New member of Ho family ^ - ^

Last Fri....a new member is added into my family =) A cute cocker spaniel!!! Hehe...after lots of persuasion from my dad, me & my sis to my mum who strongly disagree on adding another dog....we finally got our way ;) Anyway...back to the main topic...its a male cocker spaniel....golden colour...& TERRIBLY cute le...!!!! Too bad we haven't think of a suitable name for it...still waiting for its birthcert then we may get an idea on wat name to give it...So...now we have 3 dogs in my house lu =D

Today is such an unlucky day...sigh....Morning had a tug war with my new dog...tat dog's still shy coz still cant adapt so ended up bathing it in the cage =S Then early in the morning i had severe stomach pain right until now...then jz now my dad checked me & diagnosed that i'm having early warnings of appendix =S Sigh....so probably later i need to go have operation...haiz...what to do?? I'm such a big-eater...& this happened....BAH~~!!! What a "GREAT" way to start this 2-weeks school holidays~~~SPEECHLESS...


~GOD BLESS ME~

...hAtE sCoLDinG...

Sigh....went back to AMC after requested by my juniors last night....said they need my assistance & also wanna complain something to me...so despite the scoldings i got from my mum...i went back....I did teach my juniors who'll be playing solo in the concert next Thurs & Fri....but i ALSO scolded my younger juniors....sigh...i wouldn't have wanted to do that la....hate getting into bad temper...plus i hate hurting people's feelings with my sharp words & TOO straightforward attitude...yet...i've caused 3 juniors to cry....& i sure feel uneasy with that....sigh....everytime i go back sure i'll scold someone....& my cells are getting lesser & lesser everytime i go back....dying continuously with no mercy =S & for sure...i'm getting older & older day by day....BAH..!!! But really....hard not to scold with their lousy playings when their concert is just next Thurs & Fri...hard not to get concern for them & also the reputation of AMCCO....sigh....what am i supposed to do?? I'm sure getting hatreds from allot of people that i've scolded...but they never realise the point behind for what i've did....I never asked for them to noe the reasons behind it....but i only hope they'll appreciate the efforts i've wasted on them...haiz....speechless....!!!

Teacher's Day...

Its been almost one week i haven't touch the com....so no need to mention of even getting a chance to blog anything...its been a busy week with tuition classes & the stack of homework given by the school & tuition teachers...lucky its school holidays for the next 2 weeks so i can actually take a rest from this tiring start of form 6...(actually not QUITE a holiday with the continuous tuition classes & oso choir practices =S)

Yesterday's Teacher's Day. Ok...its boring from the start when all of us gotta sit in the hall for hours listening to VIP's presenting their speeches & bla bla bla....& finally resulted in getting leg cramps...duh~~ But after those few hours....its fun...hehe...had our class party with 2 big cakes that we have ordered (Chocolate Banana & Chocolate Opera...YUMMY!!! ;P) & not to mention torturing the lone 6 guys of my class...hehe=P But we bullied most of Vee la...but its his own fault from the 1st place...cant believe him & Ah Chaw laughing at me for joining choir...GRR!!! So....its his own fault that he got bullied by us gals....kekeke...But actually having fun also meant that we got closer with each other...especially between guys & girls....so that's that...& school reopening 2 weeks may probably mean an even noisier class =P ( hard not to le with my presence...hehe ;P)

Phew...finished my school homeworks last night....cracked my head over the maths question from tuition class but failed =S...& finally i've more time to spend on my studying...next 2 weeks wont be holidays for me...in fact its precious time for me to spend on my studies...HOW "great"...!!

HAPPY~~!!

Wow...my family approved me joining choir without any hesitation...probably because of my..ahem...brilliant reason of getting in there jz for fun ;P....so i went for the audition on Thurs....& guess what?? I SUCCEEDED!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!! Haha....finally....i can prove to others that i can actually sing...& people or even friends who doesn't know me well shouldn't have laughed at me at my attempt of trying out the audition....but anyway....the conclusion is ===> I'm now a choir member of Sam Tet Choir =D So...gonna start practising my singing soon so as not to destroy the reputation of me being my sis's sister & oso my reputation of having perfect pitch....keke....or else i'll be a laughing stock =P But even i've not joined any choir practices yet...i'm already famous enough in choir....thanks to my sis la =S So...have to gambate lu...!!!

F6 REALLY starting now...

Finally....today we're allocated into our classes that'll end maybe for this whole year....well...glad to be in L6B2 with Fishy with me too....i'm already awfully glad that i wont be with those ppl tat i dread....hahahaha =D But i'm same class with Vee though....hope u wont mind much la (this is specially dedicated to Ern) & we've selected him as our class monitor too....hehehe....funny & naive guy (shh...dun tell him this ;P)....plus whenever he walks in the class hor...its like having a gigantic earthquake =P (this is true)

I dunno la...but i predicted that it'll be a fun class to be in...although later allot of girls will be leaving for either JPA or transferring to other schools for art stream...our class will still be stuck with only 6 guys...haha.....nice time for us gals to bully them =P

Hmm...decided to try for the prefectorial board interview next Friday....sigh....even though i really dun wanna be a prefect once more...but at least i can get more credit which will be an advantage for my future when i go for universities....so...guess i'll just have to stick to it la...see if the interview goes well or not lor....Then joining ISCF too....its really time for me to seek for God already after such long time i've never been to church....pai seh le...me as a christian never been to church for almost 10yrs already -.-" Dunno....now oso wanting to go for the choir audition tomoro afternoon...if i can straightaway join the Perak team & go for national level then it'll be even a greater advantage...hehe=P But my singing...haih..dunno la...somtimes good sometimes real lousy....see if my family approve or not lor....

Okla...need to go now la...need to study.....guess i'll be very busy in few more days' time...so i'll try blogging as much as i can this few days....ciaoz!!!


~AS HAPPY AS CAN BE~

2nd day....tiring -.-"

2nd day at Sam Tet....enjoyable...!!! =D We played station games...had a fantastic time getting to know each group member even better....but getting bruises all over my arms & legs plus a big swollen lump on my back is not nice at all ='( However...its our fate to get into the same group & get to know each other in just 3days time....so i really appreciate it ;P Jz knew yesterday afternoon during maths tuition that 2 members from my group are actually my maths tuition maths....pai seh le...yesterday only know =S But the guys in my group not bad la...hehe...not their looking la of coz=P...but their attitude lor....funny & can joke around lor....had a really fun yet tiring time...!!

2day Chee Pun finally talks to me...haha...but whenever we talk...we're almost like arguing...hehe...maybe sometimes i sounded angry=P Anyway...not i noe why i cant contact him all this while...finally...his hp got lost alreadi wor...duh~~ Then so i gave him my hp num as he requested after shouting at each other for quite some time at the canteen....hehe=P

I really dont understand him lor....everytime & whenever i see him...sure he'll wave vigorously at me & loudly calling my name..as if wanting to let his frens noe that he knows me -.-" Really cant understand guys....dread seeing him everyday now....sigh....its his OWN fault...!!!


~FATE IS UNPREDICTABLE~

1st day as a Form 6-er

Today...my 1st day in a co-ed school..Sam Tet....actually it wasn't that bad as what i've imagined a few days ago....thought it'll be a horrible day to start with with so many guys plus people that i dread to see...but it's actually not that nad la as long as i just don't care about those people i dread to see....hehe=P & the astonishing thing that happened today....is that...i was chosen as my group...which is Group 17's assistant leader!!!! Great day to start now to think of it.....hehehehe ;P

Well...hopefully i'm getting high posts in any clubs or societies i'm gonna join...or if possible be the assistant monitor...coz i really really dowanna be a prefect ANYMORE la!!! Torturing job...will sure to be even more torturing now i'm in an almost all boys school....sure get even more bullying than what i got last time in AMC...so i really wanna ANTI-PREFECT~~!!!!

Sigh...dunno why....no appetite today =(


~A LAUGH A DAY =D~

Dreading.....F6 life...

Sigh...3 more days of countdown to the life i've been dreading....FORM 6!!! It's not the 1st time i'm in a co-ed school....but the problem is the 1st time i'm in co-ed school is when i'm in Wesley Kindergarten....innocent & carefree as can be....but now....13yrs later....i'm gonna be in a co-ed school once more...& if i'm...ermm..."lucky" enough i'll be in the same class with those ex-kindergarten-classmates...& that includes gals & oso guys =S

But no doubt....i'm gonna...hmm....act fierce....haha...then sure no one will dare to even come near me...hehehehe...else mebe i'm gonna bite their head off.....then it'll sure be a peaceful life for me WITHOUT guys......YAY!!!! SIMPLE PLEASANT PEACEFUL LIFE.....how nice will that be....*dreaming as usual* =P Plus me & fish will sure to choose the most back place in the class...lolz....then we can start gossiping about ppl's bad stuffs....kekeke...& no one will notice us ;P

Just now after lunch went to buy my school uniform alreadi...what a great change after changing the blue skirt into something new after wearing the old F1-F5 style for 5yrs...lucky though that i didn't gain anymore fat in my waist....haha....still the same....27"".....keke....but since i bought the skirt which is JUST fit...so i cant possibly gain any inches of fat...else i cant fit into that skirt already =P

Okie la....enough of "crapping" today la.....hehe....will blog next time when i'm free enough....
AU REVOIR~~~

A tiny piece of a huge stone lifted up from the top of my heart...

Phew...jz finished my maths tuition homework given today...sigh...not sure how to do the last question though...GAH!!! A bit frustrated...

Hmm....really owe Yih Chew allot now....haha...he "saved" my life once more....one moment i was SOooo terribly sad down in the bottom of my heart....then next moment after reading the messages that he send me via handphone (ok...even though sms-ing between Russia & M'sia REALLY costs me allot...but tat was the only way when i was desperate to get advices from him *shrug*)...i was like....wow....i actually got more cheerful....!!!

So...according to what he've told me....i'm not gonna give up...sent my appeal letter already though....yet no way....not until the last moment....coz i'll never believe that the government would be THAT bias...& i also know from my previous experiences that the government always do stuffs as if they're taking their own sweet time when everyone who applied for the scholarship was waiting for the results with worried feelings....how "GREAT"!!!! Plus i rather choose to go for the scholarship rather than stuck with SOME guys + gals who'll be making me flare my temper in no time if i am to be in the same school....& i would not want to imagine if they're in the same class with me....well...sure it'll be DISASTER...DISASTER...DISASTER!!!

Okie dokie then...wanna have my beauty sleep now....Au revoir~~~

Disappointment...

Sigh...no matter how hard i prayed every single day....my wish didn't come true ='( I'VE FAILED MY JPA INTERVIEW!!! Sigh...the golden opportunity & my dream of studying overseas have shattered into pieces in just one day....i really don't know what else to say & do except just to prepare to get into Sam Tet for f6....which to be seemed to be a torturing fact to face =S Hopefully there'll be no more guys stepping into my life anymore...guys really are rocks that had been always blocking my path to success...i have already fell down twice in my life & i really don't wish to have a third time...the disappointment & pain that i always endured during my fall has really made my spirit weaker & weaker....

It's so very unfair!!! Why does the Malays always get scholarships even with lousy results while we Chinese always have to suffer??? Why is our government so unfair to every race?? Didn't the government always insist on giving even treatings to every race??? ARGH!!!!!!!! & they even give the scholarship to those straight A holders!!! Hey!!! Does it mean that straight A holders will bloom more if they are given the chance to go overseas for studies??? To mean the answer is NO!!! The government shouldn't have biased towards those straight A holders while abandoning those who should have been qualified!!! FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!!!!!!!!!

Man...i really really wanted to get that scholarship...my parents also have been hoping me to get it...yet i've failed them once more...sigh...how disappointing...i've even dumped "him" just to get myself concentrate on my studies...& yet....i've failed once more....sigh....but dumping "him" makes me breaking record by dumping the 2nd guy....hehe=P I know i'm kind of teruk....but what else can i do besides being cruel??? *big big sigh* However...at least it's good for both of us....he don't have to suffer months & months of waiting for me to accept anymore...while i'm having FREEDOM again!!!! YAY!!!! CHeeRs!!! *wink* Back to single mode again....hmm...kind of miss the feeling of being single now i think of it =P

Hmm...is it a coincidence or what?? The time i started my relationship with Darren is on 9/9/2005 & we ended on 31/5/2006....then on 16/9/2006 Yew Ming confessed his feelings (yet i've never accepted him =P) & i dumped him....errr...i mean completely rejected him on 10/5/2006....sigh....everytime also ended with 8months onli...& every time started & ended in the same month =S Guess 9 is my lucky number while 5 is my unlucky number then....hehe ;P


~WALK WITH THE LORD~

To: Shan & Fish

Now u don't have any evidence to prove that i wrote anything at all....hahaha...Tell all u want to & say all u want....but..please....one thing....DUN MESS WITH MY SOCIAL LIFE!!!! & I SURELY APPRECIATE THAT VERY VERY MUCH!!!!

Please let me have my own privacy & freedom to write all i want....& i'm PERFECTLY sure that none of the posts i've written concerns ANYONE at all....ok??? I jz need FREEDOM & PRIVACY!!!

Tiring day...

Today early morning around 6.45am i've gotta wake up di...sigh...plus last night had toss & turn almost for half an hour before i really get into a good sleep...guess my sleeping time gone all topsy-turvy again =.=" But getting this opportunity in joining this resuscitation programme organised by General Hospital that was supposedly to be opened to hospital staffs only is a real gold chance....gotta thanks to Johan le =D Jz met him during our 3days exposure programme & he's SOooo kind to help us to join this programme....sWEet!!! =P But i kind of suspect his dad's my dad's classmate when they're studying in MU le...hmm....have to confirm this ;)

Even though me & my fren are really outsiders there...err...we're the youngest too actually...hehe...all of them are hospital staffs including nurses & doctors....so...we both kinda attract attention=P However...din care much about them la unless they asked who're we...yet we really learnt lots through this programme...even did through practical with fake dummies la of course...we did One Man CPR, Two Man CPR & Foreign Body Airway Obstruction (Choking)...learnt the correct way to save no matter anyone whenever they have such difficulties....so whatever we've learnt really helps allot especially when emergencies & even in daily happenings...but tiring le....8.30am until 3pm =S But too bad i still gotta finish my maths tuition homework...so many!!!! =.="

Okie then...gotta do my maths homework now....ciaoz~~

wHAt tO Do???

It's been days since the last time i posted anything...my sis came back after her final test for a whole week's of holiday...so she kind of boss-ed over the com & thus i cant use the com & endless to say i cant post anything...she left for Penang again for her viva test on Wed so....YIPEE!!! Com's "mine" again....hehe =P

Sigh...i noe i've been repeating about this thousands of times...but i really don't know what to do with him....it's kind of awkward whenever we'll be seeing each other every Thursday at my maths tuition...it's kind of a coincidence that he's having accounts tuition just beside where i'm having maths tuition...so...i get to see him every Thursday....yet i don't want to see him!!! I always try ways of preventing myself from meeting him yet to no avail =S I wanna tell him straight not to bother me again since i don't want to get hurt for the 2nd time...but....i really cant get myself to tell him....i'm way too straightforward till i'll most probably hurt someone's feelings...

What am i to do??? I really pray and pray that i'll get JPA scholarship & my parents let me go for it so that i can get far far away from him....hopefully....i really cant bear using another sen of his money that he reload for my hp every 3months....& neither i can bear to have him waiting for me to accept him for longer & longer period since i know it'll be either a VERY VERY long time away...or it'll be forever "No!!".....It's not that i don't have feelings for him....but i'm not ready for any relationships yet...& i don't think it's time for that yet....

Sigh sigh sigh....what am i supposed to do?? Just let it be?? Or tell him straight???

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