fear...

I so so so dearly hope my intuition aint correct...his every action...his every words...seemed to pinpoint at me...and he always do like putting his hand on my shoulder or hand whenever he talks to me...maybe i'm a bit perasan la...but...for what i noticed...he doesnt do that to other girls...not even her who he had known longer than he had known me...and today in library he even keep asking innocent questions like whether i've bf before or not...now available or not...even asking what i'm planning to eat for dinner...and these questions he asked when my gal fren has left...and left me with him and another guy who has a gf already...ok...I dun care what he's thinking....but today I've stated clearly that I won't get involved in any relationship in this whole 5yrs...study is the most important thing now...no time for all these anyway...i'm starting to get the stress from studying...so don't give me any more troubles like this la~~~ I'm TIRED~~~~ and FEAR of commitments....we MAY be best friends...but definitely not anything closer than that...FULLSTOP!!!

Bad sleep day

Ahh....sleepless night again...havent experienced it since I was here at UCSI...probably effects from the coffee I had just now during dinner -.-' Serves me right!! Haiz...should have known that caffeine still have effects on me...giving me insomnia...tomorrow sure to wake up late...or else abnormal sleeping pattern again which i'll be waking up real early tomoro...and that results in more and more PANDA EYES @-@ But its good too la...at least I studied alot...downloaded whatever I want...chatted with zoo v and vshin...and played Spider Solitaire until I'm great at it...lolz =P Those were what i've done for the past few hours after I was back from church + dinner with Ee Ling...really amazing how can I even memorise everything while doing...ahem....THOSE things also ;p Two more chapters to go for next week's formative assessment....then tomoro start all over again PLUS read up the additional notes I copied during lectures...hope I've sufficient time...but nothing is there to bother my studies anymore le...

*Thank you God for leading me this far. I pray that God will bless me through my FIRST formative assessment. Bless me with confidence and more time for studies. In Jesus name I pray. Amen*

Church service

1st time went to church today after SOOoooo many yrs...yeahh...almost 10yrs I haven't been to church...and after LOADS of persuading from ernie, jason and zoo v...hehe...finally got persuaded by my senior here...he was my senior way back in form 6...didn't actually know him that time but got to know him here since he was my medicine course senior....anyway...he's leaving for Russia next month already....

Anyway....back to main point...went to church today...his church actually...very near my uni...Gospel Esplosion Presbysterian Church (GEPC)...and service's from 5-7pm...well...overall it's not bad...but I kinda prefer the traditional ones...where they don't use rock band to perform the songs...but guess its difficult to meet that kind of church nowadays already la...except for my sis's church in Kajang la...but that's like SOooooo far...anyway...new experience la...not bad for the 1st time..at least I have my senior with me...and...sure...guess I just stick to this church la...fine with me once I get more used to it...AND...must must remember to bring along my jacket next time I go....so darn cold there...my lips almost went whitish blue again like what I had during PBL last week....BRRRRrrrr~~~

new life in uni ==> UCSI

Me currently studying at UCSI...Doctor of Medicine programme....all together 5yrs...but it'll be 2yrs here in KL campus and last 3yrs at Terengganu campus where we'll be visiting hospitals there...sounds cool....but tensions coming up already although its only the 1st week...3rd week we'll be having our 1st assessment =S Last week was orientation week...not bad for the orientation as the seniors are great...but hurt my knee again on Sat when we played station games...and yet we won 1st prize considering the fact that we also had the least members in our team besides my knee giving me trouble again =D For 1st prize we got 70 bucks...so naturally we divided the money between us 3...hehe....

Ah...forgotten to mention one thing...i'm not alone in UCSI...i've my classmate with me too....Teh Yu Leong...my 2yrs classmate back in form6...and he's also my senior's lil bro...so basically i've known him almost ever since form2 la when we joined Perak Chinese Orchestra together and participate in performances...I've also Wei Kit, my tuition mate since we're in form1 studying here....but he's in pharmacy la...so not much chance to meet each other...but at least i know he's here so i dun feel that lonely anymore la..

Haiz....assessment's coming up next next Fri...hopefully i'll do ok in that...But what made me REALLY happy is that...I'M GOING HOME THIS FRIDAY!!!! So so so so miss everything in Ipoh....most is my parents...then my home....my lovely cosy bed...my friends who're still in ipoh...would really love to hang out with them...but i still rather accompany my parents more =D YEAY~~~~~~