Depressed...

唉...今天心情实在是糟得透底了~~~已经到了难以形容的地步了...我只知道从我一到家后打电话给我的钢琴老师后就猛哭不停了....鼻涕眼泪都掺在一起了(这是无可否认的现实情况=P) 现在更"进展"到双眼红肿了.....该是哭过头了吧....可是怎么也不甘心.....竟然还欠仅仅那两分都不让我及格...臭家伙!!! 我知道我也有错....就是错在临时抱佛脚.....不到最后一个时刻都不紧张.....可是说实在的我真的尽了力耶....haih....无话可说了.....没办法咯....只好在六月再考过咯....不然我都不死心....哼!! 总之这次肯定要发奋图强考好给那个臭家伙看了....!!! 何慧妍万岁~~!!! 过了今天就不会为它再哭了....再哭的话看来我又会死很多细胞了....呵呵 ^^

Saddening news

Haiz...was having lunch...then my eldest uncle from my dad's side called us....then told us the news that my 姑姑 (my dad's eldest sis) had passed away at the University Hospital. We were all shocked coz she's on the way of recovering already....& yet we cant fight God's will to bring her away. But its a good thing la actually...for her to leave is also the best way to get her away from her sufferings...heavy diabetic problem...stroke...sigh....So dad went off to KL alone already to deal with her funeral...they'll be cremating (火葬) her...jz wanna say hope she'll have a better life in heaven & Rest In Peace 姑姑...God bless you~~

Sigh....i smell busy week already....next Sat's Career Day already...so gotta start work on doing the boards this week already.....sigh...hope we'll have it successfully done la even though i'm never supportive towards this function (I'm da medicine course supervisor + one of the comm...but i dun really care much...only care about my own opinion ;p) Then on Thurs we'll be having our dissection day already....bless the white rats....bought yesterday....then today one of the females got pregnant already -.-" 7 CUTE lil rats tim....we've tried to save them out jz now during skul dismissal from being eaten....but cant do much....sigh...jz hope the rats are not as cruel as what we thought....else i dunno wat we'll be seeing tomoro =S

Okla...need to nap already...afterwards going japanese class as usual.....missing Ern...hope she's fine with her work...looking forward to celebrating her bday with her whole bunch of frens =)

I got a "bf"...hahahaha ;P

Hahaha...now i got a new "bf"....dun be mistaken....not REAL bf le...jz a FAKE one...hehehehe...thx to chee pek la....if not for him i wont be able to get rid of Elton "Aun" oso...kekeke...lucky i asked cp whether he noes him anot...lucky they're in da same class...then they chatted bout me....& cp so kind to help me that he lied for me....wakekeke....fiuh~~ feels good to get rid of that leech....alwiz kacau onli...busy mode oso asked whether i'm busy -.-" Anyway.....me & cp onli 9-yrs tuition mates la....nvr will be anything far beyond that....we're jz good buddies....trust me....he's not my type anyway....muahahahaha ;p

Uh ohh....jz got to know from my bro....I'M ACTUALLY ON THE SMJK SCHOOL PORTAL'S WEBSITE!!! H-A-H-A @_@ Got the news of me & Yvonne receiving our piano ALCM's certificate wor during our graduation in 2005...long time ago story la...but shocked oso lor~~!!! Go check out anyway...hehehe =P ===> http://smjk.edu.my/main/news_sdetail.php?schid=23&newsid=3385&arch=

Creepy...

Jz got home from house practice....jz bathed...gonna have a nap soon....but jz now's experience really creepy le...its my 1st time having this kinda experience also =S Nearly passed out on da field after running the 100m...really creepy lor...was standing...then suddenly felt a wave of nausea...so i walked towards the bench to sit....after a few steps..my vision starts to get blur....its like there's a heavy fog in front of my eyes...then i start to see the grass in a yellow colour...my ears start to block out...cant hear anything temporarily...then "Poof...!"...its like someone giving me a heavy blow on my nasal cartilage jz dead between my eyes...man....i started to feel dizzy already...including the pain in my right thigh where i've pulled my muscle...it was hard to imagine how painful it is.... then when i tot i'm ok to go for the next event ==> lontar peluru....i really nearly passed out already...lucky my frens were holding on to me....but suddenly felt sleepy....guess my brain lacks of oxygen till i felt drowsy already.....wanted to jz lie down at tat instant...but my frens keep calling me to hold on & dun fall asleep....then they start massaging & stuffs....lucky after a few mins i'm back to normal already...but already weak at the knees....fiuh~~ I'm scared of this kinda feeling already....but too bad...i still love running...hahaha =P No high jumps today though...bad...but its ok too la coz the pole is actually till my chest le....how to jump ehh..?? -.-"

Now praying wont get chosen yet i've a feeling my prayer wont be answered....hehehe....kinda 矛盾 already le...wanna get chosen coz wanna have the experience & the feeling....dowanna get chosen coz i've hurt my knees more already plus monthly exam'll be on 2days after Sports Day le....stupid school to have such schedule lor.....anyway....dun care la...see how le only decide...

Now....i'm not gonna say anything more already...wanna jz lie flat on my bed & get into dreamland.....zzzzzzzzzzz........

Busy + tired day...

Fiuh~~today finally sent in the letter to GH...asked my counselling club junior to fetch me there....he's SOooo sweet =P Actually he's supposed to go tuition at 2.30....but he still fetches me there with his motorbike at 2...hehe...good Ah Loke =D Even though i only rode a motor twice only...but i still can handle it la...haha...thx to his good driving skill also la...lolz...

Choir as usual today la...we had practice till 5.30pm lor...no one fetched me home at 1st...lucky i tot of YewMing yesterday...so asked him to fetch me home lor since he also finishes work at 5.30...but kinda feel guilty also la since i've rejected him AGAIN so he looks kinda down la -.-" But cant blame le...guess the time has said everything...so....its over already la~~~But its very very extremely sweet of him to say will fetch me home...coz between his house & my house also need 10minutes drive la...S-W-E-E-T~~!!

Hmm...tomoro's last house practice already luu...jz got to know today that we'll be having high jumps too....excited about it...but scared too la coz heard that the height will be 1.1metres high...@_@ crazy school!! What do they think us gals are...?? Only know how to bully us la....stupidity....ish!! But dun care...gonna try for it tomoro..who noes...i'll be able to cross it without making the galah fall..?? Hehehe ;p

Current mood: Neutral + tired + missing someone out there...

Current situation: Sleeping (goin to....hehe)

Crumbling under my weak knees...haiz...

Sigh...my knees are getting worse day by day...now cant even stand straight for long...it'll start crumbling below me after some time...& walking up da stairs is worse...the pain is getting more & more obvious...last night also got scolded by Ern already for not consulting the doctor for the operation...but i'm really scared of any operations...give me the creepy feeling of something bad will happen after that =S

Hm....gonna have my 2nd house practice on Wed...kinda looking forward to it...hehe...coz mebe i've full confidence i can get thru the 100m running...to me its nothing already since i've passed the 200m one last week...kekeke...jz gotta pray my knees wont trouble till after i've finished my running & the high jump...love them!! =D I've a feeling though tat me & Ah Ong will get to be chosen to represent our house in running during Sports Day...hmm...guess gotta think about it already IF really got chosen...1st is to see who'll be our competitors 1st...2nd is to consider about my knees....if i hurt it anymore scared it'll worsen...sigh...dunno...i love running...love the feeling of "flying" on the field...love the spirit of competing with others...ohmigosh!!! I'm obsessed already....aiks!! But no matter wat...i still love it~~!! ;p

Never ever got the chance to run in a real competition before also...as in inter-house one...thx to "mama" la our chance got ruined during my F5 yr...we've confidence we can get into the finals & at least have the chance of running in da stadium...then thx to her COURAGE to stand out in da 1st place saying she wanna be one of da representatives of my class...she slowed us down in the start...then no matter the remaining 3 of us wanna catch up also no use already...jz 1 place behind...ish!!!! Remembering about it also still pisses me off~~~ @_@ So....tat's y wanna have a go at competing in a REAL inter-house competition...jz hope my knees wont fail me...


Haiz...piano exam results are not out yet...worry worry...sigh...hope i'll be hearing good news when i'm home these few days...i dowanna go thru it anymore more a less wasting thousands of money for the exam fee again -.-"

黑色星期六

Today really unlucky lor...haiz...walked to General Hospital to send in the letter concerning looking for a doctor as a speaker for our medicine course during Career Day after my choir practice finishes at 12pm....then when i reached there after 30minutes of walking only i realised all my time & energy are wasted...coz the office is closed on Saturdays & Sundays....ARGH~~!!!! Stupid government law to have the 5-workdays law....lazy is what that can be used to describe them....ish!!! Now i've to go AGAIN next week during weekdays to send in the letter....sigh...shouldn't have been such a kind course supervisor to send the letter myself....dun care already....going to send my assistant or any other members in my course to send the letter....i'm enough of this already!!! Coz of walking too much...my knee injury oso came back already...worsen tim....haiz....i dowanna go for any operation le....horrible feeling i have....sure more probs with my legs after operation....sigh....Anyway, after leaving GH with disappointment & GREAT frustration....i'm also got drenched by the rain...lucky its not that heavy but still enough to make me wet...so forced to take a cab to go Parade to spend my time there while waiting for tuition at 2...& unexpectedly the taxi driver flirted with me....ohmigosh...!!! Wat kinda society is this nowadays...?? Why cant i jz have a peaceful ride in a public transport without strangers harassing me?? -.-" Ok...this will be the only & the last time for me to get into a cab ALONE....no more such thing happening...once is enough to end me a grief experience....ish~!!! Really hate getting flirted la...say i'm cute & stuffs yet still charged me so expensive....hahahaha =P Okok...kidding kidding...rather to pay more than getting harassed by some old guy....haiz....now i'm really speechless already.... @_@

Long lost me~~~

Wow...its been MONTHS since i've last posted any blogs...cant blame me...bad internet in my area here....frustrating over it but cant do anything le....haiz....anyway....latest news....Ern's back in Ipoh already....have been out with her for dunno how many times di....met up with him oso dunno how many times di till i mau vomit di....hahaha....& i've started Upper 6 for 2 weeks di...1 more day to go to end this 2nd week....yesterday jz had my house practice by the way....i'm in the yellow house AGAIN....same as wat i'm in during my primary school days...& we had 200m run yesterday.....crazy Sam Tet....memang bullying us gals la...but lucky my running hasn't gone worse di since one whole year never had any sports (except for mountain climbing sometimes which doesn't really count coz i din go regularly....lazy me =P)....so got to get 1 mark for my house...happy happy =D Coz they limited the time to 40seconds...which at 1st i'm kinda worried yet confident i can finish the run in the limited time...& i really did it!!! =D

Okla....cant crap much la....gotta study again...jz got to on9 after such LONG time so was busy awhile searching for my own stuffs....but now....gotta go studying again....Upper6 is no more happy happy time....so u'll oso be seeing less of me anyway...ciaoz~~


Piano exam's result will be out anytime....scared scared =S God bless me~~~