Helpless~~

I feel terribly helpless nowadays...there's stress from work...which i get surrounded by students' parents almost everyday coz of their precious sons' terrible Malay results...well...i'm their Malay teacher...so they assume that its my responsible when their results drop...and by the way, I'm a new, unexperienced teacher which i'm only teaching them while their actual Malay teacher is on leave to care for her newborn baby...PLUS these two std3 classes i'm teaching are GOOD classes...its what they say the two top classes among all the std3 classes..so....their parents just cant believe it when their sons' didn't get the results that expected...but apparently...its not my fault as what came out in the exam is what i've taught them 2weeks before the exam...and i've already told them the main points to study....although i keep feeling that its not fault and I don't have to care so much about it...but it's really stressing when parents' keep coming to you all day long...haiz........

And few weeks ago on a Saturday, 26th of April...this is the day where me, my sis and my mum escaped from Hell's gate...I'm not exaggerating here....but its the truth...It happened when we're on the highway on the way to a place near Taiping where my sis wanted to get some fish samples from the mangrove area there...then while driving...suddenly the car went totally out of control...it zigzagged from left to right lane and the steering wheel cant be controlled....me sitting in the back while my mum's in the passenger seat...what i remember clearly is when my sis was trying to control the car...the cars zoomed past us while avoiding us and luckily no car collided into us...there was even a bus that we somehow narrowly escaped. At last...our car bumped into the cement divider...grazed a bit of the side of the car...and stopped parallel to the divider although its right in the middle of the road. Three of us quickly grabbed our stuffs and jumped out of the car...ran to the opposite of the road to wait for help. There's a bunch of malay motorists on the opposite of the road where they came to ask us about our situation and even helped us ran to the phone nearby to call for PLUS. After about 10mins of waiting...and called PLUS already...suddenly this superbike knocked into our car...he jz bumped a bit la anyway...and while he was trying to regain his balance...there's one dark-coloured car knocked straight into him...man....the next scene is gross...this motorcyclist flew high up into the air and fell flat on his face...then a 2nd car came from behind and crashed into the superbike (without the rider as he was already on the road)...the superbike glided for a few hundred metres where it finally stopped beside the road and burned instantly...The rider unfortunately died instantly with his back of the skull badly crushed and his face badly smashed...it was SUCH a nightmare...for the next few hours we spent our time at the Taiping police station where my sis gave her police report and did some tests for urine and blood...while me and my mum spend the time relating whatever happened again and again to the police...THE THING IS...NO ONE SAW THAT STUPID DARK-COLOURED CAR!!!!!!! That car jz did the hit-and-run thing and probably during the confusion...no one saw it except me and my sis...my mum didn't dare to see so she didn't see the whole accident at all...so...the inspector's kind of suspicious about what we see until i spotted the blue paint on our car where the car hit us...and finally there's some clue to what they should be looking for...ahh...i missed out one point...that motorcyclist appeared to be from the royal family...haiz...big deal....now praying that we don't have to attend court...it'll be so much of a trouble...Well..although we do feel guilty as it was really part of our fault that the motorcyclist died...but...looking at another point...if its not him...then it'll be the 3 of us...God really guided us that day...and thank God for his blessings for us...else we wouldn't be alive to see those people we treasured...

Another thing which i nvr told anyone...not even Sze-En in Aussie...i really feel helpless in my family recently...for a few months already actually...everyday there seemed to be a time bomb where it'll explode suddenly without any warning...and when it explodes...it'll be World War 3...my sis's studying in KL while my bro's in Penang working...i'm the only one at home...sometimes i really feel like escaping to KL to stay with my sis temporarily...or even quit studying....coz i fear that whatever i fear most will happen when i'm not around with my parents...i rather stay at home...but....haiz....i really dont know what i should do...I'm just so so scared every single day...and i don't know who should i say all these to...except to put them down in this blog...dear Ernie...ur too far from me although you really would sure to be the 1st one i'm going to share with....

sick...sIcK...SICK~~!!!!!

Haiz...have been having fevers every 4hours ever since last Thurs...which today is the 6th day -.-" But today had been much worse...woke up feeling extremely tired....then started having headaches...so slept through it after finishing the housework before going to skul...woke up feeling better although i've rashes on my chest but that time still not much so decided to still go to school...however felt bad when in school....having frequent chest aches..headaches again....so i asked for medic leave to go home...went home and slept for 4 hours straight...think tomorrow wont be any better so probably taking leave again le =S These all caused by either viral allergic or i'm allergic to the antibiotic that i was taking these few days according to my dad...sigh...i so so so hate being sick...and some of the syllabus i havent finish for the boys for their mid-semester exam leh.....yikes!! Oh ya...speaking of school...havent mentioned that after i left Poi Lam primary school...i was hired again by Sam Tet primary school since 27th of March and will be continuing till 16th of May...but the workload's hectic...man...i teach 8 different classes ranging from standard 1 to standard 3....and the subjects i'm teaching are malay, english and arts...ARTS!!!!!! ARGH~~~ its been sooooo long time since i learnt drawing...forgotten almost all the skills di...but lucky i'm teaching the std1 kiddos arts...so okla....jz dump them the work mentioned in the syllabus...and learn to control the class okay already ;p And yeah....stress sure got...else i wouldn't have started my fever....fever starts with sore throat first...which was caused by yelling too much at the students...as usual....i keep to my policy that i never use the cane on the students...so....practically....i'm again the only teacher who never brings in the cane to class...the cane on the teacher's table is gathering dust now....hehehehe =P I was asked to prepare this time's mid-semester's english paper for standard 2...finished preparing already....hope its not too difficult for their standard....anyway...the higher superiors will be inspecting them first before sending in for printing....so not to worry so much i guess....Currently busy downloading stuffs from youtube....internet's FAST....seemed to be the modem problem last time when my internet's extreme slow....so now taking the chance la =P

Alot of things on my mind...

Last week's Tuesday just got my STPM results...basically considered is good....but not good enough for me who wants to study medicine...so...not much hope for local uni...applied for private universities instead...and also Russia's universities...comparatively Russia's sure is alot cheaper than private unis back here in Malaysia...but parents kind of reluctant to let me go so far since i'm not such an independant girl....hehe...i admit that....but I prefer to go Russia...one of the reason is money problem....school fees here in private unis are above RM200,000 while Russia's unis is less than half of the amount even though studying in Russia takes up 6yrs and studying in private unis here is 5yrs....yea....everyone may say that me so rich sure can afford the money....but that's not the case...okay? I don't understand...to my friends out there...does being rich or poor make such big difference...?? Just stop the sarcasm of saying i'm rich sure can afford this and that!!! I hate that!! I hate everyone saying to me that just coz my dad's a doctor and that makes me a rich girl...i'm NOT...okay? Its not like i'm THAT rich...I want my dad to work less for the next few yrs instead of working hard just to pay for my school and living fees....he's getting old...and i rather save up the money and let my parents go overseas for a holiday instead....second reason is I would rather learn to be independant now than later even though i may feel homesick (that's for sure)...I feel hopeless now....indecisive....duno which way i should go...anyway...going for the UCSI interview on Mon....then only decide later la....think i'll still insist on goin Russia...its not like i'm not coming back anyway....gonna try persuade my parents....hope my decision's correct though....soooo bothering me....

Lost~~~

I'm lost...i really really don't know whether i really do have feelings for him...i mean....we've been tuition mates since std3...and its really kind of weird to have feelings for each other after so many donkey years knowing each other....and also coz he's HS's ex...somehow i have that guilty feeling gnawing at my conscience when i think about it....gives me the feeling that i'm betraying my best buddy if i were to have any close relationships with him other than being normal friends...i asked him before about the reason...and he claims that its because we've known each other for so long already and we've kind of understand each other a lot....but....ahhh...i dunno...i'm lost about my own feelings....but honestly i do not want to think about these relationship stuffs for the time being...once experience is enough for me....and studies are still the most important thing for now....he knows fairly well...so luckily he's a considerate person enough to not keep nagging me about this issue...he's also the one to be always supporting me during exams and difficult periods although he's also busy at work way far in Genting...haiz.....gonna keep this issue aside...i'll just let God make the decision~~

11th....STPM results day~~

Just announced 2days ago on Thurs in the news that STPM results are out next Tues, 11th of March....aww...my doom day....actually not only mine...must be every STPM holders in Msia also having the same feeling as me....so planning to go to the movies on Mon...most probably with zw...see if he's free or not le...still waiting for his answer....if not probably going alone le....coz that's my way to distress a bit before going to school the next day to get the result slip =S going to IMAX also before that to download more taiwanese dramas OST...kekeke....and the only movie worth watching now is 10,000 b.c le....aihz...dont care what movie already as long as i can get to relax A BIT @-@ Just now while having my afternoon nap...even dreamt about standing in a long queue and getting the result slip....so dreadful....my mum said i even mumbled in my sleep....haiz....bad sleep.......now praying and praying very very hard...hope i wont disappoint my family~~~

Photos in Poi Lam ^^

my colleague friends (from left: Kit Yeang, me, Wan Cheng and Jun-Yow)

The boys of 3C--my class

The girls of 3C--my class

Last day at Poi Lam primary school...

Today's my last day at Poi Lam primary school...not that i do not want to continue teaching while waiting for the university intake....its just that the contract at this school has ended due to the returning of the teacher i'm replacing these few months...Sigh..really do miss the kiddos after all...they're just the same today....making me mad all the time....but at least they cooperated and we've managed to finish discussing the exam questions...so their homework for next week's 1-week holiday is to do the corrections for the mistakes in their exam...but that's not the main point ;p The moment i first stepped into the classroom....all of them rushed out and gave me lots of presents....omigosh....the whole table is full of them....there're 2 bouquet of flowers....fake ones le....but really really beautiful =D (to tell the truth....they're the 1st bouquet of flowers i've ever received ever since i'm born =p) ,2 musical boxes, a lot of key chains, many handmade cards and drawings, even stationaries....hehehehe....oh ya...i got 2 really lovely matching cups of Ee Coffee (that's what is written outside both cups)...these two are given by 8 boys in my class....they're SOoooo sweet =) I've gotten two more glass cups of the Snoopy series....very cute too ^^ Then my class monitor (a boy) gave me a crsytal ball thingy with water and glittery things inside, a handmade card with his photo pasted inside it, a photo frame and a cute lil bear key chain...aww....he's much too sweet....and he's really stuck to me....hahahaha....coz almost everyday during recess after he'd finished eating...he'll sure to come to the staffroom and chat with me....we chatted anything...seemed i'm more likely to be his big sister ;p I even took pics of the whole class....but coz there're 38 of them...i separated them into girls and boys le...20girls and 18boys in my class....

Walao...those teachers really got stricken by the sight of the presents on my table back in the staffroom...lolz...some even asked sarcastically whether is it my bday today...and i didn't answer...just replied with a sweet-sickening smile....muahahahaha....more heart attack and "sour grapes" cases =p Well....i dont care....as long as i've done what is right....its the teachers own fault if students dont even like you....i really dont quite understand the system right now...the teachers used more caning and beating...thought the education system never approved punishments by beating...but it proves me wrong when i arrived at this school....as what my mum told me...the way how u treat others...you'll get the same from others on how they treat you...well...honestly...i may be strict...and fierce too....but i never got into a fit and put the blame on the student by beating them....its just not the way to teach....and certainly not the way to treat human beings....not to mention also how the teachers abandoned those students whom they think are too weak to teach...they just completely let the weak students be....like one boy in my class...he don't even know his basics....cant even read simple chinese -.-' haiz...have to ask the real form teacher to take care of him....hope she does so too....those teachers just rather spend the time chatting away and gossiping than to spend time and energy on these students....i really really can never understand....

Happenings...

Ever since two weeks ago....my bro had gotten job interviews mainly from Penang....went for them...and finally he got a job in Juru....at an international company named Flextronics....big company too....heard from my bro that this company has 50 over branches over Asean...wow.....and he's working as a analyst programmer....for that reason....last Sun just went to Juru to look for a place for him to stay...real lucky for us to manage to find a room....cheap too with quite good condition la...going up to Penang again this Sun to do cleaning up and furnishing the room....then he's going to start work next Mon....relieved le....finally....he has graduated from uni and getting in the working society already.....and his sickness has recovered alot already =)

Sigh....two more days....then i'll be leaving Poi Lam lu....not that i'm not teaching anymore...but contract at this school's ending on Fri....supposedly la....but today the headmaster announced that they've applied for a holiday this Fri due to quite a number of teachers have to balik kampung to attend the voting day on Sat....yerr....that means also that i'll be getting less pay for March =( And also one day less to see those kiddos.....wei yao's right....i've changed...i dun get to like kids much before teaching....think they're very pestering....but now i know that i can actually get along well with kids even though i'm 10yrs older than them.....and starting to like them ;p

Ah....cp's back to ipoh for a few days of holiday....thought can go out for movies with him and zw tim....today he jz told me he'd to go back on Thurs already coz have to do medical checkup on Fri...too bad...now have to think about transport prob on Sat le if goin to the movies with zw as planned....hmm....dunno got what nice movies tim....checking up on GSC currently...but net's too slow -.-' S-L-O-W~~~~~


p.s: wei yao's my kai gor....he's currently studying in Germany =)

Short hair me

Penang trip

Thanks to my bro....keke..coz he has 2 job interviews in Penang...so that gave us whole family the opportunity to stay overnight in Penang....no need to rush back in a short time le....and we've the chance to eat all we can =D Penang is really a heaven le....full of...FOOD!!!! Muahahaha....eating is a pleasure...don't care much about dieting....eat already only care about that....kekeke...we went for Taiwanese food for lunch when we reached Penang....then German food for dinner...the famous German pork chop and pork sausages....YUMMY~~!!!!! As long as we ate good food...coming back to Ipoh early this morning at 6am is nothing le...kekekeke....i SOooo love Penang....small island place....but full of nice things....we always do crazy things like that...so...i admit....i'm a CRAZEE person!!! ;p Penang rocksssss~~~~~

Short hair

Hehe..finally....aaand again....i'm having short hair now....those who knew well sure will be saying:" Short hair again huh...wat's so new about that anyway..??" =p Now short hair but new hairstyle too le....keke...shocked my frens in skul today and not to mention those students of mine too le...they said i looked more like a student....but looked more fierce....but to me and my family...i looked more matured le...suitable le as now i'm a temporary teacher...else sure get easily bullied by students ;p

Aiks....my class's reputation got ruined...today a boy confessed himself that he stole money from the boy sitting next to him in class...$10 leh...anyway....took him to see the discipline mistress...wanted to bring him to the headmaster but he's not in...the discipline mistress questioned him and after that punished him not letting him go for PJ...i asked him to finish his homework in the staffroom though....called up his dad too....haiz...stealing at this age of 9...

Today's happenings...

School's not too bad today...except that its a bit boring le..coz this whole week i'm letting them to do revisions...so no books to mark le....today one and a half hour in the staffroom nothing to do...the novel i brought also finished reading already...wanted to sleep also cannot...the place i'm sitting is just plain sight from the outside of the staffroom and also the big heads' office...i don't wanna get caught and scolded by the headmaster...he's so horrible...today beat a student's backside so loud that everyone also shocked already....yucks~~~ cant stand the way he handles things le by the way...too not rasional and keep thinking that he's always right and students are always wrong...relieved too that i'll be leaving this school soon....

Ahh....that birdie is soooooo cute le~~ Well...its parents didn't come and look for it...so we're kind of rearing it now...the poor thing..its hasn't even open its eyes...just now after dinner fed it with hard-boiled eggs le...lucky it ate...quite allot also....else we wouldn't what to do with it if it still doesn't eat...now its eyes also opened a slit already...hehe =D

Saw the news on TV just now...the famous Hong Kong actress Lydia Sum has passed away this morning at age 61...didn't know what's really the reason of her death...but she'd been suffering from liver cancer ever since 2006....sigh...gone now another great actress...really miss her laughter...no one would ever forget her famous and special laughter...but Rest In Peace le Lydia...may God bless you always~~the whole world will surely miss you allot =)

New hairstyle

Finally...i've really made my decision to cut my hair short la...after so many months of hard work to keep it long...really don't have the heart to do so la...but wanna change it for awhile la....cut short....the fringe too...hope my students won't be shocked by the sudden change la...hahaha...this Sat's the day...woohoo~~!!! Dunno what i'll look like though after that....but with that plain look...guess I won't have much changes in my look la...except either look more matured...which's something impossible...or probably i'll look like a school girl...more likely to look like a primary school girl....can compete with my students already....lolz~~

Surprises...

Hehe...got alot of surprises in school today...1st i got a cake from one of my student...it was his birthday last Fri and he kept 3 slices of his bday cake for me leh...sweet ^^ Then got another two chinese new year cards from two students....before that got two already..so add together got four lor...kekeke...touched le...never expected actually....then last surprise is when school dismissed..one of the girls said: "He lao shi bye bye...wo ai ni!!" Wow..i was really shocked...hahaha...the girl also laughed herself....but they're all just so cute...really cant imagine how would i be able to leave them...but 3 more weeks time only....they may be naughty and i've to always punish them for making noise in class...but at least them gave me all the experience and memories...also the way to deal with all kinds of situation and people...well...really glad that i did take up this job anyway...those who knew me well know that i really detest teaching jobs as i'm a hot-tempered person...so....learnt to deal with my temper also le while treating them...

Ah....there's a new member just entered our family this morning...a tiny baby bird...haven even open its eyes...still surviving le...but scared it wont live long...so probably tomorrow gonna put it outside expecting its parents to come look for it lor....keep feeding it with water la....its darn cute~~!!!

Jasz's leaving for KL for his studies tomorrow...one friend less in Ipoh already...but i'll still remember that he still owes me $7....muahahaha...and also owes me and zhu whee an outing...but have to wait till when he's back la which is about two weeks once as what he told me...

Fuiyoh....this whole week gonna be busy in school...preparing them for next week's exam...so giving them loads of practices lor...even prepared some questions from my school books last time...hope they'll do good in their exam his time =)

Embarrassing moment...

Okie...this is the evidence of my stupidity

Ahh....bad day...bad luck to my poor name tag too...last yr in form6 already also can break into half -.-" Happened one day when me and my friends were walking to chem tuition today...thanks to the stupid rain.....thanks to no one to fetch us to tuition that's why we ended up walking there in the rain...thanks to myself who's stupiak enough to hold the umbrella in front of me...and most thanks to the pili bomba locating on the side of the road near to Sam Tet just beside the carpark...haiz.....this all caused me to have a swollen chest when i knocked into the pili bomba...also a bruised shin....with also a broken-into-half nametag which I only noticed the poor thing when i reached the tuition centre...only half of it was still pinned to it...but Ah Ong found the other half for me few days later when she was walking to tuition...so now I still have the complete nametag le....hehe...only that it has scratched quite badly...not to mention also a hurt pride o.O However...cant help laughing at myself with my friends le...hope no one recognises us though coz we were doing that just by the road side...but its really funny...imagine seeing someone hugging the pili bomba while kneeling in front of it....as if i'm asking for the pili bomba's hands in marriage...hahahahahaha...that's me le ;p But imagine also how big is the impact as u can see that even my nametag can broke into half...kekeke...but thanks to it also la...else i wouldnt know what would have happened to my chest bones =S Anyway...all these had happened few months ago already la...only got to remember it when i found my nametag....took a pic of it also le as a memory of my own stupidity....my friends still remember about it and we still laughed at the memory when we see that pili bomba....lolz~~~

p/s: Does pili bomba have HANDS...??? ~LOLZ~

The life I have now...

Wow..its been ages since i've posted anything in this blog..1st is my internet connection which's as slow as a sloth la..secondly is i'm kind of busy with the life now after STPM. Anyway, its been a relief i still have a place where i can say out my feelings without bothering how others think =)

Ok...after STPM, have been searching for jobs..even a teaching job although i really do detest this kind of job because I don't have the confidence to teach kids well. Well, went to apply though on the day after christmas...and got news on the day after I'm back from the KL trip where I went to a piano concerto performance at MPO with my sis la. Was a bit disappointed when I was told that I wasn't given a temporary teacher job..instead just a relieve teacher job...but was happy too coz it's the first job I ever had. So I just took it. I was sent to Poi Lam Primary School...and for so many weeks I'm the form teacher of a std3 class...teaching them Chinese, Maths, Science, Music and Moral. I know the pay isn't as much as a temporary teacher...but it's been a satisfying job where i get working experience and memories =) And most of all, I realised that actually a teaching job aint as bad as what i thought at first. It really make me realised that how difficult and how stressed is a teaching job...and i kind of regretted how i think of my teachers last time =P This teaching job also teaches me the way dealing with different kind of situations and people and i think this is a good way in leading to the society world later ^^ Too bad i've 3 more weeks left at this school only...only start to adapt here....hope i can get another job at another school soon le though...new environment new experience ma...yet surely i'll miss those 38 kids le...haiz.....

Ah...ever since the last time i posted anything...lot of inportant days have passed...Christmas, New Year 2008, Chinese New Year and even Valentines Day which was just 2days ago...lonely Valentines Day again...haha...so to me is Singles' Awareness Day la ;p Finally too...i've repayed CP's movie treat le...went to watch Meet The Spartans together...

Lonely ain't a bad thing la...well...at least I get to appreciate this kind of life now where I wouldn't be having it anymore IF i'm not single anymore....hehe...In chinese, there's two words for lonely which have ALMOST the same meaning but NOT really same la..寂寞 & 孤单. I read this in a chinese novel by a quite famous novelist la...

寂寞确实跟孤单不一样, 孤单只表示身边没有别人.

但寂寞是一种, 你无法将感觉跟别人沟通或分享的心理状态.

而真正的寂寞应该是, 连自己都忘了, 喜欢一个人的感觉.

Well...i admit..i'm a lonely person...but my kind of lonely is the 孤单type...not the 寂寞type...because i'm relieved and happy that I do have some friends where i can share my feelings anytime...and they never complained..so...here I want to say thanks to these friends who had been listening to my grumblings and complains without asking for any repayments le...to Ernie, Zhu Whee and Jason....cheers to our friendship~~!!! =D Especially to Ernie...my love towards her will never fade...hehe...coz even though she's thousand of miles away from me....but this distance never let our 13yrs of friendship fade...and she never complains although sometimes i caused her cellphone inbox to explode due to my many many sms-es...kekeke...she never complains too when she called me constantly even though the phone bill is quite high ;p...i'm proud of this!! ^^ Love u loads luu dearie Ernie...hope u do like the present...sorry too for unable to get u the chipmunk u want...

Whoops...wrote a lot without noticing..anyway..got to get off now....got to get on with my japanese homework..else mum'll start grumbling for my laziness already =p

FREEDOM!!!

Wow...its been a reeealllll long time since i last posted any blog posts. Hehe...been busy over my studies...and the connection of my internet is as slow as a sloth (slower than tortoise leh -.-') so...not going to spend a whole hour just to blog la =P

Anyway..just finished my trial yesterday. Had 5days continuous of it...torturing..with all those difficult exam papers..but ok la since i've given my best...so...jz accept whatever's the outcome lor. Time REALLY flies through the 5days also. So...after exam ended yesterday..went to the movies with Jason & Zhu Whee as planned....we watched "Knocked Up"...a comedy film but 18PL movie...haha...& it's the 1st for me leh..pity...that's the disadvantage to be born in Dec..haha...so it's a bit of awkward to watch with two guys lor...hehe...but overall nice la...we laughed like mad lor..keke...didn't care much la =P Jason's nice too to fetch me from skul then after movie even fetched me to tuition...thx buddy!! =D Zhu Whee's nice too la...and fortunately..this time maybe this is the 2nd time already gua we go for movies together..so no more weird weird atmosphere already where no one talks...tat equals to COMPLETE silence...hahaha...

Yay!! Gonna get free movie treat next time already..hehe...coz yesterday me & Zhu Whee paid for Jason's movie ticket..shared among both of us since that uncle's broke already wor...but nvm...hehe...at least we all had a great time la =)
Woohoo~~!! Having a relaxing time these few days...away from my test books...so pampering myself a bit by watching movies and reading the new Harry Potter book...my sis bought it long time ago already i keep forbidding her to bring it home from Kajang to control myself from getting addicted to it..hehe...but few days later gonna start up the engine again...cannot afford to stop any more longer coz its 1 month plus to the real STPM already...It'll be starting from 19th of Nov till 4th of Dec...hehe...5days before my bday...lucky it ends before my bday....hehe....so can go celebrate without stress already luu~~!!! =D

Aww...so miss Ern le...hope she comes back early le...gonna wait for her to celebrate my bday with me when she's back...hehe...long time din chat with her also...dunno how's she recently already..i've lost contact with almost everyone already due to lack of onlining...Anyway...speaking of her...really thanks to her i got to know 2 cool buddies ==> Jason & Zhu Whee =) They're cool...too bad we've known each other for such short time only...but looking forward to continue to be frens forever ^^

Current mood: Bored..no one's on9 = (
Current movie: Beautiful Life (Japanese movie)

圣母华乐演奏会

Yesterday was AMC chinese orchestra's concert...Hm...overall not bad la...but still the same problem found in every school--pitching problem...sigh...what to do...guess they're still lacking of practices...but nowadays the juniors jz dun put in their whole heart into 华乐...someday there'll be no one interested in it anymore...saddening huh...chinese don't ever appreciate their own traditional culture...haiz~~~ their performance not up to my expectation anyway....disappointed man....especially the erhu juniors...the lower forms one...meaning that i've said over these few yrs & what i've teached on Wed when i purposely went back to drill them is wasted...but anyway...this'll be the last time i'm contributing...so...do whatever i can lor...then for the next yrs guess its difficult for me to get involved in chinese orchestra already...already missing it these 2yrs....reli missed it like hell...especially the performances & competitions....its tough during the preparations...but its worth it when we get the results that we'll alwiz feel what we've sacrificed is worthwhile =) At least the hall's almost full with people...that's a good sign...fretted that there wont have much people coming...thank goodness there's no downpour by the way...else sure affect somehow.....

2 more weeks...Penang Bridge Marathon coming...training almost everyday now...& my knee pain came back...bad...both knees now -.-' but controlling so that i wont overdo la...Next Sun's Father's Day & Sat's my dad's birthday...double celebration....haha...but all of us still figuring what's the best to buy for my dad...

Oh ya...date for piano exam partially confirmed already...haha...its either 23,24 or 25 th of August...good...during the holidays....at least its nowhere near my trials...choir competition jz days before my trials already made me tensed up...now working hard though...would wanna finish everything IF possible by August...guess i still need more self discipline le ;p

Holidays ^^

Nice...holidays for 2weeks after 1 week of torturing...but later when school reopens more torture le when the exam papers are distributed =S Hope i did well this time...at least better than the previous monthly exam...else my mum sure gonna skin me alive this time~~~

Hm...been training almost everyday now...preparing for the Half Marathon (22.3km) that's gonna be held in Penang on 24th of June...my knees alot better already thank goodness....else my parents wouldn't allow me to go...hehe...cant afford to not go when i'm sure to have the chance to eat & eat & eat until i'm fat again...muahahaha ^^ Thai food, Taiwan food, Italian food...my FAVOURITES~~~!!! =D

Sigh...yesterday choir failed me again...not my fault this time...they're really neglecting me this time...how sad...but i dont care anymore la...getting myself into temper is not the best way for everything anyway...Should be having a performance yesterday at ACS...we're gonna be guest choir in the concert held by Klang Chamber Choir...will be singing one or two songs...i was jz wondering how come no practice so called up a few people but no one answered my call or even my sms...ok...fine...anyway...got the msg from the vice pres yesterday morning FINALLY...& she told me they all thought i'm too bz to go for the performance so they nvr thought of asking me go for practices...now this time they're reli getting our of hands...i've nvr even mentioned anything about me bz cannot go performance...& they jz assumed it without even asking me..?? Then what was i doing before that when i practised hard on the piano accompaniment part then?? Y would i be asking questions about this ACS performance before that IF i'm not going to go?? Crazy no brain people~~!!! Wat the heck!! Ish~~~ So..in the end...i didn't go...told her since they weren't expecting me so i wont be going to perform la...hahaha...so went to my japanese class instead ;p Don't care la...as long as they don't blame me for not turning up...not my fault in the 1st place anyway....they take their own consequences la...hmph!!

Frustrations 2

Ok...i'm not done with my previous post on my frustrations towards choir comms yet...nope....it wont end...coz i've really built a wall around me from them....that's why i'm not going to the Choral Festival with them...outings with them make me sick to see how fake are they...cant they be more sincere as frens or even as members of the SAME club..?? Such fake geeks....make me vomit only to see them...pity me have to see them for few months more...Today happy lor when they got scolded for ALWIZ lepak-ing at Parade every Sat after choir practice....got scolded for bringing along the juniors & now they got complaints from the juniors' parents...good~~!! ^^ But sickening le see them defending for themselves...keep saying they went parade JUST for lunch...yea right...more like gossiping & talk bad things about choir members huh...lame...even said its not their fault the juniors follow them...a bunch of lame idiots....especially that vice secretary!!! Cant even sing well....normally when she talks her voice's deep...so how in the world did she ever get into the soprano..?? Man...my voice has a higher pitch than hers i also got kicked into the alto le even though i'm SUPPOSED to be in the soprano....everyone was surprised i got into the alto le...especially my frens who'd been in the choir with me last time when we were in the primary...even my sis said so that i should be in the soprano le...i can sing higher notes than that idiot la...so...WHY??? ARGH!!! I'm being picked at everything...even those non of my concern ones....crazy teacher advisors....silly bunch of main comms....unorganised team....irresponsible pres & vice presidentS...whatever also last minute decision....this also they want to deny....good...put the blame on the teacher, PK Kokurikulum....great people huh....serves them right for getting complaints from parents on this also...3 calls leh...they only care about themselves...never think of the members & the members' parents...keep thinking how tough is their situation to be the committees...BULLSHIT!!! Tough my foot...if controlling such choir team is tough...then how about controlling a team of Chinese Orchestra members with about 80 people where there're caseS of lesbians...?? Man...they never know that...i was the discipline mistress before & i experienced all these...they never even experienced the hardship of getting sponsorships....they never think ahead....never care about money...only know how to waste....& they think everyone sure support if they need sponsorships coz they think they're good...crazy~~ Don't they ever think that no matter how good you are...everyone has their own finacial business to care about..?? Do u think the society will care whether u get ur sponsorship or not?? Hey guys...get a grip...the world's not as BRIGHT as what u guys think le...there's more to learn out there in the society...goodness...be more mature in your thinking...if the world's that bright...there wont be even wars & bombing happening anywhere...anytime...in this world la....grow up people~~& learn what is the meaning of T-E-A-M!! Obviously u guys only know how to say...but no actions...so what's the use of using this word?? Probably u guys never heard of ACTIONS SPEAK MORE THAN WORDS huh....