Alot of things on my mind...

Last week's Tuesday just got my STPM results...basically considered is good....but not good enough for me who wants to study medicine...so...not much hope for local uni...applied for private universities instead...and also Russia's universities...comparatively Russia's sure is alot cheaper than private unis back here in Malaysia...but parents kind of reluctant to let me go so far since i'm not such an independant girl....hehe...i admit that....but I prefer to go Russia...one of the reason is money problem....school fees here in private unis are above RM200,000 while Russia's unis is less than half of the amount even though studying in Russia takes up 6yrs and studying in private unis here is 5yrs....yea....everyone may say that me so rich sure can afford the money....but that's not the case...okay? I don't understand...to my friends out there...does being rich or poor make such big difference...?? Just stop the sarcasm of saying i'm rich sure can afford this and that!!! I hate that!! I hate everyone saying to me that just coz my dad's a doctor and that makes me a rich girl...i'm NOT...okay? Its not like i'm THAT rich...I want my dad to work less for the next few yrs instead of working hard just to pay for my school and living fees....he's getting old...and i rather save up the money and let my parents go overseas for a holiday instead....second reason is I would rather learn to be independant now than later even though i may feel homesick (that's for sure)...I feel hopeless now....indecisive....duno which way i should go...anyway...going for the UCSI interview on Mon....then only decide later la....think i'll still insist on goin Russia...its not like i'm not coming back anyway....gonna try persuade my parents....hope my decision's correct though....soooo bothering me....

Lost~~~

I'm lost...i really really don't know whether i really do have feelings for him...i mean....we've been tuition mates since std3...and its really kind of weird to have feelings for each other after so many donkey years knowing each other....and also coz he's HS's ex...somehow i have that guilty feeling gnawing at my conscience when i think about it....gives me the feeling that i'm betraying my best buddy if i were to have any close relationships with him other than being normal friends...i asked him before about the reason...and he claims that its because we've known each other for so long already and we've kind of understand each other a lot....but....ahhh...i dunno...i'm lost about my own feelings....but honestly i do not want to think about these relationship stuffs for the time being...once experience is enough for me....and studies are still the most important thing for now....he knows fairly well...so luckily he's a considerate person enough to not keep nagging me about this issue...he's also the one to be always supporting me during exams and difficult periods although he's also busy at work way far in Genting...haiz.....gonna keep this issue aside...i'll just let God make the decision~~

11th....STPM results day~~

Just announced 2days ago on Thurs in the news that STPM results are out next Tues, 11th of March....aww...my doom day....actually not only mine...must be every STPM holders in Msia also having the same feeling as me....so planning to go to the movies on Mon...most probably with zw...see if he's free or not le...still waiting for his answer....if not probably going alone le....coz that's my way to distress a bit before going to school the next day to get the result slip =S going to IMAX also before that to download more taiwanese dramas OST...kekeke....and the only movie worth watching now is 10,000 b.c le....aihz...dont care what movie already as long as i can get to relax A BIT @-@ Just now while having my afternoon nap...even dreamt about standing in a long queue and getting the result slip....so dreadful....my mum said i even mumbled in my sleep....haiz....bad sleep.......now praying and praying very very hard...hope i wont disappoint my family~~~

Photos in Poi Lam ^^

my colleague friends (from left: Kit Yeang, me, Wan Cheng and Jun-Yow)

The boys of 3C--my class

The girls of 3C--my class

Last day at Poi Lam primary school...

Today's my last day at Poi Lam primary school...not that i do not want to continue teaching while waiting for the university intake....its just that the contract at this school has ended due to the returning of the teacher i'm replacing these few months...Sigh..really do miss the kiddos after all...they're just the same today....making me mad all the time....but at least they cooperated and we've managed to finish discussing the exam questions...so their homework for next week's 1-week holiday is to do the corrections for the mistakes in their exam...but that's not the main point ;p The moment i first stepped into the classroom....all of them rushed out and gave me lots of presents....omigosh....the whole table is full of them....there're 2 bouquet of flowers....fake ones le....but really really beautiful =D (to tell the truth....they're the 1st bouquet of flowers i've ever received ever since i'm born =p) ,2 musical boxes, a lot of key chains, many handmade cards and drawings, even stationaries....hehehehe....oh ya...i got 2 really lovely matching cups of Ee Coffee (that's what is written outside both cups)...these two are given by 8 boys in my class....they're SOoooo sweet =) I've gotten two more glass cups of the Snoopy series....very cute too ^^ Then my class monitor (a boy) gave me a crsytal ball thingy with water and glittery things inside, a handmade card with his photo pasted inside it, a photo frame and a cute lil bear key chain...aww....he's much too sweet....and he's really stuck to me....hahahaha....coz almost everyday during recess after he'd finished eating...he'll sure to come to the staffroom and chat with me....we chatted anything...seemed i'm more likely to be his big sister ;p I even took pics of the whole class....but coz there're 38 of them...i separated them into girls and boys le...20girls and 18boys in my class....

Walao...those teachers really got stricken by the sight of the presents on my table back in the staffroom...lolz...some even asked sarcastically whether is it my bday today...and i didn't answer...just replied with a sweet-sickening smile....muahahahaha....more heart attack and "sour grapes" cases =p Well....i dont care....as long as i've done what is right....its the teachers own fault if students dont even like you....i really dont quite understand the system right now...the teachers used more caning and beating...thought the education system never approved punishments by beating...but it proves me wrong when i arrived at this school....as what my mum told me...the way how u treat others...you'll get the same from others on how they treat you...well...honestly...i may be strict...and fierce too....but i never got into a fit and put the blame on the student by beating them....its just not the way to teach....and certainly not the way to treat human beings....not to mention also how the teachers abandoned those students whom they think are too weak to teach...they just completely let the weak students be....like one boy in my class...he don't even know his basics....cant even read simple chinese -.-' haiz...have to ask the real form teacher to take care of him....hope she does so too....those teachers just rather spend the time chatting away and gossiping than to spend time and energy on these students....i really really can never understand....

Happenings...

Ever since two weeks ago....my bro had gotten job interviews mainly from Penang....went for them...and finally he got a job in Juru....at an international company named Flextronics....big company too....heard from my bro that this company has 50 over branches over Asean...wow.....and he's working as a analyst programmer....for that reason....last Sun just went to Juru to look for a place for him to stay...real lucky for us to manage to find a room....cheap too with quite good condition la...going up to Penang again this Sun to do cleaning up and furnishing the room....then he's going to start work next Mon....relieved le....finally....he has graduated from uni and getting in the working society already.....and his sickness has recovered alot already =)

Sigh....two more days....then i'll be leaving Poi Lam lu....not that i'm not teaching anymore...but contract at this school's ending on Fri....supposedly la....but today the headmaster announced that they've applied for a holiday this Fri due to quite a number of teachers have to balik kampung to attend the voting day on Sat....yerr....that means also that i'll be getting less pay for March =( And also one day less to see those kiddos.....wei yao's right....i've changed...i dun get to like kids much before teaching....think they're very pestering....but now i know that i can actually get along well with kids even though i'm 10yrs older than them.....and starting to like them ;p

Ah....cp's back to ipoh for a few days of holiday....thought can go out for movies with him and zw tim....today he jz told me he'd to go back on Thurs already coz have to do medical checkup on Fri...too bad...now have to think about transport prob on Sat le if goin to the movies with zw as planned....hmm....dunno got what nice movies tim....checking up on GSC currently...but net's too slow -.-' S-L-O-W~~~~~


p.s: wei yao's my kai gor....he's currently studying in Germany =)