Oh man...i've been having my driving lessons for the past few days....but gonna have my driving test onli after CNY...tat's too bad =( But driving's real SYOK le....haha=P Unfortunately...driving in this kind of weather really can result in me getting sunburns!!! Oh GOSH!!!! After yrs of returning my skin to its original fairness...now i'm getting darker AGAIN!!! *sobz* Happy though to noe tat my driving's getting better & better...hehe=P Wat a relief...Its a change compared to getting darker....wakeke ;]
Ok...gotta continue my Dae Jang Geum drama alreadi...been over it for the past few days....gonna finish my essay too...probably goin back to skul to look for my PK Hem who's retiring on tis Fri & oso my F4's English teacher for her to check my essay....Tata!!
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Friday, January 20, 2006
2nd driving lesson
Finally...after weeks of waiting...last night my driving instructor called me up & told me tat he's teaching me tis morning..when i heard it..i was like on the top of the world..hehe=P Anyway...tis morning really came...at 1st when the instructor reached my house..i was shocked to see him getting down from the driver seat & got into the passenger seat coz i never expected that...but driving on the road is....oh man..wat can i say...SYOK le!!! Hehe =D But it was torture after the lesson...coz both legs are like goin to break...yet i was really happy today=D
Today after my driving lesson...my instructor told me that next lesson will probably be on Sat...now very much looking forward to it...^-^
Today after my driving lesson...my instructor told me that next lesson will probably be on Sat...now very much looking forward to it...^-^
Thursday, January 19, 2006
Confused + Lost
Sigh...its alreadi months after my SPM...yet i still cant decide myself where i wanna continue my studies in the future...1 is either i study in F6 here back in M'sia or 2 i go to overseas (preferably Aussie) to study in colleges...wat am i to do??? =/ If i'm to study in F6...its a good way to stabilize my foundation...but i really would like to join my best fren at Aussie...Sigh...can anyone pls tell me whether i should choose to have a better foundation or follow my desire to jz to join my fren coz i cant bear to part with her?
Last night...my best fren told me tat she'll be leaving for Aussie few days after her bday party...but i think i wont be able to send her off after i've promised her tat i will do tat...1 is tat i dun think i can coz probably i'll be still at Cherating..& secondly i hate to say goodbye to her...especially best frens like us will sure to part with tears...*sobz*...i'll really will miss u lots Ern...hope u'll never forget our frenship...
~GOD BLESS~
Last night...my best fren told me tat she'll be leaving for Aussie few days after her bday party...but i think i wont be able to send her off after i've promised her tat i will do tat...1 is tat i dun think i can coz probably i'll be still at Cherating..& secondly i hate to say goodbye to her...especially best frens like us will sure to part with tears...*sobz*...i'll really will miss u lots Ern...hope u'll never forget our frenship...
~GOD BLESS~
Monday, January 16, 2006
Rest in peace grandpa
Today was a sad day for my family & my relatives on my mother's side. Today my grandpa's funeral was held. On Thursday morning 6.30am, he passed away due to old age & also due to dehydration as he hadn't been drinking for that whole day before. My grandpa is 96yrs old already. He actually would have feel honoured to have such a long life. I actually had a quite mere memory about my grandpa coz he had lose his eyesight due to disease few years ago when i was at young age. He is also quite a bad temper person. I seldom go to my uncle's house so i actually seldom visit my grandpa expect for special occasions. To remember the past, i actually regretted for not being with my grandpa more often. But i hope he'll understand & forgive me for it. I prayed together with my buddhist relatives for 3 nights. Even though it was a sin as a Christian to pray other religions...but i was doin it as a sign of 孝順 to my grandpa.
It was really a relief to see my grandpa dying so peacefully when we saw him for the last time before the coffin was being carried into the car. & it was also happy enough to see that every relative who're in overseas like Canada, Hong Kong & Singapore purposely flew back jz to send my grandpa on his funeral. Except for my cuz sis who's in California who can't buy any plane tickets as it has finished selling out. She was sad but nothing can be done. But i noe..my grandpa will understand her situation & forgive her.
I really missed my grandpa & my grandma who had passed away 2yrs ago. I hope they'll both meet each other in heaven & live happily ever after.
May they rest in peace.
It was really a relief to see my grandpa dying so peacefully when we saw him for the last time before the coffin was being carried into the car. & it was also happy enough to see that every relative who're in overseas like Canada, Hong Kong & Singapore purposely flew back jz to send my grandpa on his funeral. Except for my cuz sis who's in California who can't buy any plane tickets as it has finished selling out. She was sad but nothing can be done. But i noe..my grandpa will understand her situation & forgive her.
I really missed my grandpa & my grandma who had passed away 2yrs ago. I hope they'll both meet each other in heaven & live happily ever after.
May they rest in peace.
Monday, January 09, 2006
Confused
Sigh...wat am i gonna do? Confusion aroused me lately...My feelings for him grew stronger day by day since we alwiz contacted each other...yet i cant break my promise & oso i dun wanna to hav any relationships tat can cause me to affect my studies...yet...haiz =/
He's not forcing me to make any decisions bout our relationship...but i really cant bear to leave him to wait for me to change my mind...he's TOO good to me...plus with my feelings for him...
I'm REALLY confused with my own feelings...
He's not forcing me to make any decisions bout our relationship...but i really cant bear to leave him to wait for me to change my mind...he's TOO good to me...plus with my feelings for him...
I'm REALLY confused with my own feelings...
Sunday, January 08, 2006
Frustration~~
Y can't he jz understand? Y does tat guy keep avoiding my questions even though he's the one who started it? Even asked me to forget bout wat he had said? FORGET IT!!! I'm not tat kind of person who can easily put things down...so i'm gonna ask u till i get the truth out of u!!!
Ok...i noe u said u liked me coz i'm cute..but does tat really makes sense? Hey guys...y all guys are the same? Does being cute makes the 1st choice for u guys?Really guys...jz get over it...cute is not the main point of liking a gal le...Guys...really cant understand these human beings...really different from gals =/ Plus...i'm not really tat cute ok? & oso cute==>ugly but adorable le...tat's the true meaning of it...ARGH!!
I cant get over my frustration!!! I'm DOOMED...by guys....sigh....within months i get two guys over me....torture...!!
Ok...i noe u said u liked me coz i'm cute..but does tat really makes sense? Hey guys...y all guys are the same? Does being cute makes the 1st choice for u guys?Really guys...jz get over it...cute is not the main point of liking a gal le...Guys...really cant understand these human beings...really different from gals =/ Plus...i'm not really tat cute ok? & oso cute==>ugly but adorable le...tat's the true meaning of it...ARGH!!
I cant get over my frustration!!! I'm DOOMED...by guys....sigh....within months i get two guys over me....torture...!!
Love Life
As i've mentioned in my previous posts...i mentioned bout a guy who will not give up in chasing me...well...i've rejected him again few days ago..told him straight actually that i cant accept due to the time i need to spend on my studies & oso coz of the promise i've given to myself bout not getting into a relationship during these periods..Tot he'll really give up but proves that i'm wrong -.-"
Few days ago too...another shocking news nearly made me faint..haiz..!! =/ One of my tuition guy fren confessed his feelings for me *fainting* Really cant believe it le...after so many yrs tuitioning together...i've never thought tat something like tat would happen...but guess i jz cant hide from the fact..DAMN IT!! But i jz pretend to be innocent & ask him to gv me a reasonable reason why is he interested in me. Yet he's the one trying to avoid tis matter now...so itz not solved yet until now...he even asked me to forget whatever he has said before...HMPH!! As if i can forget such things SOoo quickly..he really underestimated me le...
Yesterday...discussed with 耀明(Poi Lam High guy) bout our relationship alreadi...concluded that we jz are "neither nomal frens nor couples" relationship...haha..weird huh? But the fact is that i really wanted to accept him in the 1st place cuz after so long my feelings for him really grew stronger...sigh..it actually helps me allot in forgetting Big D...yet i cant accept him due to the importance of my studies...feelings really cant match with the importance of my STPM results...
Today...went out with 耀明 when i went back to AMCCO...it was actually quite a bad luck today cuz early in the morning there's a heavy downpour..we actually planned to go to Parade as he still owes me a meal ever since 2yrs ago...but since its a heavy rain...we hav no choice but cancelled our outing...When its bout 11sth though...sun started to come out & so he came to my school to get me for a drink at the restaurants nearby...Oh man..!! I really love riding a motor le...he fetched me using a motor hehe...but i really not used to hold people on a motor...so i jz hang on to the handle behind the passenger seat=P But it was real nice feeling=D We chatted in the restaurant for bout an hour or more then we head back to skul again while he went off to meet his fren which he's supposed to meet hours ago....hehe=P Happy to noe someone sacrificed & cared so much for me=D
Okla..need to get off here alreadi...i'm actually watching Initial D...watching stages after stages...but since SOMEONE complains tat i din blog much so i jz jot something down...hehe...Adios then!!
~NVR LOSE FAITH TO GOD~
Few days ago too...another shocking news nearly made me faint..haiz..!! =/ One of my tuition guy fren confessed his feelings for me *fainting* Really cant believe it le...after so many yrs tuitioning together...i've never thought tat something like tat would happen...but guess i jz cant hide from the fact..DAMN IT!! But i jz pretend to be innocent & ask him to gv me a reasonable reason why is he interested in me. Yet he's the one trying to avoid tis matter now...so itz not solved yet until now...he even asked me to forget whatever he has said before...HMPH!! As if i can forget such things SOoo quickly..he really underestimated me le...
Yesterday...discussed with 耀明(Poi Lam High guy) bout our relationship alreadi...concluded that we jz are "neither nomal frens nor couples" relationship...haha..weird huh? But the fact is that i really wanted to accept him in the 1st place cuz after so long my feelings for him really grew stronger...sigh..it actually helps me allot in forgetting Big D...yet i cant accept him due to the importance of my studies...feelings really cant match with the importance of my STPM results...
Today...went out with 耀明 when i went back to AMCCO...it was actually quite a bad luck today cuz early in the morning there's a heavy downpour..we actually planned to go to Parade as he still owes me a meal ever since 2yrs ago...but since its a heavy rain...we hav no choice but cancelled our outing...When its bout 11sth though...sun started to come out & so he came to my school to get me for a drink at the restaurants nearby...Oh man..!! I really love riding a motor le...he fetched me using a motor hehe...but i really not used to hold people on a motor...so i jz hang on to the handle behind the passenger seat=P But it was real nice feeling=D We chatted in the restaurant for bout an hour or more then we head back to skul again while he went off to meet his fren which he's supposed to meet hours ago....hehe=P Happy to noe someone sacrificed & cared so much for me=D
Okla..need to get off here alreadi...i'm actually watching Initial D...watching stages after stages...but since SOMEONE complains tat i din blog much so i jz jot something down...hehe...Adios then!!
~NVR LOSE FAITH TO GOD~
Friday, January 06, 2006
Shopping for clothes
Oh man...i really love the times when its near Chinese New Year..y? Coz i can shop for new clothes..hehe=) Went to a boutique near Alfa Omega today with my mum...main mission is to buy new clothes for me..keke...and me & mum need to accomplised it=P
At the boutique...my mum asked the salesgirl to get clothes which are suitable for me...then i grabbed some clothes she got for me & i went straight into the changing room...While changing..the salesgirl keep on stuffing clothes into the changing room for me until the stack of clothes grew higher & higher =O
It was like a fashion show for me the whole time..keke...change into one outfit & came out to show my mum to get her opinion then went back in again for another one...After 45mins of "fashion show"..I finally chosen a pink dress, a pink blouse, another black blouse, a 3-quarter trousers, a mini skirt(ahem...hehe=P) & a long trousers...not bad huh? Guess how much tis all costs? $275...shocking huh? But wat cn u expect more from a boutique? Plus the prices sure are allot cheaper than Parade's & Jusco's le...so cnt complain much=P
MISSION ACCOMPLISHED ; ]
At the boutique...my mum asked the salesgirl to get clothes which are suitable for me...then i grabbed some clothes she got for me & i went straight into the changing room...While changing..the salesgirl keep on stuffing clothes into the changing room for me until the stack of clothes grew higher & higher =O
It was like a fashion show for me the whole time..keke...change into one outfit & came out to show my mum to get her opinion then went back in again for another one...After 45mins of "fashion show"..I finally chosen a pink dress, a pink blouse, another black blouse, a 3-quarter trousers, a mini skirt(ahem...hehe=P) & a long trousers...not bad huh? Guess how much tis all costs? $275...shocking huh? But wat cn u expect more from a boutique? Plus the prices sure are allot cheaper than Parade's & Jusco's le...so cnt complain much=P
MISSION ACCOMPLISHED ; ]
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
2day's 3rd of January...
Oh man...now i'm bored over the holidays...BORED! BORED! BORED!!! Tat's onli 1 word to describe it..BORING holidays!! Really dunno how am i gonna stand it for the next 2months or more X(
Luckily i'm gonna start my piano class again tis coming Fri after months & months of not touching the piano due to torturing SPM...learning driving too...i noe its late but it really matters to tat i'm born in December =.=" But anyway...happy enough when i FINALLY can drive!! YAHOO!!! But 1st lesson's enough to embarass me di...hehe...knocked down a pole when i reversed too fast while learning the 3 penjuru thing...keke=P How lucky tat there's no one who i noe at the place i was learning driving...else it'll be spread all over the place...then my image'll be RUINED!!! NO WAY i'm gonna let tat happen!!
Oh man....how i wish the driving instructor will fix the time faster...else i'll be dead of boredom at home...alwiz in front the com or the TV or jz lie on my comfy bed brooding over books X( Guess i better get over my post competition blues...else i wont be able to face my erhu for a LOOonng time...haha...now it's even nauseous to see it=P Really can't face it alreadi...but i've to face it again sometime to cure my boredom...& also to show those lousy judges how wrong they are to kick me out of the preliminary round..i'm gonna KICK THEIR ASSES!!! I DON'T CARE!!! No way i'm gonna lose to a bunch of lousy erhu players again!!!
Anyway...i've succeeded in expressing my frus in tis blog...thx to it else i'll end up hitting my pillow=P Ok then..sick of facing the com alreadi...need to get off9 now...Adios everyone!!
~NVR LOSE FAITH TO GOD~
Luckily i'm gonna start my piano class again tis coming Fri after months & months of not touching the piano due to torturing SPM...learning driving too...i noe its late but it really matters to tat i'm born in December =.=" But anyway...happy enough when i FINALLY can drive!! YAHOO!!! But 1st lesson's enough to embarass me di...hehe...knocked down a pole when i reversed too fast while learning the 3 penjuru thing...keke=P How lucky tat there's no one who i noe at the place i was learning driving...else it'll be spread all over the place...then my image'll be RUINED!!! NO WAY i'm gonna let tat happen!!
Oh man....how i wish the driving instructor will fix the time faster...else i'll be dead of boredom at home...alwiz in front the com or the TV or jz lie on my comfy bed brooding over books X( Guess i better get over my post competition blues...else i wont be able to face my erhu for a LOOonng time...haha...now it's even nauseous to see it=P Really can't face it alreadi...but i've to face it again sometime to cure my boredom...& also to show those lousy judges how wrong they are to kick me out of the preliminary round..i'm gonna KICK THEIR ASSES!!! I DON'T CARE!!! No way i'm gonna lose to a bunch of lousy erhu players again!!!
Anyway...i've succeeded in expressing my frus in tis blog...thx to it else i'll end up hitting my pillow=P Ok then..sick of facing the com alreadi...need to get off9 now...Adios everyone!!
~NVR LOSE FAITH TO GOD~
痛苦...
依稀的依稀......如此的令人悵網...
迷惘的就像蜘蛛絲肆無忌憚的網著一個帶著面具的骷驢頭.......面無血色的半吊著...
就像半死去的心....略涼的一大半......
就是硬是要說著有那麼那麼的傷感
有那麼那麼的激動 .... 卻要硬是假裝的不在意 好像真的是那躲浮雲...漸漸逝去
然後...漸漸隱沒在天際線...放肆在漫天的彩霞裡........
浮雲卻還是浮雲
任你
抓也抓不勞...它還是移動著----通往著你為知的未來...
就當做沒發生嗎?
還是
假裝不再意的留下最後的眼神呢?
我究竟還是離開了
徒留那一眼的悵網 留在六月份的天空
我終是知道
那苦
是要嚐的
然而
那又如何呢?
是我自己選擇的
痛
就痛到底吧..........
六月份的天空
我看你苦
到也不苦
就是看我怎麼看你........
迷惘的就像蜘蛛絲肆無忌憚的網著一個帶著面具的骷驢頭.......面無血色的半吊著...
就像半死去的心....略涼的一大半......
就是硬是要說著有那麼那麼的傷感
有那麼那麼的激動 .... 卻要硬是假裝的不在意 好像真的是那躲浮雲...漸漸逝去
然後...漸漸隱沒在天際線...放肆在漫天的彩霞裡........
浮雲卻還是浮雲
任你
抓也抓不勞...它還是移動著----通往著你為知的未來...
就當做沒發生嗎?
還是
假裝不再意的留下最後的眼神呢?
我究竟還是離開了
徒留那一眼的悵網 留在六月份的天空
我終是知道
那苦
是要嚐的
然而
那又如何呢?
是我自己選擇的
痛
就痛到底吧..........
六月份的天空
我看你苦
到也不苦
就是看我怎麼看你........
我的"老公"
我的"老公"嘛..姓二名胡 =D
小時候本來与"他"根本沒接觸過..只是因我姐是彈琵琶的而只認識琵琶..卻一直以來只把琵琶當成朋友..還好從未開始過一段難舍難分的感情..不然後果不堪..呵呵=P
自從進了華樂團..就開始認識了二胡..本來大家常常不理睬對方、什麼事都大吵大鬧的..可是漸漸的..我們倆之間的感情已演變至不能沒有了對方的地步=P 甚至偽了比賽而与"他"糾纏了几個月..實在可悲啊!! *裝死*
現在比賽完了..人性大多數都是貪新厭舊的..所以由于之前糾纏太多..搞得我已對他離開十尺遠了=P 我也不想的耶..可是兩夫妻每時每秒都見面..任何人不悶死才怪耶!
唉..世事無常啊!! 看來遲些我需收拾心情再面對他了..夫妻一場嘛..不好偽了比賽而鬧得天翻地覆吧? 嘻嘻=P 不然我這"老公"就會告吹的咯..
小時候本來与"他"根本沒接觸過..只是因我姐是彈琵琶的而只認識琵琶..卻一直以來只把琵琶當成朋友..還好從未開始過一段難舍難分的感情..不然後果不堪..呵呵=P
自從進了華樂團..就開始認識了二胡..本來大家常常不理睬對方、什麼事都大吵大鬧的..可是漸漸的..我們倆之間的感情已演變至不能沒有了對方的地步=P 甚至偽了比賽而与"他"糾纏了几個月..實在可悲啊!! *裝死*
現在比賽完了..人性大多數都是貪新厭舊的..所以由于之前糾纏太多..搞得我已對他離開十尺遠了=P 我也不想的耶..可是兩夫妻每時每秒都見面..任何人不悶死才怪耶!
唉..世事無常啊!! 看來遲些我需收拾心情再面對他了..夫妻一場嘛..不好偽了比賽而鬧得天翻地覆吧? 嘻嘻=P 不然我這"老公"就會告吹的咯..
Monday, January 02, 2006
生命中的每個人。。。
如果你很愛很愛一個人，
可是難免有時候會受你所愛的人的氣，
你可能會很氣很氣，
但是不論如何氣，
不要去爭論嬴 、爭面子，
要記得，不論如何，
自己都不要做一個後悔的人，
寧可讓一步，
只因你內心深處明白，
他是一個值得你愛的人。
一路上，我遇到很多人。
他們曾帶給我歡樂、哀愁和痛苦；
讓我喜歡他們、討厭他們，
甚至怨恨他們。
走了一段路后，當我回頭看看他們時，
卻發現他們不知何時，早已失去蹤影。
這時，心裡很想對他們說：
謝謝你們曾陪我走過一段路。因為你們，才有現在的我。
一個噴嚏，不需要噴得好遠，也可以傳播惡毒細菌；
一份工作，不需要薪金優厚，也可以做到沒命；
一個男人，不需要好帥，也有權利嚐不同枕遍人；
一個女人，不需要天使樣貌魔鬼身材，也可以淫亂不堪；
一個吻，不需要糾纏交葛輕輕柔柔的，也可以很深情；
一份開心，不需要長篇大論短短一句，也可以很溫暖；
一個知己，不需要天天見面心深聯繫，也可以很長久；
一對夫妻，不需要每天浪漫手牽手，也可以感受到愛。
這個地球不會因你失去了一份工、失去了一單大生意、失去了貴重錢財、失去了自己愛的人、失去了愛自己的人、失去了一段感情、失去了一些未開始的感情、失去了一絲盼望.........而停留。
世事無常、順逆難料，唯獨是生命物價...
可是難免有時候會受你所愛的人的氣，
你可能會很氣很氣，
但是不論如何氣，
不要去爭論嬴 、爭面子，
要記得，不論如何，
自己都不要做一個後悔的人，
寧可讓一步，
只因你內心深處明白，
他是一個值得你愛的人。
一路上，我遇到很多人。
他們曾帶給我歡樂、哀愁和痛苦；
讓我喜歡他們、討厭他們，
甚至怨恨他們。
走了一段路后，當我回頭看看他們時，
卻發現他們不知何時，早已失去蹤影。
這時，心裡很想對他們說：
謝謝你們曾陪我走過一段路。因為你們，才有現在的我。
一個噴嚏，不需要噴得好遠，也可以傳播惡毒細菌；
一份工作，不需要薪金優厚，也可以做到沒命；
一個男人，不需要好帥，也有權利嚐不同枕遍人；
一個女人，不需要天使樣貌魔鬼身材，也可以淫亂不堪；
一個吻，不需要糾纏交葛輕輕柔柔的，也可以很深情；
一份開心，不需要長篇大論短短一句，也可以很溫暖；
一個知己，不需要天天見面心深聯繫，也可以很長久；
一對夫妻，不需要每天浪漫手牽手，也可以感受到愛。
這個地球不會因你失去了一份工、失去了一單大生意、失去了貴重錢財、失去了自己愛的人、失去了愛自己的人、失去了一段感情、失去了一些未開始的感情、失去了一絲盼望.........而停留。
世事無常、順逆難料，唯獨是生命物價...
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