9th of Dec 2010 -- my 22nd birthday!! And how did I celebrated it this year? Not only my parents and sis came all the way to KL to have an early bday celebration with me on Sunday, eating out at a Korean restaurant and also let me blow the candle off standing on top of a corn cupcake made specially by mum =) And also its a joint celebration actually, as mum's bday is just 5 days earlier than mine. I already have my bday present one month back, which is a Yonex Carbonex 7000 Plus badminton racquet which I actually have used it in the Intervarsity Games (though didn't win any medals due to lack of technique and lack of time to practise as well =p).
But that's not all!! I have the best birthday present ever in this 22 years! My parents finally got to meet Michael, although it might have just a simple "hello" between them when Michael helped me to put my stuffs into the car when they came on Sunday, but its satisfactory enough. Plus mum told me on the phone one day that she's not going to object against us being together, but just I've to be careful enough and make a wise choice so that I won't get hurt in the end. While dad, hm, I guess he approved heartily since he's been teasing me about it every time we're on the phone. And starting from that day since they met onwards, every single day when mum called me she'll start asking me about Michael. Lols. About eveyrthing. I'm happy enough to get their blessings though I didn't really tell them clearly that we're really official as couples already. *giggles* Just keep it like that would be enough. Not until I finally make good results for my parents to realise that my studies would not affected and they'll approve him more. *BIG smiles*
As for Michael, we didn't celebrate my bday on that very day coz' we had a busy day with classes from morning till afternoon, plus we're also having a farewell party for one of our lecturers at night. So we put that till the next day where he treated me to dinner at Secret Recipe and also brought home 2 lovely cakes which we were trying for the first time! Now I'm in love with Cheese Choc!!! ^^ And now I'm still waiting for my bday present from him. Lols. But he needs time to think of what to buy. Plus we're always together like 24hours, so he can't possibly go off somewhere to buy without me sticking around with him. Lols. Still waiting~
Am going back this Saturday for my 2weeks break. =) Then by the time I come back to uni, it'll be next year 2011 already. Since the end of the year 2010 is coming soon, I sure hope that whatever bad that happened this year would be changed to a better year in the upcoming year. I'm sure to looking forward to that. =)
p.s: Ernie, are you happy for me? =p
Monday, December 13, 2010
Wednesday, November 03, 2010
Rest In Peace Queenie~
Today morning at 10am, I got a call from mum telling me that one of our dogs, a female German Shepherd has passed away due to sickness and also old age. We were both pouring with tears when mum told me the news. But I know that dad will be the most sad person to lose her, coz he's the one looking after her since the day she arrived at our house. I still remember the day when we went to choose her out of her siblings, and the day when we finally fetch her back to our house. Named her "Queenie" after the previous male German Shepherd who also died of sickness and age is named "King". From young to being an adult, she's always the playful one. And she adores me, always loves to pounce onto me whenever she wants me to give her a stroke. This news really came as a shock coz I never expected it. She was still looking healthy the last time I went back, not knowing that she has grown weaker during this period I didn't go back home coz her illness has worsen. Lucky enough I still have someone in Brunei to call me where I can just cry and tell him everything on the phone, while listening to his soothing voice. Thanks alot dear for the call~ Proves my telepathy has really improved, faster and can transmit signals to a longer distance, even across the sea. =)
Too bad I didn't get the chance to say goodbye to her nicely. Sigh..I'll sooo going to miss her. =(
If you don't trust them.... then your Rosie Red Relationship will never last!!
Trust is one of the most important things in a relationship. I'm sure you've heard that before... but so many people that I have seen in my clinic are in a relationship with a person that they don't trust as far as they could throw!
You want to be in a relationship that is red and pink with love, white with calmness and peace and yellow with happiness and fun. What you DO NOT want is to be blue with sadness, green with jealousy when they talk to another person or black and low because your don't trust your partner.
The word trust can cover so many different areas in a relationship - from infidelity to just keeping your word on the little things.... because you know sometimes it is just the little white lies that can cause huge trust issues between partners.... Because if they didn't tell you the truth about something small and insignificant... then that can cause the subconscious mind to wonder what else they might not have been honest about... and when a person starts to question and their level of trust is jeopardized... then the relationship can get into rocky ground!!
There are many many different reasons why you may have trust issues in your relationship.... It could be that your partner has a dodgy past record when it comes to trust and you are worried that if they can do it to someone else - they could do it to you too!! Or maybe they weren't totally trust worthy at some point in your relationship before - and although they say they have turned over a new leaf - you still have that little niggle of trust worry in your subconscious mind... which can be physically felt as a fear in your belly. Alternatively, it could just be your gut feeling or intuition that makes you worry about how honest and trustworthy they are in the relationship.... You see, there are so many ways that a lack of trust can enter into a relationship.
Have you ever thought about the option that maybe they are in fact trustworthy and its you that has the trust problem?! It could be because you have been hurt in the past by being lied or cheated on.... And because of that, you have difficulty in trusting your new partner. Now... if that's the case - you really need to take a step back and reevaluate your thoughts and actions before your good relationship goes down the swanny! If your new partner has no reason not to be trusted and they are getting the brunt of your trust issues due to your previous relationship or maybe even family issues... then perhaps its something you need to look at more closely and deal with before Mr or Ms new-relationship-person, feels un-trusted, questioned and eventually unloved for no good reason of their own. Its not fair, and I'm sure you wouldn't like to be treated a certain way because of something there Ex partner had done?!?!
Think about it for a moment - and I mean really think about it.... I'm sure that deep down inside your mind you know whether it is your own personal trust issues from your own past experiences or whether it is them that is causing the breakdown of trust in your current relationship? Its very very important to be honest with yourself in this case - because if it is stemming from you, and your partner really isn't the cause of the mistrust issues in the relationship - then its something you have to deal with as soon as possible before you loose them, and if that happens... whoever or whatever caused you to feel these trust problems originally... will STILL be in control of your life and how you feel. You need to be in control of your self and current life situation.
Trust. The key to a successful relationship. If you have any niggle issues with trust in your relationship... talk them out. Sit down and have a real conversation and let your partner know and understand how you are feeling. If your feelings are justified and the person you are with is truly not trustworthy, if you have caught them lying or cheating on you - get out of the relationship - because baby... it ain't ever gonna work without full and complete trust.
The bottom line is - if you don't have an even level of trust between each other - neither of you will ever be happy!!
You want to be in a relationship that is red and pink with love, white with calmness and peace and yellow with happiness and fun. What you DO NOT want is to be blue with sadness, green with jealousy when they talk to another person or black and low because your don't trust your partner.
The word trust can cover so many different areas in a relationship - from infidelity to just keeping your word on the little things.... because you know sometimes it is just the little white lies that can cause huge trust issues between partners.... Because if they didn't tell you the truth about something small and insignificant... then that can cause the subconscious mind to wonder what else they might not have been honest about... and when a person starts to question and their level of trust is jeopardized... then the relationship can get into rocky ground!!
There are many many different reasons why you may have trust issues in your relationship.... It could be that your partner has a dodgy past record when it comes to trust and you are worried that if they can do it to someone else - they could do it to you too!! Or maybe they weren't totally trust worthy at some point in your relationship before - and although they say they have turned over a new leaf - you still have that little niggle of trust worry in your subconscious mind... which can be physically felt as a fear in your belly. Alternatively, it could just be your gut feeling or intuition that makes you worry about how honest and trustworthy they are in the relationship.... You see, there are so many ways that a lack of trust can enter into a relationship.
Have you ever thought about the option that maybe they are in fact trustworthy and its you that has the trust problem?! It could be because you have been hurt in the past by being lied or cheated on.... And because of that, you have difficulty in trusting your new partner. Now... if that's the case - you really need to take a step back and reevaluate your thoughts and actions before your good relationship goes down the swanny! If your new partner has no reason not to be trusted and they are getting the brunt of your trust issues due to your previous relationship or maybe even family issues... then perhaps its something you need to look at more closely and deal with before Mr or Ms new-relationship-person, feels un-trusted, questioned and eventually unloved for no good reason of their own. Its not fair, and I'm sure you wouldn't like to be treated a certain way because of something there Ex partner had done?!?!
Think about it for a moment - and I mean really think about it.... I'm sure that deep down inside your mind you know whether it is your own personal trust issues from your own past experiences or whether it is them that is causing the breakdown of trust in your current relationship? Its very very important to be honest with yourself in this case - because if it is stemming from you, and your partner really isn't the cause of the mistrust issues in the relationship - then its something you have to deal with as soon as possible before you loose them, and if that happens... whoever or whatever caused you to feel these trust problems originally... will STILL be in control of your life and how you feel. You need to be in control of your self and current life situation.
Trust. The key to a successful relationship. If you have any niggle issues with trust in your relationship... talk them out. Sit down and have a real conversation and let your partner know and understand how you are feeling. If your feelings are justified and the person you are with is truly not trustworthy, if you have caught them lying or cheating on you - get out of the relationship - because baby... it ain't ever gonna work without full and complete trust.
The bottom line is - if you don't have an even level of trust between each other - neither of you will ever be happy!!
Monday, November 01, 2010
Birthstone 生辰石
生辰石据说同圣经中的十二基石、胸甲十二颗宝石、伊斯兰的十二天使和天体十二宫的传说有关。久而久之，已成为一种佩戴诞生月宝石的习俗。
九月生辰石：蓝宝石（Sapphire）
蓝宝石——六方晶系 硬度：9
蓝宝石是刚玉的一种，而那些具有宝石特性的非红色刚玉都是蓝宝石，所以它会展现多种色调，但以清澈的深蓝色宝石最为珍贵。自中世纪以来，它便象征天国的宁静，可使佩戴者平静，亲善，并能抑制邪恶不洁的意念。
代表星座：天秤座（9月23日～10月23日）
十一月生辰石：托帕石（Topaz）
托帕石——斜方晶系 ；硬度： 8
托帕石又名黄玉。有各种颜色的品种以黄色及粉红色最贵重，还有蓝色和绿色的品种。[黄玉]这个名称源自梵语的[tapus]，意思是火彩。传说将黄玉镶在金子中，然后戴在颈项上，便可驱除凶兆，治疗弱视并平息怒气。
代表星座：射手座（11月23日～12月21日）
Although some gemstones are more identifiable than others, topaz and sapphire share many physical characteristics that make them difficult for the untrained eye to tell apart. Their similarities in color varieties, hardness and luster are comparable, but there are also individual qualities of each stone that distinguish them from one another. With a few observations and tests, it's possible to tell the difference between the two.
Identification
1 Examine the color of the stone. Topaz varieties occur most commonly in golden brown to yellow tones but also in orange, red, blue, green and pink. The most popular sapphire variety is the blue sapphire, but it can occur in almost any color (except red, which is classified as a ruby.)
2 Observe the lustre, or shine, of the gemstone. Sapphires can have a slightly higher lustre as the result of a higher refractive index, but because the two are so similar it would be best to use a refractometer to measure these qualities. A refractometer measures the amount of light that is bent when passing through a material. A topaz has a refractive index of approximately 1.61-1.64, while a sapphire measures around 1.76-1.78.
3 Test the hardness of the stone. There are testing kits that examine the hardness of the stone on the Mohs scale, which is used by gemologists. The scale ranges from 1 (talc) to 10 (diamond). A topaz ranks at an 8 on the Mohs, while sapphire is a 9. The kit will usually come with different specimens or minerals that are used to scratch the gemstone, which will allow you to identify where the gemstone lies on the hardness scale.
4 Consult a professional jeweler or gemologist. If you're still in doubt after these tests and observations, find a reliable and qualified professional to examine your stone. There can be a great difference in value between topaz and sapphire gemstones, so it's important to find out before you consider buying or selling.
九月生辰石：蓝宝石（Sapphire）
蓝宝石——六方晶系 硬度：9
蓝宝石是刚玉的一种，而那些具有宝石特性的非红色刚玉都是蓝宝石，所以它会展现多种色调，但以清澈的深蓝色宝石最为珍贵。自中世纪以来，它便象征天国的宁静，可使佩戴者平静，亲善，并能抑制邪恶不洁的意念。
代表星座：天秤座（9月23日～10月23日）
十一月生辰石：托帕石（Topaz）
托帕石——斜方晶系 ；硬度： 8
托帕石又名黄玉。有各种颜色的品种以黄色及粉红色最贵重，还有蓝色和绿色的品种。[黄玉]这个名称源自梵语的[tapus]，意思是火彩。传说将黄玉镶在金子中，然后戴在颈项上，便可驱除凶兆，治疗弱视并平息怒气。
代表星座：射手座（11月23日～12月21日）
Although some gemstones are more identifiable than others, topaz and sapphire share many physical characteristics that make them difficult for the untrained eye to tell apart. Their similarities in color varieties, hardness and luster are comparable, but there are also individual qualities of each stone that distinguish them from one another. With a few observations and tests, it's possible to tell the difference between the two.
Identification
1 Examine the color of the stone. Topaz varieties occur most commonly in golden brown to yellow tones but also in orange, red, blue, green and pink. The most popular sapphire variety is the blue sapphire, but it can occur in almost any color (except red, which is classified as a ruby.)
2 Observe the lustre, or shine, of the gemstone. Sapphires can have a slightly higher lustre as the result of a higher refractive index, but because the two are so similar it would be best to use a refractometer to measure these qualities. A refractometer measures the amount of light that is bent when passing through a material. A topaz has a refractive index of approximately 1.61-1.64, while a sapphire measures around 1.76-1.78.
3 Test the hardness of the stone. There are testing kits that examine the hardness of the stone on the Mohs scale, which is used by gemologists. The scale ranges from 1 (talc) to 10 (diamond). A topaz ranks at an 8 on the Mohs, while sapphire is a 9. The kit will usually come with different specimens or minerals that are used to scratch the gemstone, which will allow you to identify where the gemstone lies on the hardness scale.
4 Consult a professional jeweler or gemologist. If you're still in doubt after these tests and observations, find a reliable and qualified professional to examine your stone. There can be a great difference in value between topaz and sapphire gemstones, so it's important to find out before you consider buying or selling.
My back-to-single week. Lovely? Not really.
Its Deepavali one-week holiday for us medic students. But unlike others, I chose to stay back here in hostel, even though Mic also went back to Brunei. Oh well, more time spent on my own then, doing things that I like, with more freedom I should say. But sure ain't that fun knowing that I'm no longer alone, not superficially but as I have Mic always there in my heart. Lols.
Now insomnia again. But this is intentionally. Purposely made myself pure black coffee with no sugar and no creamer to make myself awake whole night. Studying bits here and there while watching movies when I don't feel like it. Roomie's not around too. And the trip to the library tomorrow morning as planned? I kind of doubt it that I would be able to wake up early and move my butt all the way to the library (although its just down the hill). May want to delay it I guess. But then, despite all those lame excuses, guess I just need more perseverance. Would like to brush up my 1st year stuffs as well as promised to myself before the holiday starts. Wouldn't want to leave it till last minute. Procrastination should not dominate over all. My brain wouldn't be able to function well by then with the amount of words I need to put in. =S
I miss that guy who is over thousand of miles away from me. Across the sea. But love is not measured by distance as everyone quoted. And I truly believe that quotation. =) Phone calls, no. But there're always emails, which is why I should be thankful we have the creation of Internet, used to connect each other no matter how far they are apart. =) I'm just looking forward to Saturday, where he'll be back and will then be appearing within my sight. *BIG smileys*
I just miss him sooooo much~
Now insomnia again. But this is intentionally. Purposely made myself pure black coffee with no sugar and no creamer to make myself awake whole night. Studying bits here and there while watching movies when I don't feel like it. Roomie's not around too. And the trip to the library tomorrow morning as planned? I kind of doubt it that I would be able to wake up early and move my butt all the way to the library (although its just down the hill). May want to delay it I guess. But then, despite all those lame excuses, guess I just need more perseverance. Would like to brush up my 1st year stuffs as well as promised to myself before the holiday starts. Wouldn't want to leave it till last minute. Procrastination should not dominate over all. My brain wouldn't be able to function well by then with the amount of words I need to put in. =S
I miss that guy who is over thousand of miles away from me. Across the sea. But love is not measured by distance as everyone quoted. And I truly believe that quotation. =) Phone calls, no. But there're always emails, which is why I should be thankful we have the creation of Internet, used to connect each other no matter how far they are apart. =) I'm just looking forward to Saturday, where he'll be back and will then be appearing within my sight. *BIG smileys*
I just miss him sooooo much~
Sunday, October 24, 2010
I BELIEVE
I Believe...
That just because two people argue,
That just because two people argue,
It doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue,
It doesn't mean they do love each other.
I Believe...
That we don't have to change friends if
That we don't have to change friends if
We understand that friends change.
I Believe....
That no matter how good a friend is,
They're going to hurt you every once in a while
and you must forgive them for that.
I Believe...
That true friendship continues to grow,
even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.
I Believe...
That you can do something in an instant.
That will give you heartache for life.
I Believe....
That it's taking me a long time
To become the person I want to be.
I Believe...
That you should always leave loved ones with Loving words.
It may be the last time you see them.
I Believe....
That you can keep going long after you think you can't.
I Believe....
That we are responsible for what we do,
no matter how we feel.
I Believe...
That either you control your attitude
or it controls you.
I Believe...That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done,
regardless of the consequences.
I Believe....
That my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
I Believe....
That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down
will be the ones to help you get back up.
I Believe...
That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry,
But that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I Believe....
That it isn't always enough,
to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I Believe...
That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I Believe....
That our background and circumstances
may have influenced who we are,
But, we are responsible for who we become.
I Believe...
That you shouldn't be so eager to find
Out a secret.
It could change your life Forever.
I Believe....
Two people can look at the exact same
Thing and see something totally different.
I Believe...
That your life can be changed in a matter of
Hours by people who don't even know you.
I Believe...
That even when you think you have no more to give,
When a friend cries out to you -
you will find the strength to help.
I Believe...
That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
I Believe...
That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.
I Believe...
That the happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;
They just make the most of everything they have.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
When 5 Medic + 1 Biotech people gets crazy together.
It was pure random. A badminton playing session between me, Michael, Jee Wei and Jee Hsiung ended up discussing about outing plans to Berjaya Times Square, and maybe also Pavilion on the next day. Planned to have breakfast together at McD before meeting up but everyone just refused to leave the cosy bed and so we only meet up at almost 10, together with Diana and Dwayne for the shuttle bus.
Had lunch at Sungai Wang at T-Bowl Restaurant. Interesting design of toiletries for the tables, with toilet bowls as chairs and even the plates and noodles bowls, and even with showerheads as lamps. Lunch was OK. Then JW, Diana and Dwayne left us for their movie back in Times Square. So the 3 of us were left to shop around for clothes (basically its just them both guys shopping, and I'm the shopping partner) in Parkson. And although empty-handed, we even spent almost half an hour just look for the right entrance to get back to Times Square. Failing to do so led us to go around the corners and even went to the extent of seeing BB Plaza and Lot 10 which is nearby. Lols. Upon returning to Times Square, at the same time, those 3 movie "kaki's" also finished the movie. And we walked around with just one purpose: Find a nice place to sit and rest our sore feet plus something cooling to drink, most importantly something cheap as well. Thus, randomly picked 欢喜地 where only me and Jee Hsiung ordered as others think the drinks are not considered cheap. After that, went down to Cold Storage to buy drinks. We left Times Square after that on LRT, and after that public bus once we reached the KTM station near UCSI.
Thought that the trip just ended like that. But certainly things ain't as easy as we thought so. Lols.
The bus we hopped on was actually a mistake. We ended up being kicked out of the bus and asked to wait for the other bus that will bring us back. Except for Jee Hsiung who went down earlier due to our different location of homes. Big mistake of ours for being lazy just to walk across the overhead bridge. Hahahahaha. Although we have reached to an agreement of not letting Jee Hsiung know about it, whom we said "bye-bye" happily to when he had to get down the bus earlier, somehow Michael let the cat out of the bag. I can still remember how he laughed at us until his face was reddened. *embarrassing*
Really glad to have this bunch of friends where we can hang out together and get crazy over simple, silly things. Lols. Sure do hope we can do this kind of things often. *smiles* I just hate to get back to my previous uni life where I spent the whole day hiding in that snail shell of mine. =p
Had lunch at Sungai Wang at T-Bowl Restaurant. Interesting design of toiletries for the tables, with toilet bowls as chairs and even the plates and noodles bowls, and even with showerheads as lamps. Lunch was OK. Then JW, Diana and Dwayne left us for their movie back in Times Square. So the 3 of us were left to shop around for clothes (basically its just them both guys shopping, and I'm the shopping partner) in Parkson. And although empty-handed, we even spent almost half an hour just look for the right entrance to get back to Times Square. Failing to do so led us to go around the corners and even went to the extent of seeing BB Plaza and Lot 10 which is nearby. Lols. Upon returning to Times Square, at the same time, those 3 movie "kaki's" also finished the movie. And we walked around with just one purpose: Find a nice place to sit and rest our sore feet plus something cooling to drink, most importantly something cheap as well. Thus, randomly picked 欢喜地 where only me and Jee Hsiung ordered as others think the drinks are not considered cheap. After that, went down to Cold Storage to buy drinks. We left Times Square after that on LRT, and after that public bus once we reached the KTM station near UCSI.
Thought that the trip just ended like that. But certainly things ain't as easy as we thought so. Lols.
The bus we hopped on was actually a mistake. We ended up being kicked out of the bus and asked to wait for the other bus that will bring us back. Except for Jee Hsiung who went down earlier due to our different location of homes. Big mistake of ours for being lazy just to walk across the overhead bridge. Hahahahaha. Although we have reached to an agreement of not letting Jee Hsiung know about it, whom we said "bye-bye" happily to when he had to get down the bus earlier, somehow Michael let the cat out of the bag. I can still remember how he laughed at us until his face was reddened. *embarrassing*
Really glad to have this bunch of friends where we can hang out together and get crazy over simple, silly things. Lols. Sure do hope we can do this kind of things often. *smiles* I just hate to get back to my previous uni life where I spent the whole day hiding in that snail shell of mine. =p
Thursday, October 21, 2010
20.10.2010
Today is certainly a "memorable" day for me. Haiz. First for don't know what reason, I have this moody feeling. Again. And it just doesn't leave me. Till just now. Where I resulted crying over the phone with Michael, uncontrollably, till it scares him I guess. Sorry dear for messing your day. Yours went on smoothly as you wished where it has been bothering you for the past few days. While mine comes with a clumsy stumbling down the stairs, where now I get an ugly + extremely painful bruise on my right hip bone on the back with another one on the back of my left ankle part. And the best part is, my clumsiness just have to appear in the library, though I've to be a BIT thankful that only 2girls downstairs who saw that embarrassing scene, AND I was wearing a knee-length skirt at that time -.-"
Argh. Hope I'm not falling into the pool of depression. These symptoms showing depression just haunts me. And I'm even starting to worry about March's finals, thanks to the lecturers who constantly reminded me (and other repeat students) about passing it, much more like do-or-die even though I passed my 1st semester examination and yet to them its not enough without extra extra hardwork. Aiks! But a phone call with him with his comforting words kind of pulled me out of that horrifying pool again. And I certainly hope I don't fall into it too often. I hate myself too for being too quiet and start to stressed out over things. That time during the holidays is terrible enough without someone who I can convey to and the only thing I can do is to hide under the blanket forcing myself to sleep and think no more, only to wake up the next day feeling terribly stupid for making myself so stressed and depressed.
Michael's right! I should think and imagine more about the food they'll be serving for the BBQ party! Lols. Sure its nice to think of food. Though not too nice to where all my food supplies are not here with me. =( I'm hungry~
Argh. Hope I'm not falling into the pool of depression. These symptoms showing depression just haunts me. And I'm even starting to worry about March's finals, thanks to the lecturers who constantly reminded me (and other repeat students) about passing it, much more like do-or-die even though I passed my 1st semester examination and yet to them its not enough without extra extra hardwork. Aiks! But a phone call with him with his comforting words kind of pulled me out of that horrifying pool again. And I certainly hope I don't fall into it too often. I hate myself too for being too quiet and start to stressed out over things. That time during the holidays is terrible enough without someone who I can convey to and the only thing I can do is to hide under the blanket forcing myself to sleep and think no more, only to wake up the next day feeling terribly stupid for making myself so stressed and depressed.
Michael's right! I should think and imagine more about the food they'll be serving for the BBQ party! Lols. Sure its nice to think of food. Though not too nice to where all my food supplies are not here with me. =( I'm hungry~
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Happy - by Secrets In Stereo
I wanna be
next to you
and watch you while you sleep
holding you
lost inside
every breath you breathe
i dont wanna live a day without you
i just wanna be the one that makes you happy, happy
i dont wanna live a day without you
i just wanna be the one that makes you happy, happy
one minute more
a thousand years
it's all the same to me
cause i'm incomplete
and i need you more
with every breath i breathe
i dont wanna live a day without you
i just wanna be the one that makes you happy, happy
i dont wanna live a day without you
i just wanna be the one that makes you happy, happy
i try to let you know
but my words get tangled up
and every time i find that i'm
outside looking in
can't let this moment go
when you're the only one
that makes me feel the way i feel inside
lately i'm falling for you
lately i'm falling for you
i dont wanna live a day without you
i just wanna be the one that makes you happy, happy
i dont wanna live a day without you
i just wanna be the one that makes you happy, happy
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Stress pressing on my nerves -- SHOO~!!!!
Sorry to my mum and to you. I know I should not have showed my bad mood with anger instead. Mum was quite shocked with my loud voice with a hint of irritation over the phone when she called in the afternoon to ask me about my window. And she was complaining about me not knowing and not understanding that they are all actually caring about me. Not that I do not understand, but its just a bad time. And bad mood too. Guess I was also giving him a bad time to be with me for the whole afternoon. No wonder he's more pressurised. It ain't that easy to be not stressed by just asking me not to be stressed. This is sure gonna be worse when the Professional Exam II for Year 2 is here next year's March. @_@ Maybe it might be a good idea if we separate ourselves to study on our own in this pre-exam period. I might get into a tantrum someday when I can't relieve my stress. And I hope the one beside me at that time won't be you.
Tough neck and shoulder muscles + insomnia + moody = evidence of stress
I'm sure to looking forward to next Wed, which is after exam. Then it'll be a great relief for me. And to my nerves too.
OK. I'm only contradicting myself. Coz' I can't stand not seeing you even for one second. =(
Tough neck and shoulder muscles + insomnia + moody = evidence of stress
I'm sure to looking forward to next Wed, which is after exam. Then it'll be a great relief for me. And to my nerves too.
OK. I'm only contradicting myself. Coz' I can't stand not seeing you even for one second. =(
有时候。。。
有时候，
并不是我不要跟你说话，
也不是没话要跟你说。
只是，
我不想在你的面前戴上面具，
来掩饰我的坏心情。
我并不想把你拖进我坏心情的漩涡里。
所以，
请你理解我的意思。
不当面跟你说，
却选择与我的电脑说，
因为我认为我比较能通过它来表达自己，
也因为我是个喜欢逃避现实的人。
我只希望在坏心情时，
静静的让我冷静下来并思考，
所以，
只要你一直在我身边陪着我，
即使你一句话也不说，
或者我只当个聆听者，
我已经满足了。
并不是我不要跟你说话，
也不是没话要跟你说。
只是，
我不想在你的面前戴上面具，
来掩饰我的坏心情。
我并不想把你拖进我坏心情的漩涡里。
所以，
请你理解我的意思。
不当面跟你说，
却选择与我的电脑说，
因为我认为我比较能通过它来表达自己，
也因为我是个喜欢逃避现实的人。
我只希望在坏心情时，
静静的让我冷静下来并思考，
所以，
只要你一直在我身边陪着我，
即使你一句话也不说，
或者我只当个聆听者，
我已经满足了。
Monday, September 27, 2010
Reproduction - DONE. Endocrine - STARTING.
I actually slept at 6.45am this morning. And woke up at 9 by my alarm clock. But thought better to sleep more and read more when I wake up later. So was wakened up instead by my dear's sms at 10.20am. Met him up for lunch. And after lunch, I just drilled through my reproductive system physiology and managed to finish it in like..3 hours? Was actually planning to not sleep at all. But my eyelids just wouldn't let me do so and so climbed onto the bed finally when the sun rays can be seen faraway. Now my eyes are as swollen as panda with huge shadows beneath the eyes. And outside is raining again. Lucky no strong winds, but still my cardboard did a great job preventing rain from drowning my precious books and notes wet. I am so gonna sleep early tonight though I know its impossible to compensate for the loss of sleep. Looking forward to tomorrow where I can get to meet my dear. =) And also for someone to finally come and fix my window. Haiz. And has it dropped off yet? Nope. Still hanging strongly though. Hope nothing will happen till tomorrow le.
Endocrine. Hoping to finish by tomorrow or day after tomorrow? I've gastrointestinal system to go. And days are coming nearer. Hope the time can just stop and I can finish everything, better still revise once more. Memory's getting worse nowadays. @_@
Endocrine. Hoping to finish by tomorrow or day after tomorrow? I've gastrointestinal system to go. And days are coming nearer. Hope the time can just stop and I can finish everything, better still revise once more. Memory's getting worse nowadays. @_@
如果没有本事爱我一辈子，那就什么都不要开始...
如果这只是一个开始，那请永远都不要结束，
有些事情不是说要开始就能开始，
我对你不是玩玩而已，我要的是天长地久，
我知道这要的要求或许很可笑，
但这是我内心深处最真诚的渴望...
或许喜欢上一个人并不难，但爱上一个人却不容易，
我的心可以分成很多很多块给我喜欢的人，
我可以对他们很好，但却始终只是友情的界限，
我会对他们有所付出，却不会为他们做出牺牲，
我可以为了你放弃他们，却不能为了他们放弃你,
真正爱上一个人就会懂得什么叫做奋不顾身，
留下两分来爱自己是不可能做得到的，
因为一旦爱上了，理智就不受自己控制了...
我要的是一段可以手牵手到老的爱情，
我要的是一个只属于我自己的情人，
我不能与人共享，也不会与人共享，
你可以选择我或是她，但不能同时都想要，
要是你爱她，就不要选择我，要是你爱我，
就只能专心爱我一个人,
我的要求听起来是有一点自私，其实不然，
要是你也像我爱你一样地那么爱我，
你也会对我有着同样的要求...
我能做到，难道你就不能吗？
别承诺得太早，更别答应得太快，
我的要求不难做到却很难坚持，
爱我的时候你可以为了我付出一切，
不爱的时候你可以付出一切来不爱我，
我明白，我知道，所以我选择一个人，
我就是这样地高傲，我就是这么地挑剔，
如果没有这样的爱情，一个人又何妨呢？
如果不能得到最好的，那还不如一个人...还更自由自在...
天才地久确实是些美丽得不切实际，
不是不了解现实有多么地残忍，
而是我始终都相信，
冥冥中一定有一个人是属于我的...
有些事情不是说要开始就能开始，
我对你不是玩玩而已，我要的是天长地久，
我知道这要的要求或许很可笑，
但这是我内心深处最真诚的渴望...
或许喜欢上一个人并不难，但爱上一个人却不容易，
我的心可以分成很多很多块给我喜欢的人，
我可以对他们很好，但却始终只是友情的界限，
我会对他们有所付出，却不会为他们做出牺牲，
我可以为了你放弃他们，却不能为了他们放弃你,
真正爱上一个人就会懂得什么叫做奋不顾身，
留下两分来爱自己是不可能做得到的，
因为一旦爱上了，理智就不受自己控制了...
我要的是一段可以手牵手到老的爱情，
我要的是一个只属于我自己的情人，
我不能与人共享，也不会与人共享，
你可以选择我或是她，但不能同时都想要，
要是你爱她，就不要选择我，要是你爱我，
就只能专心爱我一个人,
我的要求听起来是有一点自私，其实不然，
要是你也像我爱你一样地那么爱我，
你也会对我有着同样的要求...
我能做到，难道你就不能吗？
别承诺得太早，更别答应得太快，
我的要求不难做到却很难坚持，
爱我的时候你可以为了我付出一切，
不爱的时候你可以付出一切来不爱我，
我明白，我知道，所以我选择一个人，
我就是这样地高傲，我就是这么地挑剔，
如果没有这样的爱情，一个人又何妨呢？
如果不能得到最好的，那还不如一个人...还更自由自在...
天才地久确实是些美丽得不切实际，
不是不了解现实有多么地残忍，
而是我始终都相信，
冥冥中一定有一个人是属于我的...
Stress = Procrastination?
OK. I'm weird. The more stressed I get, the more procrastinating I get. Which means I'll tend to can't concentrate better although keeps on worrying that I can't finish everything on time. Even more stressed thinking of our future and what you have told me today during dinner. Not blaming you though. Its me myself. =S And great! I forgot about how caffeine caused me to get insomnia. @_@ 4.04am. Am blogging to keep myself concentrate more on my studies. And also to keep my fingers busy while memorising important points. I am so not sleepy yet. Guess gonna stay up till the sun appears from the horizon appears outside the window empty space where the window is supposed to be. I'm now accompanied by the darkness outside + the quietness of the hostel + songs that somehow calms me down + notes on reproductive (Yes, I'm still on it! But finishing soon. Then I can sleep. Finally.) Oh, and also accompanied by spells of sneezing just now. Almost wanted to reach out for my medication, whatever it may be just to stop me from it. But thought twice. And luckily I did. Coz' I'm OK now. Haha. I'm gonna appear as a panda these few days. Seriously I think I can only study late at night. A 'no-no' in the afternoons coz' it'll only cause me get more and more sleepy by facing the squiggly words, for no reason. Oh well, as usual. My bad habit, hard to change after so many years. Don't worry, I'll adapt to your early sleeping habits once I don't need to face books anymore. >.<
I'll still like Leo Ku's songs no matter that you dislike Hong Kong people. At least he can sing and his songs are great! Blerkz~
I'll still like Leo Ku's songs no matter that you dislike Hong Kong people. At least he can sing and his songs are great! Blerkz~
Does getting into a relationship results in smaller circle of friends?
Maybe I am thinking too much. Again. Or maybe I was caring for the feelings of the other half of mine too much. I have a feeling of getting more and more further away from my friends. Is that good or bad? I have a feeling that now I'm living more and more only in the circle of me and him. Maybe that was because I spent almost 24hours with him? Hm. Big sorry to Ernie, Fishy, ZW, Huey Leng, Ah Ong, Shan and so many others. I believe I somehow seemed 'Missing In Action' to you guys. Probably you guys have even lost track of how I look like, where I am and what I am doing currently. Especially my gang back in high school. I've not been seeing them for like...I also forgot when was the last time I met up with them. Aiks! Especially ZW, who knew about me more than my own 'ji muis', don't quite dare to contact me since he knows about Michael due to some..erm...previous incident..? Lols. Hm. Maybe I should keep in touch with them more le. I feel like an outcast to them now since even Fishy didn't mention in her FB post that she loves me. =( And I'm so terribly outdated with whatever happened to them. I don't want to lose these hard-to-find friends. And yet I'm not prepared to sacrifice him for them if it means for me to do so. Maybe I was just too selfish. What am I to do? >.<
Another stressful yet duno-what-to-do night. Sigh.
Now its already 1.44am. GAH! I'm still stuck in reproductive system here. At least I finished pathology and anatomy. Now in embryology, finishing soon and can go on with physiology. Promised myself to finish everything before I'm allowed to touch my head to the pillow. Just gunned down coffee. Gonna spend the night I guess. And at the same time making myself keep awake by listening to Leo Ku's songs. =D Just pray hard that I won't be wakened up early tomorrow morning by the stupid construction drilling sound on 2nd floor. @_@
Also need to pray that my stupid window which currently is hanging down pathetically just by the bottom hinges won't fall down and can wait till Tuesday where the maintenance would (hopefully) come and fix it for me. The top hinges just broke off today this morning when I was trying to close the window before heading off to church. Managed to pull the stupid heavy window up by giving my fingers some scratches and stay in place, just yet. But guess the strong wind + heavy rain somehow caused the window to shifted from the place and dropped down, hanging there. And why do I need to wait till Tues? Coz' our dear Chairman, Dato' Peter Ng's dad passed away and so the school is closed tomorrow as a sign of respect.
Pre-exam days are just no fun. Sigh. All I did for almost 24hours is just to face books + notes. But for mine, and also his future, we both just have to work hard to go through for the remaining 3 and a half years, no matter how difficult these are. Lack of sleep and overusage of brain cells are certainly unavoidable. Aiks! No wonder the doctors I've seen all looked older than their age. Maybe its because of less number of brain cells all spent during the 5years, or more for specialists of studies? =p Oh my..does that mean it'll be the same for me as well? NOooOooo~!!!! Medicine can be fun sometimes, but one thing for certain, it IS killing as well. Wait, I LOVE medicine. (Articles say you must love something to put more interest in it..lols) Now I'm just looking forward to next Wednesday afternoon and whole Thursday, care-free + stress-free day. =D
Exam schedule:
4th Oct (Mon), 9-11.30am: Written Paper I (Short Answer Question paper)
5th Oct (Tues): OSPE (not sure group A or group B yet)
6th Oct (Wed), 9-11am: Written Paper II (MCQ paper)
The relieving thing is this time's paper is only consists of Year 2 Semester 1 stuffs. Wait till 5 more months later, that will be consisting of both Year 1 and Year 2 stuffs. And also this one doesn't contribute as much as the one in the finals. Best thing is..I have NOT even started on my 1st year's stuffs!!! I am SOoooo stressed.!!!!!!
Also need to pray that my stupid window which currently is hanging down pathetically just by the bottom hinges won't fall down and can wait till Tuesday where the maintenance would (hopefully) come and fix it for me. The top hinges just broke off today this morning when I was trying to close the window before heading off to church. Managed to pull the stupid heavy window up by giving my fingers some scratches and stay in place, just yet. But guess the strong wind + heavy rain somehow caused the window to shifted from the place and dropped down, hanging there. And why do I need to wait till Tues? Coz' our dear Chairman, Dato' Peter Ng's dad passed away and so the school is closed tomorrow as a sign of respect.
Pre-exam days are just no fun. Sigh. All I did for almost 24hours is just to face books + notes. But for mine, and also his future, we both just have to work hard to go through for the remaining 3 and a half years, no matter how difficult these are. Lack of sleep and overusage of brain cells are certainly unavoidable. Aiks! No wonder the doctors I've seen all looked older than their age. Maybe its because of less number of brain cells all spent during the 5years, or more for specialists of studies? =p Oh my..does that mean it'll be the same for me as well? NOooOooo~!!!! Medicine can be fun sometimes, but one thing for certain, it IS killing as well. Wait, I LOVE medicine. (Articles say you must love something to put more interest in it..lols) Now I'm just looking forward to next Wednesday afternoon and whole Thursday, care-free + stress-free day. =D
Exam schedule:
4th Oct (Mon), 9-11.30am: Written Paper I (Short Answer Question paper)
5th Oct (Tues): OSPE (not sure group A or group B yet)
6th Oct (Wed), 9-11am: Written Paper II (MCQ paper)
The relieving thing is this time's paper is only consists of Year 2 Semester 1 stuffs. Wait till 5 more months later, that will be consisting of both Year 1 and Year 2 stuffs. And also this one doesn't contribute as much as the one in the finals. Best thing is..I have NOT even started on my 1st year's stuffs!!! I am SOoooo stressed.!!!!!!
Saturday, September 25, 2010
信任
我该继续信任他吗？一次又一次的信任与原谅，却换来一次又一次的心痛与忧郁……忧郁着我该不该继续瞒着自己的心相信他……我知道我不该去探他的隐私，但不只一次他瞒着我，真的让我很不安。It does not include only the past, but also the present. 虽然他说他心里只有我一个，但看着他们所聊的事，真的感到有点心酸。在想着，到底我为他做了那么多，是值得的吗？那他对我的又是一片真心吗？还是纯粹只因我为他做太多了，想报答，而且也不敢伤害我吗？真搞不懂他……有点感觉到我其实不怎么了解他了……以为了解却一点也捉摸不到他心里深处的那一角……
还是是我自己多心吗？
好讨厌这感觉……我该如何是好？=(
好怕会失去他~
Thursday, September 23, 2010
漂亮女孩和普通女孩的 十个区别
区别一
漂亮女孩周围总有很多不同凡响的男孩，至少感觉很优秀。既然有这么优越的条件，漂亮女孩自然提高了眼界，他们勾画出未来的男朋友或爱人的形象无疑是完美无缺的，她们不停的选择，她们需要浪漫的快乐，等待她们的白马王子的到来。
普通女孩象普通人一样生活，很多时候身旁的男孩把她当作朋友却又经常忽视她们是女孩的事实。她们也会想象自己的白马王子，不同的是他是一个普通的人。普通女孩可以容忍男朋友有一些缺点，她们只需要这一生一世不变的爱。
区别二
漂亮女孩经常不知道该选择哪一个，常常对着月亮在祈祷神来告诉她。
普通女孩相信自己的选择，也相信自己一生的选择。
区别三
漂亮女孩有太多的机会，她们喜欢捉弄机会，喜欢短暂的浪漫，来展示她们的与众不同。他们经常告诉追求者“你只是他们中的普通一个”。
普通女孩用心去珍惜每一次机会，她们用一颗心来维护这感情持久。她们会用眼神和目光告诉他：“这是我们一生的选择”。
区别四
漂亮女孩的追求者每天都在考虑两个问题：一个是“情敌又多了吗？”，一个是“我怎样才能胜出”。通常第一个回答是肯定的，而第二个很多是否定的。
普通女孩的追求者只会偶尔想一想：如果她答应我了，我们就去骑自行车环岛。
区别五
漂亮女孩的男朋友和她的追求者没有本质的界限，虽然拥着她满是自豪，但每天躺在床上又要打算明天战斗，因为竞争太激烈了，通常这种生活要保持到那披上婚纱那一刻。
普通女孩的男朋友虽然没有那种自豪，但是心中很幸福，他默默告诉自己：生活需要平淡，我寻找的是共风雨的爱人，而不是炫耀的商品。
区别六
漂亮女孩经常不经意的把男朋友当做奴隶，因为她们觉这是应该的。她们毫不客气的做麦当劳的常客，穿巴黎春天的衣服，那微微翘起的嘴角仿佛告诉男友：“你的女朋友——我是最漂亮的，享用这些是应该的”。
普通女孩体贴入微的关心男朋友，因为她们觉得这个世界无论多苦多累，都不是自己一个人走，无论未来多么变换末测，都是两个人共同应付，珍惜他就是珍惜自己的未来。普通女孩偶尔也会奢侈一下，只是让男朋友只记得温馨与可爱。
区别七
漂亮女孩的爱情充满浪漫，她的心中从未考虑什么是持久的爱情。
普通女孩的爱情平淡无奇，她的心中向往浪漫，却更懂得天长地久的珍贵。
区别八
漂亮女孩的丈夫都很出色，出色的丈夫身旁有很多比漂亮女孩更漂亮更年轻的女孩，于是，漂亮女孩开始了保卫爱情的战役，因为她们知道当初自己可以吸引丈夫，那么那些女孩同样也可以吸引他。只是在漂亮女孩的心中她开始问自己：“什么是爱情”。
普通女孩的丈夫有的很出色，虽然也有出色的女孩围绕在他的周围，但是普通女孩知道：在众多选择中最终选择了自己的丈夫不会背叛自己，因为他懂得爱情不是美丽的外表。普通女孩会对自己说：我知道了爱情的含义了。
区别九
漂亮女孩的家庭并不稳定，漂亮女孩的漂亮外表渐渐变老，她在心中有很多疑问：当初我在追求什么，我又获得了什么。
普通女孩的家庭很幸福，常常听见自己刚刚懂事的儿女趴在耳边说：妈妈，你是最漂亮的，于是普通女孩笑了。
区别十
时间过得真快，漂亮女孩与普通女孩没什么区别了，岁月无情的掩盖了漂亮女孩曾经漂亮的外表。或许漂亮女孩终于找到了答案：原来这就是爱情。
普通女孩依旧普通，普通的心在回忆过去，在儿孙满堂时告诉别人，我没有错过珍贵的爱情。
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说给女孩听…
如果你是漂亮女孩，
那么请原谅我要说漂亮不等于一切，
上天的安排只是一种随机的选择，
最终的幸福要自己用心选择，用心去走，
不要被自己的容颜所误。
生活需要美丽，美丽不是人生。
如果你是普通女孩，
那么请抬起头，
因为世界并不仅是漂亮女孩的，
懂得爱情的人是不以漂亮的外表而迁就自己的爱情的。
相信自己相信爱情，
用心珍惜，用心去爱，
生活原本精彩。
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说给男孩听…
如果你喜欢上了漂亮女孩，
那么通常你要进行坚苦卓绝的斗争，
无论成功与否，
你都要理直气壮的对自己说：重要的不是结果而是经历。
成功了要对继续保持稳定有长远的打算，
失败了也要明白考上清华的难度就不一样。
我只想告诉同胞：你可能是喜欢漂亮女孩的外表才准备进一步前进的。
她们一样需要真正的爱情，
欺骗别人的感情来达到炫耀的目的，
终有一天你会失去爱情的权利。
如果你喜欢上了普通女孩，
那么请用心去追求，用心去爱，
你会发现她们的心是那么可爱，
她们的感情是那么细腻……
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鼓足勇气告诉别人：“在爱情和美丽之间，我选择了爱情”。
只有时间能肯定爱的存在，相信用心的爱情是永恒的。
漂亮女孩周围总有很多不同凡响的男孩，至少感觉很优秀。既然有这么优越的条件，漂亮女孩自然提高了眼界，他们勾画出未来的男朋友或爱人的形象无疑是完美无缺的，她们不停的选择，她们需要浪漫的快乐，等待她们的白马王子的到来。
普通女孩象普通人一样生活，很多时候身旁的男孩把她当作朋友却又经常忽视她们是女孩的事实。她们也会想象自己的白马王子，不同的是他是一个普通的人。普通女孩可以容忍男朋友有一些缺点，她们只需要这一生一世不变的爱。
区别二
漂亮女孩经常不知道该选择哪一个，常常对着月亮在祈祷神来告诉她。
普通女孩相信自己的选择，也相信自己一生的选择。
区别三
漂亮女孩有太多的机会，她们喜欢捉弄机会，喜欢短暂的浪漫，来展示她们的与众不同。他们经常告诉追求者“你只是他们中的普通一个”。
普通女孩用心去珍惜每一次机会，她们用一颗心来维护这感情持久。她们会用眼神和目光告诉他：“这是我们一生的选择”。
区别四
漂亮女孩的追求者每天都在考虑两个问题：一个是“情敌又多了吗？”，一个是“我怎样才能胜出”。通常第一个回答是肯定的，而第二个很多是否定的。
普通女孩的追求者只会偶尔想一想：如果她答应我了，我们就去骑自行车环岛。
区别五
漂亮女孩的男朋友和她的追求者没有本质的界限，虽然拥着她满是自豪，但每天躺在床上又要打算明天战斗，因为竞争太激烈了，通常这种生活要保持到那披上婚纱那一刻。
普通女孩的男朋友虽然没有那种自豪，但是心中很幸福，他默默告诉自己：生活需要平淡，我寻找的是共风雨的爱人，而不是炫耀的商品。
区别六
漂亮女孩经常不经意的把男朋友当做奴隶，因为她们觉这是应该的。她们毫不客气的做麦当劳的常客，穿巴黎春天的衣服，那微微翘起的嘴角仿佛告诉男友：“你的女朋友——我是最漂亮的，享用这些是应该的”。
普通女孩体贴入微的关心男朋友，因为她们觉得这个世界无论多苦多累，都不是自己一个人走，无论未来多么变换末测，都是两个人共同应付，珍惜他就是珍惜自己的未来。普通女孩偶尔也会奢侈一下，只是让男朋友只记得温馨与可爱。
区别七
漂亮女孩的爱情充满浪漫，她的心中从未考虑什么是持久的爱情。
普通女孩的爱情平淡无奇，她的心中向往浪漫，却更懂得天长地久的珍贵。
区别八
漂亮女孩的丈夫都很出色，出色的丈夫身旁有很多比漂亮女孩更漂亮更年轻的女孩，于是，漂亮女孩开始了保卫爱情的战役，因为她们知道当初自己可以吸引丈夫，那么那些女孩同样也可以吸引他。只是在漂亮女孩的心中她开始问自己：“什么是爱情”。
普通女孩的丈夫有的很出色，虽然也有出色的女孩围绕在他的周围，但是普通女孩知道：在众多选择中最终选择了自己的丈夫不会背叛自己，因为他懂得爱情不是美丽的外表。普通女孩会对自己说：我知道了爱情的含义了。
区别九
漂亮女孩的家庭并不稳定，漂亮女孩的漂亮外表渐渐变老，她在心中有很多疑问：当初我在追求什么，我又获得了什么。
普通女孩的家庭很幸福，常常听见自己刚刚懂事的儿女趴在耳边说：妈妈，你是最漂亮的，于是普通女孩笑了。
区别十
时间过得真快，漂亮女孩与普通女孩没什么区别了，岁月无情的掩盖了漂亮女孩曾经漂亮的外表。或许漂亮女孩终于找到了答案：原来这就是爱情。
普通女孩依旧普通，普通的心在回忆过去，在儿孙满堂时告诉别人，我没有错过珍贵的爱情。
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说给女孩听…
如果你是漂亮女孩，
那么请原谅我要说漂亮不等于一切，
上天的安排只是一种随机的选择，
最终的幸福要自己用心选择，用心去走，
不要被自己的容颜所误。
生活需要美丽，美丽不是人生。
如果你是普通女孩，
那么请抬起头，
因为世界并不仅是漂亮女孩的，
懂得爱情的人是不以漂亮的外表而迁就自己的爱情的。
相信自己相信爱情，
用心珍惜，用心去爱，
生活原本精彩。
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说给男孩听…
如果你喜欢上了漂亮女孩，
那么通常你要进行坚苦卓绝的斗争，
无论成功与否，
你都要理直气壮的对自己说：重要的不是结果而是经历。
成功了要对继续保持稳定有长远的打算，
失败了也要明白考上清华的难度就不一样。
我只想告诉同胞：你可能是喜欢漂亮女孩的外表才准备进一步前进的。
她们一样需要真正的爱情，
欺骗别人的感情来达到炫耀的目的，
终有一天你会失去爱情的权利。
如果你喜欢上了普通女孩，
那么请用心去追求，用心去爱，
你会发现她们的心是那么可爱，
她们的感情是那么细腻……
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鼓足勇气告诉别人：“在爱情和美丽之间，我选择了爱情”。
只有时间能肯定爱的存在，相信用心的爱情是永恒的。
古巨基 - 公主病了
公主 請開口吩咐 你看 我多可惡
做完奴隸又扮演看護
做跟班保鑣抑或鐘點其實亦不在乎
若我可不工作 若你肯笑著捱苦
公主 須要傳奇 王子 卻也 最講骨氣
若情人服役後都走避
若恩寵不分真偽只想炫耀自己
其實你 憑著戀愛去自愛
其實有誰愛得起
好男人已死光了 剩下甚麼都嘲笑
誰欠了你 還債的你又嫌少
小王子你不懂要 獨自在溫室嬌俏
任你的歲月燃燒 小心生病了
公主 不會上路 還好 有我 領旨即到
但奴才又未值得傾慕
摘花的亦非應份惜花如何是好
閒坐一世 誰又敢對你負責
唯獨我仍當寶
好男人已死光了 剩下甚麼都嘲笑
誰欠了你 還債的你又嫌少
小王子你不懂要 獨自在溫室嬌俏
任你的歲月燃燒 始終長大不了
當男子漢跑光了 我愛你可不可笑
但我格格 誰替你繼續抬轎
當人生太艱苦了
你有撒嬌的需要
唯有我肯被纏繞
即使寵壞都要
否則可找誰照料
因彼此都病了
古巨基 - 时代
古巨基 - 时代
共度著患难叫肩膊剧痛
而无人成为负担心更痛
有人为怕告别春风 放弃过冬
每晚新闻几百吨
谁将好景催促成恶梦
彷佛有没有病痛 亦有病容
为何被逼必须开心 逼得更悲
为何还未呼吸你便喘了气
风雨急 岁月赶 每滴光阴一额汗
谁竟懒得抹干 污迹应洗烫未洗烫
入梦时绵羊全变狼
不再讲 人须经过什么 会更加强壮
一刻不开朗便沮丧 为失望而失望
这麽紧张的心 怎能放
在乐活道上那一对伴侣
如何疲劳仍沉溺工作里
有人害怕再没工作 无法进睡
哪个胆敢不进取
谁因安居不安而顾虑
走得太慢怕被这潮流冲去
何妨用阴影压下来 心晴朗
时代令天空塌下来 更会珍惜阳光
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Happy Mooncake Festival~!!!
My dear,
Everyday spending almost 24hours with you is precious and memorable enough, and certainly enjoyable. But today is kind of special. At least to me. Guess for you as well. Because for the past 20 years, I've been spending Mooncake Festival with my family. And certainly last year I haven't get to know you well, so I spent it alone. But this year is different. And hopefully for the many years to come. =) Nothing special actually. We had our daily routine of studying together in school. Spent most of the time walking. Lunch as usual cheap but not too bad.
Its the part where we ate mooncake and drink green tea at your house. And also dinner at a further place from the usual ones where we ate better and healthier food. That is what I call CONTENTMENT. Cheap but unmeasureably nice, especially together with you. Simple way of celebrating Mooncake Festival and yet perfect. And since you're one part of my family, I am still celebrating with my family. *BIG smiles*
Thank you dear. =)
Everyday spending almost 24hours with you is precious and memorable enough, and certainly enjoyable. But today is kind of special. At least to me. Guess for you as well. Because for the past 20 years, I've been spending Mooncake Festival with my family. And certainly last year I haven't get to know you well, so I spent it alone. But this year is different. And hopefully for the many years to come. =) Nothing special actually. We had our daily routine of studying together in school. Spent most of the time walking. Lunch as usual cheap but not too bad.
Its the part where we ate mooncake and drink green tea at your house. And also dinner at a further place from the usual ones where we ate better and healthier food. That is what I call CONTENTMENT. Cheap but unmeasureably nice, especially together with you. Simple way of celebrating Mooncake Festival and yet perfect. And since you're one part of my family, I am still celebrating with my family. *BIG smiles*
Thank you dear. =)
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Goats in my room
“咩咩。。咩咩。。”
That is what I always hear in my room. And that is my roommate's new handphone's SMS tone. Lols. Which freaked myself out the 1st time after she bought her handphone. I remembered asking myself how can there be goats outside of my hostel as it is surrounded by housing area. Plus I was stuffing my ears with my headphones. And the thing is, whenever I remove my headphones wondering what's the source of the sound, the sound's not there anymore. Freaky~ And yet I didn't ask her about it la. Not until the next morning when we woke up together and I heard the sound again, only I realised its from her handphone. Lols. Stupid me enough to not clarify my doubts the night before.
Oh my. Its just so hot tonight. Again. Yesterday night too. How I just hope for a heavy rainstorm now to lower down the temperature. Sigh. Today too is the day of the starting of my 2-weeks study break. Still procrastinating. Not good though. Have to revise everything at least twice. Hope I'm given more time. Yikes!
That is what I always hear in my room. And that is my roommate's new handphone's SMS tone. Lols. Which freaked myself out the 1st time after she bought her handphone. I remembered asking myself how can there be goats outside of my hostel as it is surrounded by housing area. Plus I was stuffing my ears with my headphones. And the thing is, whenever I remove my headphones wondering what's the source of the sound, the sound's not there anymore. Freaky~ And yet I didn't ask her about it la. Not until the next morning when we woke up together and I heard the sound again, only I realised its from her handphone. Lols. Stupid me enough to not clarify my doubts the night before.
Oh my. Its just so hot tonight. Again. Yesterday night too. How I just hope for a heavy rainstorm now to lower down the temperature. Sigh. Today too is the day of the starting of my 2-weeks study break. Still procrastinating. Not good though. Have to revise everything at least twice. Hope I'm given more time. Yikes!
Trust. Faith.
Trust is the basis of a relationship, no matter between family or friends, and especially between a pair of couples or between husband and wife. No lies or secrets should be hidden from in order to maintain a good relationship. Without trust, there will be no more relationship.
Everyone is sure to have their own past, regardless of having a good or bad past. No one is ever 100% perfect. Even though it might affect the present or the future, but one should not hold on to the past and instead should look forward to the future. The past of a person does not mean the person would repeat his/her mistakes nor will it affect his/her ways of judging a situation. Its the heart that is the most important. Nothing beats it. The past just does not judge one's heart.
So..even though it may be difficult, guess I just have to put in more trust into him. He's much too important for me to let go just because of my lack of trust in him. Until the day he's not worth for me to trust him anymore. I just can't take it if anyone betrays me. That will just make me lose faith in everyone, no longer trusting anyone anymore.
Everyone is sure to have their own past, regardless of having a good or bad past. No one is ever 100% perfect. Even though it might affect the present or the future, but one should not hold on to the past and instead should look forward to the future. The past of a person does not mean the person would repeat his/her mistakes nor will it affect his/her ways of judging a situation. Its the heart that is the most important. Nothing beats it. The past just does not judge one's heart.
So..even though it may be difficult, guess I just have to put in more trust into him. He's much too important for me to let go just because of my lack of trust in him. Until the day he's not worth for me to trust him anymore. I just can't take it if anyone betrays me. That will just make me lose faith in everyone, no longer trusting anyone anymore.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
The more reason for me to love you
Thanks to the Chinese tea I drank just now at church fellowship, now I'm having complete insomnia. @_@ Staring wide-eyes at the laptop screen. Was studying on Behavioral Science notes which will be on the test on Mon, but somehow got bored. Urgh! Screw Dr. Nelson! Postponing exam date + making my life miserable enough even with all those medical stuffs that I've to stuff myself completely for the next 2weeks till finals. Hope my brain cells are left enough for the rest of my life after I've done my 2nd year 1st semester finals.
At church just now, realised that although I love listening to some of the pop musics, apparently I'm not as great as those who most probably treat the karaokes as their 2nd home. Lols. And certainly knowing the songs is one thing, but remembering the lyrics is just more like killing my brain cells the more. *blerkz* And sure hope they provided English songs instead of all Chinese songs, then probably I am still able to contribute a bit to my group. Urgh! One more thing, Michael sure can remember lyrics better, unlike me, and his singing really melts my heart everytime I listened to it. Not mention even by his voice alone. Hehe. *blush* Loving him the more!
I really appreciate everything he did for me. I may be quite unaware sometimes, but not blind and not dumb. Even though I said before that I prefer life being single, but guess I change my mind now since I found my Mr. Right. *grins* At least now I found another great reason to continue my life regardless of what. Best thing is, now my parents know about him and sometimes mum asks about him. Lols. Mum even called me once just to ask what to buy for him. That is quite some progress. Haha. Guess my parents somehow know a bit what's actually happening although I didn't really tell them about our relationship. *winks* So now he's considered part of family to me. =)
At church just now, realised that although I love listening to some of the pop musics, apparently I'm not as great as those who most probably treat the karaokes as their 2nd home. Lols. And certainly knowing the songs is one thing, but remembering the lyrics is just more like killing my brain cells the more. *blerkz* And sure hope they provided English songs instead of all Chinese songs, then probably I am still able to contribute a bit to my group. Urgh! One more thing, Michael sure can remember lyrics better, unlike me, and his singing really melts my heart everytime I listened to it. Not mention even by his voice alone. Hehe. *blush* Loving him the more!
I really appreciate everything he did for me. I may be quite unaware sometimes, but not blind and not dumb. Even though I said before that I prefer life being single, but guess I change my mind now since I found my Mr. Right. *grins* At least now I found another great reason to continue my life regardless of what. Best thing is, now my parents know about him and sometimes mum asks about him. Lols. Mum even called me once just to ask what to buy for him. That is quite some progress. Haha. Guess my parents somehow know a bit what's actually happening although I didn't really tell them about our relationship. *winks* So now he's considered part of family to me. =)
My priority in my life:
1. Family (which includes Michael ^^)
2. Health
3. Studies
4. Future career
5.Money (or maybe not?)
God will always top all of them in this list.
Without God's blessings, all of these wouldn't appear in my life. =)
Saturday, September 11, 2010
I dream.
Everytime I see people playing with firecrackers or sparklers (仙女棒）, I kind of envy these people. Why? Coz the only thing I played with when I was a kid is the sparkler, which is when I only have a hint of memory about it. Firecrackers? Don't think so. My parents just never buy those for us when we were kids.
All I wish is just buy the sparklers and play on a beachside...swinging it around and around like a little girl while admiring the fire burning with all those nice designs! ^^
David Archuleta - Something 'Bout Love
Every night it’s all the same
You’re frozen by the phone, you wait
Something’s changed
You blame yourself every day, you’d do it again
Every night…
There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Woah, oh, oh, oh
It sets you free
There’s something ’bout love that tears you up
Woah, oh, oh, oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like rain
It’ll bring you to your knees
Something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Woah, oh, oh, oh
But don’t give up
There’s something ’bout love
When you were young
Scared in the night
Waiting for love to come along
And make it right
Your day will come
The past is gone
So take your time
Live and let live
There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Woah, oh, oh, oh
It sets you free
There’s something ’bout love that tears you up
Woah, oh, oh, oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like rain
It’ll bring you to your knees
Something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Woah, oh, oh, oh
But don’t give up
There’s something ’bout love
Don’t fight
Don’t hide those stars in your eyes
Let ‘em shine tonight
Let ‘em shine tonight
Hang on
Hang in for the ride of your life
It’s gonna be alright
Hold on tight
There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Woah, oh, oh, oh
There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Woah, oh, oh, oh
It sets you free
There’s something ’bout love that tears you up
Woah, oh, oh, oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like rain
It’ll bring you to your knees
There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Woah, oh, oh, oh
But don’t give up
There’s something ’bout love
Woah, oh, oh, oh
It sets you free
There’s somethin’ ’bout love that tears you up
Woah, oh, oh, oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like rain
It’ll bring you to your knees
There’s somethin’ ’bout love
Saturday, September 04, 2010
One week Raya holiday
One week. Or I should say for 9 days I wouldn't be able to see him. *sobz* I just feel so uneasy without him around. Or maybe its a habit with him around for almost 24hours everyday. Even Jee Wei sensed something is just not right without him beside me at all times. Anyway, just sent him off at the KTM station this morning while I'll be going back to Ipoh tomorrow morning together with sis. Will be coming back 4days later though. Just can't study when I'm home. Lols. The temptation of just relaxing with food around at home is so so so irresistable. Hehe. Oh, just now got an international call from across the ocean from Brunei =) Was just sooo happy to just hear his voice~!! Lovely ^^And the best thing is, its actually his parents who allow and teach him to use the international call thingy using the house phone! Hehehehe.
Okle, finish packing already. Already looking forward to seeing him next week. =)
Okle, finish packing already. Already looking forward to seeing him next week. =)
Saturday, August 28, 2010
OLIVE YOU lyrics Davedays
Can't get the words out of my mouth
That little feeling everyone talks about
The things you say like, "I miss your face"
I wanna let you know, but I can't get the words to go
So olive you
And everything you do
What two words can mean
Afraid to say the other three
Olive you
The words are coming true
I don't know what to say
But olive you
Can't fight the feeling I feel inside
I try to tell you, but I always hide
The things you say like, "Want you to stay right here by my side"
Let the words slide
Olive you
And the little things you do
What two words can mean
Afraid to say the other three
Olive you
The words are coming true
I don't know what to say
But olive you
Olive you
You, you wanna tell me
But I, I, I, I don't know how to say it
I'll let it out
It's been on my mind
Those two words mean an "I love"
I love you
And everything you do
These two words mean
What I meant to say was
I love you
And it felt so smooth
All I can say is that I love you
I love you
Olive you
LyricsBay | OLIVE YOU lyrics Davedays
Friday, August 27, 2010
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Tuesday, August 24, 2010
伴侶
伴侶不是結婚時發願非你不娶或非你不嫁的那個人，而是發現你身上有許多缺點仍然選擇你的那個人；伴侶不是生活中你愛吃黃瓜他也愛吃黃瓜的那個人，而是你吃蛋黄他吃蛋白的那個人；伴侶不是天黑了和你一起手挽手走進飯店的那個人，而是守在門口巴望你回來共進晚餐的那個人；伴侶不是和你大談愛情，把“我愛你”掛在嘴邊的那個人，而是和你平淡的嘮叨柴米油鹽、鍋碗瓢盆的那個人。
在福祉的婚姻中，伴侶已不是一個具體的人，而是你和他在幾十年的歲月中沈澱下來的︰一份默契、一份溫情、一份平淡、一份理解、一份寬容。愛他就要讓他開心，這就是伴侶........
在福祉的婚姻中，伴侶已不是一個具體的人，而是你和他在幾十年的歲月中沈澱下來的︰一份默契、一份溫情、一份平淡、一份理解、一份寬容。愛他就要讓他開心，這就是伴侶........
承諾
在古希臘傳說中，情侶都將戒指套在對方的中指上，因為他們相信那兒有一根血管直通心臟。所以戒指的意思就是用心承諾﹗但是人世間有多少愛能生死白頭，又有多少的情可以天長地久？所以你選擇共度一生得未必是你最愛的，你最愛的未必能和你共度一生。
多少的有情人走不進彼此的今生，只能苦苦的相約於來世；而多少的男男女女走過愛情走進婚姻卻不會再珍惜彼此的付出。
所以記得珍惜你愛的人，把每一個平淡的今天當成是彼此相依的最後一刻，好好握緊愛人的手，即使他容顏已老，即使他滿面滄桑，那也是你記憶中永恆的溫馨。別忘了守住對他的承諾，別忘了牽住他的手，一生一世一輩子.....
多少的有情人走不進彼此的今生，只能苦苦的相約於來世；而多少的男男女女走過愛情走進婚姻卻不會再珍惜彼此的付出。
所以記得珍惜你愛的人，把每一個平淡的今天當成是彼此相依的最後一刻，好好握緊愛人的手，即使他容顏已老，即使他滿面滄桑，那也是你記憶中永恆的溫馨。別忘了守住對他的承諾，別忘了牽住他的手，一生一世一輩子.....
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
The day 8-normally-don't-go-out-together-people came together =)
10 August 2010.
People involved: Me, Michael, Jee Wei, Diana, Sugu, Dwayne, Jee Hsiung and Frankie.
Venue: Leisure Mall
Thing we did:
Jee Wei, Diana, Sugu, Dwayne and Frankie watched The Last Airbender.
Me and Michael walked around for 2hours, going into shops we're interested in. =)
Jee Hsiung spent that 2hours in Popular bookstore.
After the guys came out from the movies, we went to Sakae Sushi for..erm...tea time? Lols. Since before that, me and Mic happened to see this teatime promotion where it says "Buy 1 Free 1 for ALL Red Plates". Both of us are just Jap-food CRAZE~ ^^ The thing is we don't know is the red plates also includes many more nice sushis and SASHIMI!!!! Oh my goodness...that is just sooooo FABULOUS!!! *yummy* Actually its just me, Mic, Frankie and Jee Hsiung eating le since others still full from their lunch plus Sugu doesnt eat raw food like we do. Then walked around more with others...mostly shoes stores. After almost one hour later, everyone just decided to go for dinner. So we proceeded to a restaurant right outside Leisure Mall -- e食无忧 Guess what? We managed to spend almost 2hours in that restaurant!!!
Eat, gossip, chat, and laugh..that is how we spent the whole afternoon together =)
Certainly I hope that we can do this again next time! And I'll treasure everything...especially the times spent with Michael~ *blush*
People involved: Me, Michael, Jee Wei, Diana, Sugu, Dwayne, Jee Hsiung and Frankie.
Venue: Leisure Mall
Thing we did:
Jee Wei, Diana, Sugu, Dwayne and Frankie watched The Last Airbender.
Me and Michael walked around for 2hours, going into shops we're interested in. =)
Jee Hsiung spent that 2hours in Popular bookstore.
After the guys came out from the movies, we went to Sakae Sushi for..erm...tea time? Lols. Since before that, me and Mic happened to see this teatime promotion where it says "Buy 1 Free 1 for ALL Red Plates". Both of us are just Jap-food CRAZE~ ^^ The thing is we don't know is the red plates also includes many more nice sushis and SASHIMI!!!! Oh my goodness...that is just sooooo FABULOUS!!! *yummy* Actually its just me, Mic, Frankie and Jee Hsiung eating le since others still full from their lunch plus Sugu doesnt eat raw food like we do. Then walked around more with others...mostly shoes stores. After almost one hour later, everyone just decided to go for dinner. So we proceeded to a restaurant right outside Leisure Mall -- e食无忧 Guess what? We managed to spend almost 2hours in that restaurant!!!
Eat, gossip, chat, and laugh..that is how we spent the whole afternoon together =)
Certainly I hope that we can do this again next time! And I'll treasure everything...especially the times spent with Michael~ *blush*
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Friday, July 30, 2010
一定要爱你 安祈尔
Music Video of Angela Ching ( Miss Malaysia Tourism International 2008 ) in her latest album <一定要爱你>
不能为她穿上 ‘嫁衣’ 请别脱她的 ‘内衣’..
“拥抱 睡觉 不做爱 那么这个男人是真的爱她...”
偶尔和朋友闲谈，谈到爱 谈到性，
他说他在网上看到这样一句话，“拥抱 睡觉 不做爱”。
我说 “如果是你，你能做到吗？”， 他说 “ 能”，
我，笑怎么能，真的能吗？
如果能，他就不会和别人刚恋爱就上床，刚上床就分手了，呵呵……
他告诉我世界上没有爱情，爱只不过是对依恋和习惯的一种修饰 因为寂寞才恋爱！
不聊了，话题结束，有些事是不适宜深聊下去的。
回到家，却还一直想着这句话，
我问妈妈“一个人在一切条件都具备的情况下，
可能和自己心爱的人‘拥抱 睡觉 不做爱吗？’”
妈说：“能”，我问：“有可能控制得住吗，那他还算男人吗?!”
时间突然停滞了几秒，妈妈转过头和我说 “...那才是真男人...”
想到了一篇文章……
和最爱的人在一起一定要做的十件事！
其中有一条就是 : 抱着她睡觉,但什么也不做！
什么是真爱?
爱不是性 不是欲 不是占有
如果你真的爱她，你想的不是怎么去占有她的身体，
而是会很小心翼翼的保护她，不让她受一点伤害，
哪怕是自己可能给的，也不可以！
只有出于真爱，你才能真正的设身处地的为她着想。
你才会在做每件事情前考虑到这么做会给她带来什么后果，
而不是简单的想着快感,想着占有，想着满足。
读了一篇散文，觉得有一段写的特别美 ：
"还记得那年暑假的一个晚上，我们坐在小镇河边的公园里，
傻傻的聊到凌晨3点，现在想起来心里总觉得那时侯特别美好，
在那棵桃树下，雨淅沥沥的下着，我们牵着手，我的手心里全是汗水，
但我舍不得放开，我想就这样一直牵下去，雨水淋湿了你的衬衫，
不经意间我隐约看见你湿透的胸口在夜色中象树上含苞欲放的桃花一样，
那时候我真想抱紧你，深深的吻着你，但是我没敢，是我没有勇气，
但我并没有后悔，因为那些美好的情节，
那段朦胧的初恋将永远永远地印在我的心上" ... ...
看到这里你的心中是否也有涌起一丝丝悸动？
是否也想到了一些事？是否也想起了某个人？我相信真爱，但我只相信一次！
任何人都是这样，心底总有一个永远也忘不了的她，那些清涩的故事,那些傻傻的举动……
一旦那份至珍的感情结束了，人就变了，变的无所谓了，
变的世俗了，变的圆滑了，变的不再相信什么狗屁爱情了，
你还会像对待初恋女友那样，小心翼翼的保护着她的第一次吗？！
一次次的控制着自己挑战自己的自制力吗?
不会的，有那个必要吗?
甩了钱，一夜情有的是，做爱其实是件很廉价的事情，
如果你把它的实质只当一种情感的发泄，那它比你给的价钱更廉价，一分钱都不值！
如果你不爱她，大可不用考虑那么多，拍拍屁股走人呗，管她那么多，
愿意负责任，我负，不愿意负，我走人 。
没有处男膜吧！呵呵……反正我不损失什么。
女人就是衣服，随便换，天凉快的时候，我都可以不穿，有了钱有了权还怕没女人吗？
如果一个男人这样想了，是的，也许他可以拥有一切，但是----却永远无法拥有真爱了……
和每个人一样，也一定有一个女人住在他内心最深处，
只不过却也只能住在他自己的回忆中了，坐在一堆钱上的回忆中了……
真爱来的不容易
我们还年轻有些事情不是我们该享受的，我们也承担不起请珍惜，爱护身边的她
我们还年轻，学生时代的爱情相对于物欲横流的复杂社会是最真最纯的了。
如果你真的拥有了一份真爱，爱是寂寞撒的谎。
当你们相爱时，一定慢一点上床，别以为脱了裤子就是爱！
如果这样都是爱，那么扣上皮带也就该拜拜。
做爱容易说爱难~！ 每个人都有初恋，初恋结婚成功率仅为千分之三！
当下大多男人会在婚前有过性行为，然而和你发生关系的女孩子成为你的新娘了吗？
没有？！
冲动的惩罚更多的来自于女孩子，怀孕、流产、痛苦、伤心......
当你拥着心爱的女孩子的时候，你有没有想过，当有一天你离开她的时候，你还能坦然的告诉自己，我曾经是爱她的，她是完整的。我给了她完整的爱？！
当你拥着初恋心爱的女孩儿的时候，望着眼前美丽的胴体，你有没有想过，当有一天你结婚的时候，你心爱的女孩子告诉你，曾经她有过……
你会坦然的面对她，告诉她，没关系，你依然是我今生最美的新娘？！
而当你想起曾经的你的她的时候，你是那么爱她，而你没能给她穿上嫁衣，你却得到了女孩儿最珍贵的东西，你能没有一丝愧疚吗？
如果你真心爱着她，请不要轻易解开你心爱女孩儿的衣服，
如果你真心爱着她，请不要轻易忘了你曾经的承诺！
如果你真心爱着她，请给她安全的臂弯，给她依靠！
如果你真心爱着她，请善待你们的每一天，让她幸福，让你们开心。
如果有一天，你将独自迎来日出和日落；
如果有一天，你的视线里再也找不到曾经的她的影子。
你却依然可以在你的天空里祝福远方的她过得幸福！
因为，你给了她完整的爱！！！！
有句话：如果你不能给她穿上嫁衣，请停下脱她衣服的手 ...
偶尔和朋友闲谈，谈到爱 谈到性，
他说他在网上看到这样一句话，“拥抱 睡觉 不做爱”。
我说 “如果是你，你能做到吗？”， 他说 “ 能”，
我，笑怎么能，真的能吗？
如果能，他就不会和别人刚恋爱就上床，刚上床就分手了，呵呵……
他告诉我世界上没有爱情，爱只不过是对依恋和习惯的一种修饰 因为寂寞才恋爱！
不聊了，话题结束，有些事是不适宜深聊下去的。
回到家，却还一直想着这句话，
我问妈妈“一个人在一切条件都具备的情况下，
可能和自己心爱的人‘拥抱 睡觉 不做爱吗？’”
妈说：“能”，我问：“有可能控制得住吗，那他还算男人吗?!”
时间突然停滞了几秒，妈妈转过头和我说 “...那才是真男人...”
想到了一篇文章……
和最爱的人在一起一定要做的十件事！
其中有一条就是 : 抱着她睡觉,但什么也不做！
什么是真爱?
爱不是性 不是欲 不是占有
如果你真的爱她，你想的不是怎么去占有她的身体，
而是会很小心翼翼的保护她，不让她受一点伤害，
哪怕是自己可能给的，也不可以！
只有出于真爱，你才能真正的设身处地的为她着想。
你才会在做每件事情前考虑到这么做会给她带来什么后果，
而不是简单的想着快感,想着占有，想着满足。
读了一篇散文，觉得有一段写的特别美 ：
"还记得那年暑假的一个晚上，我们坐在小镇河边的公园里，
傻傻的聊到凌晨3点，现在想起来心里总觉得那时侯特别美好，
在那棵桃树下，雨淅沥沥的下着，我们牵着手，我的手心里全是汗水，
但我舍不得放开，我想就这样一直牵下去，雨水淋湿了你的衬衫，
不经意间我隐约看见你湿透的胸口在夜色中象树上含苞欲放的桃花一样，
那时候我真想抱紧你，深深的吻着你，但是我没敢，是我没有勇气，
但我并没有后悔，因为那些美好的情节，
那段朦胧的初恋将永远永远地印在我的心上" ... ...
看到这里你的心中是否也有涌起一丝丝悸动？
是否也想到了一些事？是否也想起了某个人？我相信真爱，但我只相信一次！
任何人都是这样，心底总有一个永远也忘不了的她，那些清涩的故事,那些傻傻的举动……
一旦那份至珍的感情结束了，人就变了，变的无所谓了，
变的世俗了，变的圆滑了，变的不再相信什么狗屁爱情了，
你还会像对待初恋女友那样，小心翼翼的保护着她的第一次吗？！
一次次的控制着自己挑战自己的自制力吗?
不会的，有那个必要吗?
甩了钱，一夜情有的是，做爱其实是件很廉价的事情，
如果你把它的实质只当一种情感的发泄，那它比你给的价钱更廉价，一分钱都不值！
如果你不爱她，大可不用考虑那么多，拍拍屁股走人呗，管她那么多，
愿意负责任，我负，不愿意负，我走人 。
没有处男膜吧！呵呵……反正我不损失什么。
女人就是衣服，随便换，天凉快的时候，我都可以不穿，有了钱有了权还怕没女人吗？
如果一个男人这样想了，是的，也许他可以拥有一切，但是----却永远无法拥有真爱了……
和每个人一样，也一定有一个女人住在他内心最深处，
只不过却也只能住在他自己的回忆中了，坐在一堆钱上的回忆中了……
真爱来的不容易
我们还年轻有些事情不是我们该享受的，我们也承担不起请珍惜，爱护身边的她
我们还年轻，学生时代的爱情相对于物欲横流的复杂社会是最真最纯的了。
如果你真的拥有了一份真爱，爱是寂寞撒的谎。
当你们相爱时，一定慢一点上床，别以为脱了裤子就是爱！
如果这样都是爱，那么扣上皮带也就该拜拜。
做爱容易说爱难~！ 每个人都有初恋，初恋结婚成功率仅为千分之三！
当下大多男人会在婚前有过性行为，然而和你发生关系的女孩子成为你的新娘了吗？
没有？！
冲动的惩罚更多的来自于女孩子，怀孕、流产、痛苦、伤心......
当你拥着心爱的女孩子的时候，你有没有想过，当有一天你离开她的时候，你还能坦然的告诉自己，我曾经是爱她的，她是完整的。我给了她完整的爱？！
当你拥着初恋心爱的女孩儿的时候，望着眼前美丽的胴体，你有没有想过，当有一天你结婚的时候，你心爱的女孩子告诉你，曾经她有过……
你会坦然的面对她，告诉她，没关系，你依然是我今生最美的新娘？！
而当你想起曾经的你的她的时候，你是那么爱她，而你没能给她穿上嫁衣，你却得到了女孩儿最珍贵的东西，你能没有一丝愧疚吗？
如果你真心爱着她，请不要轻易解开你心爱女孩儿的衣服，
如果你真心爱着她，请不要轻易忘了你曾经的承诺！
如果你真心爱着她，请给她安全的臂弯，给她依靠！
如果你真心爱着她，请善待你们的每一天，让她幸福，让你们开心。
如果有一天，你将独自迎来日出和日落；
如果有一天，你的视线里再也找不到曾经的她的影子。
你却依然可以在你的天空里祝福远方的她过得幸福！
因为，你给了她完整的爱！！！！
有句话：如果你不能给她穿上嫁衣，请停下脱她衣服的手 ...
Thursday, July 29, 2010
无所谓
男孩儿：“对不起……”
女孩儿：“无所谓，你没什么对不起我的。”
键盘敲出最后这句话，女孩儿失声痛哭。
爱上他是女孩儿没有想到的事情，她以为自己不会爱上任何人。
可最后还是敌不过男孩儿的温柔，陷了进去。
一开始的爱情跟所有的爱情剧一样，甜言蜜语、电话短信、关怀体谅、担心紧张……
日子过的很是甜蜜。
都说恋爱中的女人智商为零。
但女孩儿不同，她不相信那些所谓的承诺，甚至排斥那些不切实际的想法。
沉着冷静是女孩儿最大的优点，同时也成了她最大的弱点。
女孩儿爱说一句话，那就是：无所谓。
说这句话的时候，女孩儿看起来好像对什么都不在乎，甚至让人觉得她很冰很冷。
但却忽略了她眼底刻意隐藏的东西。
跟男孩儿在一起，女孩儿不爱说话，只是静静地看着男孩儿，微笑着听他讲话。
偶尔的撒娇任性，野蛮无理，对女孩儿来说都是因为太依赖。
男孩儿告诉女孩儿他很爱她，离不开她。
女孩儿笑着不语。
在朋友眼里男孩儿很幸运，因为他拥有女孩儿。
在朋友眼里女孩儿很幸福，因为她遇到了男孩儿。
男孩儿的温柔、体贴，女孩儿的善良、可爱，让所有人都羡慕。
他们说：这是一出爱情的童话！
于是，像所有爱情一样，男孩儿许下了承诺：永远爱你……
这一次女孩儿说了一句话：无所谓永远不永远，你做不到。
暗淡的灯光下，男孩儿欲言又止。
日子平淡的过着……
有一段时间，女孩儿没有男孩儿的消息，没有电话，没有短信，像是凭空消失了一般。
后来男孩儿解释说：太忙了，没时间。
女孩儿失落的说：“无所谓，工作要紧。”
接下来的日子里，男孩儿跟女孩儿在一起的时候不爱说话了，总是发呆的望着手机。
直觉告诉女孩儿，有些东西改变了。
无意中女孩儿发现男孩儿的手机里多了一个陌生的号码，通话记录中全是这一串数字。
男孩儿的Q上，也明显的多了一个女孩子。
男孩儿解释说：“她是我认识的一个朋友，别生气。”
女孩儿撇开眼睛说：“无所谓，我不介意。”
之后，男孩儿又很久没有跟女孩儿联系。
女孩儿身体不好，得了重病，病痛折磨的她无法入睡。
她很想男孩儿陪着她，安慰她，可是……她又心疼他。
生日那晚，女孩儿拨通了男孩儿的电话号码，手机中传来忙音，接着便是关机了。
女孩儿的心跌到了谷底，彻夜未眠，一早被发现昏倒在窗边，送进了医院。
医生的一纸诊断书，让所有人不敢置信--骨癌晚期……
眼泪倔强的滑下脸庞，女孩儿默默地哭泣。
不是因为病痛，而是男孩儿依然没有与她联系。
忧伤的眼神刺痛了所有人，整个病房充斥着无奈与心酸。
强忍着疼，女孩儿安慰所有人：“无所谓啦，习惯了，别伤心。”
女孩儿早就知道自己的病，只是没有说出来，她不想让大家担心，特别是男孩儿。
女孩儿拒绝治疗，回家去了。
这一切，所有人都应女孩儿的要求，没有告诉男孩儿。
无聊中女孩儿打开电脑上了男孩儿的Q，刚一上线，那个陌生的头像就在跳动。
打开，一段文字跳出，瞬间，女孩儿泪流满面。
“亲爱的，我想你了！一晚上没听到你的声音了，好想你。亲爱的，爱你，看到后给我电话哦。……”
颤抖着双手，女孩儿关掉了电脑，脑子里一片空白。
她拼命告诉自己：无所谓，一切都是误会，要信任他。
眼泪止不住的流，这一次，女孩儿自己也不相信自己会真的无所谓。
她决定放开他，结束这段感情，所有的疼痛自己来受。
做下决定，女孩儿又一次昏倒了……
最后的爱情，童话终究还是一出悲剧，两人分手了。
男孩儿觉得对不起女孩儿，一直沉默着。
女孩儿一直安慰他说：无所谓。
男孩儿生日的前一天，女孩儿因病去世了。
而男孩儿在自己生日那天终于知道了这件事。
所有人都骂他不懂珍惜；
所有人都埋怨他移情别恋；
所有人都指责他欺骗女孩儿……
男孩儿拿着女孩儿最后写下的信哭了。
女孩儿在信里说：
我知道自己活不长了，想要好好珍惜有你的日子，可是你却不在我身边。
我原谅你喜欢上了别人，因为爱情是自由的。
我原谅你对我的忽视，因为爱情需要宽容。
我原谅你忘记我的生日，因为爱情需要体谅。
我原谅你的所有的错，因为我爱你。
我知道当初我的那句‘你做不到’伤到了你的心，其实我知道我们的爱情走不远，只是不知道这么快结束。
我曾经说的‘无所谓’，其实都是在掩饰内心的孤独与寂寞，只是你未曾注意过。
很在意你，在意到让我害怕，所以找个借口让自己不陷下去。
所有的“无所谓”都是因为太在乎，你可曾知道？
即使分手，也还是会想起你的好。
这些全都在我的意料之外，但不后悔。
我走了，谢谢你，谢谢你曾经带给我的感动，谢谢！
你的生日快到了，提前说声“生日快乐”！
没有再见了，愿君保重！祝福你！
男孩儿的眼泪留了出来，他不知道原来女孩儿深爱着自己。
原来他伤害了她。
原来他忽视了女孩儿的脆弱与孤寂。
原来他不懂珍惜。
朋友告诉男孩儿，分手后，女孩儿基本上是在昏迷中度过的。
每日每夜都在与病魔斗争，她多么希望男孩儿在她身边，却又不想让他知道。
男孩儿忽然好恨自己，恨这一切，恨他无力挽回。
想起女儿甜美的笑容，忆起她曾经的好，男孩儿无力的望着天空，眼泪一滴一滴流着。
“对不起……”
故事发生的很平凡，很普通。
无非就是让我们要懂得珍惜。
“男子薄情，女子多情”--这话的对与错，似乎无多大意义了。
“无所谓”，看似简单的三个字，却隐藏了好多难以让人发现的东西。
那种心理……无法言语……
明明很在乎，明明心很痛，却要装作无所谓。
需要多大的承受力啊。
也许伪装才能看清一切，伪装才能保护自己。
说出一句“无所谓”需要很大的勇气。
隐藏的脆弱，掩埋的孤寂，几人能看清？也许真的“无所谓”
无所谓的心酸，无所谓的孤寂，无所谓的人生，因为太“所谓”而“无所谓”。
“无所谓”--一种无法言语的痛！
女孩儿：“无所谓，你没什么对不起我的。”
键盘敲出最后这句话，女孩儿失声痛哭。
爱上他是女孩儿没有想到的事情，她以为自己不会爱上任何人。
可最后还是敌不过男孩儿的温柔，陷了进去。
一开始的爱情跟所有的爱情剧一样，甜言蜜语、电话短信、关怀体谅、担心紧张……
日子过的很是甜蜜。
都说恋爱中的女人智商为零。
但女孩儿不同，她不相信那些所谓的承诺，甚至排斥那些不切实际的想法。
沉着冷静是女孩儿最大的优点，同时也成了她最大的弱点。
女孩儿爱说一句话，那就是：无所谓。
说这句话的时候，女孩儿看起来好像对什么都不在乎，甚至让人觉得她很冰很冷。
但却忽略了她眼底刻意隐藏的东西。
跟男孩儿在一起，女孩儿不爱说话，只是静静地看着男孩儿，微笑着听他讲话。
偶尔的撒娇任性，野蛮无理，对女孩儿来说都是因为太依赖。
男孩儿告诉女孩儿他很爱她，离不开她。
女孩儿笑着不语。
在朋友眼里男孩儿很幸运，因为他拥有女孩儿。
在朋友眼里女孩儿很幸福，因为她遇到了男孩儿。
男孩儿的温柔、体贴，女孩儿的善良、可爱，让所有人都羡慕。
他们说：这是一出爱情的童话！
于是，像所有爱情一样，男孩儿许下了承诺：永远爱你……
这一次女孩儿说了一句话：无所谓永远不永远，你做不到。
暗淡的灯光下，男孩儿欲言又止。
日子平淡的过着……
有一段时间，女孩儿没有男孩儿的消息，没有电话，没有短信，像是凭空消失了一般。
后来男孩儿解释说：太忙了，没时间。
女孩儿失落的说：“无所谓，工作要紧。”
接下来的日子里，男孩儿跟女孩儿在一起的时候不爱说话了，总是发呆的望着手机。
直觉告诉女孩儿，有些东西改变了。
无意中女孩儿发现男孩儿的手机里多了一个陌生的号码，通话记录中全是这一串数字。
男孩儿的Q上，也明显的多了一个女孩子。
男孩儿解释说：“她是我认识的一个朋友，别生气。”
女孩儿撇开眼睛说：“无所谓，我不介意。”
之后，男孩儿又很久没有跟女孩儿联系。
女孩儿身体不好，得了重病，病痛折磨的她无法入睡。
她很想男孩儿陪着她，安慰她，可是……她又心疼他。
生日那晚，女孩儿拨通了男孩儿的电话号码，手机中传来忙音，接着便是关机了。
女孩儿的心跌到了谷底，彻夜未眠，一早被发现昏倒在窗边，送进了医院。
医生的一纸诊断书，让所有人不敢置信--骨癌晚期……
眼泪倔强的滑下脸庞，女孩儿默默地哭泣。
不是因为病痛，而是男孩儿依然没有与她联系。
忧伤的眼神刺痛了所有人，整个病房充斥着无奈与心酸。
强忍着疼，女孩儿安慰所有人：“无所谓啦，习惯了，别伤心。”
女孩儿早就知道自己的病，只是没有说出来，她不想让大家担心，特别是男孩儿。
女孩儿拒绝治疗，回家去了。
这一切，所有人都应女孩儿的要求，没有告诉男孩儿。
无聊中女孩儿打开电脑上了男孩儿的Q，刚一上线，那个陌生的头像就在跳动。
打开，一段文字跳出，瞬间，女孩儿泪流满面。
“亲爱的，我想你了！一晚上没听到你的声音了，好想你。亲爱的，爱你，看到后给我电话哦。……”
颤抖着双手，女孩儿关掉了电脑，脑子里一片空白。
她拼命告诉自己：无所谓，一切都是误会，要信任他。
眼泪止不住的流，这一次，女孩儿自己也不相信自己会真的无所谓。
她决定放开他，结束这段感情，所有的疼痛自己来受。
做下决定，女孩儿又一次昏倒了……
最后的爱情，童话终究还是一出悲剧，两人分手了。
男孩儿觉得对不起女孩儿，一直沉默着。
女孩儿一直安慰他说：无所谓。
男孩儿生日的前一天，女孩儿因病去世了。
而男孩儿在自己生日那天终于知道了这件事。
所有人都骂他不懂珍惜；
所有人都埋怨他移情别恋；
所有人都指责他欺骗女孩儿……
男孩儿拿着女孩儿最后写下的信哭了。
女孩儿在信里说：
我知道自己活不长了，想要好好珍惜有你的日子，可是你却不在我身边。
我原谅你喜欢上了别人，因为爱情是自由的。
我原谅你对我的忽视，因为爱情需要宽容。
我原谅你忘记我的生日，因为爱情需要体谅。
我原谅你的所有的错，因为我爱你。
我知道当初我的那句‘你做不到’伤到了你的心，其实我知道我们的爱情走不远，只是不知道这么快结束。
我曾经说的‘无所谓’，其实都是在掩饰内心的孤独与寂寞，只是你未曾注意过。
很在意你，在意到让我害怕，所以找个借口让自己不陷下去。
所有的“无所谓”都是因为太在乎，你可曾知道？
即使分手，也还是会想起你的好。
这些全都在我的意料之外，但不后悔。
我走了，谢谢你，谢谢你曾经带给我的感动，谢谢！
你的生日快到了，提前说声“生日快乐”！
没有再见了，愿君保重！祝福你！
男孩儿的眼泪留了出来，他不知道原来女孩儿深爱着自己。
原来他伤害了她。
原来他忽视了女孩儿的脆弱与孤寂。
原来他不懂珍惜。
朋友告诉男孩儿，分手后，女孩儿基本上是在昏迷中度过的。
每日每夜都在与病魔斗争，她多么希望男孩儿在她身边，却又不想让他知道。
男孩儿忽然好恨自己，恨这一切，恨他无力挽回。
想起女儿甜美的笑容，忆起她曾经的好，男孩儿无力的望着天空，眼泪一滴一滴流着。
“对不起……”
故事发生的很平凡，很普通。
无非就是让我们要懂得珍惜。
“男子薄情，女子多情”--这话的对与错，似乎无多大意义了。
“无所谓”，看似简单的三个字，却隐藏了好多难以让人发现的东西。
那种心理……无法言语……
明明很在乎，明明心很痛，却要装作无所谓。
需要多大的承受力啊。
也许伪装才能看清一切，伪装才能保护自己。
说出一句“无所谓”需要很大的勇气。
隐藏的脆弱，掩埋的孤寂，几人能看清？也许真的“无所谓”
无所谓的心酸，无所谓的孤寂，无所谓的人生，因为太“所谓”而“无所谓”。
“无所谓”--一种无法言语的痛！
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
机会……
有些人有很多机会见的，却总找借口推脱，想见的时候，已经没机会了。
有些话有很多机会说的，却想着以后再说，要说的时候，已经没机会了。
有些事有很多机会做的，却一天一天推迟，想做的时候却发现没机会了。
有些爱给了你很多机会，却不在意没在乎，想重视的时候已经没机会爱了。
人生有时候，总是很讽刺。
一转身可能就是一世。
说好永远的，不知怎么就散了。
最后自己想来想去竟然也搞不清当初是什么原因分开彼此的。
然后，你忽然醒悟，感情原来是这么脆弱的。
经得起风雨，却经不起平凡；
风雨同船，天晴便各自散了。
也许只是赌气，也许只是因为小小的事。
幻想着和好的甜蜜，或重逢时的拥抱，
那个时候会是边流泪边捶打对方，还傻笑着。
该是多美的画面。
没想到的是，一别竟是一辈子了。
于是，各有各的生活，各自爱着别的人。
曾经相爱，现在已互不相干。
即使在同一个小小的城市，也不曾再相逢。
某一天某一刻，走在同一条街，也看不见对方。
先是感叹，后来是无奈。
也许你很幸福，因为找到另一个适合自己的人。
也许你不幸福，因为可能你这一生就只有那个人真正用心在你身上。
很久很久，没有对方的消息，也不再想起这个人，也是不想再想起
珍惜身边所有的一切事物！
生活不是电影，错过了就是失去了、没有了，不可能像电影里一样有重新再来一次的机会,
或许一次的错过就会让我们悔恨终身……
世界上最心痛的感觉，
不是失恋，
而是我把心给你的时候，
你却在欺骗我..
有些话有很多机会说的，却想着以后再说，要说的时候，已经没机会了。
有些事有很多机会做的，却一天一天推迟，想做的时候却发现没机会了。
有些爱给了你很多机会，却不在意没在乎，想重视的时候已经没机会爱了。
人生有时候，总是很讽刺。
一转身可能就是一世。
说好永远的，不知怎么就散了。
最后自己想来想去竟然也搞不清当初是什么原因分开彼此的。
然后，你忽然醒悟，感情原来是这么脆弱的。
经得起风雨，却经不起平凡；
风雨同船，天晴便各自散了。
也许只是赌气，也许只是因为小小的事。
幻想着和好的甜蜜，或重逢时的拥抱，
那个时候会是边流泪边捶打对方，还傻笑着。
该是多美的画面。
没想到的是，一别竟是一辈子了。
于是，各有各的生活，各自爱着别的人。
曾经相爱，现在已互不相干。
即使在同一个小小的城市，也不曾再相逢。
某一天某一刻，走在同一条街，也看不见对方。
先是感叹，后来是无奈。
也许你很幸福，因为找到另一个适合自己的人。
也许你不幸福，因为可能你这一生就只有那个人真正用心在你身上。
很久很久，没有对方的消息，也不再想起这个人，也是不想再想起
珍惜身边所有的一切事物！
生活不是电影，错过了就是失去了、没有了，不可能像电影里一样有重新再来一次的机会,
或许一次的错过就会让我们悔恨终身……
世界上最心痛的感觉，
不是失恋，
而是我把心给你的时候，
你却在欺骗我..
Sunday, July 25, 2010
王力宏 - 柴米油盐酱醋茶
作词：徐若瑄 作曲：王力宏
小时候 你想要什么
我要一台大大蓝色的飞机
带我环游世界 到地球每一个角落
在蓝天白云中穿梭
而长大以后 我想要什么
我要一台小小红色答录机
和你一起录下 喂 我们现在不在家
蓝色变成红色因为你
柴米油盐酱醋茶
一点一滴都是幸福在发芽
月儿弯弯爱的傻
有了你什么都不差
小时候 你想要什么
我要一台大大蓝色的飞机
带我环游世界 到地球每一个角落
在蓝天白云中穿梭
喔 长大以后 我想要什么
我要一台小小红色答录机
和你一起录下 喂 我们现在不在家
蓝色变成红色因为你
给你快乐无论白天黑夜
握紧双手就算刮风下雨
我就是要你 要你待在我身边
保护你直到永远
月儿弯弯爱的傻
没有一个理由 活的那么复杂
有了你什么都不差
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Breakdown. Almost.
Tired. Both physically AND mentally. And I'm still stuck with PBL here. This morning woke up very early for hospital attachment, before the sun has even emerged from behind those mountains, which the east is just where my windows are facing. @_@ The best thing is I get to learn again from today's session, and also had lunch at a place in Pantai Indah, a restaurant named Steven's, which is quite a nice change from the boring food we always get around campus here. Food is nice too! Then classes with Dr Ogunbanjo. Supposedly to have Q&A session with Dr Aishah but it was postponed to next Wed. Again. Though its a good thing, coz it means we can have more time to study on our own and not having classes right till 6pm. I'll probably just collapse in class. Urgh! Tomorrow morning have to wake up early again for medical museum session. Everyone would be having blurry eyes looking at microscopes le. Lols. And clinical session for me tomorrow afternoon. Double urgh!
3rd M.A is coming up on next Monday!!! =S
3rd M.A is coming up on next Monday!!! =S
劉若英- 我们没有在一起
作词：黄婷 作曲：陈韦伶
你一直说的那个公园已经拆了
还记得荡著秋千日子就飞起来
漫漫的下午阳光都在脸上撒野
你那傻气 我真是想念
那时候小小的你还没学会叹气
谁又会想到他们现在喊我女王
你哈哈笑的样子倒是一点没变
时间走了 谁还在等呢
这杯咖啡忘了加糖
真不是我那麼伤感
世界太复杂 你说单纯很难
我当然都明白
可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨
我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享
那条路走呀走呀走呀总要回家
两只手握著晃呀晃呀舍不得放
你不知道吧后来后来我都在想
跟你走吧 管它去哪呀
这杯咖啡忘了加糖
真不是我那麼伤感
世界太复杂 你说单纯很难
我当然都明白
可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨
我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享
可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨
我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享
我们没有在一起至少还像朋友一样
你远远的关心 其实更长
Friday, July 16, 2010
Boring weekend. With disappointment.
Okaaaayyyy...the plans of going on an outing is off!! Not blaming anyone though. But seriously, I hate my plans being blown off. And I even hate disappointment. With all those discussions on where to go and suddenly its all being called off. If its the crazy, still-single me once I've been, I would have just hopped onto the bus and go whichever shopping mall I wanted to and just walk around and eat good food without needing to care about any others, especially when I'm not in a good mood. Nice. Just freecare. OK, that would be a reckless thought (though its not like I haven't done such a thing before), but the consequences would be bad coz normally I wouldn't have told anyone where I went. Sure, I can do so with others who wanted to go. But the main point is, I just want to spend time with you on outings, just something special, and not just on books and classes and stuffs we do together each and everyday.
Next time, don't ask for my opinion. And I'll never suggest any outing anymore. Just decide whatever you want and tell me the final decision. I'm sick of getting more and more disappointments.
Not specifically pissed at you. Today is just not my day.
Oh well, I just have to spend my weekend studying on what has been my target of the week and also to finish off the materials for the student seminar on contraceptives PLUS the stupid report about the visit to the water sewage today that we need to hand-in next week, freaking thing is, it needs to be a scientific report! Just tell me, we're no engineers, and I certainly don't know how we can relate anything scientific to the visit we had today. Its totally don't have any connection with medicine! Duh~ Screw that baldy old man..try writing one yourself then!
You may dislike the idea of me getting involved in the student seminar where seriously I don't have to do so. But sometimes, you just don't understand that I may have something I want to try out, and fulfil my responsibilities that I've been appointed for. Not that I'm doing anything extra just to please others. I have my own principles as well. You seriously don't see me stopping you doing things that you like. All I want is someone to support me and not stop me from doing anything although I know you think of what is the best for me, and I really appreciate that. I'd rather not be treated like a baby and do whatever that I missed out. Challenges are out there everywhere. And you will not hear a word of complaint from me. PERIOD.
I hate putting on a mask in front of everyone today. Just sooooo not my day.
Next time, don't ask for my opinion. And I'll never suggest any outing anymore. Just decide whatever you want and tell me the final decision. I'm sick of getting more and more disappointments.
Not specifically pissed at you. Today is just not my day.
Oh well, I just have to spend my weekend studying on what has been my target of the week and also to finish off the materials for the student seminar on contraceptives PLUS the stupid report about the visit to the water sewage today that we need to hand-in next week, freaking thing is, it needs to be a scientific report! Just tell me, we're no engineers, and I certainly don't know how we can relate anything scientific to the visit we had today. Its totally don't have any connection with medicine! Duh~ Screw that baldy old man..try writing one yourself then!
You may dislike the idea of me getting involved in the student seminar where seriously I don't have to do so. But sometimes, you just don't understand that I may have something I want to try out, and fulfil my responsibilities that I've been appointed for. Not that I'm doing anything extra just to please others. I have my own principles as well. You seriously don't see me stopping you doing things that you like. All I want is someone to support me and not stop me from doing anything although I know you think of what is the best for me, and I really appreciate that. I'd rather not be treated like a baby and do whatever that I missed out. Challenges are out there everywhere. And you will not hear a word of complaint from me. PERIOD.
I hate putting on a mask in front of everyone today. Just sooooo not my day.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Just prove it!
If you are afraid
that I ever doubt your actions, or even your feelings,
convince me,
whatever my actions have been right all along,
and its all being done without any regrets.
And that I haven't done them for nothing.
And that I've chosen the right person.
Just show to others that I'm right,
and they're wrong about you.
Just don't let me down. Please.
that I ever doubt your actions, or even your feelings,
convince me,
whatever my actions have been right all along,
and its all being done without any regrets.
And that I haven't done them for nothing.
And that I've chosen the right person.
Just show to others that I'm right,
and they're wrong about you.
Just don't let me down. Please.
End of a busy week...once more
Phew..tomorrow's Friday. Except for a class that is being postponed from today due to some misunderstanding AND a visit to the water sewage plant in Putrajaya PLUS badminton session with my friends at the condo tomorrow, everything's going on well. I especially like hospital attachments although its really very tiring. But at least we get to learn something, or I should say, a lot, especially in Pudu Specialist Centre. A real big thanks to Dr Wong who spent his time bringing us around, letting us having hands-on the patients, and even explaining to us about the patients' conditions, which that really helps in our writing the log book for each hospital visit. And probably this Saturday we might be going to the shopping malls!! It'll either be Midvalley or Berjaya Times Square, really depend on others. I'm just happy that we finally can at least spend some leisure time leaving the books behind our backs and de-stress a bit, as I put it. Haha. Sure hope that Jee Wei can recover sooner and join us lor. =) Its been too long since we went out together..as in out of the campus area..lols =p (which does not include those school visits which previously we went to this water treatment plant..urgh!)
Target of this week: Embryology of fetal and placenta + fertilisation and implantation AND pathology of the female genital system. @_@ Btw, 3rd M.A's coming up on the following Monday after the next! I'm so gonna have a hard week again next week with more lack of sleep. *dash underscore dash*
Target of this week: Embryology of fetal and placenta + fertilisation and implantation AND pathology of the female genital system. @_@ Btw, 3rd M.A's coming up on the following Monday after the next! I'm so gonna have a hard week again next week with more lack of sleep. *dash underscore dash*
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