Frustrations 2

Ok...i'm not done with my previous post on my frustrations towards choir comms yet...nope....it wont end...coz i've really built a wall around me from them....that's why i'm not going to the Choral Festival with them...outings with them make me sick to see how fake are they...cant they be more sincere as frens or even as members of the SAME club..?? Such fake geeks....make me vomit only to see them...pity me have to see them for few months more...Today happy lor when they got scolded for ALWIZ lepak-ing at Parade every Sat after choir practice....got scolded for bringing along the juniors & now they got complaints from the juniors' parents...good~~!! ^^ But sickening le see them defending for themselves...keep saying they went parade JUST for lunch...yea right...more like gossiping & talk bad things about choir members huh...lame...even said its not their fault the juniors follow them...a bunch of lame idiots....especially that vice secretary!!! Cant even sing well....normally when she talks her voice's deep...so how in the world did she ever get into the soprano..?? Man...my voice has a higher pitch than hers i also got kicked into the alto le even though i'm SUPPOSED to be in the soprano....everyone was surprised i got into the alto le...especially my frens who'd been in the choir with me last time when we were in the primary...even my sis said so that i should be in the soprano le...i can sing higher notes than that idiot la...so...WHY??? ARGH!!! I'm being picked at everything...even those non of my concern ones....crazy teacher advisors....silly bunch of main comms....unorganised team....irresponsible pres & vice presidentS...whatever also last minute decision....this also they want to deny....good...put the blame on the teacher, PK Kokurikulum....great people huh....serves them right for getting complaints from parents on this also...3 calls leh...they only care about themselves...never think of the members & the members' parents...keep thinking how tough is their situation to be the committees...BULLSHIT!!! Tough my foot...if controlling such choir team is tough...then how about controlling a team of Chinese Orchestra members with about 80 people where there're caseS of lesbians...?? Man...they never know that...i was the discipline mistress before & i experienced all these...they never even experienced the hardship of getting sponsorships....they never think ahead....never care about money...only know how to waste....& they think everyone sure support if they need sponsorships coz they think they're good...crazy~~ Don't they ever think that no matter how good you are...everyone has their own finacial business to care about..?? Do u think the society will care whether u get ur sponsorship or not?? Hey guys...get a grip...the world's not as BRIGHT as what u guys think le...there's more to learn out there in the society...goodness...be more mature in your thinking...if the world's that bright...there wont be even wars & bombing happening anywhere...anytime...in this world la....grow up people~~& learn what is the meaning of T-E-A-M!! Obviously u guys only know how to say...but no actions...so what's the use of using this word?? Probably u guys never heard of ACTIONS SPEAK MORE THAN WORDS huh....

Aiyo...

Huh....those reporters took my pic for what if i'm not shown in the newspapers..?? =( Disappointed lor...The Star none...NST none...Sin Chew also don't have...aiyo...thought they'll even mention of my existence in the report also don't have....sigh...now i know how unimportant i am la...kelefe saja la...but good experience le to perform in public...memang my 1st time le solo-ing in public excluding those times being piano accompanist for the choir ^^ Hope i'll have more chances like this next time =p

Visit of Raja Muda to SamTet

Phew....my nervousness last night has paid...haha....wasn't the bit nervous when performing both for choir & for the jamuan....lucky didn't fumble...hehe...was a lil disappointed for not getting the opportunity of shaking hands with the Raja Muda...keke...instead i got a bunch of pegawai's flirting with me while we were waiting for the Raja Muda to arrive at the jamuan -.-' *speechless* forced me to give them a big smile though while they were busy flirting...idiots....anyway....good opportunity though to be such short distance with the royalties =D Bad day though for my coughing to worsen....sigh....

Frustrations

Haiz...choir had a meeting today before school dismissal...kononnya general meeting...but its should be said as main-committees-scolding & denying-blames meeting...?? Ok...i'm not anti-ing nor pro-ing the main committees even though i'm one of the comms...but i really cant stand their i'm-always-right attitude...as they've said...everyone has their own faults...but what they did when the juniors said out their dissatisfaction towards the main comms attitude is that they start defending themselves...goodness...kata ada fault sendiri...everyone sure ada kesalahan....in the end they NEVER admit & keep denying & defending...R-U-B-B-I-S-H!!! And whenever that stupid vice pres & secretary scold people...for sure cry...cry babies...trying to get sympathy only...tak malu ke....tu kulit muka memang cukup tebal la tu....ish~~!!! I really cant tahan le that day...so instead of standing with those comms in front of the juniors....i took my homework to the back of the lecture hall & do....dowanna get involved...plus its none of my business also...i'm the last person to noe anything anyway...so y should i get myself into UNNECESSARY troubles?? Yea...i admit...i wasn't happy EVER SINCE i joined choir...in the beginning i joined choir because i cant join chinese orchestra & i was yearning for the same teamwork spirit as i've endured throughout the 5 yrs i had in AMC's chinese orchestra..but in the end...when i've joined choir....i knew i did the wrong decision....but its late for me to regret...so i continued to survive in choir...i was alone in there...alwiz the one who's left behind...last comm to know anything...alwiz the one to get scolded even though there's others having the same faults as me...whenever i didn't attend choir for a few times i'm being said that i wanna quit choir =.=" no one to support me in choir....everyone's so darn fake in there...especially the main comms...& its really surprising if one of them ever approached me & ask me personal questions....that day i really have the urge of blurting everything out in front of everyone when the main comms asked who else has anything to say....but i controlled myself...because i dont wanna make matters worse...plus its only a few months more for me to stay in choir...so dont wanna make a chaos...better to keep quiet...do my part & that's it...whatever dissatisfaction i just keep it....& i promise myself....i'll never return to train Sam Tet choir after i've left it...NEVER....because i know whatever i did it equals to nothing...no one to appreciate as they think it as my job & responsibility to do it as a musical director plus pianist....i don't need to train the bass-es since i'm in the alto....i'm not a sectional leader too...so i was thinking of what an idiot i am to waste my time...my voice...my temper on these ungrateful brats...?? If not for my passion towards music...if not for the teamwork spirit i'm looking for....i wouldn't have done all these...i wouldn't have keep persuading Kevin not to quit choir as he's the one influencing everyone...the only senior left also ever since JiaYi & Kar Kit left...but what did i get in the end?? NOTHING!!! & why am i so stupid to continue staying in choir when i've to suffer so much..?? I don't know....no idea at all...the only thing i can describe myself is PLAIN S-T-U-P-I-D-I-T-Y~~~

My recent life

Hm...lots of occasions coming up & some occasions past already. Previous Tuesday i just went out with Jason & ZhuWhee to watch Mr.Bean. At 1st planned to watch Meet The Robinsons, then Jasz called me when i'm in school (lucky i brought my hp =P) saying that because of movie error the showtime at 2pm is cancelled, so we changed to watch Mr Bean. But changing to Mr. Bean meaning i've to FLY after dismissal...coz i dismissed at 1.40..& the show's at 1.50 -.-' Jas also keep on calling me to hurry me...i went to the extent of answering his call when the maths teacher's teaching in front of the class...hehe...lucky she din notice =P Anyway..i really did fly...& miraculously i used almost 3mins onli to fly from skul to the cinema =S But right on time =D Hm...nice show...funny...laughed alot in da cinema..hehe...but quiet le...we 3 err...how to say...1st time come out even though we don't know each other quite well...so...weird weird whole time...hahaha =P Anyway...real thanks to both of them...coz if not for them not minding to go out with me to watch movie...it'll be months that i never watch movies in the cinema....hehe...the last time i went is...err....last yr le....haiyoh~~~ Anyway..surprisingly...i din eat since after school i straight went to the cinema...& Jasz bought me a packet of twisties ^^ but ended up i din eat it in the cinema..haha...coz dun feel like eating since i dun feel hungry....so left till i'm home already & i finished the whole packet...ALL by myself =P

Haiz...the Raja Muda's coming to our school this Sat...nervous le...i'm gonna play for the choir in the hall...after that need to play during the Raja Muda's feast tim...aduh~~ Nervous nervous...nanti kena pancung if i make mistakes...?? @-@ Nanti dijadikan isteri Raja Muda if i played too well till impressed him..?? UH OH~~~ No no NOO!!! Haiz...dont care already...see how le that day..jz hope i wont get public-fright -.-'' The school's in a mess these few days by the way...everyone's busy preparing to impress the Raja Muda.

Choir's district level competition is confirmed next Sat already...going to be held at AMC school hall....haih...the BIG hall...goodness...there's where the prob comes...BIG~~!! Meaning echo...& meaning the voice balance, pitching, diction for the fussy judges...ARGH!!! I'm gonna have a hard time already le training them again now i dont need to play the piano accompaniment...but difficult oso le....jz started having sore throat this morning....haih...flu's coming the way *speechless*

Happy le yesterday got an overseas sms from Ern...hehe...was shocked though at 1st to see the sender....even shocked when she mentioned she was planning to call me at 1st O.o Lucky she din called though...only reached home by 5 sth yesterday....but still happy le =D Thx dearie =)

Okie..no need to ask about my love life yea Ern...i'm still single...EXTREME single...still looking through the deep seas....still many fish swimming around...gonna choose carefully...haha....not going to choose anyway at this time...wait le...i'll have good news for u...someday ;P Jz be patient...hehe...& stop doing matchmaking for me wor....^^

Miss yea Ern~~

Choir comp...

Long time didn't post already. Anyway, we won 1st place in the zone level of the choir comp...so will be going on to district level which will be held on the 20th,21th or 23rd...any of these days & the location of the comp is at AMC primary. Sigh...thinking of AMC primary...reminds me of my younger school days where i joined the school band...really miss the times when we practised together...me, Ern, Fishy, Shan & others...really miss alot...

Wat to do...i still cant find that spirit & feelings i wanted in choir...now choir's too dead...no live...comp's coming already & yet still fooling around...cant blame me for getting into a temper everytime...cant stand their dilly dally attitude...ish~~!!! Yea...i noe...i'm alwiz the most non-caring person in choir....as a AJK yet this dunno that dunno....cant blame me for that also...i wasn't told everything....& i don't ask...how can i ask when i dunno what i should ask..?? So...my junior's right...i'm the last one to noe anything so no point asking me anything...Anyway...as what i've always said...as long as i've done my duty as the pianist + musical director...that's way enough for me already la...

Sigh....the malay song we're singing for the comp....2day the teacher tells me that we really need piano accompaniment part to guide the team...coz any slips of pitching & we'll lose to Tarcisian...they're really strong now under the same tutors as we have...then it'll be the end of our comp journey...so...i gotta figure out the part & try it out on Sat already -.-' Gotta try out soothing, slow songs to be played on the 14th for the Raja Muda who's coming for our school's prize giving ceremony too....argh!! *pulling my hair* I DON'T HAVE SUCH SONGS LA!!! Haiz~~~waste my time only....but as what my mum said...this is also the only chance for me to show my playing talent in public..especially in front of royalties wor....ngek ngek ngek =P

Needa study now anyway...byezzz~~