*sobz*

ARGH!!!!! Stupid FA tomorrow!!! If not for it..I would have been on my way home tomorrow afternoon 2pm bus...just because of it...I've to go back Ipoh on Saturday instead where all my uni frens have all gone back today or going back tomorrow...*SOBZ* Meaning less one day to chat with my friends on the phone or meet up with them...especially when I cant attend the 5s2 gathering which's on Sat night...sighzzz....and most important less one day to spend with my parents..my sweet, comfy bed..my pets....my everything back in Ipoh ==> HOME!!! And worse still...now I'm starting to feel way TOO relax..I AM studying...but...don't know...just depends la tomorrow's FA...just hope it wont come out too bad -.-'' I'm SOoooo missing home~~~

I wonder...

I've been wondering these few days...whether I've did the right choice of telling him those stuffs...right after I've known it...well...apparently he doesn't think its ok...coz it has been a long time since he contacted me...not even sms-ing...sighzzz~~ Whatever....I'm just expressing my thoughts...no matter what he thinks...whether what he'll do in return....I've just grown tired...really tired...tired of keeping everything to myself without letting the person knowing what I had in mind....but on the other hand...I'm afraid of commitment and I don't believe in forever love anymore...which don't seem to be a good thing huh...?? Well...let's just see what the future awaits me...God has his plans for me...who knows what will happen~~

Piano convocation 2009

Uncle Peter just called me up today...unexpected call from him...anyway...I was told that the piano convocation's on 25th of April..at Legend Hotel...again...that was the same venue as the last piano convocation I went when I was in Form 5...thought it's going to be J.W Marriot hotel..but don't know why they chose the same place again...and according to Uncle Peter the food at Legend Hotel is alot tastier and more varieties...oh well...expected thing to hear from him la...lolz....and MOST luckily is that this piano convocation didn't clash with my exam..its right in the beginning of my study week...and meaning I'm able to attend....cool~~ haha....but if I don't...i'm sure to get killed by Uncle Peter and my dear couz bro...hehehehe...and NO WAY I'm going to miss it anyway la...its going to be my last one and I'm going to get my LLCM Diploma certificate leh =D

Speaking of my couz bro...managed to chat with him on the phone since he was at Uncle Peter's house when I called up...too bad won't be able to meet up during CNY reunion lunch this year...I'm going to the AMCCO CNY gathering instead of meeting with my uncles...but he promised that he'll come and look for me someday after CNY la ^^ This is kind of weird...we weren't that close last time...but now....hahahaha...people look as us and think we look more like couples...muAHAHAHAHA~~~

My LOYAL companions

Oohhh...I'm loving Milo and coffee more and more everyday...they're my loyal companions which keep me company during my late nights of studying...better than having a bf or any of the kind la to accompany...which I bet never would have anyone who'll be able to tolerate accompanying me till so late at night...anyway..been listening too much news recently about couples breaking up...especially those sweet-heart couples who started going out together in Form 6..well...guess either one of them got bored and just give up...or maybe due to long-distance relationship where one of them cant bear the loneliness without the presence of another beside him/her...To me..that's a really lame reason...long-distance relationship can NEVER be a problem if you just being persistent...AND loyal....loneliness can be cured by hanging out with friends...not only boyfriends can do so...Oh well..its not my stand to say anything...I'm still single here...maybe I just haven't get to experience like those who had the experience did...but for me...I really believe in long-distance relationship...Its not the distance that matters...a relationship is always depending on both parties and not just one side to maintain it no matter what....LOVE is a forever thing...you can't possibly say something like "I don't love you anymore because I feel that my love for you has weakened..." I really cant imagine you sharing your most innermost, deepest love with a whole lot of people before you really found your soulmate...that's SOooo...hm...just cant imagine le~~ People nowadays are just soooo desperate..and the reason is they're lonely...or just because they want to show off to their friends that they're capable to have a gf or bf coz their friends are no longer single -.-' I aim for FOREVER love and relationship...and that's the main reason why I'm still searching around now...haha...my soulmate hasn't appear I guess...my parents sure desperate already....LOL But I'm not worry...I still have my bro and my sis to marry 1st before me...hahaha......

There're a few kinds of guys I really hate:
1. Always giving lame reasons when the fault's really on them
2. Egoistic guy
3. Control-freak guy (seriously I'm someone who prefers freedom to do anything...)
4. Emotional guy
5. Disloyal guy (which gal wouldn't hate anyway...?)
6. Guys who used you...and pry into your privacy without asking for permission (not even boyfriends have that kind of privilege)
7. Guys that only S-E-X on their mind whenever they're with gals...even when they're holding sex magazines (euwwwwwww.........)
8. Guys who feel inferior IF their wives are having better jobs than he is (well...everybody's an equal...if you feel inferior..go ahead and prove that you can be better!)



p.s Too bad I cant drink coffee before sleep...sigh...else I'll have a sleepless night...but once a while would be OK la...

没有如果 - 梁静茹

如果我说 爱我没有如果
错过就过 你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那是不是有一点弱


如果我说 爱我没有如果
真的爱我 就放手一搏
还想什么 还怕什么
快牵起我的手


有人说
世界上最遥远的距离不是生与死
而是我就站在你面前 你却不知道我爱你


我常说
如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住
那世界末日已来到不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天


如果 如果 如果 如果 如果
最后变成如果 我也不能接受
错过 错过 错过 错过 错过
我比你更难过 不会一错再错

嗯 这次不要再轻易错过.....

你能分清楚爱和喜欢吗？

喜歡和愛咫尺千里。

當你喜歡一個人時，你想和他在一起，因為他會帶給你快樂；離開後，你會想念，想著想著就會笑，然後繼續你平靜的生活，並期待著與他再一次重逢。

當你愛一個人時，你想和他在一起，那是一種牽腸掛肚的捨不得，怕他受委屈，怕他不能好好照顧自己；離開後，你也會想念，想著想著歎一口氣，'不知他現在過的怎樣？'然後你繼續你平靜的生活，希望他早日回到你身邊。

你喜歡的人在你眼中是天使，無所不能，他總會滿足你的任性的要求。

你愛的人在你眼中是孩子，傻傻的，你不期望他做出什麼'好事'來，只一味縱容他那些讓人哭笑不得的舉動。

你會希望你喜歡的人陪著你，然而你心中想的可能是你愛的人；你會希望陪在你愛的人身邊，看他在你面前睡得如此安逸甜美毫不設防的樣子，你會微笑，會覺得好幸福。

你喜歡的人傷害了你，你會生氣，並且一定要讓他哄著騙著逗你笑你才原諒他；

你愛的人傷害了你，你只會獨自傷心，因為你怕對他大吼大叫會嚇著他，你憂傷地微笑著，看著他的眼睛，一旦發現他的眼裡流露出歉意和悔恨，你會立即心疼地摟他在懷裡，那一刻，你也是幸福的。

你可以同時喜歡很多人，你會希望和很多人在一起，但也許很多年後你才發現，原來你愛的就只有那麼一個，就那麼一個，怎麼都不會變，你以為把他忘記了，其實只是忙的沒空想起而已，對於你喜歡的人，你關注的是他的優點；

對於你愛的人，你關注的是他的缺點，並且，那些缺點如果無關原則的話，它們在你眼裡是可愛的，獨一無二的。

喜歡和愛其實只有一紙之隔，任何愛都從喜歡開始，當有天你突然發現，你喜歡的那個人在你眼中不再完美，而他的瑕疵正如月中的桂影一般讓你更加依依不捨，你會覺得與他光彩照人的一面相比，你更願意看他在你面前無助的表情，不知道是不是應該祝賀你，總之，你的感情昇華了
——仰慕不是愛，甚至不是喜歡，當你對一個人只有仰慕之情時，你們在一起便失去了和諧。有人說愛一個人很累，的確是，因為你想為他承擔，可是愛與喜歡相比最大的魅力就在於，當你和愛的人在一起時，你的感覺就像回家了！

AMCCO gathering

YAY~!!! Was just saying in one of my previous post that I wasn't able to make it to the CO gathering held during CNY...turned out that my sis was invited too as she's considered as my senior too la...and it was confirmed that Mr Lim and Ms Tai will be going too...so why would I wanna turn down such an invitation..? Anyway...my sis told mum about it already...so..we're both gonna skip the reunion lunch with my uncles and attend CO gathering instead...well...do hope I'm able to meet my juniors that I still know...better still my own batch of friends ^^ Lucky sis and her friend's going too...at least if there's no one there that I know...at least I still have them...phew~~ Moven Peak on 28th of Jan...HERE I COME!!!! =D

Complement System

Complement: refers to the ability of these proteins to complement or augment the effects of other components of the immune system, such as antibody. It is an important component of out innate host defense.

3 main effects of complement:
1. Lysis of cells such as bacteria, allografts and tumor cells
2. Opsonisation, which is enhancement of phagocytosis
3. Generation of mediators that participate in inflammation and attract neutrophils

-Several complement components are proenzymes, which must be cleaved to form active enzymes.
-Activation of complement can occur via one of the three pathways: the classic pathway, the lectin pathway and the alternative pathway.
-The lectin and the alternative pathways are more important the first time we are infected by microorganism because the antibody required to trigger the classic pathway is not present. All three pathways lead to the production of C3b, the central molecule of the complement cascade.
-Presence of C3b on the surface of a microbe marks it as foreign and targets it for destruction.
-Functions of C3b: a) combines with other complement components to generate C5 convertase, the enzyme leading to the production of membrane attack complex b) opsonizes bacteria.


Classic pathway:
-antigen-antibody complex activate C1 to form a protease, which cleaves C2 and C4 to form a C4b,2b complex.
-C4b, 2b complex which is a C3 convertase cleaves C3 into two fragments, C3a and C3b
-C3a is an anaphylatoxin, while C3b forms a complex with C4b, 2b complex and produce C5 convertase (C4b, 2b, 3b)
-C5 convertase cleaves C5 to form C5a and C5b.
-C5a is an anaphylatoxin, while C5b binds to C6 and C7 to form a complex that interacts with C8 and C9 to produce the membrane attack complex (C5b, 6, 7, 8, 9) which causes cytolysis

Lectin pathway:
-mannan-binding lectin (MBL), also known as mannose-binding protein binds to the surface of microbes bearing mannan
-this activates proteases associated with MBL that cleave C2 and C4 components of complement and activate the classic pathway

Alternative pathway:
-many unrelated cell surface substances (bacterial lipopolysaccharides, fungal cell walls and viral envelopes) can initiate the process by binding to C3 (H2O) and factor B
-this complex is cleaved by a protease, factor D to produce C3b, Bb which acts as a C3 convertase to generate more C3b


Biologic effects of complement:
1. Opsonization - presence of C3b
2. Chemotaxis - C5a and C5, 6, 7 complex attract neutrophils while C5a also enhances adhesion of neutrophils to endothelium
3. Anaphylatoxin - C3a, C4a and C5a cause degranulation of mast cells with release of mediators, such as histamine, leading to increase in vascular permeability and smooth muscle contraction (bronchospasm)
4. Cytolysis - C5b, 6, 7, 8, 9 complex (membrane attack complex) leads to killing or lysis of many types of cells such as erythrocytes, bacteria and tumor cells, results in disruption of the membrane and entry of water and electrolytes into the cell
5. Enhancement of antibody production - binding of c3b to its receptors on the surface of activated B cells greatly enhances antibody production.

Er...is this a bad or good thing? I'm getting thinner!!! Healthy thin le...I'm still consuming food as usual with the normal value of nutrients...Unexpectedly...my fats just disappear...in just few days...didn't notice it myself too until my sis told me so...LOL..oh well...maybe like my sis said...lots of energy is used up to heal my wounds from my terrible fall....hehehehe....but then...hope my parents didn't notice my wounds + how thin I've got the next Sat I'm going back to Ipoh...else they'll stuff me till I'm bloated up again...NO WAY~~!!!! blerkzzz~~

Happy or sad...?

I'm not at ease at all now...after I've found out that he has a gf now already...and turns out it's his ex gf many years back when he broke up with her after he found out that he had feelings for me...I wonder what happened between them...I'm so blurrrrr~~~ Hm...somehow wondering myself whether I should feel relieved now that he finally found someone instead of still waiting for me to accept him after soooo many years..?? Or should I feel sad as I'm starting to have feelings for him...? Sigh...its just that the time ain't right yet...not now...not yet..not when I'm focusing my life on my studies now...just cant afford to get myself involved..no matter whether he can understand why I don't do so even though I'm yearning for someone to be always beside me...besides my own family...Zoo V's right..I'm soooo unsure about what I really want.....

农历新年聚会

又是新的一年了...大家要来个华乐聚会吗
目的是为了让已久没联络的师姐们出来喝喝茶...谈谈天...说说地...
大家互相分享已往的华乐生涯...交流交流...
以下是聚会咨询:

日期: 农历新年大年初三 [28日1月2009年]
时间: 12.30pm
地点: Greentown MP (小间的)

如果谁想出席的话,尽请给予通知...
因为要预订位子...欢迎大家出席哦...
在当天有可能戴老师和林老师也会出席噢...



I just got this message from one of my CO junior...the 1st part aint that interesting...lol...coz alot of my juniors dont really know me already...and my own batch also I don't think all of them going...which's no fun...but the last part where probably Ms Tai and Mr Lim are going...THAT really caught my eye...aww......how I wish I can attend....but tooo bad..I think I'm having the usual reunion dinner with my relatives of my dad's side...*sobz* =(

Girls....

Okayyy...my previous post was on the GUYS...now the GIRLS...oh well...somehow I realised that not only the guys are difficult mammals to understand...even some of the girls...its just SOME of them...not all...at least most of my close friends aren't like that...and..what made me think so..?? Well...I knew a few of my AMC school mates are studying here in UCSI here too after I've came here for some time...but different course as me...but somehow we didn't get to meet each other at all due to different courses, different classes and etc...but now starting of 2nd semester...and when I've to take my LAN moral studies...I'm no more facing my medic coursemates ONLY for the whole semester..and that gave me the feeling that I'm FINALLY in a uni where there're more students out there besides us medic students...and so....I got to be taking moral studies together with two of my schoolmates who're taking up food science la...and oh well....they just act as if they don't know me at all...oh riiightttt....I'm INVISIBLE~~ One of them only can see Mang Gor...called for him...when even he thought she's calling me coz her voice's darn soft when we're in the auditorium....and she practically ignored my existence while asking him whether he wants to photocopy the moral textbook right in front of me...cool~~~ Really...some girls are just so difficult to understand...I haven't done anything to her to receive such treatment...but then...as what my roommate said...one of the reason is either she thought that me and Mang Gor are together and somehow she's jealous about that..or.....hmm...I seriously don't know what other reason could she possibly have in mind....weird weird weird people just seemed to exist around me...........

Xmas and New Year holidays

Its been a time since last I've posted a blog...well....had spent two weeks back in Ipoh for Christmas and New Year holiday...Hallelujah to Year 2009~~!!! Lots of things happen back then...mostly happy though...1st thing is that me and Ern met up for the last time before she leaves for USA...and FINALLY we've got to watch a movie together..and spent the whole afternoon together hanging out at Jusco window shopping and eating at KFC ^^ Then come to Xmas where me and my family spent a night at Bukit Merah Laketown Resort...cool place.....have forgotten how it does look like since the last time I went during my form 5 prefect camp... Finally...on 31st of Dec...dear Ern boarded the 11.45pm flight and off she went to USA...a country that's alot more thousand miles away...but lucky for the high-tech stuffs now..we're able to keep in touch through emails =) And 1st of Jan of 2009...we whole family went on a trip also...this time to Teluk Batik though..together with my mum's insurance agency...which includes my foster mum who's also my mum's boss...I get to go swimming after so many donkey years not wearing my swimsuit...hehehe...got to work off the fats =p Then...4th of Jan...came back to KL with sis =( But then last Saturday...had a happy time meeting up with VeeShin and Zhu Whee....chatted a while at McD in Midvalley...then went off to play pool (not exactly play..just walked in...lol)...then went off to the arcade where the guys played while I watched...Although its a short time coz apparently I cant dump my sis alone...but really appreciate it...as Zoo V's now studying in INTI, Nilai...near to KL too ^^ But somehow...my dear sis got the idea that Zoo V's my bf...LOL

Guys...

Guys...are such difficult people to understand..although I know to guys girls are difficult human beings to be understood...but seriously...I've known a few friends of mine...who would rather suddenly break any form of contact with you...without telling you any reason...and when finally you knew the reason from a third party...which's that he's got a gf!! How's that..? I mean...like one guy friend of mine who I've known almost my whole life ever since I was in Standard 3 where we had tuition together...seeing each other 2 days per week...way until form 6 and we're still that good friends..and suddenly...when I was so needing of a friend to confine into after the terrible car accident...he just ignored my calls and sms-es...and after asking a few times for the reason he's treating me like this...he finally tells me to buzz off his life coz he's got a gf...just when our relationship is starting to get closer...haiz~~ Now I've another friend of this...of which I known during my years in Chinese Orchestra...knew since I was in form 2...same case...but at least he's still willing to fetch me home after work whenever I don't have any transport to get home...but...guess I better keep away from him already...just saw from his friendster pictures that he's got a gf now...when he's always denying about it...saying that he'll not get involved in any relationships now...not till he's having any better prospects in both his work and studies...anyway...still I better not get involved in stuffs like this anymore.....

Seriously..why are guys giving the girls such a hard time....really cant understand what's going on in their mind...