GOSH~~!!!

Shoootsss....i've been in quite a bad temper these few days.....yesterday ended up scolding vee....AIKS!! Someone's gonna kill me already =.=" Sorry Ern....but when u noe wat has happened...u wont be mad at me (i guess...) But honestly....i din really scolded him la..its jz like some sort of...err....lecturing?? Jz asked him to speak out about something la....not to be so irresponsible considering he's oso a class monitor for goodness sake....& yet some gals who saw me "scolding" him scolded me for scolding him =S I'm confused.....But its lucky he listened to me (hehe...probably out of fear ;p) & everything ended good yesterday =D PLUS i did apologise to him face-to-face for being too harsh on scolding him ;p

Shoootssssss...!!! (once more....but longer =.=") 2day also dunno wat happened...but the only thing i noe is that i was being flirted by a bunch of Form 4 guys!!!! My GOSH~~!!! I was walking back to school to attend Counselling meeting after having lunch in parade when a bunch of F4 guys who i suppose are quite naughty bunch of guys called my name.....i wasnt thinking clearly & was still thinking who's calling me...then i look up as they're sitting on the wall...when i saw them...i was way CONFUSED coz i dunno who the heck are they!!! =/ Then they wave their hands at me....i was too shocked for words & my hands jz lift but din move at all....then one of they guys shouted: "I'll have the chance to succeed in pikat-ing u!!" I was like...huh...??? Then i jz gave a weak smile & walk off QUICKLY~~~ MAN!!! When was i tat famous huh...?? Terrifying experience i've ever had this time....euw~~made me scared of stepping into Sam Tet anymore in case i meet those guys AGAIN...AIKS~~!!!

Sigh...how am i gonna face BOTH of them???

Sigh...once again....but worse this time...now few of classmates including shan are some sort of talking bout me & vee....man!!! Cant they for once stop all these & let me have some peace?? I'm tired of all these nonsense when me, ern & vee noe PERFECTLY well its impossible to have anything happening between me & vee...I dont need to have anything worse than losing a best friend & making my way thru the year facing vee in my same class IF anything like that happens..which i strongly emphasize once more IT WONT HAPPEN!!! Jz because he helps me to carry the desk & he's interested in me?? GOSH!!! Sigh....i'm bashed~~~dun talk to me about ANYTHING on relationships anymore....tired~~~

People's description about ME =D

Well..few days ago...i got to receive a sms from my ex-classmate who's now studying in Petaling Jaya...The message went like this: "Describe me in ONE WORD....just 1!! & send this msg around to 10 or more frens & u'll be surprised/amazed by their answers..." So...i did wat the msg asked me to do & i send to those close frens of mine...

These are their answers:
Hui Shan: Cute
Wei Yao: Cute
Wei Yang: Hardworking (hm...am i?? ;p)
Chee Pek: Short, ganas & gila (which i dun deny any of these =D)
Vee Shin: Caring ( =O when was i ever caring huh...???)
Yu Leong: Amiable =>
Darren: Serious & hardworking
Yik Hoe: Exact (coz i alwiz correct the choir's pitch ;p) & courteous (courteous..?? Tat's way too high for a compliment bout Joanne Ho here >.< )
Kar Meng: Cute
Pheak Zern: Funny
Fishy: Loud (Hehehe....i TOTALLY agree about it ;p)
Wei Kit: Smart (??? He's kidding ke?? Sigh...)

Depressing moments...

Sigh...i jz cant get it why no one trusts me that i can sing?? They jz NEVER give me a chance to do so...& for sure i cant prove to them...& yet they've considered me as someone who cant sing =/ This is so saddening...they even said i'm able to get into choir jz becoz i can play the piano well & not coz of my voice...that's why they're sure i can get to be the pianist without sweat....they dun even care the hell how i feel...they even said i'm the MOST unneeded, 不关事 person in choir when Ah Pon suggested my name to join the singing competition...SIGH~~~ [ These bunch of people are a few gals from my OWN class....including fishy :'( ...imagine tat....]

Then...here's another case...well....there's a choir performance on next Sat for the leo function...at 1st i tot they dun need a pianist & i'm supposed to sing...i started to dread coz i wont be able to attend the practices due to tomoro's VAD 7 trip plus extra piano lessons on Thursdays....but 2day onli i get to know that they're still using a pianist instead of singing accapella...& they din even ask whether i'm REALLY available anot & they straightaway chose the 2nd pianist who's a F4 guy...ARGH!!!! Another bunch of idiots who NEVER cared for how others feelings are...especially those L6 gals....i jz dunno why....but i've a strong feeling they never like me...probably coz firstly i was never a choir gal until this yr...& secondly probably coz i'm too close to those ex-seniors *shrug* who noes wat they're thinking...but its not my fault that i'm having good relationships with those ex-seniors right?? SIGH~~~really dun understand...

9/9 - The day i'll always remember

Today is 9/9. Once more. 2 yrs ago of this date...i had the most joyful day ^-^

Hmm....I still miss some memories la ;)
1. The 1st time i played snooker.
2. The times i rode the public bus with D.
3. The ONLY time i went to his house + his study room
4. The times we watched movies.
5. His voice. But DEFINITELY not his looks =P
6. The hours we spent chatting away on our handphones till our ears are hot...hehe...

Uhh...too much...hehe...but wat's past is past....& i sure dun regret.....glad + relieved with my decision too...kekeke....so jz posting this post for fun ;p

The Interview With God

Cool website =) Inspiring too....& this accounts for my weird MUET teacher who one day suddenly comes in during his class with his laptop & opening short movie clips that made us laugh till our stomach aches....& some inspiring ones too including this one....which leaves the most impact in my heart =D I'M IN LOVE WITH GOD~~~

Bio Trip at Cameron Highlands

Fui yoh..!! These 2 days real hebat lor...jz got back from Cameron where we had our bio trip this afternoon...had quite some good results la =D Got quite a lot of bugs & insects for our BIG project....hehehehe ;P

Okie...to start with....yesterday morning me & a gang of frens (including Fish, Ah Ong, Chim, YiQian & Vee) got crazy that we've planned earlier to have breakfast together at Old Town White Coffee Restaurant before meeting others at the bus station to get the bus up to Cameron...It IS crazy considering we've to meet at 6.45am while the bus leaves at 8am =.=" Anyway...we get to eat breakfast then walk to the bus station which's quite near la...then we're off to Cameron after waiting 15minutes late for the remainin people to arrive...

In Cameron...we've went to 7 places for the MISSION IMPOSSIBLE to be achieved....kekeke...the Butterfly Farm, Rose Valley, Cactus Valley, BOH tea garden, Jabatan Perhutanan & etc...(practically forgotten 2 more places already =P) We're terribly exhausted after these hectic trips & so we went back to our sweetie apartment to rest after getting loads of insects of different kinds =)

When we're back to our apartment...we went back out again for our dinner of steamboat...man...those 3 tallest guys of our class actually sit back & wait for us to serve them...coz they dont even noe how to make steamboat....HOW GREAT!!! Then from then on all the guys are not considered by us as guys di...but dah "naik pangkat" become 女人...while we remain as sweet 女生...muahahahahahaha!!! After dinner...we all went to the pasar malam...got loads of food...then head back to our apartment for a BIG party =D

Way back in our apartment...after bathing, dealing with our capture of insects...then my gang of frens & some guys (those 3 guys again =/）started playing "cho dai di"....wakekeke =P Okie...even though few yrs ago almost everytime whenever i went Fish's or Ern's house both of them'll teach me how 2 play..but i alwiz forget how after each time...sorry la but i've short memory prob ;p But now technique dah improved pun...kekekeke...Then me & Fish had a cup of coffee each coz we've planned not to sleep at all whole night....ended up its not onli us who's that crazy....kekeke....so we whole gang played cards plus the boys took turns play cards + chinese chess...we gals dunno how 2 play so we jz stuck to cards =D So....in the end...we all slept around 4am somethin...me & Fishy even became guards of the living room...wakekeke =P

We woke up at 5.30am for another round of insects-hunting...memang "gan zheong" lor...& yet we (me & Fishy) are as bersemangat as anything....OMG~~!!! Next time i noe wat i'll do to get myself not to sleep at all....coffee WORKS!!! Anyway....its way too early so we din get anything at all except for a real good exercise...help to lose pounds we've gained the day before ;p After tat everyone jz went back to the apartment...some went back for their beauty sleep...but doinks like us went for cho dai di once more...hahahahaha =P We're practically obsessed already ;] Then we checked out at 11.30am...went for lunch...walked around town after that & finally get on our bus back to Ipoh luu....

Sad to have such short trip....yet its satisfying since we got together closer to each other...especially for the opposite sex....However...we 女生 got influenced by those 女人alreadi..saddening lor....now we're full of quotes like "gan zheong" (紧张 in canto), LMDY = lam mm dou yeh, 有机会的... (canto), jaa dou (乍到), nei mou bik ngor arr... (你不要逼我啊...), etc...OH NO!!! I dowan get into the Sam Tet trend di la...hahahahaha...but got in good relationships with all the guys already =D Now we're merged with the guys group di oso...good good...haha...sama-sama help & provide ;p Now me & Fish each got a nickname di...haha..thx to those guys la...scared of insects pulak...while we both dah pro la...catch & deal without gloves & no dilly dally like them...so Fish's now 猛姐no.1 while me 猛姐no.2 + 凶姐=D

Sis convocation

Yesterday's my sis's convocation...& i've missed my last bio test to attend her convo =S But its not something i'm dreading actually....coz i get to have extra time to study my bio which is still my fearmost subject....kekeke....PLUS i get to have a replacement test next Monday even if it means i've to purposely go back to school for that paper since the holiday has started....but dun care la...i can get to relax myself, eat until i get fat then onli start studying & get my test done in that 1hr & 30mins as fast as possible =D

Now i know being the convocation's centre attraction is something both awful feeling & yet a feel of relief of getting away from universities & MOST from the tiring examinations plus the joy. Its awful when u got to walk around wearing that gown & that mortar board where u've to spent LOTS of time getting them pinned to ur hair (or should i say to the head??) so that it wont fall off (me & my mum BOTH did for my sis) & not to mention trying to balance it while walking...then after the ceremony's over u've got to walk around the whole place looking for friends to take pics with as remembrance....walau...!!! Tat's the most awful part....people are all over the place...& thinking of looking for even a person?? My gosh..!!! I've experienced that with my sis as i'm "honoured" to be appointed as her camera girl...& try imagining me wearing a almost 4 inches high heels walking around with her?? =/

Yet....now i onli realised it that i LOVE getting flowers =D Besides being camera girl....i was also asked to hold the bunches of flowers my sis got from me & my parents & also her frens....man...i jz feel REAL happy enough even though i noe its not me who's getting it...hehehehe ;) So....no matter what....next time during my convo....i SURE mau bunches & bunches of flowers =D I dont care whatever flowers i get...as long as they're not chrysanthenums for sure....preferably lilys & roses =)


I LOVE FLOWERS~~~

GOSH~~!!!

Man...when fishy started saying about it....i nearly fainted...She...in my opinion at that time...is definitely OUT OF HER MINDS!!! She muz be crazy even to think of such thing...GOSH!!! For goodness sake..!!! He's my best fren's ex bf...not to mention is u fishy's good buddy's ex bf la....ur saying that according to ur survey that he's interested in me??? That's definitely out of the question..!!! N-O W-A-Y!!!! Your survey is definitely down the drains...Even if he does (he better not...i'll probably punch him in the face...& if he ever does...he's sure got his head knocked to insaneness)...i sure wont do such thing as to ever betray my own best friend...no matter how many dozen times nutcracker Ern said about me & him getting together...I rather get together with an ugly fatso than to be a betrayer...

So...Conclusion: NO NO NO~~~!!!! I'M NO BETRAYER~~~

Treasure your life

After what has happened in the past few days with all those fatal tragedies....tat ended up with allot of people in terribly sad moods....i start to realise how treasurable is our life...never really take the effort to appreciate whatever i have....jz take everything for granted when one day u'll be living & yet the other day u'll appear in heaven...one can never fix your own destiny no matter how great or powerful you are...you jz cant fight God's fate....My mum's right actually...i shouldn't be mad at anything even with small tiny matters...realised that my temper has grown worse starting this year...probably from stress or unhapiness...?? I'm also not sure of it myself...i jz hope to be my ownself once more...the happy-go-lucky, always laughing my head off gal who able to bring happiness to others...but recently i jz grown gloomy....rather to be alone & not join with big groups especially dont really enjoy being in a party when i remember clearly last time i was described as a sociable person compared to my bro....sigh...i hope this surely wont worsen to be psychological sickness....I just wanna live life to the fullest & be happy as my ownself...the original ME...!! And also get some new year resolutions so i can be fully well prepared for next yr's BIG day -- STPM....okok...i noe myself that the lazy worm in me still havent the intention of leaving yet...but trust me...when the time comes i wont be a lazy bum anymore...jz cant stop my dream from coming true as a doctor....

~LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST~

A plain normal NOBODY

Sigh...yea...I didn't say much about it to anyone....not even my own best fren...but i'm jz plain unhappy...tat's all..really dunno wat's the reason...jz have the kinda feeling that my circle of frens is getting smaller & smaller ever...is it my own hallucination?? Or maybe it has became the truth?? Is it caused by my own attitude?? Or had i overdone everything?? Really have lost my mind on that la...yet i'm perfectly sure my attitude of dealing with frens have never changed...i'm still the same Joanne as ever...yet i jz cant get to mix around with more frens jz like wat i've always succeed in doin it for the past few years...& I always feel neglected...& i'm always left out in whatever activities or discussions...those ppl I mixed with hav their own frens anyway...& I am a real nobody...& I'm sure I'm not that kind of person like those gals...I need time...yet no one give me time to mix around...great feeling tat is huh...?? No one cared for me & wat I get in return is NOTHING..!!! Sigh...I'm under stress with LOTS of unhappiness...I really dunno wat to do anymore...

~I'M A NOBODY~

UNHAPPY Choir Farewell

Sigh....wat i say only is that this farewell seemed to be the most unhappy one i ever had in my life...i jz feel that i'm a left-outer & a nobody in choir...during the whole night i never ate the buffet (its my dinner actually), played any games or get crazy together with them....i jz busied myself by holding cameras & not to mention taking a few pics with some of them la....but that's all i did....yet nobody cared whether i did anything with them....pn tong is exceptional la....others?? As if they'll care....Even the organizing committee....they NEVER tell me whatever is going to happen....the whole programme & bla bla bla....& i'm as blur as ever even though i'm one of the O.C....it was embarassing when others non-O.C asked me questions about the whole programme....& obviously i am sad too....i feel neglected, left out, not being cared....great feeling is tat....plus those girls obviously are not my type....they wore....my gosh...!! EXTREME formal for a farewell party ONLY...& they criticised me for being too casual wear....GREAT!!! I'm wearing a blouse & a skirt....wat MORE do they expect?? Excuse me la dears...its only a FAREWELL PARTY....not that its a wedding or huge functions....Expect me to wear something that i show everything from top to toe?? IDIOTS...!!! Even asked me to change....the heck i care..!!! They're jz plain idiots....Ok...i did feel guilty as i'm Hoe's dance partner to see him wearing SOooo formal (well....at least MORE formal than mine)...& i sure sense the unhapiness in him as he compared normal + plain me with other beautiful + elegant gals...but tat's wat i can do since i never get to go home with my PRS test till 4pm somethin...so dun get angry with me after i've apologised allot of times...u wanna get mad i oso dun care already..!! I jz dont feel happy in any of the clubs i joined....counselling pun macam tu...archery too...but at least a BIT better....VAD 7 going to be one of those too....Man..!!! I really dunno how i can stand such F6 life for the next 1 yr & 3 months...sigh.......

Shocked...yet happy =)

Was a bit shocked when yesterday Ben came to look for me when i was walking back to class with my frens after recess...thought i'll be having good news....but instead he asked me to be the pianist accompanying the choir on Prize Giving Day on 8th of July...was real shocked with that bit of news...yea...haha...but it'a a great chance for me to show to others who doesn't know me well of my music talent...so i agreed being a pianist....anyway...it wont be that difficult i guess...

Today i've to play the whole piece on the piano...1st time huh.....so very very nervous coz i'm actually in a role of leading the whole choir leh...until my both hands shake...so not even the practice i had last night helped at all....but since Ben praised me for giving a good job...guess i really did fine...but hopefully i'll be better on Sat & not fumble at all....

Have to go already...PA Statistic to do...plus need to compose the whole piece of song again with the alteration of key....sigh...mum's gonna nag nag nag again...~~~

Happy day =D

To start off...i'm getting more & more fond of choir now i've realised...jz like those kind of teamwork that i've been experiencing over the last 5yrs when i'm in Chinese Orchestra....& not to mention my passion over music ;p So...guess i'll jz stay on till the last minute without quiting jz because i'm not chosen into the national level...silly enough even to think of it....so...that's that for choir lor....oh ya...!! Forgot to mention something...i'll be performing on 8/7, SamTet's Hari Anugerah...my 1st performance ever since i joined choir leh =D Happy yet nervous...dunno whether i'll do a good job or not =S

Phew...!! The conflict between us finally broke off when he finally smiled at me today when we met after such a long time ever since i scolded him off coz of another person....felt a lil guilty for scolding an innocent person =.=" But now everything's back to normal again =) No more arguments or misunderstandings...the grey clouds have finally left to leave a bright blue sky =D

Shocking predicts to hear from fish & jy...hope its not true though about their survey...we're only normal frens...truthfully from my heart...dunno about him la though...jz hoping its not true...i dread about the truth when the day comes...sigh...

hELp m3...!!!!

媽啊！！Today is such unlucky day for me =S How can anyone be SOoooo noisy....like a GIGANTIC "generator"....bla bla bla for the whole day....2 people tim err....MAN!!! Even me also not their competition la...i'm only the volume of my voice..other than that...i can be as quiet as can be...& now it results that both my ears are still ringing by the continuous booming of their voices =.=" Aiks...poor me...guess i'll be having nightmares tonight ='( Plus reminder to myself that next time guess i gotta remember to bring lotsa cotton buds to stuff my ears almost whole day already =.="

~DOUBLE NIGHTMARES~

~FOOTBALL FEVER~

Recently in football fever...haha...it may seemed unusual for a girl to be crazy over football...but i'm one of those crazy gang...mUAhAHaHaA!!! Too bad still gotta have consistency in studyin...so can only be PARTIAL crazy ;P Anyway....ENGLAND ROXXX!!!! F6 SUX!!! =P

I LOVE FIFA~~ FOOTBALL FEVER

Driving...

Walau ehh...cant believe that i actually drove all the way from Jelapang to Chemor today....wakekeke =P But acually drove illegally la...hehehe....i DID have my license..& i have the P stickers...but the thing is that the P stickers are not stuck to the Kancil i'm driving...they're on another manual car...so....a P license driver driving such long way without P stickers ;P Its kinda horrible driving on a busy road...scary too....but its syok le...!!!! =D Sigh...how i wish i can drive to school tomoro by myself already...then no need to depend on anyone to fetch me to tuitions...& oso can drive myself home...plus ANYWHERE....hehehe...

Currently in a dilemma which club or societies or sports should i join...wanted archery club....but scared will hurt my hands which i need them for playing piano...cant risk that much....sigh..!!!!!

Choir...disappointment...

Sigh...as what i've half expected...i'm really not chosen into the national level for choir competition...was frustrated + disappointed at 1st to see those who're being chosen...but to think from a different aspect i feel relieved since i'll be having more time spend on my studies...wont be busy going for choir practices all the time if i was to be chosen...so no worries there..!! =D Even i'm not chosen this time....but guess i'll still continue joining choir...not going to quit like others who gave up jz coz they're not chosen....

Another sweet guy ;P

Wakekeke...today i've found another "target" to fetch me & frens to tuitions luuu =P Okie...i felt kinda guilty la actually....coz kinda like using him as our driver...but then i've felt bored walking to tuitions almost EVERYDAY already....i'm bored getting darker & darker day by day already la...no chance for me to get back to my fair self anymore =( But he's sweet to fetch us le....although he'll grumble the whole journey la...hahaha...(its true =P) but really owe him allot la =) Sweet guys....real hard to find...

樹 或 風

我心内的掙扎
無人理解
無人明白

心裏一半想接受你
但另一半
卻為另一段我認爲發生的可能性很低的感情而猶豫
讓我無情之下拒絕了你
讓你漸漸從我身邊離去

身邊少了溫暖
與大樹般的依靠
生活好似顛倒了

我
好似一片葉子
受風與樹的動搖
躊躇與你與他之間的抉擇

告訴我
我該隨那冷漠無比的風而去
還是
挽留在永不放棄我的你這棵樹上？