Sorry to my mum and to you. I know I should not have showed my bad mood with anger instead. Mum was quite shocked with my loud voice with a hint of irritation over the phone when she called in the afternoon to ask me about my window. And she was complaining about me not knowing and not understanding that they are all actually caring about me. Not that I do not understand, but its just a bad time. And bad mood too. Guess I was also giving him a bad time to be with me for the whole afternoon. No wonder he's more pressurised. It ain't that easy to be not stressed by just asking me not to be stressed. This is sure gonna be worse when the Professional Exam II for Year 2 is here next year's March. @_@ Maybe it might be a good idea if we separate ourselves to study on our own in this pre-exam period. I might get into a tantrum someday when I can't relieve my stress. And I hope the one beside me at that time won't be you.
Tough neck and shoulder muscles + insomnia + moody = evidence of stress
I'm sure to looking forward to next Wed, which is after exam. Then it'll be a great relief for me. And to my nerves too.
OK. I'm only contradicting myself. Coz' I can't stand not seeing you even for one second. =(
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
有时候。。。
有时候，
并不是我不要跟你说话，
也不是没话要跟你说。
只是，
我不想在你的面前戴上面具，
来掩饰我的坏心情。
我并不想把你拖进我坏心情的漩涡里。
所以，
请你理解我的意思。
不当面跟你说，
却选择与我的电脑说，
因为我认为我比较能通过它来表达自己，
也因为我是个喜欢逃避现实的人。
我只希望在坏心情时，
静静的让我冷静下来并思考，
所以，
只要你一直在我身边陪着我，
即使你一句话也不说，
或者我只当个聆听者，
我已经满足了。
并不是我不要跟你说话，
也不是没话要跟你说。
只是，
我不想在你的面前戴上面具，
来掩饰我的坏心情。
我并不想把你拖进我坏心情的漩涡里。
所以，
请你理解我的意思。
不当面跟你说，
却选择与我的电脑说，
因为我认为我比较能通过它来表达自己，
也因为我是个喜欢逃避现实的人。
我只希望在坏心情时，
静静的让我冷静下来并思考，
所以，
只要你一直在我身边陪着我，
即使你一句话也不说，
或者我只当个聆听者，
我已经满足了。
Monday, September 27, 2010
Reproduction - DONE. Endocrine - STARTING.
I actually slept at 6.45am this morning. And woke up at 9 by my alarm clock. But thought better to sleep more and read more when I wake up later. So was wakened up instead by my dear's sms at 10.20am. Met him up for lunch. And after lunch, I just drilled through my reproductive system physiology and managed to finish it in like..3 hours? Was actually planning to not sleep at all. But my eyelids just wouldn't let me do so and so climbed onto the bed finally when the sun rays can be seen faraway. Now my eyes are as swollen as panda with huge shadows beneath the eyes. And outside is raining again. Lucky no strong winds, but still my cardboard did a great job preventing rain from drowning my precious books and notes wet. I am so gonna sleep early tonight though I know its impossible to compensate for the loss of sleep. Looking forward to tomorrow where I can get to meet my dear. =) And also for someone to finally come and fix my window. Haiz. And has it dropped off yet? Nope. Still hanging strongly though. Hope nothing will happen till tomorrow le.
Endocrine. Hoping to finish by tomorrow or day after tomorrow? I've gastrointestinal system to go. And days are coming nearer. Hope the time can just stop and I can finish everything, better still revise once more. Memory's getting worse nowadays. @_@
Endocrine. Hoping to finish by tomorrow or day after tomorrow? I've gastrointestinal system to go. And days are coming nearer. Hope the time can just stop and I can finish everything, better still revise once more. Memory's getting worse nowadays. @_@
如果没有本事爱我一辈子，那就什么都不要开始...
如果这只是一个开始，那请永远都不要结束，
有些事情不是说要开始就能开始，
我对你不是玩玩而已，我要的是天长地久，
我知道这要的要求或许很可笑，
但这是我内心深处最真诚的渴望...
或许喜欢上一个人并不难，但爱上一个人却不容易，
我的心可以分成很多很多块给我喜欢的人，
我可以对他们很好，但却始终只是友情的界限，
我会对他们有所付出，却不会为他们做出牺牲，
我可以为了你放弃他们，却不能为了他们放弃你,
真正爱上一个人就会懂得什么叫做奋不顾身，
留下两分来爱自己是不可能做得到的，
因为一旦爱上了，理智就不受自己控制了...
我要的是一段可以手牵手到老的爱情，
我要的是一个只属于我自己的情人，
我不能与人共享，也不会与人共享，
你可以选择我或是她，但不能同时都想要，
要是你爱她，就不要选择我，要是你爱我，
就只能专心爱我一个人,
我的要求听起来是有一点自私，其实不然，
要是你也像我爱你一样地那么爱我，
你也会对我有着同样的要求...
我能做到，难道你就不能吗？
别承诺得太早，更别答应得太快，
我的要求不难做到却很难坚持，
爱我的时候你可以为了我付出一切，
不爱的时候你可以付出一切来不爱我，
我明白，我知道，所以我选择一个人，
我就是这样地高傲，我就是这么地挑剔，
如果没有这样的爱情，一个人又何妨呢？
如果不能得到最好的，那还不如一个人...还更自由自在...
天才地久确实是些美丽得不切实际，
不是不了解现实有多么地残忍，
而是我始终都相信，
冥冥中一定有一个人是属于我的...
有些事情不是说要开始就能开始，
我对你不是玩玩而已，我要的是天长地久，
我知道这要的要求或许很可笑，
但这是我内心深处最真诚的渴望...
或许喜欢上一个人并不难，但爱上一个人却不容易，
我的心可以分成很多很多块给我喜欢的人，
我可以对他们很好，但却始终只是友情的界限，
我会对他们有所付出，却不会为他们做出牺牲，
我可以为了你放弃他们，却不能为了他们放弃你,
真正爱上一个人就会懂得什么叫做奋不顾身，
留下两分来爱自己是不可能做得到的，
因为一旦爱上了，理智就不受自己控制了...
我要的是一段可以手牵手到老的爱情，
我要的是一个只属于我自己的情人，
我不能与人共享，也不会与人共享，
你可以选择我或是她，但不能同时都想要，
要是你爱她，就不要选择我，要是你爱我，
就只能专心爱我一个人,
我的要求听起来是有一点自私，其实不然，
要是你也像我爱你一样地那么爱我，
你也会对我有着同样的要求...
我能做到，难道你就不能吗？
别承诺得太早，更别答应得太快，
我的要求不难做到却很难坚持，
爱我的时候你可以为了我付出一切，
不爱的时候你可以付出一切来不爱我，
我明白，我知道，所以我选择一个人，
我就是这样地高傲，我就是这么地挑剔，
如果没有这样的爱情，一个人又何妨呢？
如果不能得到最好的，那还不如一个人...还更自由自在...
天才地久确实是些美丽得不切实际，
不是不了解现实有多么地残忍，
而是我始终都相信，
冥冥中一定有一个人是属于我的...
Stress = Procrastination?
OK. I'm weird. The more stressed I get, the more procrastinating I get. Which means I'll tend to can't concentrate better although keeps on worrying that I can't finish everything on time. Even more stressed thinking of our future and what you have told me today during dinner. Not blaming you though. Its me myself. =S And great! I forgot about how caffeine caused me to get insomnia. @_@ 4.04am. Am blogging to keep myself concentrate more on my studies. And also to keep my fingers busy while memorising important points. I am so not sleepy yet. Guess gonna stay up till the sun appears from the horizon appears outside the window empty space where the window is supposed to be. I'm now accompanied by the darkness outside + the quietness of the hostel + songs that somehow calms me down + notes on reproductive (Yes, I'm still on it! But finishing soon. Then I can sleep. Finally.) Oh, and also accompanied by spells of sneezing just now. Almost wanted to reach out for my medication, whatever it may be just to stop me from it. But thought twice. And luckily I did. Coz' I'm OK now. Haha. I'm gonna appear as a panda these few days. Seriously I think I can only study late at night. A 'no-no' in the afternoons coz' it'll only cause me get more and more sleepy by facing the squiggly words, for no reason. Oh well, as usual. My bad habit, hard to change after so many years. Don't worry, I'll adapt to your early sleeping habits once I don't need to face books anymore. >.<
I'll still like Leo Ku's songs no matter that you dislike Hong Kong people. At least he can sing and his songs are great! Blerkz~
I'll still like Leo Ku's songs no matter that you dislike Hong Kong people. At least he can sing and his songs are great! Blerkz~
Does getting into a relationship results in smaller circle of friends?
Maybe I am thinking too much. Again. Or maybe I was caring for the feelings of the other half of mine too much. I have a feeling of getting more and more further away from my friends. Is that good or bad? I have a feeling that now I'm living more and more only in the circle of me and him. Maybe that was because I spent almost 24hours with him? Hm. Big sorry to Ernie, Fishy, ZW, Huey Leng, Ah Ong, Shan and so many others. I believe I somehow seemed 'Missing In Action' to you guys. Probably you guys have even lost track of how I look like, where I am and what I am doing currently. Especially my gang back in high school. I've not been seeing them for like...I also forgot when was the last time I met up with them. Aiks! Especially ZW, who knew about me more than my own 'ji muis', don't quite dare to contact me since he knows about Michael due to some..erm...previous incident..? Lols. Hm. Maybe I should keep in touch with them more le. I feel like an outcast to them now since even Fishy didn't mention in her FB post that she loves me. =( And I'm so terribly outdated with whatever happened to them. I don't want to lose these hard-to-find friends. And yet I'm not prepared to sacrifice him for them if it means for me to do so. Maybe I was just too selfish. What am I to do? >.<
Another stressful yet duno-what-to-do night. Sigh.
Now its already 1.44am. GAH! I'm still stuck in reproductive system here. At least I finished pathology and anatomy. Now in embryology, finishing soon and can go on with physiology. Promised myself to finish everything before I'm allowed to touch my head to the pillow. Just gunned down coffee. Gonna spend the night I guess. And at the same time making myself keep awake by listening to Leo Ku's songs. =D Just pray hard that I won't be wakened up early tomorrow morning by the stupid construction drilling sound on 2nd floor. @_@
Also need to pray that my stupid window which currently is hanging down pathetically just by the bottom hinges won't fall down and can wait till Tuesday where the maintenance would (hopefully) come and fix it for me. The top hinges just broke off today this morning when I was trying to close the window before heading off to church. Managed to pull the stupid heavy window up by giving my fingers some scratches and stay in place, just yet. But guess the strong wind + heavy rain somehow caused the window to shifted from the place and dropped down, hanging there. And why do I need to wait till Tues? Coz' our dear Chairman, Dato' Peter Ng's dad passed away and so the school is closed tomorrow as a sign of respect.
Pre-exam days are just no fun. Sigh. All I did for almost 24hours is just to face books + notes. But for mine, and also his future, we both just have to work hard to go through for the remaining 3 and a half years, no matter how difficult these are. Lack of sleep and overusage of brain cells are certainly unavoidable. Aiks! No wonder the doctors I've seen all looked older than their age. Maybe its because of less number of brain cells all spent during the 5years, or more for specialists of studies? =p Oh my..does that mean it'll be the same for me as well? NOooOooo~!!!! Medicine can be fun sometimes, but one thing for certain, it IS killing as well. Wait, I LOVE medicine. (Articles say you must love something to put more interest in it..lols) Now I'm just looking forward to next Wednesday afternoon and whole Thursday, care-free + stress-free day. =D
Exam schedule:
4th Oct (Mon), 9-11.30am: Written Paper I (Short Answer Question paper)
5th Oct (Tues): OSPE (not sure group A or group B yet)
6th Oct (Wed), 9-11am: Written Paper II (MCQ paper)
The relieving thing is this time's paper is only consists of Year 2 Semester 1 stuffs. Wait till 5 more months later, that will be consisting of both Year 1 and Year 2 stuffs. And also this one doesn't contribute as much as the one in the finals. Best thing is..I have NOT even started on my 1st year's stuffs!!! I am SOoooo stressed.!!!!!!
Also need to pray that my stupid window which currently is hanging down pathetically just by the bottom hinges won't fall down and can wait till Tuesday where the maintenance would (hopefully) come and fix it for me. The top hinges just broke off today this morning when I was trying to close the window before heading off to church. Managed to pull the stupid heavy window up by giving my fingers some scratches and stay in place, just yet. But guess the strong wind + heavy rain somehow caused the window to shifted from the place and dropped down, hanging there. And why do I need to wait till Tues? Coz' our dear Chairman, Dato' Peter Ng's dad passed away and so the school is closed tomorrow as a sign of respect.
Pre-exam days are just no fun. Sigh. All I did for almost 24hours is just to face books + notes. But for mine, and also his future, we both just have to work hard to go through for the remaining 3 and a half years, no matter how difficult these are. Lack of sleep and overusage of brain cells are certainly unavoidable. Aiks! No wonder the doctors I've seen all looked older than their age. Maybe its because of less number of brain cells all spent during the 5years, or more for specialists of studies? =p Oh my..does that mean it'll be the same for me as well? NOooOooo~!!!! Medicine can be fun sometimes, but one thing for certain, it IS killing as well. Wait, I LOVE medicine. (Articles say you must love something to put more interest in it..lols) Now I'm just looking forward to next Wednesday afternoon and whole Thursday, care-free + stress-free day. =D
Exam schedule:
4th Oct (Mon), 9-11.30am: Written Paper I (Short Answer Question paper)
5th Oct (Tues): OSPE (not sure group A or group B yet)
6th Oct (Wed), 9-11am: Written Paper II (MCQ paper)
The relieving thing is this time's paper is only consists of Year 2 Semester 1 stuffs. Wait till 5 more months later, that will be consisting of both Year 1 and Year 2 stuffs. And also this one doesn't contribute as much as the one in the finals. Best thing is..I have NOT even started on my 1st year's stuffs!!! I am SOoooo stressed.!!!!!!
Saturday, September 25, 2010
信任
我该继续信任他吗？一次又一次的信任与原谅，却换来一次又一次的心痛与忧郁……忧郁着我该不该继续瞒着自己的心相信他……我知道我不该去探他的隐私，但不只一次他瞒着我，真的让我很不安。It does not include only the past, but also the present. 虽然他说他心里只有我一个，但看着他们所聊的事，真的感到有点心酸。在想着，到底我为他做了那么多，是值得的吗？那他对我的又是一片真心吗？还是纯粹只因我为他做太多了，想报答，而且也不敢伤害我吗？真搞不懂他……有点感觉到我其实不怎么了解他了……以为了解却一点也捉摸不到他心里深处的那一角……
还是是我自己多心吗？
好讨厌这感觉……我该如何是好？=(
好怕会失去他~
Thursday, September 23, 2010
漂亮女孩和普通女孩的 十个区别
区别一
漂亮女孩周围总有很多不同凡响的男孩，至少感觉很优秀。既然有这么优越的条件，漂亮女孩自然提高了眼界，他们勾画出未来的男朋友或爱人的形象无疑是完美无缺的，她们不停的选择，她们需要浪漫的快乐，等待她们的白马王子的到来。
普通女孩象普通人一样生活，很多时候身旁的男孩把她当作朋友却又经常忽视她们是女孩的事实。她们也会想象自己的白马王子，不同的是他是一个普通的人。普通女孩可以容忍男朋友有一些缺点，她们只需要这一生一世不变的爱。
区别二
漂亮女孩经常不知道该选择哪一个，常常对着月亮在祈祷神来告诉她。
普通女孩相信自己的选择，也相信自己一生的选择。
区别三
漂亮女孩有太多的机会，她们喜欢捉弄机会，喜欢短暂的浪漫，来展示她们的与众不同。他们经常告诉追求者“你只是他们中的普通一个”。
普通女孩用心去珍惜每一次机会，她们用一颗心来维护这感情持久。她们会用眼神和目光告诉他：“这是我们一生的选择”。
区别四
漂亮女孩的追求者每天都在考虑两个问题：一个是“情敌又多了吗？”，一个是“我怎样才能胜出”。通常第一个回答是肯定的，而第二个很多是否定的。
普通女孩的追求者只会偶尔想一想：如果她答应我了，我们就去骑自行车环岛。
区别五
漂亮女孩的男朋友和她的追求者没有本质的界限，虽然拥着她满是自豪，但每天躺在床上又要打算明天战斗，因为竞争太激烈了，通常这种生活要保持到那披上婚纱那一刻。
普通女孩的男朋友虽然没有那种自豪，但是心中很幸福，他默默告诉自己：生活需要平淡，我寻找的是共风雨的爱人，而不是炫耀的商品。
区别六
漂亮女孩经常不经意的把男朋友当做奴隶，因为她们觉这是应该的。她们毫不客气的做麦当劳的常客，穿巴黎春天的衣服，那微微翘起的嘴角仿佛告诉男友：“你的女朋友——我是最漂亮的，享用这些是应该的”。
普通女孩体贴入微的关心男朋友，因为她们觉得这个世界无论多苦多累，都不是自己一个人走，无论未来多么变换末测，都是两个人共同应付，珍惜他就是珍惜自己的未来。普通女孩偶尔也会奢侈一下，只是让男朋友只记得温馨与可爱。
区别七
漂亮女孩的爱情充满浪漫，她的心中从未考虑什么是持久的爱情。
普通女孩的爱情平淡无奇，她的心中向往浪漫，却更懂得天长地久的珍贵。
区别八
漂亮女孩的丈夫都很出色，出色的丈夫身旁有很多比漂亮女孩更漂亮更年轻的女孩，于是，漂亮女孩开始了保卫爱情的战役，因为她们知道当初自己可以吸引丈夫，那么那些女孩同样也可以吸引他。只是在漂亮女孩的心中她开始问自己：“什么是爱情”。
普通女孩的丈夫有的很出色，虽然也有出色的女孩围绕在他的周围，但是普通女孩知道：在众多选择中最终选择了自己的丈夫不会背叛自己，因为他懂得爱情不是美丽的外表。普通女孩会对自己说：我知道了爱情的含义了。
区别九
漂亮女孩的家庭并不稳定，漂亮女孩的漂亮外表渐渐变老，她在心中有很多疑问：当初我在追求什么，我又获得了什么。
普通女孩的家庭很幸福，常常听见自己刚刚懂事的儿女趴在耳边说：妈妈，你是最漂亮的，于是普通女孩笑了。
区别十
时间过得真快，漂亮女孩与普通女孩没什么区别了，岁月无情的掩盖了漂亮女孩曾经漂亮的外表。或许漂亮女孩终于找到了答案：原来这就是爱情。
普通女孩依旧普通，普通的心在回忆过去，在儿孙满堂时告诉别人，我没有错过珍贵的爱情。
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说给女孩听…
如果你是漂亮女孩，
那么请原谅我要说漂亮不等于一切，
上天的安排只是一种随机的选择，
最终的幸福要自己用心选择，用心去走，
不要被自己的容颜所误。
生活需要美丽，美丽不是人生。
如果你是普通女孩，
那么请抬起头，
因为世界并不仅是漂亮女孩的，
懂得爱情的人是不以漂亮的外表而迁就自己的爱情的。
相信自己相信爱情，
用心珍惜，用心去爱，
生活原本精彩。
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说给男孩听…
如果你喜欢上了漂亮女孩，
那么通常你要进行坚苦卓绝的斗争，
无论成功与否，
你都要理直气壮的对自己说：重要的不是结果而是经历。
成功了要对继续保持稳定有长远的打算，
失败了也要明白考上清华的难度就不一样。
我只想告诉同胞：你可能是喜欢漂亮女孩的外表才准备进一步前进的。
她们一样需要真正的爱情，
欺骗别人的感情来达到炫耀的目的，
终有一天你会失去爱情的权利。
如果你喜欢上了普通女孩，
那么请用心去追求，用心去爱，
你会发现她们的心是那么可爱，
她们的感情是那么细腻……
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鼓足勇气告诉别人：“在爱情和美丽之间，我选择了爱情”。
只有时间能肯定爱的存在，相信用心的爱情是永恒的。
漂亮女孩周围总有很多不同凡响的男孩，至少感觉很优秀。既然有这么优越的条件，漂亮女孩自然提高了眼界，他们勾画出未来的男朋友或爱人的形象无疑是完美无缺的，她们不停的选择，她们需要浪漫的快乐，等待她们的白马王子的到来。
普通女孩象普通人一样生活，很多时候身旁的男孩把她当作朋友却又经常忽视她们是女孩的事实。她们也会想象自己的白马王子，不同的是他是一个普通的人。普通女孩可以容忍男朋友有一些缺点，她们只需要这一生一世不变的爱。
区别二
漂亮女孩经常不知道该选择哪一个，常常对着月亮在祈祷神来告诉她。
普通女孩相信自己的选择，也相信自己一生的选择。
区别三
漂亮女孩有太多的机会，她们喜欢捉弄机会，喜欢短暂的浪漫，来展示她们的与众不同。他们经常告诉追求者“你只是他们中的普通一个”。
普通女孩用心去珍惜每一次机会，她们用一颗心来维护这感情持久。她们会用眼神和目光告诉他：“这是我们一生的选择”。
区别四
漂亮女孩的追求者每天都在考虑两个问题：一个是“情敌又多了吗？”，一个是“我怎样才能胜出”。通常第一个回答是肯定的，而第二个很多是否定的。
普通女孩的追求者只会偶尔想一想：如果她答应我了，我们就去骑自行车环岛。
区别五
漂亮女孩的男朋友和她的追求者没有本质的界限，虽然拥着她满是自豪，但每天躺在床上又要打算明天战斗，因为竞争太激烈了，通常这种生活要保持到那披上婚纱那一刻。
普通女孩的男朋友虽然没有那种自豪，但是心中很幸福，他默默告诉自己：生活需要平淡，我寻找的是共风雨的爱人，而不是炫耀的商品。
区别六
漂亮女孩经常不经意的把男朋友当做奴隶，因为她们觉这是应该的。她们毫不客气的做麦当劳的常客，穿巴黎春天的衣服，那微微翘起的嘴角仿佛告诉男友：“你的女朋友——我是最漂亮的，享用这些是应该的”。
普通女孩体贴入微的关心男朋友，因为她们觉得这个世界无论多苦多累，都不是自己一个人走，无论未来多么变换末测，都是两个人共同应付，珍惜他就是珍惜自己的未来。普通女孩偶尔也会奢侈一下，只是让男朋友只记得温馨与可爱。
区别七
漂亮女孩的爱情充满浪漫，她的心中从未考虑什么是持久的爱情。
普通女孩的爱情平淡无奇，她的心中向往浪漫，却更懂得天长地久的珍贵。
区别八
漂亮女孩的丈夫都很出色，出色的丈夫身旁有很多比漂亮女孩更漂亮更年轻的女孩，于是，漂亮女孩开始了保卫爱情的战役，因为她们知道当初自己可以吸引丈夫，那么那些女孩同样也可以吸引他。只是在漂亮女孩的心中她开始问自己：“什么是爱情”。
普通女孩的丈夫有的很出色，虽然也有出色的女孩围绕在他的周围，但是普通女孩知道：在众多选择中最终选择了自己的丈夫不会背叛自己，因为他懂得爱情不是美丽的外表。普通女孩会对自己说：我知道了爱情的含义了。
区别九
漂亮女孩的家庭并不稳定，漂亮女孩的漂亮外表渐渐变老，她在心中有很多疑问：当初我在追求什么，我又获得了什么。
普通女孩的家庭很幸福，常常听见自己刚刚懂事的儿女趴在耳边说：妈妈，你是最漂亮的，于是普通女孩笑了。
区别十
时间过得真快，漂亮女孩与普通女孩没什么区别了，岁月无情的掩盖了漂亮女孩曾经漂亮的外表。或许漂亮女孩终于找到了答案：原来这就是爱情。
普通女孩依旧普通，普通的心在回忆过去，在儿孙满堂时告诉别人，我没有错过珍贵的爱情。
*
说给女孩听…
如果你是漂亮女孩，
那么请原谅我要说漂亮不等于一切，
上天的安排只是一种随机的选择，
最终的幸福要自己用心选择，用心去走，
不要被自己的容颜所误。
生活需要美丽，美丽不是人生。
如果你是普通女孩，
那么请抬起头，
因为世界并不仅是漂亮女孩的，
懂得爱情的人是不以漂亮的外表而迁就自己的爱情的。
相信自己相信爱情，
用心珍惜，用心去爱，
生活原本精彩。
*
说给男孩听…
如果你喜欢上了漂亮女孩，
那么通常你要进行坚苦卓绝的斗争，
无论成功与否，
你都要理直气壮的对自己说：重要的不是结果而是经历。
成功了要对继续保持稳定有长远的打算，
失败了也要明白考上清华的难度就不一样。
我只想告诉同胞：你可能是喜欢漂亮女孩的外表才准备进一步前进的。
她们一样需要真正的爱情，
欺骗别人的感情来达到炫耀的目的，
终有一天你会失去爱情的权利。
如果你喜欢上了普通女孩，
那么请用心去追求，用心去爱，
你会发现她们的心是那么可爱，
她们的感情是那么细腻……
*
鼓足勇气告诉别人：“在爱情和美丽之间，我选择了爱情”。
只有时间能肯定爱的存在，相信用心的爱情是永恒的。
古巨基 - 公主病了
公主 請開口吩咐 你看 我多可惡
做完奴隸又扮演看護
做跟班保鑣抑或鐘點其實亦不在乎
若我可不工作 若你肯笑著捱苦
公主 須要傳奇 王子 卻也 最講骨氣
若情人服役後都走避
若恩寵不分真偽只想炫耀自己
其實你 憑著戀愛去自愛
其實有誰愛得起
好男人已死光了 剩下甚麼都嘲笑
誰欠了你 還債的你又嫌少
小王子你不懂要 獨自在溫室嬌俏
任你的歲月燃燒 小心生病了
公主 不會上路 還好 有我 領旨即到
但奴才又未值得傾慕
摘花的亦非應份惜花如何是好
閒坐一世 誰又敢對你負責
唯獨我仍當寶
好男人已死光了 剩下甚麼都嘲笑
誰欠了你 還債的你又嫌少
小王子你不懂要 獨自在溫室嬌俏
任你的歲月燃燒 始終長大不了
當男子漢跑光了 我愛你可不可笑
但我格格 誰替你繼續抬轎
當人生太艱苦了
你有撒嬌的需要
唯有我肯被纏繞
即使寵壞都要
否則可找誰照料
因彼此都病了
古巨基 - 时代
古巨基 - 时代
共度著患难叫肩膊剧痛
而无人成为负担心更痛
有人为怕告别春风 放弃过冬
每晚新闻几百吨
谁将好景催促成恶梦
彷佛有没有病痛 亦有病容
为何被逼必须开心 逼得更悲
为何还未呼吸你便喘了气
风雨急 岁月赶 每滴光阴一额汗
谁竟懒得抹干 污迹应洗烫未洗烫
入梦时绵羊全变狼
不再讲 人须经过什么 会更加强壮
一刻不开朗便沮丧 为失望而失望
这麽紧张的心 怎能放
在乐活道上那一对伴侣
如何疲劳仍沉溺工作里
有人害怕再没工作 无法进睡
哪个胆敢不进取
谁因安居不安而顾虑
走得太慢怕被这潮流冲去
何妨用阴影压下来 心晴朗
时代令天空塌下来 更会珍惜阳光
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Happy Mooncake Festival~!!!
My dear,
Everyday spending almost 24hours with you is precious and memorable enough, and certainly enjoyable. But today is kind of special. At least to me. Guess for you as well. Because for the past 20 years, I've been spending Mooncake Festival with my family. And certainly last year I haven't get to know you well, so I spent it alone. But this year is different. And hopefully for the many years to come. =) Nothing special actually. We had our daily routine of studying together in school. Spent most of the time walking. Lunch as usual cheap but not too bad.
Its the part where we ate mooncake and drink green tea at your house. And also dinner at a further place from the usual ones where we ate better and healthier food. That is what I call CONTENTMENT. Cheap but unmeasureably nice, especially together with you. Simple way of celebrating Mooncake Festival and yet perfect. And since you're one part of my family, I am still celebrating with my family. *BIG smiles*
Thank you dear. =)
Everyday spending almost 24hours with you is precious and memorable enough, and certainly enjoyable. But today is kind of special. At least to me. Guess for you as well. Because for the past 20 years, I've been spending Mooncake Festival with my family. And certainly last year I haven't get to know you well, so I spent it alone. But this year is different. And hopefully for the many years to come. =) Nothing special actually. We had our daily routine of studying together in school. Spent most of the time walking. Lunch as usual cheap but not too bad.
Its the part where we ate mooncake and drink green tea at your house. And also dinner at a further place from the usual ones where we ate better and healthier food. That is what I call CONTENTMENT. Cheap but unmeasureably nice, especially together with you. Simple way of celebrating Mooncake Festival and yet perfect. And since you're one part of my family, I am still celebrating with my family. *BIG smiles*
Thank you dear. =)
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Goats in my room
“咩咩。。咩咩。。”
That is what I always hear in my room. And that is my roommate's new handphone's SMS tone. Lols. Which freaked myself out the 1st time after she bought her handphone. I remembered asking myself how can there be goats outside of my hostel as it is surrounded by housing area. Plus I was stuffing my ears with my headphones. And the thing is, whenever I remove my headphones wondering what's the source of the sound, the sound's not there anymore. Freaky~ And yet I didn't ask her about it la. Not until the next morning when we woke up together and I heard the sound again, only I realised its from her handphone. Lols. Stupid me enough to not clarify my doubts the night before.
Oh my. Its just so hot tonight. Again. Yesterday night too. How I just hope for a heavy rainstorm now to lower down the temperature. Sigh. Today too is the day of the starting of my 2-weeks study break. Still procrastinating. Not good though. Have to revise everything at least twice. Hope I'm given more time. Yikes!
That is what I always hear in my room. And that is my roommate's new handphone's SMS tone. Lols. Which freaked myself out the 1st time after she bought her handphone. I remembered asking myself how can there be goats outside of my hostel as it is surrounded by housing area. Plus I was stuffing my ears with my headphones. And the thing is, whenever I remove my headphones wondering what's the source of the sound, the sound's not there anymore. Freaky~ And yet I didn't ask her about it la. Not until the next morning when we woke up together and I heard the sound again, only I realised its from her handphone. Lols. Stupid me enough to not clarify my doubts the night before.
Oh my. Its just so hot tonight. Again. Yesterday night too. How I just hope for a heavy rainstorm now to lower down the temperature. Sigh. Today too is the day of the starting of my 2-weeks study break. Still procrastinating. Not good though. Have to revise everything at least twice. Hope I'm given more time. Yikes!
Trust. Faith.
Trust is the basis of a relationship, no matter between family or friends, and especially between a pair of couples or between husband and wife. No lies or secrets should be hidden from in order to maintain a good relationship. Without trust, there will be no more relationship.
Everyone is sure to have their own past, regardless of having a good or bad past. No one is ever 100% perfect. Even though it might affect the present or the future, but one should not hold on to the past and instead should look forward to the future. The past of a person does not mean the person would repeat his/her mistakes nor will it affect his/her ways of judging a situation. Its the heart that is the most important. Nothing beats it. The past just does not judge one's heart.
So..even though it may be difficult, guess I just have to put in more trust into him. He's much too important for me to let go just because of my lack of trust in him. Until the day he's not worth for me to trust him anymore. I just can't take it if anyone betrays me. That will just make me lose faith in everyone, no longer trusting anyone anymore.
Everyone is sure to have their own past, regardless of having a good or bad past. No one is ever 100% perfect. Even though it might affect the present or the future, but one should not hold on to the past and instead should look forward to the future. The past of a person does not mean the person would repeat his/her mistakes nor will it affect his/her ways of judging a situation. Its the heart that is the most important. Nothing beats it. The past just does not judge one's heart.
So..even though it may be difficult, guess I just have to put in more trust into him. He's much too important for me to let go just because of my lack of trust in him. Until the day he's not worth for me to trust him anymore. I just can't take it if anyone betrays me. That will just make me lose faith in everyone, no longer trusting anyone anymore.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
The more reason for me to love you
Thanks to the Chinese tea I drank just now at church fellowship, now I'm having complete insomnia. @_@ Staring wide-eyes at the laptop screen. Was studying on Behavioral Science notes which will be on the test on Mon, but somehow got bored. Urgh! Screw Dr. Nelson! Postponing exam date + making my life miserable enough even with all those medical stuffs that I've to stuff myself completely for the next 2weeks till finals. Hope my brain cells are left enough for the rest of my life after I've done my 2nd year 1st semester finals.
At church just now, realised that although I love listening to some of the pop musics, apparently I'm not as great as those who most probably treat the karaokes as their 2nd home. Lols. And certainly knowing the songs is one thing, but remembering the lyrics is just more like killing my brain cells the more. *blerkz* And sure hope they provided English songs instead of all Chinese songs, then probably I am still able to contribute a bit to my group. Urgh! One more thing, Michael sure can remember lyrics better, unlike me, and his singing really melts my heart everytime I listened to it. Not mention even by his voice alone. Hehe. *blush* Loving him the more!
I really appreciate everything he did for me. I may be quite unaware sometimes, but not blind and not dumb. Even though I said before that I prefer life being single, but guess I change my mind now since I found my Mr. Right. *grins* At least now I found another great reason to continue my life regardless of what. Best thing is, now my parents know about him and sometimes mum asks about him. Lols. Mum even called me once just to ask what to buy for him. That is quite some progress. Haha. Guess my parents somehow know a bit what's actually happening although I didn't really tell them about our relationship. *winks* So now he's considered part of family to me. =)
At church just now, realised that although I love listening to some of the pop musics, apparently I'm not as great as those who most probably treat the karaokes as their 2nd home. Lols. And certainly knowing the songs is one thing, but remembering the lyrics is just more like killing my brain cells the more. *blerkz* And sure hope they provided English songs instead of all Chinese songs, then probably I am still able to contribute a bit to my group. Urgh! One more thing, Michael sure can remember lyrics better, unlike me, and his singing really melts my heart everytime I listened to it. Not mention even by his voice alone. Hehe. *blush* Loving him the more!
I really appreciate everything he did for me. I may be quite unaware sometimes, but not blind and not dumb. Even though I said before that I prefer life being single, but guess I change my mind now since I found my Mr. Right. *grins* At least now I found another great reason to continue my life regardless of what. Best thing is, now my parents know about him and sometimes mum asks about him. Lols. Mum even called me once just to ask what to buy for him. That is quite some progress. Haha. Guess my parents somehow know a bit what's actually happening although I didn't really tell them about our relationship. *winks* So now he's considered part of family to me. =)
My priority in my life:
1. Family (which includes Michael ^^)
2. Health
3. Studies
4. Future career
5.Money (or maybe not?)
God will always top all of them in this list.
Without God's blessings, all of these wouldn't appear in my life. =)
Saturday, September 11, 2010
I dream.
Everytime I see people playing with firecrackers or sparklers (仙女棒）, I kind of envy these people. Why? Coz the only thing I played with when I was a kid is the sparkler, which is when I only have a hint of memory about it. Firecrackers? Don't think so. My parents just never buy those for us when we were kids.
All I wish is just buy the sparklers and play on a beachside...swinging it around and around like a little girl while admiring the fire burning with all those nice designs! ^^
David Archuleta - Something 'Bout Love
Every night it’s all the same
You’re frozen by the phone, you wait
Something’s changed
You blame yourself every day, you’d do it again
Every night…
There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Woah, oh, oh, oh
It sets you free
There’s something ’bout love that tears you up
Woah, oh, oh, oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like rain
It’ll bring you to your knees
Something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Woah, oh, oh, oh
But don’t give up
There’s something ’bout love
When you were young
Scared in the night
Waiting for love to come along
And make it right
Your day will come
The past is gone
So take your time
Live and let live
There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Woah, oh, oh, oh
It sets you free
There’s something ’bout love that tears you up
Woah, oh, oh, oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like rain
It’ll bring you to your knees
Something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Woah, oh, oh, oh
But don’t give up
There’s something ’bout love
Don’t fight
Don’t hide those stars in your eyes
Let ‘em shine tonight
Let ‘em shine tonight
Hang on
Hang in for the ride of your life
It’s gonna be alright
Hold on tight
There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Woah, oh, oh, oh
There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Woah, oh, oh, oh
It sets you free
There’s something ’bout love that tears you up
Woah, oh, oh, oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like rain
It’ll bring you to your knees
There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Woah, oh, oh, oh
But don’t give up
There’s something ’bout love
Woah, oh, oh, oh
It sets you free
There’s somethin’ ’bout love that tears you up
Woah, oh, oh, oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like rain
It’ll bring you to your knees
There’s somethin’ ’bout love
Saturday, September 04, 2010
One week Raya holiday
One week. Or I should say for 9 days I wouldn't be able to see him. *sobz* I just feel so uneasy without him around. Or maybe its a habit with him around for almost 24hours everyday. Even Jee Wei sensed something is just not right without him beside me at all times. Anyway, just sent him off at the KTM station this morning while I'll be going back to Ipoh tomorrow morning together with sis. Will be coming back 4days later though. Just can't study when I'm home. Lols. The temptation of just relaxing with food around at home is so so so irresistable. Hehe. Oh, just now got an international call from across the ocean from Brunei =) Was just sooo happy to just hear his voice~!! Lovely ^^And the best thing is, its actually his parents who allow and teach him to use the international call thingy using the house phone! Hehehehe.
Okle, finish packing already. Already looking forward to seeing him next week. =)
Okle, finish packing already. Already looking forward to seeing him next week. =)
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