爱情..可信吗？

我已经越来越不相信爱情了...更不相信人人所说的"天长地久"...因为对我来说...这世界上可信的男人已经少之又少了...真的不明白男人的头脑是怎么想的...嘴边常挂着 "我会爱你一生一世"....可是做的却是另一套...就因为婚后与妻子的感情淡了...就可以搞婚外情了吗?这是什么烂理由啊!!! 所以啊....我已经不再相信"永恒的爱情"这回事了...再说...男人最爱发誓的...可是当你把"誓"字拆开来...就变成了==> 打折的言语...那男人们发誓时...根本就是空口说白话....怎样值得我们女人去相信...怎么敢把自己的一生交给一个男人呢? 连我最相信的人都会做出对不起自己的妻子的事....真的让我对爱情的观念更迷惘了...我姐常跟我说...有男生追的时候就去追求这难得的机会...可是难道要练习我的心脏...让我一次又一次受到伤害吗? 我却宁愿自己一个人度过这一生...也不想以要依靠男人才能活的烂理由来折磨我的感情....一次的回忆已经足够我带着它走下我的人生了....总之...我妈说得对...在这个年纪就有了男友根本算不了什么...要有男友要明智地选....不要到头来后悔的反而会是自己...我可不想在读书期间想这些东西...免得毁了我的前途....到时候可真的要靠男人来养活我....

Hatyai Trip ^^

Last Fri had a trip to Hatyai with my family (except for my bro la since he's extremely busy with his work)..although the time we had there was short..only stayed for one night...but we really had a great time...not shopping (we don't approve that and we never like it!)...but our favourite pastime...EATING!!! Muahahahaha...gosh...i really have no idea how much food have i stuffed into my not-very-big stomach...and still can keep eating non stop from the moment we stepped into Hatyai =p We visited lots of places...especially buddha temples...which we're not interested in it...but anyway took lots of nice pictures of them...and also get to eat some food which cant be found anywhere else here in Malaysia...weird food combination...but nice =) On Saturday night...we ate all the way down a street all the time...from beef noodles to "yu piu" to all sorts of kuihs to a whole roasted piglet to all kinds of salad which includes the most famous kerabu salad(mango salad) to...err...ahh!! the mango rice...YUMMY!!!!! ^^ The kerabu salad caused us to eat in pain...because of the Thais chili padis...whoa...darn hot...till we drank don't know how many glasses of iced water...even the waitress also laughed at us when we asked for the water...but tell you what...Thai foods are HEAVEN~~~ how I wish I can go again...then go eat eat EAT~~!!! =P

Well...pics maybe i'll post later..or not post...IF I'm too lazy to do so...kekeke...AHH!!! I soooo miss Hatyai food!!!

Free~~!!!

Hehe...last Fri's my last day plus its also Teacher's Day...quite unexpectedly i received quite a number of presents...but honestly...i still prefer those presents given by the Poi Lam kids...at least they give it with their heart...although these presents are all expensive stuffs la...but all i mind is the heart that counts..not money and the price of the presents...if these students can afford these presents...its better if they donate the money to the victims of the earthquake in SiChuan le...the presents i received also consider OK already le if compared to some other teachers...some of them even get cakes (1KG type which costs almost $60) and even red wine!!! Omigosh!! I really got a shock when i see these kind of presents on the teachers' tables...anyway...its really a BIG relief that i'm teaching there anymore...too much stress from students and staffs...guess no one will miss me also la...they never believe in my teaching ability anyway coz i never do spoon-feeding to the students like what EVERY teachers in this school did...so....been spending this whole week with the same routine ==> sleep..eat..sleep =p Tomorrow..or i should say tonight midnight will be going to Hatyai with my parents and sis for holiday tim...hehe...food...fOoD...FOOD!!!! Muahahahahaa...i'm gonna be fatter le ^^

Last day of teaching

yAY!!! Tomorrow's my last day of teaching at Sam Tet primary school...almost 2months there already...but to me...its not such a satisfying teaching experience as what i've experienced back at Poi Lam primary school...its such a difference between top schools and those not-too-top schools as what society nowadays categorized them...the attitude of the students AND the parents are so much of difference...haiz....i really prefer to teach co-ed schools than teaching these naughty school boys that gave me sore throat almost everyday for yelling at them...and i broke my principle of not using on the cane..aiks!! I so so so hate using the cane...to scare them..?? ==>OK! but to cane them..?? ==> NOT OK AT ALL!!! But i also caned them very light only la IF compared to those crazy teachers...yucks...cant stand them la...as if whacking the students is such a pleasure to lepas geram on the students...AND also...the staffs....they're treating me as if i'm...err...an alien from outer space...?? As i've said...i've been there for almost 2months...yet only 2 or 3 teachers know wat's my surname....yupz...my SURNAME...not to mention only ONE teacher knows my christian name -.-" brilliant huh..they're way so not friendly..unlike those teachers in Poi Lam who are so friendly and helpful...but anyway...its such a relief leaving this school la...too many things happened...concerning the students' results and parents looking for me everyday...there're even 7 of them come looking for me yesterday @-@ too many stress...i can take it...but i just rather leave la...the teacher's coming back anyway...its my time to leave la actually...i jz wanna stay with my job in peace....and i always feel that as long as i've done what i should do...i don't care much about how others think la...Btw...tomorrow's Teacher's Day...i wonder whether i'll be receiving any presents..?? =p IF i get alot...other teachers'll sure be having sour grapes coz they always doubted about my teaching ability...and IF i don't get any...aiya...get or don't get also don't mean too much to me la anyway...i still appreciate those presents i got from those kiddos back in Poi Lam....hehehe =D

Helpless~~

I feel terribly helpless nowadays...there's stress from work...which i get surrounded by students' parents almost everyday coz of their precious sons' terrible Malay results...well...i'm their Malay teacher...so they assume that its my responsible when their results drop...and by the way, I'm a new, unexperienced teacher which i'm only teaching them while their actual Malay teacher is on leave to care for her newborn baby...PLUS these two std3 classes i'm teaching are GOOD classes...its what they say the two top classes among all the std3 classes..so....their parents just cant believe it when their sons' didn't get the results that expected...but apparently...its not my fault as what came out in the exam is what i've taught them 2weeks before the exam...and i've already told them the main points to study....although i keep feeling that its not fault and I don't have to care so much about it...but it's really stressing when parents' keep coming to you all day long...haiz........

And few weeks ago on a Saturday, 26th of April...this is the day where me, my sis and my mum escaped from Hell's gate...I'm not exaggerating here....but its the truth...It happened when we're on the highway on the way to a place near Taiping where my sis wanted to get some fish samples from the mangrove area there...then while driving...suddenly the car went totally out of control...it zigzagged from left to right lane and the steering wheel cant be controlled....me sitting in the back while my mum's in the passenger seat...what i remember clearly is when my sis was trying to control the car...the cars zoomed past us while avoiding us and luckily no car collided into us...there was even a bus that we somehow narrowly escaped. At last...our car bumped into the cement divider...grazed a bit of the side of the car...and stopped parallel to the divider although its right in the middle of the road. Three of us quickly grabbed our stuffs and jumped out of the car...ran to the opposite of the road to wait for help. There's a bunch of malay motorists on the opposite of the road where they came to ask us about our situation and even helped us ran to the phone nearby to call for PLUS. After about 10mins of waiting...and called PLUS already...suddenly this superbike knocked into our car...he jz bumped a bit la anyway...and while he was trying to regain his balance...there's one dark-coloured car knocked straight into him...man....the next scene is gross...this motorcyclist flew high up into the air and fell flat on his face...then a 2nd car came from behind and crashed into the superbike (without the rider as he was already on the road)...the superbike glided for a few hundred metres where it finally stopped beside the road and burned instantly...The rider unfortunately died instantly with his back of the skull badly crushed and his face badly smashed...it was SUCH a nightmare...for the next few hours we spent our time at the Taiping police station where my sis gave her police report and did some tests for urine and blood...while me and my mum spend the time relating whatever happened again and again to the police...THE THING IS...NO ONE SAW THAT STUPID DARK-COLOURED CAR!!!!!!! That car jz did the hit-and-run thing and probably during the confusion...no one saw it except me and my sis...my mum didn't dare to see so she didn't see the whole accident at all...so...the inspector's kind of suspicious about what we see until i spotted the blue paint on our car where the car hit us...and finally there's some clue to what they should be looking for...ahh...i missed out one point...that motorcyclist appeared to be from the royal family...haiz...big deal....now praying that we don't have to attend court...it'll be so much of a trouble...Well..although we do feel guilty as it was really part of our fault that the motorcyclist died...but...looking at another point...if its not him...then it'll be the 3 of us...God really guided us that day...and thank God for his blessings for us...else we wouldn't be alive to see those people we treasured...

Another thing which i nvr told anyone...not even Sze-En in Aussie...i really feel helpless in my family recently...for a few months already actually...everyday there seemed to be a time bomb where it'll explode suddenly without any warning...and when it explodes...it'll be World War 3...my sis's studying in KL while my bro's in Penang working...i'm the only one at home...sometimes i really feel like escaping to KL to stay with my sis temporarily...or even quit studying....coz i fear that whatever i fear most will happen when i'm not around with my parents...i rather stay at home...but....haiz....i really dont know what i should do...I'm just so so scared every single day...and i don't know who should i say all these to...except to put them down in this blog...dear Ernie...ur too far from me although you really would sure to be the 1st one i'm going to share with....