really eats up time...but the advantages stand out more than if i were to study in colleges...with my characteristics i'll probably freak out if i were to handle any problem on studies alone beyond my hometown...

No matter how tough its gonna be in F6...i'm gonna go thru it & break thru STPM with fabulous results...NO MATTER WHAT!!! & i'll surely keep on to my promise that there'll be no more relationship stuff for me for the next few yrs until after i've finished my studies..so that'll mean many yrs after....hehe...but that'll only can help me in achieving mine & my parents dream...CHEERS TO F6!!!


~GOD BLESS ME~