Shocked...yet happy =)

Was a bit shocked when yesterday Ben came to look for me when i was walking back to class with my frens after recess...thought i'll be having good news....but instead he asked me to be the pianist accompanying the choir on Prize Giving Day on 8th of July...was real shocked with that bit of news...yea...haha...but it'a a great chance for me to show to others who doesn't know me well of my music talent...so i agreed being a pianist....anyway...it wont be that difficult i guess...

Today i've to play the whole piece on the piano...1st time huh.....so very very nervous coz i'm actually in a role of leading the whole choir leh...until my both hands shake...so not even the practice i had last night helped at all....but since Ben praised me for giving a good job...guess i really did fine...but hopefully i'll be better on Sat & not fumble at all....

Have to go already...PA Statistic to do...plus need to compose the whole piece of song again with the alteration of key....sigh...mum's gonna nag nag nag again...~~~

Happy day =D

To start off...i'm getting more & more fond of choir now i've realised...jz like those kind of teamwork that i've been experiencing over the last 5yrs when i'm in Chinese Orchestra....& not to mention my passion over music ;p So...guess i'll jz stay on till the last minute without quiting jz because i'm not chosen into the national level...silly enough even to think of it....so...that's that for choir lor....oh ya...!! Forgot to mention something...i'll be performing on 8/7, SamTet's Hari Anugerah...my 1st performance ever since i joined choir leh =D Happy yet nervous...dunno whether i'll do a good job or not =S

Phew...!! The conflict between us finally broke off when he finally smiled at me today when we met after such a long time ever since i scolded him off coz of another person....felt a lil guilty for scolding an innocent person =.=" But now everything's back to normal again =) No more arguments or misunderstandings...the grey clouds have finally left to leave a bright blue sky =D

Shocking predicts to hear from fish & jy...hope its not true though about their survey...we're only normal frens...truthfully from my heart...dunno about him la though...jz hoping its not true...i dread about the truth when the day comes...sigh...

hELp m3...!!!!

媽啊！！Today is such unlucky day for me =S How can anyone be SOoooo noisy....like a GIGANTIC "generator"....bla bla bla for the whole day....2 people tim err....MAN!!! Even me also not their competition la...i'm only the volume of my voice..other than that...i can be as quiet as can be...& now it results that both my ears are still ringing by the continuous booming of their voices =.=" Aiks...poor me...guess i'll be having nightmares tonight ='( Plus reminder to myself that next time guess i gotta remember to bring lotsa cotton buds to stuff my ears almost whole day already =.="

~DOUBLE NIGHTMARES~

~FOOTBALL FEVER~

Recently in football fever...haha...it may seemed unusual for a girl to be crazy over football...but i'm one of those crazy gang...mUAhAHaHaA!!! Too bad still gotta have consistency in studyin...so can only be PARTIAL crazy ;P Anyway....ENGLAND ROXXX!!!! F6 SUX!!! =P

I LOVE FIFA~~ FOOTBALL FEVER

Driving...

Walau ehh...cant believe that i actually drove all the way from Jelapang to Chemor today....wakekeke =P But acually drove illegally la...hehehe....i DID have my license..& i have the P stickers...but the thing is that the P stickers are not stuck to the Kancil i'm driving...they're on another manual car...so....a P license driver driving such long way without P stickers ;P Its kinda horrible driving on a busy road...scary too....but its syok le...!!!! =D Sigh...how i wish i can drive to school tomoro by myself already...then no need to depend on anyone to fetch me to tuitions...& oso can drive myself home...plus ANYWHERE....hehehe...

Currently in a dilemma which club or societies or sports should i join...wanted archery club....but scared will hurt my hands which i need them for playing piano...cant risk that much....sigh..!!!!!

Choir...disappointment...

Sigh...as what i've half expected...i'm really not chosen into the national level for choir competition...was frustrated + disappointed at 1st to see those who're being chosen...but to think from a different aspect i feel relieved since i'll be having more time spend on my studies...wont be busy going for choir practices all the time if i was to be chosen...so no worries there..!! =D Even i'm not chosen this time....but guess i'll still continue joining choir...not going to quit like others who gave up jz coz they're not chosen....

Another sweet guy ;P

Wakekeke...today i've found another "target" to fetch me & frens to tuitions luuu =P Okie...i felt kinda guilty la actually....coz kinda like using him as our driver...but then i've felt bored walking to tuitions almost EVERYDAY already....i'm bored getting darker & darker day by day already la...no chance for me to get back to my fair self anymore =( But he's sweet to fetch us le....although he'll grumble the whole journey la...hahaha...(its true =P) but really owe him allot la =) Sweet guys....real hard to find...

樹 或 風

我心内的掙扎
無人理解
無人明白

心裏一半想接受你
但另一半
卻為另一段我認爲發生的可能性很低的感情而猶豫
讓我無情之下拒絕了你
讓你漸漸從我身邊離去

身邊少了溫暖
與大樹般的依靠
生活好似顛倒了

我
好似一片葉子
受風與樹的動搖
躊躇與你與他之間的抉擇

告訴我
我該隨那冷漠無比的風而去
還是
挽留在永不放棄我的你這棵樹上？

幸福。。。

在這世界上
每個人都注定有自己的幸福
要懂得察覺它的存在
更需親自尋找

我早已找到了
屬於自己的那片天空
也品嘗過
那酸甜苦辣的感覺

但我
卻似乎與幸福無緣
只能與它擦身而過

兩次的挫敗
已使我再也不相信童話
因爲對我而言
童話
只會發生在相信它的人的身上

而我
卻已敗得不能自己

我的心受夠了創傷
已開始凝固了。。。
默默等待能溶化我心的人。。。


只求幸福不要再爽約了

~sPeEChLESs~

HELP~~~!!! Can anyone please jz give me a hand & pull me out of confusion??? I've made myself a mess now....sigh....Why cant i just stop thinking about him when i've made myself a promise for not getting into a relationship these few years?? BAH!!! I REALLY SUCKS!!! Even i've told everyone that knows him that i dread seeing him...yet....i dont know le....jz keep wanting to get his attention....ISH...!!!! Can anyone jz tell me what do i ought to do?? ='(

...I'M CONFUSED...

DiSsAPpoINtED...again

Sigh....yesterday & today are AMC chinese orchestra's annual concert...so my juniors will be performing...& me being their senior went back to help them plus giving fullest support to their concert...however...the erhu juniors have failed me once more....meaning that whatever i've scolded or advised had resulted into NOTHING!!! So..meaning my cells have died continuously without any reason....& the energy & time i've wasted on them had become ZEROoooo~~~
Haiz...even the suona group have improved tremendously until every ex-seniors also praised them...while erhu group?? Bah...!! "Hopeless" is the only word i can use to describe them...but "them" is only meant for those juniors from F3 until F3 below...ADUH!!! I really have lose hope on them already...tonight's the last night...& is up to them whether they wanna protect their reputation from being ruined or not...i'm not going tonight so i dont really know...but i really hope they'll do better than last night....else not....

~DISSAPOINTED + LOST HOPE~